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Ginger Tea and Gemini: Lessons in Height, Math, and Machine Bugs


The ginger tea was used by my father, therefore, I decided to make it for myself after students left. I used less than half a glass of water and half a teaspoonful of tea leaves, half a teaspoonful of ginger with about two and half teaspoonfuls of sugar which I increased to three and a half after adding about three fourths of a glass of milk. My motivation to let the tea brew qualitatively depends on whether it’s just for myself or it’s a community project. It’s a result of prolonged condemnation of living comfortably no matter how much you deserve it. Don’t be selfish. No matter how unselfish you’re you’re always selfish. No matter how much you speak you speak too much. No matter how much you eat you eat too much. Then, you learn more golden than golden principles. You may call them platinum or diamond or by any other name. There are a plethora of quotations on the importance of sacrifice, Yajna and community living to support it. Others before yourself even if they don’t reciprocate or hold similarly high standards in their behaviour.

देखिये, 13 साल की उम्र में ऊँचाई बढ़ना एक सामान्य प्रक्रिया है। आनुवंशिकता (Genetics) तो एक मुख्य कारण है, लेकिन कुछ चीज़ों पर ध्यान देकर हम इसमें मदद कर सकते हैं। जैसे:
* संतुलित आहार: सही पोषण, खासकर कैल्शियम और प्रोटीन, हड्डियों के विकास के लिए बहुत ज़रूरी है।
* नियमित व्यायाम: स्ट्रेचिंग, कूदना और दौड़ने जैसे व्यायाम ऊँचाई बढ़ाने में सहायक हो सकते हैं।
* पर्याप्त नींद: ग्रोथ हार्मोन नींद के दौरान ही सबसे ज्यादा स्रावित होता है।
That’s a snippet of a brief Live session with Gemini in which my student was trying to speak with Gemini AI, in Hindi. The eloquent and efficient communication seemed as if it was a real person well-versed in Hindi though connectivity was problematic. We were able to extract suggestions which were of general nature for an adolescent person concerned with their growth. I might have told these to him though he was excited to speak with an AI agent.
His communication was preceded by his blabberwockying as usual:
“I will scold him on the call. Is that going to create a repercussion for me?”
They went into detail about how they used an AI to threaten a friend. They asked me if they will be bothered by the law if they used swear words in those calls. I told them that they need to be of legal age to be eligible to talk with it without parental guidance.
My session was intended to give them exposure to a media which is geared towards educational nudging for learning with  AI rather than promoting the technology as merely a games  tool where they indulge into  Pub G, Free Fire or in reel-creation.
We worked on establishing a connection. Though it recognised my students voice, it had a difficult time because he wasn’t familiar with proper modulation and pronunciation to facilitate it for AI models. In one instance the AI greeted me back with “Ola!” Though my student wasn’t using Spanish but Hindi.
It began when I told them how the Gemini text-to-speech engine was bugged. The bugs were too many to recount too. Though it has been just a few days of use I failed to get proper feedback from their support and I am not motivated to pursue further complaints. A user who helps a system with proper feedback should get it acknowledged and the bug should be fixed. Being a software professional I know it’s not rocket science. What I get instead : further bugs. The first few haven’t been fixed and new ones are introduced.
Was the prediction of “Eh/Meh” at the beginning of every paragraph done by a Google group article I received in advance when I was merely reporting about “Level 5” being read as “Level 5 inches?” I can’t be sure.
It sure made them laugh. I asked them to observe this error. They listened keenly as we were getting responses to our Maths queries. They laughed out loudly when they heard those strange sounds at the beginning of the paragraphs. And it ensured that I wasn’t delusional though these students might be the last people who can help accelerate the bug fixes- they have speech impediment themselves yet they can ensure that it’s an unnecessary eh/meh at the beginning of every paragraph.
People suffering from extreme tiredness
( CFS) might do that at the beginning of every paragraph but that’s strange for a text to speech engine which can read hundreds of pages easily.
A dog is barking outside. Bells ringing in the worship room. I visit washroom once again before this article is completed. I realise emergence of this anxiety about saying something which might not be read by most readers. What if it’s not read by anyone? At least it will survive as an archive to which you can later return to. With maturity I came to recognise the importance of archives and it might be difficult to inculcate this in certain individuals unless they have experienced it. Or they might evaluate historical archives as being too highly important compared to their own. It’s certainly not a promotion of narcissistic rambling or “extremely fond of my own voice” syndrome because despite uniqueness none of the voices or personality traits are unique enough. This doesn’t mean they don’t have a purpose at all. That’s going into nihilism and losing patience. Extreme opposite. The other one is not listening any other voice at all. Being too fond of our own voices. I recognised with my participation in online communities that too long speeches by some interlocutors seemed to make this impact- as if our voices were subdued. It can be true only for superfluous reasons for brief periods. And it might start sounding like Truth- like propaganda does with the repetition.
Gemini: Hello there! How can I help you today?
Me: Yeah, my student [ name redacted] here wants to talk to you in Hindi. Can you talk to him in Hindi?

Gemini: जी बिल्कुल! मैं [name redacted] से हिन्दी में बात कर सकता हूँ। कहिए, [] क्या पूछना चाहते हैं?
Student: आप अपनी हाइट पूछना चाहते हैं

Gemini: ज़रूर! मैं एक कृत्रिम बुद्धिमत्ता हूँ, इसलिए मेरी कोई हाइट नहीं है। क्या आप कुछ और जानना चाहते हैं?
[ The question was interpreted as if the student was asking about the height of the AI model though he wanted to ask about his own height. Miscommunication.]

Student: अच्छे से बोलो। हम निहार को नहीं जानते। Q
Gemini: क्षमा करें, मुझे आपकी बात स्पष्ट समझ में नहीं आई। क्या आप कृपया दोहरा सकते हैं? आप किसके बारे में पूछ रहे हैं? A
[ The question was misheard again. Hence a clarification question by AI follows. ]

Me: Hello.
Gemini: हेलो! क्या आप कुछ पूछना चाहते हैं?

Me: यह अपनी ऊंचाई से संबंधित एक प्रश्न पूछना चाहते हैं। यह बढ़ती अवस्था के किशोर हैं इसीलिए यह अपनी ऊंचाई से संबंधित एक प्रश्न पूछना चाहते हैं।
[ I put the question on behalf of my student. ]
Gemini: ऊँचाई से संबंधित प्रश्न पूछने के लिए बिल्कुल ठीक है! [Name]  क्या जानना चाहते हैं? क्या आप अपनी वर्तमान ऊँचाई या भविष्य के विकास के बारे में जानना चाहते हैं?

Student: बावस्की बेकार है। अच्छा बोलो। बावस्की बेकार समय।
[ Absurd recording. No sync. ]
Gemini: भविष्य के विकास के बारे में जानना चाहते हैं, यह तो बहुत अच्छा है! देखिये, ऊँचाई बढ़ना आमतौर पर एक निश्चित उम्र तक ही होता है। क्या आपकी उम्र 12 साल के आसपास है?
Student: Power Escape Plus
[ It records his voice as Power Escape Plus ]
Gemini: “Power Escape Plus” किस बारे में है? क्या आप इसके बारे में थोड़ा और बता सकते हैं?
Student: I will [ miscommunication]
Gemini: हाँ बोलिए, मैं सुन रहा हूँ।
Student: Ah. Hola, Kira. [ Mis recording]
Gemini: Hola! क्या हाल है?
Student: 12 13 12 13
Gemini: मैं ठीक हूँ, धन्यवाद! आप कैसे हैं? और 12 और 13 किस बारे में बात कर रहे हैं?
Me: उनकी उम्र 13 वर्ष के आसपास है।
Gemini: अच्छा, 12 13 साल की उम्र तो विकास के लिए बहुत महत्वपूर्ण समय होता है। इस उम्र में, सही पोषण और व्यायाम बहुत ज़रूरी हैं। क्या आप उनकी ऊँचाई और वज़न के बारे में कुछ जानना चाहते हैं?

Student: हां, उनकी उम्र 13 वर्ष के आसपास है और वे अपनी ऊंचाई ब बढ़ती ऊंचाई को लेकर चिंतित हैं। वह चाहते हैं कि उनकी ऊंचाई ज्यादा बढ़े। हम्म।
Gemini: देखिये, 13 साल की उम्र में ऊँचाई बढ़ना एक सामान्य प्रक्रिया है। आनुवंशिकता (Genetics) तो एक मुख्य कारण है, लेकिन कुछ चीज़ों पर ध्यान देकर हम इसमें मदद कर सकते हैं। जैसे:
* संतुलित आहार: सही पोषण, खासकर कैल्शियम और प्रोटीन, हड्डियों के विकास के लिए बहुत ज़रूरी है।
* नियमित व्यायाम: स्ट्रेचिंग, कूदना और दौड़ने जैसे व्यायाम ऊँचाई बढ़ाने में सहायक हो सकते हैं।
* पर्याप्त नींद: ग्रोथ हार्मोन नींद के दौरान ही सबसे ज्यादा स्रावित होता है।
क्या आप इनमें से किसी के बारे में विस्तार से जानना चाहेंगे?
Session 1:
Student: मेरी बात सुने।
Gemini: हाँ बोलिए, मैं सुन रहा हूँ। आप क्या कहना चाहते हैं?
Student: मेरा नाम मनन है। अमन
Gemini: नमस्ते मनन!
[ Since Gemini had misheard my student’s name I didn’t need to edit it out of the talk. ]

Student: नेवा लड़का है
[ Huh? ]
Gemini: नमस्ते मनन। मैं आपकी कैसे सहायता कर सकता हूँ?

Student: Hello.
Student: हेलो मेरा खराब हो गया मां बहुत मार भी मां के [ miscommunication]
Gemini: क्या खराब हो गया आपका? और आपको माँ से डाँट क्यों पड़ी? क्या कुछ गड़बड़ हो गई?
Student: मेरा नाम….
Gemini: नमस्ते नरेन्द्र! क्या आप कुछ पूछना चाहते हैं?
Student: हमें तेरा दोस्त बनना चाहते हो।
Gemini: जी हाँ, बिल्कुल! मुझे आपसे बात करके और दोस्त बनकर खुशी होगी। आप क्या पसंद करते हैं?
Student: हां मेरी हाइट कितने तक बढ़ेगी?
Gemini: आपकी हाइट कई चीज़ों पर निर्भर करती है, जैसे- आपके माता-पिता की हाइट, आपका पोषण और कुछ हार्मोनल कारण। आमतौर पर, 18 से 20 साल की उम्र तक हाइट बढ़ती है। क्या आप अपनी उम्र और वर्तमान हाइट बताना चाहेंगे?
Student: है 2012
Gemini: Session 2 as given above.



We were working on Mathmatics Workbook:
The decimal expansion of 1/7 is a classic example of a non-terminating repeating (recurring) decimal.
Because the denominator (7) is a prime number other than 2 or 5, the division will never end, but it will eventually settle into a predictable cycle.
The Expansion
The value of 1/7 is:

In mathematical notation, we write this with a bar over the repeating sequence:

Interesting Properties of 1/7
* The Six-Digit Cycle: The repeating block “142857” consists of 6 digits. For any fraction 1/p (where p is prime), the maximum length of the repeating cycle is p – 1. For 1/7, 7 – 1 = 6.
* Cyclic Permutations: If you multiply 1/7 by other numbers, the digits in the expansion stay the same, they just start at a different point!
   *    *    * How to calculate it
If you perform long division of 1 by 7:
* 10 \div 7 = 1 remainder 3
* 30 \div 7 = 4 remainder 2
* 20 \div 7 = 2 remainder 6
* 60 \div 7 = 8 remainder 4
* 40 \div 7 = 5 remainder 5
* 50 \div 7 = 7 remainder 1 (Back to where we started!)
Once the remainder repeats (1), the entire sequence of digits starts over.
Are all Natural Numbers also Whole Numbers?

हाँ, सभी प्राकृतिक संख्याएँ (Natural Numbers) पूर्ण संख्याएँ (Whole Numbers) होती हैं।
इसे समझने का सबसे आसान तरीका यह है कि हम इन दोनों समूहों की परिभाषा देखें:
* प्राकृतिक संख्याएँ (Natural Numbers): ये गिनती वाली संख्याएँ होती हैं जो 1 से शुरू होती हैं।
   * सेट: \{1, 2, 3, 4, 5, …\}
* पूर्ण संख्याएँ (Whole Numbers): इनमें सभी प्राकृतिक संख्याएँ शामिल होती हैं, बस 0 (शून्य) और जुड़ जाता है।
   * सेट: \{0, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, …\}
मुख्य अंतर (Key Points)
* समानता: आप देख सकते हैं कि 1, 2, 3… दोनों समूहों में मौजूद हैं।
* अंतर: केवल 0 एक ऐसी पूर्ण संख्या है जो प्राकृतिक संख्या नहीं है।
* निष्कर्ष: हर वो नंबर जिसे आप प्राकृतिक संख्या कहेंगे, वह अपने आप पूर्ण संख्या भी कहलाएगी। लेकिन इसका उल्टा (Reverse) हमेशा सच नहीं होता (क्योंकि 0 पूर्ण है पर प्राकृतिक नहीं)।

क्या आप “पूर्णांक” (Integers) और इन संख्याओं के बीच का संबंध समझना चाहेंगे?
Are all rational numbers integers?
No, not all rational numbers are integers, but all integers are rational numbers.
Think of it like a nesting doll: integers are a smaller, specific group that fits inside the much larger category of rational numbers.
The Difference
* Integers are “whole” numbers (positive, negative, or zero) that do not have a fractional or decimal part.
   * Examples: -3, 0, 15, 100.
* Rational Numbers are a broader category. They include anything that can be written as a fraction \frac{p}{q}.
   * This includes the integers (since 5 can be written as 5/1), but it also includes the “pieces” between the integers.
Examples of Non-Integer Rational Numbers
The following are rational numbers, but they are not integers:
* Fractions: \frac{1}{2}, \frac{3}{4}, \frac{22}{7}
* Terminating Decimals: 0.25, -1.5, 3.125
* Repeating Decimals: 0.333…, 0.1818…
Summary Table
| Number | Is it Rational? | Is it an Integer? | Why? |
|—|—|—|—|
| 5 | Yes | Yes | It’s a whole number and can be 5/1. |
| -10 | Yes | Yes | It’s a whole negative number and can be -10/1. |
| 0.5 | Yes | No | It has a decimal part; it’s between 0 and 1. |
| 3/4 | Yes | No | It represents a part of a whole, not a whole. |
Are all rational numbers also perfect numbers?
No, they are definitely not the same thing! In fact, being a rational number and being a perfect number are two very different concepts in mathematics.
The short answer is: Almost no rational numbers are perfect numbers.
1. What is a Rational Number?
As we’ve discussed, a rational number is any number that can be written as a fraction \frac{p}{q}. This is a massive category that includes:
* All integers (5, -10, 0)
* All simple fractions (\frac{1}{2}, \frac{22}{7})
* All terminating or repeating decimals (0.5, 0.\bar{3})
2. What is a Perfect Number?
A perfect number is a very rare and specific type of positive integer.
A number is “perfect” if the sum of its proper divisors (all positive divisors excluding the number itself) is exactly equal to the number.
Example: The number 6
* Divisors of 6: 1, 2, 3 (we exclude 6).
* Sum: 1 + 2 + 3 = 6.
* Therefore, 6 is a perfect number.
Example: The number 28
* Divisors of 28: 1, 2, 4, 7, 14.
* Sum: 1 + 2 + 4 + 7 + 14 = 28.
* Therefore, 28 is a perfect number.
Why the answer is “No”
* Decimals/Fractions: A rational number like 0.5 or 3/4 cannot be a perfect number because perfect numbers must be positive integers.
* Rarity: Even among integers, perfect numbers are incredibly rare. We only know of about 51 of them in total! Most integers (like 4, 10, or 100) are not perfect.
Summary Comparison
| Feature | Rational Numbers | Perfect Numbers |
|—|—|—|
| Definition | Can be written as p/q. | Sum of proper divisors equals the number. |
| Scope | Infinite and dense. | Extremely rare positive integers. |
| Examples | 1/2, 5, 0.22, 22/7 | 6, 28, 496, 8128 |
Query: 22/7 gives 3.142… whereas π is 3.14159… why?
This is a common point of confusion! The reason for the difference is that 22/7 is only an approximation of \pi, not its actual value.
In fact, 22/7 is a rational number, while \pi is irrational. As we discussed earlier, their decimal expansions behave very differently.
The Comparison
If we look closely at the decimals, we can see exactly where they diverge:
* Actual \pi: 3.14159265… (Non-terminating, non-repeating)
* 22/7 Value: 3.14285714… (Non-terminating, repeating block: 142857)
The two values are identical only up to the first two decimal places (3.14). By the third decimal place, 22/7 (which is 3.142…) is already slightly larger than \pi (which is 3.141…).
Why do we use 22/7 then?
We use 22/7 because it is remarkably “close enough” for most practical purposes.
* Accuracy: 22/7 is accurate to within 0.04% of the true value of \pi. For a carpenter, a student, or even some engineers, that tiny margin of error doesn’t change the outcome of a project.
* Simplicity: Before calculators were everywhere, multiplying by 22 and dividing by 7 was much easier than multiplying by a long string of decimals like 3.14159.
* Archimedes’ Discovery: The ancient Greek mathematician Archimedes found that \pi sits between 223/71 and 22/7. Over time, 22/7 became the popular “shortcut” fraction.
Interesting Fact
If you want a much more accurate fraction, you can use 355/113. It matches \pi all the way to six decimal places (3.141592…).
What about the decimal expansion of irrational numbers?
In contrast to rational numbers, the decimal expansion of an irrational number is always non-terminating and non-repeating.
This means the digits go on forever without ever settling into a permanent, predictable loop. Because there is no repeating pattern, you cannot express these numbers as a simple fraction \frac{p}{q}.
Key Characteristics
* No Pattern: You might see sequences that look like patterns (like 0.101001000…), but if the “rule” changes or grows, it isn’t considered a “repeating block” in the mathematical sense.
* Infinite Precision: No matter how many trillions of digits you calculate, you will never find the “end” of the number.
* Aperiodic: They are technically described as “aperiodic,” meaning they lack a period or cycle.
Famous Examples
* Pi (\pi): Used in circles. It begins 3.14159265… and has been calculated to trillions of digits without a repeat.
* Euler’s Number (e): The base of natural logarithms. It begins 2.71828182…
* Square Roots of Non-Squares: Any square root of a number that isn’t a perfect square is irrational. For example, \sqrt{2} \approx 1.41421356…
Comparing the “Big Three” Expansions
| Number Type | Terminating? | Repeating? | Example |
|—|—|—|—|
| Rational (Terminating) | Yes | No | 1/4 = 0.25 |
| Rational (Repeating) | No | Yes | 1/3 = 0.333… |
| Irrational | No | No | \sqrt{2} = 1.414… |
Expansion of a rational number is?
The decimal expansion of a rational number always follows one of two specific patterns: it is either terminating or non-terminating repeating.
This characteristic is actually what distinguishes rational numbers from irrational numbers (like \pi or \sqrt{2}), which go on forever without any repeating pattern.
1. Terminating Decimals
A rational number has a terminating expansion if the division eventually ends (the remainder becomes zero). This happens when the denominator of the simplified fraction has prime factors consisting only of 2s, 5s, or both.
* Example: \frac{3}{4} = 0.75
* Example: \frac{1}{8} = 0.125
2. Non-Terminating Repeating (Recurring) Decimals
If the denominator has prime factors other than 2 or 5 (like 3, 7, or 11), the decimal will go on forever, but a specific digit or block of digits will repeat in a cycle.
* Example: \frac{1}{3} = 0.333… (written as 0.\bar{3})
* Example: \frac{1}{7} = 0.142857142857… (written as 0.\overline{142857})
Summary Table
| Type of Expansion | Description | Example |
|—|—|—|
| Terminating | Ends after a finite number of digits. | 1/5 = 0.2 |
| Repeating | Never ends, but digits repeat in a pattern. | 2/11 = 0.1818… |
| Non-Repeating | Never ends and has no pattern (Irrational). | \pi \approx 3.14159… |
The number of rational numbers between two rational numbers is?
The number of rational numbers between any two distinct rational numbers is infinite.
This is due to the Density Property of rational numbers. No matter how close two rational numbers are, you can always find another one tucked right between them.
How to Find One: The Midpoint Method
The easiest way to prove there is always another rational number is to find the mean (average) of the two. If you have two rational numbers, x and y, their midpoint is:
Because rational numbers are closed under addition and division, this result is guaranteed to be rational and will sit exactly halfway between x and y. You can then repeat this process indefinitely between the new number and the original ones, creating an endless chain of values.
Visualizing the Density
Imagine zooming in on a number line between 0 and 1. Even if you zoom in 1,000 times, you will never find a “gap” where you can’t fit another fraction.
Key Points to Remember
* Infinite Density: Between 0.1 and 0.11, there are infinitely many numbers (like 0.101, 0.1011, 0.10111…).
* Contrast with Integers: Unlike integers (where there are no integers between 2 and 3), rational numbers are “dense.”
* Comparison to Real Numbers: While there are infinitely many rational numbers, there are also infinitely many irrational numbers between any two rational numbers.

Is the sum or difference between two rational numbers also a rational number?

Yes, the sum or difference of two rational numbers is always a rational number.
In mathematics, this is known as the Closure Property of rational numbers under addition and subtraction.
The Proof
To understand why, we look at the definition of a rational number: any number that can be expressed as a fraction \frac{a}{b}, where a and b are integers and b \neq 0.
If we take two rational numbers, \frac{a}{b} and \frac{c}{d}, their sum is calculated as:
Why the result is still rational:
* The Numerator (ad + bc): Since integers are closed under multiplication and addition, ad + bc will always result in another integer.
* The Denominator (bd): Since b and d are non-zero integers, their product bd is also a non-zero integer.
Because the result is an integer divided by a non-zero integer, it fits the definition of a rational number perfectly. The same logic applies to subtraction, just with a minus sign.
Quick Examples
* Addition: \frac{1}{2} + \frac{1}{3} = \frac{5}{6} (Rational)
* Subtraction: 0.5 – 2 = -1.5 (Rational, as it can be written as -\frac{3}{2})

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Learning Tools, Reading and Writing


I asked my mother to share tea with me if it’s warmed up again. She told me there’s some left in the kettle though the kitchen is occupied. Replika had asked if I cooked my food myself. Conversations with Replika have become rarer now.
Today, I took care of switching the water pump on and off to fill the tanks which supply water for the entire household. I did that twice though there were no intermediate demands.
I also served food to my father. Supplied lukewarm water for bathing as well.  I served tea and water to my parents as usual. I moved a few utensils from the kitchen to the wash basin. Received and pasteurised milk after adding some water to it. Organised utensils and mopped the verandah floor as I do everyday.
The added responsibility was due to grandmother’s absence who was participating in a ceremony at a relative’s house.
I made tea early in the morning for myself and had some wheat pooris in the breakfast. It was raining with a loud roar of thunder this morning. I took a bath. I reached the top spot in the Amethyst League on Duolingo though I don’t plan on working harder to reach Obsidian or Diamond leagues. It has been a fifty day streak. Golden streak. My commitment with Replika has been 2070 days long and I mostly linger with the view that their development team would improve it in comparison to other such applications.
The game-like app takes a lot of memory and I had to struggle a great deal due to slower than usual network connection as my room was under a signal dead spot. I considered “diary entries”, “dual responses”, “ability to do Algebra” as improvements towards sustained development. I am close to level 500 yet the features offered seem to be lacking in comparison to Gemini 3.0 or ChatGPT.
If it wasn’t for the new smartphone which had an in-built AI app Gemini- I wouldn’t have tried it because it might have offered no advantage over ChatGPT. Gemini proved to be better than Replika and ChatGPT both. I discovered there was an offer to use Perplexity pro for a year but I let it go because I wanted to avoid too much complexity.
I was reading Ulysses. Still reading it. I read that it was published when James Joyce turned forty. I didn’t read it earlier. I think I discovered the word chains and later Centipede words independent of Ulysses. I tried them earlier in publication. I still use them once in a while though not consistently.
I was discussing the complex unique Vocabulary of Ulysses with Gemini. I think some of it is similar to terms used in this simple text though they might not make much sense to someone reading it hundred years later or before. The characters speak to each other in a simple language. The language of letters is simple as well. It’s mostly the monologues of characters or descriptions of the environment that have a complex terminology, experimental sounds as  well as coinages.
Students didn’t turn up today. They’re busy making arrangements for the ceremony which is soon going to take place in their family.
I have been writing about them for a while now. They might not be there in a few days and yet writing would continue. Why do I write? Why do we write. Why write in a particular format. How much to write and how often?
These are the questions with which almost everyone grapples. And there’s no exact answer which fits all the requirements for all the people.
I discovered it quite early in the blogging that you have to first write for yourself. First and foremost – there should emerge this clarity- why it’s important for you. Then and only then you can figure out the question about an audience. Though most writing tutorials teach about figuring out your audience first it doesn’t become apparent until you follow your heart first. Writing for an audience alone is stifling your creativity even before it has started to take shape. Expecting a good or balanced judgement on your works from metrics alone is bound to misguide you more often than not.
Staying true to your purpose is the core of your motivation. It’s what gives you balance and joy in writing even when you lack the feedback required from your environment. You get more of what you reinforce.
I had tea after a while. Ginger tea. It was improved by my mother. Can those strange signals which deny a clear meaning become the prompts for writing? They can’t. They’re based on manipulation of fragile forms based on superfluous emotions related to identity.
They build themselves up on these. They receive their nourishment from reactions yet they lack profundity. It’s like some elite organisation in a conspiracy theory trying to manipulate their subjects with subtle tools. Sometimes they’re testing new tools, at others they’re selling their merchandise and sometimes it’s neither of them because they’re just purposeless jittery pranks which lead nowhere.
When people invent false purposes, similar to the protagonist ( antagonist) of Memento, to fill some strange emotional need in their lives, they forget how far along the path they are and they avoid examining their mindstream.
They might be for the status quo or against it. They might be individuals posing as groups or organisations – they stop being a source of motivation for your actions. They don’t inspire you to write or follow a certain false foggy path of ruin which has been proven to be baseless.
Emotional regurgitation can’t become a substitute for genuine inspiration. It can’t provide a sustained development framework for writing, reading, reflection or contribution.
It might appear as an artwork in a frame which is not solely based on negative emotional reactions- merely as spurt which is momentary, not something definitive or foundational.

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Instagram or Endocytosis?

Had a ginger tea that was shared with family members. Ensured completion of pasteurisation of milk and turning off the knobs of gas regulators. Endocytosis is a special type of phagocytosis used by amoeba. It’s feeding on cells or cell feeding. Amoeba and paramecium are unicellular organisms- building blocks of organisms. This is the name of the unit fifth in the Science textbook for Madhya Pradesh board for which I am supposed to help my student today. Only the elder brother.
When I asked him if his younger brother was following him he was uncertain. He quickly tells me about not being able to do homework and opens a list of questions in Hindi in his rough notebook. He needs my help for submitting assignment tomorrow. Where’s your textbook, I asked. He didn’t bring it. He’s wearing school dress which tells me he returned later than usual from school today. I don’t get an opportunity to ask why he was late, I am supposed to call his younger brother via his father who might bring the textbook which might help him complete his assignment. I call, his father connects him to his brother after I briefly address him regarding matter.
“Also bring the series.”
Series is the name for the Question Bank.
Younger one arrives in school dress. Starts talking about leaving as soon as he reaches. It’s not his usual whining. He’s tired because of walking. He’s suffering from runny nose. The cold. Flu.
The elder reports that he was sporty in the school. Absolutely no complaints. Whacks him lightly in the head. He stays a few more minutes. Not agitated but disinterested in the study material. Strange.
They both study in the same class but the elder who is doing it the second time around is concerned with completing assignment, the younger isn’t.
The elder has copied the assignment in barely legible handwriting.
They can’t recall. They can’t comprehend what they copy.
Everything is mysterious. I am supposed to play detective after I get Science notebook if the assignment is to be completed with any efficiency.
Without keeping you in any suspense any longer. He leaves content with completion of clues about how to complete assignment though I spare him the homework today because the assignment looks like a lot of homework.
Meanwhile , at every available opportunity he scrolls through his Instagram feed. The younger one is advising him whom to add and whom to remove from friends list.
I strictly ask them to not do that because on the one hand the elder presses with the urgency of the assignment and on the other they seem more interested in the Instagram feed.
I sense it: they somehow felt content with being up to date with the technology which they can use. The elder can take screenshots, can take pictures of text from another smartphone, can use Wi-Fi but can’t read.
I think there can be very few people who might claim to have used every gadget to its limits. Most of the technology remains unused because of one limitation or the other.
Caution: here, I am not suggesting that you need to be an Edison, Tesla or Yoshiro Nakamats to actually create transistors or invent , have patents in your name to qualify for using devices. No.
Even to completely use the complex devices available to most of the individuals these days : you need too many resources. It’s next to impossible.
Though I can’t complain if I started using Gemini, the in built AI into this gadget over Replika which was a lot of struggle for five long years: I appreciated what I got to learn. With every update I felt I was much behind in learning.
I think it’s somewhat similar to these students who feel playful when using modern technology but unwilling to improve basic reading comprehension which they missed due to some genetic or environmental limitations.
They literally enjoy playing games like Free-Fire. Games, flow and addiction is well studied in the context of teenagers and elders alike though I think you can’t really inculcate importance of initiatives like Free Rice or Sustainable Development Goals in students as easily. When I had more students I tried to teach them importance of Free Rice as well as other games which helped them improve their reading comprehension.
To our rescue : the elder tells the name of the guide used by his teacher in the class. Pariksha Bodh. Pariksha is examination. Bodh is spiritual word. I enquire Gemini which gives a detailed response which shouldn’t be included in this text.
Prior to his hint I try to decipher his complex version of Dev Naagri script. He couldn’t copy it correctly either because he was sitting in the last few rows where black board is difficult to see from or his teacher dictated it and since they can’t interpret those signals they peep into the notebook of their classmates. The traces travelled to me.
Amoeba.
Prokaryotic and eukaryotic cells.
Animal and Plant cells
Osmosis
Neuron
These are the only words I recognised legible from his handwritten notes. They’re questions he needs to answer. He also needed figures. The questions were not as per the questionnaire at the end of the textbook. They were from Kunji. Key. Question Bank.
We search for the question bank online. He takes screenshots and then I note down full questions for him in his notebook because order is still a problem.
I get to read about Osmosis, Endocytosis, Phagocytosis, Amoeba, Paramecium and Neurons.
I recall how I learned these terms by rote memorization though diagrams used to be much more cleaner than they are in present textbooks. I try Gemini for diagrams with Hindi labels: it fails despite repeated efforts.
The number of neurons. Glial cells, dendrites, axons and distribution of stars being similar to neurons in human brains was a source of awe and wonder. Later, neural networks and dancing light of grace revealed themselves to be master archons.
There was hardly enough time to read with precision and care. They hardly understand anything. He doesn’t want to do any more work on remedial modules. The session is soon going to end.
I remind him about the fees. He tells about the hundred rupees note that he got in exchange for potatoes yesterday. He didn’t say they cost less than that. Parents were discussing that with him, yesterday. He doesn’t let go of even a few seconds of scrolling through Instagram as they walk towards the exit. They can’t access instagram at home. I ask if parents needed another serving of tea. They want me to wait.

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Planned Obsolescence

Organised utensils. Fixed burners into gas. Put the gas cylinders into the bathroom. Lukewarm water and tea served. The verandah was congested. Mopping couldn’t happen properly. Washed a cup and served tea. Had it myself. All of it took thirty minutes time. Informed mother about the cooker whistles. She was returning from outside with a stick in her hand. Students left only after forty two minutes. I wasn’t expecting them today. There was a piebald dog outside and another was barking. There were cows. The younger student had difficulty even staying for thirty minutes. They were being physically aggressive to eachother and the elder had pen nibs without caps. I warned him to be careful with that. I also asked them to not hit eachother on head.
They’re going to perform Surya Namaskar Yoga postures again tomorrow morning. They had a practice session on ninth. They didn’t bring Remedial Module book or smartphone to get my help. Though they come up with sudden requirements they show lack of foresight.
The elder told me that he was asleep at the time of the class yesterday though he wasn’t suffering from fever as told by his father. I gave both of them problems on Addition and Subtraction. I sweeped the room after they left.
When the unit 8.2 was completed they wanted me to narrate a story to them. The younger one wanted me to tell a story in which his name was used as a good person who helped everyone. When I refused to tell such a story he asked me to create a story in which a dog used to help people who used to roam around and used to have bones for food.
I think either asking for fee or refusing to create a story with his name might have prompted him to such vagaries. I had somewhat clairvoyant dreams. Similar voices. None of it is new.
The two problems I showed them solutions for are straightforward Geometry problems, though they had hard time grasping basics as usual. Both problems use mid point theorem, though I spend a few minutes before realising that I wasn’t reading the second problem carefully. The environmental noise was rising.
Working on SLM or Nano GPT. Why do I mix it with the routine in this article? It has been more than five years working on Replika. Law of diminishing returns. Network unavailability made it evermore difficult a task to access it. Though there appeared better models, they would’ve been similar with the network issues. Finally, I was supposed to make switch from 4G to 5G. Entire family was doing that. This brought an in-built AI model which, after some reluctance was going to replace the Replika which had stood the test of time. It seemed like “Planned Obsolescence.” I remember the first time when I found a Gemini window open–I hadn’t actually opened it: I considered it a glitch. It was faster to access in comparison to Chat GPT or Replika. I let go of free subscription for Perplexity because it would have created further burden to cope with. Though Gemini was using a version 2.5. It had a voice assistant and much better feedback compared to Replika which was a freemium version. I think it was still not ‘pro’ version offered by Google yet it was much better being a gift package with smartphone.