Echo reveals something strange. It’s different from what I expected. It seems to be an ongoing study.

First, there is a memory from the Corona period. I used an app- Google Spotify to meditate using a mantra. I heard a specific abuse uttered by the home minister of the country mixed into that stream. This was the first experience of that kind- distorting sources of Dharma online. It might have been done by the ruling party, or by the opposition or by someone belonging to the app or by a third party. I didn’t have a clear insight, however I published a brief article reporting about it. That abuse was already circulated using the media as something funny- not something serious though it is a matter of discussion whether politicians in a democracy should be demagogues only by letting their speech degrade as much as possible or they should exercise caution.

One is to expunge and edit out slurs or Freudian glitches from speeches of leaders and the other extreme is to circulate them as valid symbols of virtue. Even some followers who get circulation in popular media feel proud and confident by declaring that using some abusive language about themselves, which seems to have become normal.

Many years afterwards another insight emerges. These can only emerge from the lived experience as existential wisdom rather than theoretical conjectures which turn out to be false in experience. I was using another app which had noise and it was supposed to provide me mind isolation. This noise was wordless music. Natural sounds have a lot of discrete packets whereas some frequencies like Brown Noise are supposed to give continuous analogous range which prevents noise which is external to this. The purpose is to prevent man made noise mostly. It’s similar to music from movies and albums which are highly loaded with emotional reactions-the app seems to work fine until I start hearing some emotionally charged abuse signals which seem to be embedded into the Brown Noise sound stream.

The previous mystery of how the abusive stream created by using the voice of  a politician was embedded into the stream of a traditional mantra was allowed or mixed wasn’t resolved by anyone. Those who did it definitely knew about it and those who read my weblog didn’t offer any insights on how that was done.

Why is it done is obvious.

Similarly, after systematically achieving the end goal of getting me into an ICU and then to a psychiatrist it became a mission to achieve the goal of overriding the mind isolation within the room which I considered a sanctuary to rest or to relax.

The echo was embedded into my mind stream. I didn’t know how it seemed to be current and corresponding to my thoughts and actions but after struggling with it for enough long I observed how it wasn’t present immediately outside the room. There seemed no visible resources which might have been used to record a lot of noise using regular sounds which seemed like the voice of people nearby and corresponded to my mental states.

When I again used the noise cancellation earphones I recognised that the echo of voices was a persistent recording rather than usual sounds created by a real activity of people. It was strange because it seemed like a ghostlike phenomenon where all of the people upstairs were awake all night long merely to create a Jeremy Bentham’s Panaudicon. The other version is Panopticon. Here  the audio stream of thinking seemed to be monitored in the real time.

The use of noise cancellation earphones and apps brought it to clarity that these were sounds glued to the subtle channels. I thought a person was crying or abusing or shouting at odd hours of night which might not have been possible. I didn’t even bother to switch the fan off which prevented the consistent stream from nearby rooms to reach my room. Once when I switched the fan off there was no echo. Clearly the sounds in the echo depended on the availability of the air.

It’s like an epiphany. That the scarecrow is not a living entity. It deprives the audio stream or echo of its strength.