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Kingfisher and Japuji!

1. I have received 1337 likes on Blogger’s World site. It was found in 2015, August. I thank everyone including Pam, Rashmi and Kristina.

2. I gave the coin worth ten rupees at poha stall. It was released in 2015.

3. A pack of fire sticks with khurkhand written on it was lying outside entrance to Rohan’s classroom. Khur means the hoof of a cow. Yesterday: Rohan was asking me to teach him how to make bull from cow and horse from donk! Khurkhand also reminds me of Vandana’s village.

4. Yesterday evening I counted Chepla birds. Today I saw some of them. Kids playing football were dapper and dashing. I mind my business. I counted the number of balls I threw. And now I recall why I had seen Hrithik Roshan smiling in an advertisement on Spotify this morning. A boy spoke like Krish as I was measuring the steps between goalposts on football ground. Who connects the dots but creator.

5. If I talk about evils and don’t talk about positives : it leaves me very sour and negative. I felt good to see my Chemistry teacher this morning.

6. I tried targeting the iron poll. A boy with a jacket number 1, Sagar Division, saluted couple of people exactly when a kingfisher did a trick in air and sat on top of iron pillar. I recalled all those days when I was researching Vedic scriptures online for traditional iron pillar worship. That ball hit the target. There were five of them sitting : Panch Parameshthi. I can’t make heads or tales of it. How that one I tried talking to had appeared yesterday on roof and now this one. I don’t know how it happens. Perhaps, some people have a knack to train kingfishers. I took a picture of pillar which was removed from my phone.

7. It was kingfisher who did a trick in Gathewara on wire. It was alarmed as I reached whereas it was happier today and yesterday. I read comics with super commando Dhruv in Raj Comics. Naagraj was the most popular but I always loved Dhruv. Dhruv was human whereas Naagraj was a king of Nagas. Mayank Shukla liked Tausi and Naagraj along with Amitabh Bachchan. My favorites were Dhruv, Bankelal, Govinda and Akshay Kumar. Dhruv could talk to birds like Raman Maharshi.

8. I bowled 34 times. 12 balls hit the iron pillar. I can improve with practice. This is the new normal. Walking to running to bowling in this city took 6 years! 8 years since apocalypse in 2012. I am wearing blue and yellow like Super commando Dhruv. God keeps record of all our childhood dreams. In Japuji: we read that he gives only equivalent of return for evil but ten times for good deeds.

9. There’s a certain satisfaction in the fact that limits are set by nature on our work. It appears like art because of it. Is a quote by Albert Einstein. I read it in The Einstein Factor by Win Wenger and Richard Poe in 2002. Rohan has been asking questions every ten second in the last 20 minutes. He can’t paint by himself. I might have written more. The publishing date of this book Japuji was Kartik Purnima 2020 or 18.11.1963. I am reading it in 2020 AD, hopefully on full Moon day as well.

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Rekha Madam!

1. She alighted from an e-rickshaw. I was walking with my gaze into ethereal shrine. I had a hunch: it might be her. She was waiting for someone.

2. I could have done it some other day. Why not now? To be genuine in my salutation for once.

3. She was wearing a white saari and she had grey hair with freckles on her cheeks. What I paid attention to, in particular, was the dot. The red bindi on her forehead.

4. She asked me how I was doing and i mirrored that with words. She asked me about my current job and my educational qualifications. I told her. Then she asked me about why I quit the job. Before I could complete: she said I would get more tuitions. You have started : you would get work in time.

5. I had heard her conversation with a student of hers. It was a long ago. I went to take her permission for something. The student was telling her : “I feel as if you don’t love me.”

But I love you and all others. Don’t ever think like this.

The student felt good.

She explicitly asked him to touch her feet.

6. I was baffled. Her love was wierd to say the least.

7. Satya Prakash was fond of mocking the sounds of her slaps. She used to beat naughty ones.

8. Myopia and hypermetropia ever remained the highlight of my study under her supervision. Kuldeep Shukla.

9. She ever remained a mystery.

10. Her hobby was Mathematics. On Sunday she used to practice Mathematics. She became a librarian like Laotzu. I thought I saw a look alike of Laotse outside JK cyber cafe. Previous one was in Vrijpura.

11. The student who touched her feet took Saurabh Singh to our section of MMHS and asked him to show one flying kick as he was learning karate.

I was wondering why it was such a big thing for I could do that. Gyanesh Chaturvedi had taught me kingry kick.

12. I used her dots till the end of the infinity. If someone implanted suggestions in me: it was her. Grammar. She was a grammarian and mathematician. She knew Hindi and English. If someone could be called hypatia of Maria Mata it was her. Her name is Rekha and there’s no parallel to her. Do parrallel lines meet at infinity? Her name was Rekha and she played with dots.

13. She triggered the avalanche of tears on our farewell day. I saw a tear in corner of her eyes as Ruchi was giving the parting speech. Ah, how could I have seen that. I would have cried in private but she made it a vidaai samaroh. When it comes to crying Rudra Academy always gets the first prize. Natarajan Pencils : champions once again!

15. A Sanskrit dictum says: good people appear harsh but they’re soft inside: like coconut. Others are like plums : soft only on outside. She could teach Sanskrit as well.

16. I saw Neelima and Maya mam in a dream recently and it resulted in meeting her.

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1. A black fish is swimming in aquarium. A lone fish.

2. A girl comes to watch us study. I call her by name and she goes upstairs.

3. A man called Hari on a red TVS bike. Outside Narasimha temple.

4. A man who was searching for something. A torch with another.

5. Krishna. Hari.

6. Monkeys. I bowl an over and a ball. Seven balls. After that I practice catching and the ball enters the pavilion. The place where they practice laughing.

7. That place is locked. The ball once went to its roof. I had a lesson that day. Another today. I saluted East as well as West.

8. A kingfisher perches on a white pipe on neighbor’s roof. As I try talking to it: another perches for a moment near me. Then it goes South West to an electric poll. Its wings were beautiful.

9. It was the most beautiful fog. Dhundh.

10. Two people saluted each other.

11. Rohan asks me to teach him: donk means horse. Scorpion means Saggitarius.

12. 11 are Rudras in Hindu pantheon.

13. Twin peaks. Twin flames. Gemini. Fire. Mouth of dragon. Priest. Speech. Air which purifies.

14. Fire is the carrier of merits. Prometheus.

15. Fire is current. The life force.

16. Fire is Sun. The Mars. Fire is Ganapati. Fire is Kethu. The liberation. The flag.

17. Fire is Shiva.

18. Fire is Rudras. The healers. Ashvini Kumaras. Dhanvantari.

19. Fire is rebellion. Fire is independence. Fire is Vallalar. Dancing light of grace. Fire is Manikavacchagar. Vaishwanara. Knowledge. Knowember. I bowled 5 overs. I enjoyed the view.

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May you rest in peace

1. I had a nice meal and now feel comfortable under the blanket.

2. We enjoyed catching practice: Piyush and I. We practiced it 1008 times. It was the most significant event of the day.

3. Piyush arrived as gloaming light was filtered through clouds. I had bowled 45 times and I wanted to reach the figure of 60 balls or 10 overs.

4. We had chat and chaat together.

5. I showed him Jupiter, Moon and Pluto conjunction. His Pluto is located in the second house. Pluto is Yama. Coldest. Gajakeshari Yoga formed in the sign of Sagittarius. I told him how to navigate in sky and find planets with the help of any kundali software. After Jupiter enters its sign of debilitation soon: Mars would take over as Atmakaraka.

6. I showed him the graffiti which I posted earlier on blog.

7. We played vocabulary jam together: I got 421 ranks in three of them respectively.

8. I recalled a dream in which I saw Ashok Arjariya under a bridge or in a tunnel. That seems to have come across as a message as I was meditating this morning. I found Vimla, the name of his wife written on pillar. I also found Appi/Arpit written nearby. These messages were received in advance before I read graffiti. I asked about an unclear word in which ‘s’ wasn’t clearly written to a boy standing nearby.

9. For many years I kept seeing picture of Ashok Arjariya in grandmother’s house. He was in military and used to drink a lot.

10. In Kota a strange thing happened: he was driving and moving slightly ahead of the goals. Santosh was getting angry at him for he valued oil too much. At a dhaba they went ahead leaving us behind and brought liquor for consumption later on.

11. I kind of woke up in evening by a noise at door. Drunk Santosh was trying to enter the premise when a bunch of college kids stopped him. I told them that I knew him. Then I felt anxious beyond description.

12. Ashok had returned for Chhatarpur after their drunken brawl.

13. When I came for Diwali vacation I realized that he had died in an accident. It was strange.

14. I felt bad for him. I was told : he was driving a bike towards Khajuraho when a bus struck it.

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Accidents were all orchestrated!

1. If every passing stage seems like a world of possibilities: you have lived enough. I took picture of the Surya Namaskar postures as I was returning from library.

The 12th man

2. If you count from the left: it’s 6th. If you count from right it’s 7th.

3. Service is the only resolution: is the motto of the community which established this one. Under it: you have people marching behind Gandhi.

4. The 6th or 7th salutation is known as Sashtang dandavata or salutation with all eight limbs. What are they? Hands and feet: 4. Forehead, nose, stomach and the rest. There are three or them with “Namaskar” posture.

5. I used to do many such salutations in Vrindavan. I never felt scarcity of food in Vrindavan. I was given the job of a priest. I volunteered for food distribution and then cleansing of pots etc. There were days when we only had rice or slept hungry because some pilgrims came unannounced but it was rare and the management wasn’t good. It became so hectic as to not allow any time for study.

6. When I came here from Vrindavan: many false promises were made. Many crocodile tears were shed and then I was questioned by all and sundry who regularly visit Khajuraho to quit internet or porn. To not read books online. To give up luxuries which were only food. Food became scarce because fat pigs ate what didn’t belong to them. They used fake handicap certificates. I always had enough. Even my caution money of 30000 rupees was consumed. The 66000 were used up by thugs. I was pursued to stay by people who said: don’t let him go because there’s a case against him(Rahul). What case was that? They were acting on a script of revenge all along. They added one family first: then another to it.

7. I would have disappeared from this world if I could. That’s what my every ounce of energy was spent for. Is it really so with others? With moaning grandmother lying outside like a dead corpse? Does she want euthanasia?

8. I never felt scarcity of food until these people who promised it in 2014: blocked both: a way to escape: by snatching away documents as well as completely blocking the chances of any lucrative employment.

9. Who would give employment to a renunciate? Even if I was a normal man: it needed contacts. Prashant Gupta once said: if you need to teach kids I would send many. Instead : his sim card which was issued in the name of Saddam was used to monitor my web activity. That’s all Adhar card and other technology was for: to prevent you from jerking off and to force you into reproducing babies into a world where crops of hatred and factions are sown. Gandhi Maarg. Vivekananda Maarg. Bullshit Maarg. Go fuck yourself and yours.

10. Sister in law was not brought in this house for my comfort. My space was sacked. Same with Rahul. After using bike and laptop : they were unhappy if I needed a little privacy. Passout of 2013: he got no job. Fake handicap certificates. Satya Prakash should have been put behind bars a long ago along with his father. I was already suffering from cerebral palsy when I agreed for that. I didn’t use them. Then I escaped to save my life. They haunted me for long. Then they started taunting about food.

11. Fuck a woman or many if you can and have a job. In other words: take responsibility for rotting flesh and be doomed further while they laugh on top of pyramid.

12. What a world behind prayers and worship. What a rotten system! Kabir righteously called it the village of dead: murdo ka gaanv. Mohanjodaro. cremation ground.

13. The suggestion about Vimla was put prior to my mind before I entered stadium. Then I saw beatific vision. It had started to drizzle when I was about to step down after my morning breathing on roof.

14. Vimla was the name of Ashok Arjariya’s wife: a friend of Santosh. He was his friend for 30 years. He died dramatically in an accident while travelling towards Khajuraho. I was shocked when the news was given.

15. They both drank as they went to Kota with many of us: in 2003. On a dhaba we were waiting for them. They brought liquor. I suspected but by evening Santosh was so drunk it was impossible to control him unless Ram Prakash Shukla had intervened. He kept him company in the jeep whole night. The next morning there were flies on his mouth as he lay sleeping near a drainage line outside the building. All my pride was gone: the second or third dark night.

16. Like grim reapers: they kept coming back for more. Be it Rahul in 2016 or Gudda in 2012. I still don’t understand: how that accident near Vaibhav’s house happened. I was supposed to drive but he took the reigns and then some boys on bike came from left. My knee was hurt again. Ankur, Arvind uncle and Ankur’s grandfather stopped riding bikes because of such people. I was hit with bike on purpose in 2018 as I began visiting library.

17. Organized and orchestrated hurting of most harmless individuals. Because they’re not in any yaana system you call them Heena.

18. This indeed is a fucked up world.

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Vishnu Sahastranama!

1. As one Rama is equal to 1000 names of Vishnu. One Gandhi is equivalent to 1000 Ramas. By logic: a picture is worth thousand words.

2. One jnana siddhar like: Vallalar or Patanjali or Kabir or Aandal or Meera is worth 1000 gandhis.

3. One of the last verses by Vallalar in which he talked about his names: he told his names to be:

Narayana. Arukkar. Adept. Civan. Shakti Civan. Sadashiva. Natarajan. Buddha.

All names are his names.

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Shri Sampradaya!

1. Diwali is the festival of worship of goddess.

2. Ramanujacharya established Shri Sampradaya.

3. His guru asked him to keep the mantra secret. He went on top of the ashrama gate and loudly called one and all: giving them all the mantra.

4. This didn’t offend guru. It made him happier. Such was sage Ramananda. He opened his door for all. Such was Kabir. Such was Guru Nanak Dev.

5. Om Raan(anusvaar for Rahu: the dragon’s head) Ramaay namaha is the mantra.

6. I don’t know if Ramananda chanted the same mantra.

7. Kabir chanted Rama. Prahlad chanted Rama. Ramanand chanted Rama. Ramalinga chanted namahsivaay. Manikavacchagar chanted namahsivaay.

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Anniversary!

1. Lest I forget: this completes: 9 year anniversary of my article “How to hoodwink.” Article is extinct. Memories are not.

2. It ousted me from heaven made by Saurabh Vyas. He thought he made my career. Hamare saath rahoge to aise hi aish karoge. He and his good looking mom. Genteel lady. Upper middle class. Have right to hoodwink. Not keeping words. Not planning well.

3. Satya Prakash Shukla and company: kept pestering me until I wrote that article. Akhand Jyoti Shukla. Prabhat Chacha. Veerendra Yadav. Neeraj who watched porn in class. Poor communication skills. Hindi medium. Lower middle class.

4. And: Saurabh’s friend Siddharth Khare. Code Frux.

5. Anu Garg’s annagram server.

6. Rameshlal Bhatija’s house in Pie Layout. Bangalore. Karnataka. Om Shanti Shanti Shantih.