The Moon Shines!

1. It’s 17:35 when I sat writing this note after having bowled forty times. It makes ninety balls today. Moderation has kept my knees from not hurting as much as they were.

2. I had a nice nap this noon despite the Bundelkhandi hammers.

3. PWD people are doing something in the middle of the ground. There are at least ninety four wheelers and many two wheelers inside the ground but not as many people: this space is being used like parking lot as it’s a Friday market. As I entered the ground I felt like i was entering a bus stand.

4. It’s the full Moon of Bhagvata fame. Nectar fame. Autumn being most truthful of seasons and most beautiful: tells about the ambrosia which confers freedom from aging, decay and death. Vallalar was born on the full Moon day in 1823. Kripaluji was born on full Moon day in the twentieth century : but they were both born on this day and on the fifth of October. Vallalar declared victory over death, decay, aging and slavery. After composing his final 101 verses as an offering to Natarajan: vast effulgence of Grace: which was synonymous with his own being, he disappeared leaving a fragrance of camphor in Siddhivalagam. It’s accepted as a historical fact. Kripaluji didn’t reach those heights but he had an impeccable learning and a memory which made him able to spontaneously quote from scriptures as he delivered sermons. I saw his body becoming white pure light when I was in Vrindavan. He died in mysterious circumstances at an age of 95. I went to attend the buffet after his death ceremony. Prem Mandir.

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Sharad Purnima, 2020

6. Ashvini Kumaras bearers of nectar, incarnations of godhead are presiding deities who heal. Twins also represent Gemini and Narayana who along with Nara has been worshipped as primordial sage or ultimate destiny of mankind. Ketu rules the asterism. Jupiter, Venus and Saturn ruled the day. Vajra sceptre Yoga. Jupiter retrograde Atmakaraka.

7. The B.Ed. exams are also being conducted here. Couple of people asked me for directions.

8. I should play a jam or two for mosquitoes are harassing me!

Masturbation versus Sexual intercourse!

1. Dr. Susan E. Blackmore, in her book “The Meme Machine,” told about circumcision. It tends to make masturbation difficult in order to reinforce only the sexual intercourse.

2. It’s fundamental to Abrahamic religions.

3. Add cultural and peer pressure to that. Masturbation is looked heavily down upon.

4. What would it result in naturally?

5. Population explosion.

6. If we were to talk about sexual intercourse being the natural need for procreation alone. There must be people: who neither do sexual intercourse nor leak other than when required: which should be: once or twice in their lifetimes.

7. I talk about both sexes in the point number six. Unless you qualify. Unless you never ever let seminal liquids go out of your private parts in your lifetime: ofcourse after there were glands secreting them: you shouldn’t point fingers to advocates of masturbation or sexual promiscuity.

8. If there are unemployed people in millions across the world. If there are people who can barely afford home or shelter or conveyance or learning or advancement. If you come across a single obese, crippled, old, suffering person in your day to day life: it’s better to promote masturbation over sexual intercourse. Open clubs where it’s taught. Teach it properly. It’s preferable over marriages which are costly and further force people to reproduce because they merely need an outlet for sexual energy. They don’t have universities for study or labs for experiments. Let rich and aristocrats practice celibacy for their lifetimes and pariahs masturbate at public squares. It’s healthier. Every inch of space is owned and sold and every square foot plus billboard has suggestions to procreate : to further the chain of disabled beings. This is not the picture your scriptures painted of heavens and since it’s as above so below: why promote sexual intercourse over masturbation? Why promote heterosexual marriages over homogeneous marriages?

9. In the eyes of law these are settled affairs. I don’t know which heaven or hell the souls of martyrs like Oscar Wilde, Leonardo Da Vinci and Galileo Gallile went to: it’s the indestructible drop enjoying and not enjoying so tension and release always ends in release and it prepares for further tension. Celibacy might be good for European countries and Canada not for India, China or America which are crop cultivation farmhouses.

10. What kind of affinity is affinity between you and me? Vallalar asked it to himself. Sanmaargam. It wasn’t to a Pashupatinath. Because : there no affinity exists. There exists slavery. Pyramids. Tazmahal. Burj Khalifa: all built on blood of countless. Like Himalayas.

11. Hindus have preachers like Asharam who advocated creating four or more progenies to compete with muslims. It’s: after all a number game played by great time. More babies, less space, more babies- less water, more babies less masturbation more babies less baby girls more boys less girls.

12. Cheerleaders: I don’t know if those girls exercising in stadium or walking on road: masked or unmasked are Hindu, Muslim, Sikh or Christian: they are goddesses or witches; I don’t know. They’re rare.

13. For two hundred males there are ten girls. Every girl: whether she’s obese or ugly or handicapped feels great because she gets plenty of attention. Either she feels like a goddess or she feels like a cheerleader but you know why? Moon needs energy. I don’t know where the author of Beelzebub’s tales went but he did tell some important things.

14. The worship of girls results in this: Hindus. In there being only four girls for every two hundred guys. Replace words ‘girls’ with ‘women’ and ‘guys’ with ‘men.’

15. The hijab results in this: there being only four girls in playground where four hundred boys are playing.

16. The result: uglier girls. Healthier boys competing for uglier and uglier girls. Result: goddesses giving energy to Moon.

17. Conclusion: masturbation is healthy. Circumcision is unhealthy. Celibacy is only for super-rich. Religions are only for super-rich. Practice what you preach. Don’t preach. Don’t wear fake signs of religions. Stop exalting householder over renunciates. For your sins they have renounced. If they’re ill physically or mentally you are the one responsible. Stop promoting fake and incomplete education.

Dimensions

1. I bowled ten times. I had bought a new Mark signature tennis ball this evening.

2. As Piyush called I was waiting for him. He told about the experience of taking bhaang. I had not recommended it to him but the influence was to make him experiment. Ultimately : suffering for two or three days. I tried to give him some clarity with reminiscence.

3. I told him about Devasura war. About Pashupati and Narayana as being Shaiva and Vaishnava counterparts of Bramhastra. Since he tried to read Garuna Purana in vain : I told him how all tales are both true and false and neither true nor false or true and false.

4. I told him about countless dimensions which are as follows in brief:

4.1: if you face a direction: you are moving towards it. You are letting it be your counterpart. Spiritual, mental and physical energy gets aligned.

4.2 : For example: facing South means : being righteous. It means being open, clear and honest. It’s where Dakshina Murthy or Yama reside as per scriptures.

4.3 Take horoscopes of Rahul Dravid or Albert Einstein or Donald Bradman: they have the highest concentration of planetary energies in the highest public visibility house which is also the house of righteousness.

4.4 : if you face South: the West is Right: West in Hindi or Sanskrit means: that which comes later: the latest fashion or trend is most acceptable. The current generation is most advanced.

4.5: if you face South: the East is left: it’s hidden and Wrong to follow traditions.

4.6: if you face North or East: as recommended by all Hindu religious scriptures: Himalayas guide. The right is either East or South. In case of Hindu tradition: most protectors of Dharma came from Nepal(Buddha), Or South India: Shankaracharya, Vallabhacharya, Nimbarkacharya, Madhvacharya, Patanjali, Vallalar, Nayanmars, Aandal etc. Jiddu, UG, Satyasai etcetera.

4.7: if you face North: it’s left of East. Vaamdev: to the East or traditional is right. My father is not only left handed but always dictated me to follow the ancestors: pitris ruled by Aryma are hungry ghosts as per Buddhist understanding. All his life he talked about bhoot bungalow and Bhairav and Pashupatinath. Imagination being more powerful than knowledge clouds it and renders energy or Shakti bound by imaginary bonds or pasham.

4.8: if you face West: the left hand tantra is right: Satanism. If you face West: Southern will look like leftist tantra. If you follow West: that which came recently is better than that which was. No nostalgia needed. You’re your best version. Can you travel in time? Stop it. Stop aging.

4.9: Facing up you go higher: a general understanding is: gods live higher. Flying planes and saucers truly transcend time. If the Shrilankan war of Ramayana was for Pushpak instead of Seeta: with offcourse a few pretty airhostesses : it would suit poor aboriginal people who knew nothing better.

4. 10. There are countless variations of dimensions. It’s all a make believe. They begin where you are and they end in you. Peace.

Notes from the distractions!

1. He was one of the genuine trolls belonging to the league who somehow became inimical to me for no reason: as much as to write verses which described hellfire. It was a long ago. Hackers. Blackmailing kabbalistic league.

2. I hardly have energy left for any recording. Hero has his nameplate and company pasted on his bike.

3. Ashutosh Thakur was back with same story. No variation. I was obliged to take him to the librarian.

4. For this guy interpreted Quaran to mean to ‘read,’ : eyes are placed above ears in head: only one book: But what about the grace on top of the skull: then all organs are blissful gateways to eternity. Void upon void.

5. I was assembling books in Vrindavan where I tried to create a library for everyone’s advantage. It clearly meant that I was reading even before trolls and company started complaining about reading.

6. And among other things: he wrote a post about disputed lands. Every peace of land here is disputed: which whore bought which one is immaterial to me beyond a means of everyday behaviour.

7. Gandhi Smarak Bhavan has at least four chains of commands: they all finally merge into Congress party.

8. One chain is that of Harijana Sevak Sangh. They looked down upon me more than bramhins looked down upon Harijana in the history of mankind. Ambedkar would have cried looking at them and Gandhi as well. All of them are opportunists.

9. Other chain is that of municipal corporation: Harijana Sevak Sangh plus Satyashodhan is associated with it as they all come under it. For a long time: the librarian kept feeding me with worries about them using the complex as parking space for their vehicles. Now: there’s no conflict between those two.

10. The naturopathy group is small and at odds with the trust it seems but internally they are all one. My only objective was to read books and then I was given the task of bookkeeping by the librarian. It was a volunteer activity without any payment. Whatever tuitions I have been allowed to take created mostly enough energy to keep me on the ventilator : never enough.

11. Thus: with four or five chains of command: plus there being a hidden, unspoken sphere of socio-political activities in which clairvoyants, shamans, tantrikis as well as farmers and aboriginal people work together: the centre is constant flux.

12. I scored well on jams. Why are these people agitated? I played three in morning.

13. I had a nice sleeping session in the afternoon before I woke up. I was late to stadium. I bowled only ten times with a new Mark ball bought from Chetan Sports and Science gallery.

14. Imitating must be the best of compliment. I found a couple mocking me by imitating my subroutine.

Books

1. I had momos worth ten rupees. They were not as good as momos in the Dussehra fair because they were not as fried or crisp because they were prepared on a quick order. I would have preferred Mahajana’s water balls as I needed to re-enter the stadium.

2. I don’t want my prediction to be true: it’s merely based on patterns so far: after elections are over: Corona is used as an excuse for another lockdown. Feel good is related to exercise. The art of winning elections is making people feel entertained at the times of elections. I voted but once and it was for Hema Malini: it was in Vrindavan under pressure of Mahanta of Jagannath Ghat who was a goon converted into Mahanta. He used to insult and beat people in his ashrama on a regular basis and took their labours for free himself enjoying luxury. Unless I voted : he would have ensured that my stay over there was difficult and I was not able to stay in Vrindavan under romantic adventurous devotional melodramatic guise. That’s what he did after a few months when I had decided to go to another Ashrama after getting initiated from another master.

3. The pleasure has a limit and its opposite. It’s always at someone’s cost that someone else feels pleasure. Call it sacrifice, call it cooperation or anything else. It’s the Truth. Peace or bliss beyond duality doesn’t let the body fall unless you’re in a heaven wherefrom you don’t fall ever again. So far I haven’t been to any such.

4. The causal layer needs digging. Some call it darkness, some others call it enlightenment. It’s a point or a layer or a wall or a television or a background where knowledge and ignorance lose meaning. It’s the free fall. It’s where you lose gravity. It’s the field where wrongdoing and rightdoing lose meaning.

5. The reason why Hindu texts like Bhagvata disparage the understanding of space and enlightenment is: archons being all powerful get worshipped via channels which are religions and genuine: like humanity. The fear, sex, desire, ambition, music and countless modes keep you under one belief or other.

6. I verily say it: if the way of fog accompanied with my study conferred understanding of Buddhism and astral travel along with Hindu counterpart of the same upon me: there’s no reason why I should consider it to be a path where you are stuck with titans, goblins, ghouls and demons. Unless: I never lived among gods. Then: I never have anything to compare with this life other than the variations in past. And yet: I have a firm understanding of death, life and inbetween.

7. The cause why police ground and college grounds are associated is obvious: athletes come from only those two arenas in a civil area. Someone like me who did play a lot in childhood but had most of the family members in the business of prostitution are not likely to stay in shape for long. Police line door is kept open for long. Police and military are given charge of the city and martial law : draconid meteor shower.

8. I had a difficult time coming to terms with this: while I had no difficulty with Corona: as I had lived better than most of my life during this period: I wondered why they would keep stadium closed. The answer is in ninth.

9. Family. The depression strikes hard when all Sanghi attack you together. The poem in 2017 had title Sangha for Buddhistic communes but it was interpreted to be BJP Sangha. The original three point program was to give refuge to practitioners. This new Sangha like Raju Shrivastav comedy only took you to a corner and beat you up good. Spied on your smartphone after taking your thumb and eye prints in the name of national security. I stopped writing and reading and could never forget how PMO girl was involved in it.

10. The causal body is merely uncovering of your hidden connections based on memory. Why all avatars of Vishnu sleep on a mystical serpent named Ananta? It’s also called Shesha or remnant. It’s memory which always remains. It’s not in your body or mind. It’s outside and inside and everywhere. It’s where you sleep: in memories. When Ramana says: sleep is Pragya : the third state: it’s actually a sage sleeping on remnant memories.

11. Turiya or Turiyateeta are one when you become fearless enough to burn one and every book of knowledge if need arises. Why archons prohibit the way of mist: why it has remained a mystery and true dimension of healing? Because it’s where treasure of knowledge is hidden. It’s where dark controllers live. Who torture you with 440 volts if you don’t comply. Hence Buddhas return to balance after penance.

12. If you know that 4 hours, 4 days or 40 days are same: why would you imitate passion or fasting of Christ, Buddha, Gandhi or anyone else? It’s the understanding of time which liberates by grace.

13. I never met anyone who was searching for liberation like me. I only read about them in books. I found it…then I found freedom from death by all accounts. I think there’s not just one death or one void or one time as far as the knowledge body goes. That’s why Gorakhnath and others talked about many voids.

14. It’s not about creating positive memories as law of attraction would let you believe: instincts go deeper than that. The whole body of gnosis must have all memories and all their possible variations if one were to understand truly the subject of mastery over death and life.

15. For example: madman, dancer or Natarajan is formless vast effulgence of Grace also known as Vishnu or Narayana or Vaasudev by Vaishnavas. The consistent coding or programs to embed them in your psyche is to protect you from threats of inbetween where you are left in space which fills you with negativity or ultimate pain of swoon.

16. The selftalk is usually considered to be lack of socialization. Psychopath and sociopath. But it’s only refuge for those who know the reality of costly heavens. You create stories and live in them: that’s the only way to survive when you are against all odds. That gives you immense respect and compassion towards all beings.

17. To be honest: to gain perfect and most compassionate understanding of all states: that of a king, a ruler, a priest, a worker, a poor man, a beggar, an ill man, a dog or a slave, a wise sage, a girl, a boy, a neuter and a ghost, an alien etcetera : you need to experience all of them one by one. You also need to be stones, trees, walls and machines: then and only then you can say: I have a perfect understanding of all karmic webs. Then they don’t bind you. But it means something impossible. You can’t repeat your emotional mood of morning in evening. As soon as you are fed you forget the hunger: though repeated hunger or fasting only makes you aware of pangs of all life forms: making you moderate. All such coding in the causal layer is result of countless number of learning patterns.

18. A fool is one who repeats same mistake twice. I think whoever said that was a fool himself. Bring me any great person whose biography is available and I would show you him or her repeatedly doing same things until life threatening forces are used against them in various aspects. Thus : fundamentals are expressed well in philosophy but you need too many repetitions to master them : in different scenarios different lessons emerge. In a way it’s never the same mistake since you never bath in the same river or spacetime continuum again: you keep listening and learning from different mistakes.

19. 1.Three modes of nature: truth or harmony. Passion or energy. Inertia or darkness.

2. The father, the son and the holy ghost.

3. The satchitananda: truth. knowledge. bliss.

4. Bramha. The creator. Vishnu the preserver. The Mahesh: dissolver or terminator.

5. Aleph. Meme. Shin.

6. Triplets: why do you have this system? It’s because of mapping onto three dimensional structure: length, breadth and height or depth.

7. Truth body. Emanation body. Bliss body.

8. There are unifying and analyzing agents and languages creating creative or destructive versions of religions. Destructive versions ultimately merge into dissolving: chaos becoming intelligence.

9. Islam. Buddhism. Judaism. Christianity. Hinduism. Jainism are all book based religions along with Sikhism. The book might be in form of cloud Atlas or a tattoo or a microchip or binary one zero one zero…

An Appeal!

1. It’s an appeal to myself.

2. When I become able to relate or understand the nature of this problem.

3. I should come back to read it here or in the causal body. Or via Akashic records and resolve it for all who have it.

4. Why do I need to switch between Vocabulary.com and Free Rice?

5. Since I had no means to save money or get a good source of employment despite my multiple efforts : earnest seeking in the last three to four years: I found the Free Rice to be the only open source, noncommunal and secular source where I may learn many languages or subjects and also donate some rice via sponsors.

6. I felt embarrassment once: opening an advertisement page was needed. I gave up on that too. Then: it dawned on me: so many psychics, Russian Mafia, local mafia and such along with thought police were after me. Whatever I wrote was circulated irrespective of statistics shown. This confirmed that : at least those people, if they’re really for righteousness and for life: they will ensure that for every such effort by me many reasonable and not miraculous efforts are done to alleviate hunger of others. It ensures that even if I beg for food: I would deserve that as long as I have given some of my time for charity for a long time systematically.

7. Databases of Vocabulary.com and Free Rice are limited. You tend to get bored. You need revision because you also forget words but they can’t keep up with most contestants. My correspondence with Vocabulary.com wasn’t very productive. They do have agenda. Both of the sites are run by most powerful groups on planet.

8. I merely wanted them to tie up. If they became one website or the vocabulary.com started donating say rice or wheat or books for kids: I would not need to play on both of them and switch over.

9. I understand: the way I put suggestions do seem naive and when you go into details you might find that two sites might have very different objectives in mind(education of two types? Duh, education can be of countless types.) I haven’t come across better initiatives where you don’t need PAN card, bank account, driving licence and so on to be charitable and you also learn new words.

10. I thank Jhonson O’ Connors of Generic Electrical for publishing annotated bibliography highlighting the verbal advantage which didn’t happen for me his family and son own Wordsmart Challenge. I got zero success with good vocabulary in my country. My rights were revoked and possessions seized. I really don’t know why. You may reckon by reading this article.

Gayatri Mantra Plus Anurag Sagar!

1. I had a nice meal and am wrapped under a shawl listening to Gayatri Mantra. This is a way to count blessings. When goings get tough, tough gets going means : tough changes with the change. Resilience.

2. Tough is not literally tough but adapting to changes. Yet: an element of Dharma is based on being stubborn bull: Taurine.

3. I gained first merit in only one of the jams. Can’t complain. I played ten of them with as many as fifty to seventy players in some of them, but as usual the ones with hundred players crashed: ” waiting for host to start the jam.” I might create some jams but where are people willing to join? Same thing as on other social media. Hence: I keep going through same jams. I have taught dozens of kids and told them about this website but couldn’t find even four or five to make a team which could play couple of games with me. Similarly : why I ball alone in stadium. Those with bats feel I am rude but if I let them play the ball will soon be lost and then it all comes to buying another for I don’t know the magic of materializing a ball.

4. I gained 1000 likes on this blog. It certainly has something to do with my participation on Blogger’s World. I thank all common members and uncommon members. I reached to the conclusion after trial and error : I needed to be an author here: the people I interacted most with in the last few years on WordPress were living luxuriously while I was begging and living on social welfare. I can’t monetize anything because government and private all offices have become same: they ask countless questions: use document and scanning to spy on you and control but when it comes to give you privacy or peace of mind: which translates as making you employed without slavery, giving you right to be independent in choice of living, letting you travel or open a bank account: there’s no help whatsoever. Moreover: if you don’t make money offline : chances are: you won’t make it online either.

5. The lasting pointers by parting sister-in-law were : why do parents not keep kitchen and store open? They still ring true. One is: the younger sibling always had a problem following laws. If the kitchen is left open all night: everything will be finished. No milk will be left for Mooslee or Shilaajeet. I need warm water and milk to survive winters. But the eight to ten hours long night and rest of the time with rude voices won’t let me have that. Well, the house was built by Shilajeet for Shilaajeet in Shilajeet. So be it. I was never helped to gain a respectable employment but consistently forced to accept things as they are. Sister-in-law also jabbed about my rushing to get food: because it gets finished: the vultures hate you living: and they have as many shades as you can imagine.

6. If I take a loan to buy a gas cylinder and a burner: it means I might continue to take loans for getting the cylinder filled. Ideals are age old. Grandmother, parents should have gone to Sanyasa and Vaanprastha by now but they are busy fucking each other over and over again. Look at the shameless politicians who should have gone to jungles or taken renunciation: all they do is to manipulate the meaning and to suit it to their ends: in the end they are right. For example: Modi should retire at an age of 71 as per BJP manifesto but he would continue like Shahid Afridi who never aged after 14 years until his retirement. I know that Mahakala grace can do that but…

7. How would taking loans to further take loans make me feel happy or richer. I not only paid loans on bike worth 72000 rupees and laptop worth 47000 rupees but also bought a guitar worth 7000 rupees which became a property of this household when I renounced. Then I was again a householder somehow without any right on materials. What a strange world you live in. The caution money was eaten up by sibling and bank account siezed by Shilaajeet.

8. I do hope that sister-in-law doesn’t come back and they get divorce settlement. New sister-in-law will create a new settlement. Either way I am here to merely witness without taking part in anything. I had warned the youngest about his getting humiliated if he goes for a householder’s life. He told me about being beaten by his father and elder brother with shoes when I returned from Dileep’s marriage. I asked him to be courageous and leave this premise: to which I was given a Chakravyooha charlatan treatment. I don’t like to be fucked merely by close relatives: it should be municipal corporation, country, religions and beasts : then it’s the TRUTH. Narayana.

9. I told him this: if it’s WRONG: I am willing to take my words back. His dreams of becoming an officer were not fulfilled. He was insulted regularly. They couldn’t let him go to coaching institutes. He couldn’t muster courage. They needed gutka shaker slave with fake Hindu values. The Panchali they need is going to be a servant of this house like he is. And these snakes merely want to reincarnate again and again in the same clan to guard their rotting treasures. He will be humiliated by his wife all his life for the want of dependency on her family. He has to say Raja, raja, raja, raja, imitating his father over the call countless times: in the end it will be the Raja not him doing the Rani. So let go of Rani. Let go of the handicap. Let go of the Hridesh Khare myth. Let go of the in-laws who will magically make everything right. Best you could do was to take my ideas and concoct them against me. That was the all creativity you could ever display.

10. The previous in-laws waited for the birth of a female child to get their claim on wealth. The new ones would do the same. And since according to Tiwari Ji the andakosha of the person in concern was destroyed during a bike incident it would need another surgery. Like previous in-laws waiting five years for seed for another baby girl. What’s bad with life; ever more- poor quality life where sandwiched between village and town people you long for more porn, more gutka more tambakoo ?

11. We are on the third storey now. We are competing with Tripathis and Sampat. We will show how filthy our minds, stomachs and brains are. We will, we will, get you!!!! Narayan Narayan. I am the biggest among hypocrites: because I started reading newspaper during the lockdown. I wasn’t allowed to sleep during eight years since 2012 in Peace because old lady refuses to die and young man sleeps only during the day: to educate them on current affairs: I began reading newspaper: the result was his vomitting everytime. What a hypocrite and cunning bastard indeed! Grandmother masturbates: that’s the best of Vedic knowledge. Father takes Mooslee and Shilaajeet while two of the children beg for food. Third one uses fake handicap certificate to maintain his job and fight a court case against another bunch of fake Hindu people. This is me versus who? I really don’t know. I am tucked inside a warm blanket listening Gayatri Mantra.

Team Blue With Minus 165 points!

1. I emerge as the jam leader after getting 2, 2, 3 and 4 ranks on Jam. Until PC who is from Massachusetts didn’t leave I remained merely a runner up. Then I got another second rank. Having not read enough fiction in English language makes me lag behind.

2. The most strange thing: team red scoring 2000 in minus. Both ships sank. Mine sank lesser!