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Guilty as charged!

I needed to admit my guilty pleasure:

Let the whole world know: I have thrived in the last six months beyond my wildest dreams. As Tesla said in an interview: I have only gained and gained. Not weight offcourse but all the rest.

Should I have a survivor’s guilt?

I shared models of life to educate myself:

War. School. Prison. Dream. Journey. Work.

They overlap yet it’s the prison which made me feel my darkest fears. Solitary confinement is as much of a joke to me as Corona. I challenge Red Onion or any other state prisons to lock me up for experiment.

I once entered the parking lot of Cognizant solutions where lift dropped you but didn’t pick you up back unless someone came to take you. That was one of the mini deaths of being in a box for five to ten minutes but I would have stayed there for as long as body allowed itself : Rajkumar Rao’s trapped gives the vicarious experience of eating rats and becoming a non-vegetarian to save one’s life.

How many years before Zombie Apocalypse or Ramalinga Paradesi?

It’s still Purge and Contagion. Two Hollywood movies did better than all of India’s political and media houses combined together: add minority report and inception and you’re done. I downloaded project Gutenberg and it was crazy crap. I need some real science fiction movies to dream but new ones are not being made and olden are golden.

I am more free than most. Means i belong to those who have brought about the calamity? Thanos the nose. Populace lac lace embrace

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Full Moon or Mechanical Siren?

Can you see it?

I would spell it:

Whereas camera of the smartphone captures a circular dot akin to the full Moon: my eyes with glasses and otherwise record and see only a waning Ashtami Moon. Strange, isn’t it? And if you read this blog regularly, you know that full Moon of Vaishakh Poornima wasn’t quite full. It’s a strange strange world for sooth.

Kailee Morgues Siren is the new fad for me. Stay tuned, stay safe.

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Narmada, Death, Pigs, Polythene, Vishakhapatnam, Suicide and Narada!

1. We had a brief discussion on effect of Corona. We seemed to agree on improvement in air quality. Narmada and Godavari couldn’t be cleansed even after big movements and activists like Medha Patkar sacrificed their lives for the cause. Godhead heard them and Narmada is cleaner. It works in mysterious ways.

2. Deaths:

Look at the tally. Today’s newspaper says 2 crore children will be born this year. Even in USA it would be 30 lakh births. USA being the top contributor to the Deathalymoixs would gain at least 26 lakh lives this year. Population explodes further in India. Old people were dying before. Why use the guise of a Virus managed by the states and central government with the help of a system of journalists who are either sold or are too scared to see the naked emperor roaming the streets without clothes.

May 8, 2020, Aditya.

3. Polythene and Polymer

Styrene gas leak on Thursday in morning hours, killed about 11 people and many others including police and rescue team as well as flora and fauna in the 5 kilometres area surrounding the chemical factory owned by a South Korean company. The factory was previously owned by default magnate Vijay Mallya. It’s an irrelevant info. Like this: Vishakha constellation influence ends and the event happened in Vishakha Pattnam. Pattnam means a bandargaah or a port. Vishakha means sub-bra ch. With Narada Jayanti the month of Jyesh tha begins. The biggest heaviest Dharma as Sun drinks most of the water from your body and you absorb greatest amount of Sunlight. Mythical hero of Mahabharata epic who was named Yudhisthira had this constellation. His name can be broken down into: Yudh and Sthira, which means the one who remains steadfast among vicissitudes or in the face of war. He went to heavens with his body. He ruled Indraprastha for 36 years.

Coming to normal: breaking off of the tangent: polyethylene or single use plastic ban is the government sponsored joke of this decade. Like flying cars being available to all and sundry by the year 2015. Smartphones are indeed available to most of us and I thank those who envisioned a 2020 with many hands using most modern computers in their pockets. I really do. Internet had improved my knowledge base and now smartphone is the only tool to meaningfully connect with cross ethnic groups. But where are the flying cars? That was a fiction like Arthur C. Clarke’s odysseys culminating in 2016.

I have to mostly remove single use plastic from drainage system outside my house as I burn the garbage. Most of the garbage is polythene bags. Why did they announce that they were going to ban it? Another suggestion is to not show warnings for alcohol and cigarette smoking and drinking. Be it TV or movies or packs or bottles. Don’t do that. People know the risk. My father, a chain smoker since the age of 14 years is 55 now. He filled an unspeakable amount of poison in our young lungs since childhood and we were suffering from bronchitis asthma etc. He looks hail and hearty. Don’t print warnings for everyone knows that Liquor and other toxins can’t be banned. In my walks someone or the other spits just as they see me walking. Sometimes it’s throng of people and now I know it’s not offensive. UP and Madhya Pradesh are states of Gutka eaters and paan masala guys who do as they please for they had attained Bramhjnana. They keep coughing and sneezing all day long and never take care of their bodies which have been sold to Devil and its advocates.

4. Pigs without Pepperwork:

Today 1000 labourers arrive here from Delhi. My father in a team of 5 is working to enlist the people who are diagnosed for the symptoms of Corona by the medical staff. I had downloaded the Aarogya Sethu application by the Ayush department of India. I took the survey and it declared me healthy. The blue tooth thing didn’t work as there were no cases (how could there be?) Hence I deleted the app. It had asked me if I was willing to volunteer for service to the cause and I said yes. Nobody approached me. I offered my voluntary services to enlist people with my father this morning as I want occassionally to escape this complex where trapped air has mostly the frustrated blabbering of my siblings, mother, father and grandmother. They have lost their jobs and feel insecure about their futures. By escaping from this complex for a few hours I would have breathed in some fresh air but the stadium as well as ashram are still locked. Where do I go? No matter where I go people look at me with suspicion and mockery. Mostly because of the clothes I wear as I use only a pair of them for being minimalist and I need to wash them as my parents haven’t spent even 2K on my clothes in a year. They had promised to take care of basics and not to interfere in my meditation. They left no stone unturned to ensure that I was not able to leave for another destination which might have been Tamil nadu, Hardwar or Rishikesh. Now I need to prove my worth on a daily basis to get a few crumbs.

Gist: they are like leaders who keep only the promises which are conducive to winning the elections.

Fear of death, fear of humiliation, mind control using police, media and battery as well as technology are key aspects of 21s century regime.

Municipal corporation promised to remove pigs. There are at least 25 pigs outside my house on a regular basis. There were none 5 years ago. Why are they proliferating? Neighborhood complains about not being able to feed cows who are useful animal.

4. Narada Jayanti

Marks the birth of sage Narada who is considered divine and an incarnation of lord Vishnu. He’s undoubtedly one of the most popular devotees in India. Only Hanuman, Dhruva and Prahlad come anywhere close to his impeccable reputation. Narayana, Narayana on his lips with a pair of cymbals and Veenaa in his hands, he’s the epitome of devotional Love. He features prominently in all of the greatest mythical stories. For example: he’s present as a counselor to Sage Vyasa in the Bhagvat Puran. He was the one who inspired him to create a song praising dancing darkness of grace. Bhagvat is a testament of grace. A song full of divine love. Narada is also present in Valmiki”s transformation event. He changed his heart by meeting the divine sage and became a creator of immortal epic of Ramayana. Narada is also present in the story of Dhruva and Prahlad. Vashishtha might come closer to the reputation of the divine journalist who was equally respected by angels and demons. With a time machine I would have loved to walk with Narada a few miles: hearing him chant Narayana, Narayana. The sage who gave Paanchratra and Narada Bhakti Su tra. My most humble obseianxe to one of the greatest among renunciates.

5. A bird chirped sweet as I woke up. It’s still twittering. Mrig Yoni, Devagana, Kolav Karana, Bramhin Varna, Gemini Ascendant with Mercury being the Atmakaraka in Sagittarius in Navamsa. Prati pada of Krishna Paksha begins. Jyesh tha month begins. Mercury rules the constellation. It’s Dharma dominant.

6. A labourer had to walk 1000 kilometres from Soora t Gujarat to Panna. He collapsed in Chhatarpur where he was taken care of by the medical staff and a gentleman gave him 500 rupees to help him.

7. A 37 year old government employee hanged himself to death in Panna. Reasons unknown. May he rest in peace. Please help raise awareness for euthanasia. Thanks for reading.

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Scurrilous monologues

1. It’s the first quarter of Swati and Leo ascendant. I was talking to my grandmother and mother about hype created around the character of Karan in the epic Mahabharata. Immaculate conception seems to be one of the cause and solar dynasty ruling our psyche the other. Bhagvat Puran among many others has clear lineage of Solar Dynasty given in it. And if it’s historical as the word Itihaas suggests it means it should be taken seriously. A Hanuman temple in the city has lineage of Rama the hero of Ramayana of Valmiki inscribed on its wall. I took time to read Mahabharata published by Geeta press Gorakhpur during my ten months stay in Vrindavan as I was serving lord Jagannatha temple in Gyaan Gudri. I felt Karan had almost no role to play. It was Vaasudev Shri Krishna and Arjuna who turned the game singlehandedly. Mahakaala did what it had promised to do.

2. Team A had 3 players. Team B had 4-6 players. Team A was preying and Team B was preyed upon. I was the one snake like Vaasuki being churned for getting ambrosia from Ocean. Which team had gods, which team had demons?

I would leave it upto you.

Team A lead was my flatmate.

Team B lead was my sibling.

A Skype interview.

Some false hope and cash transactions .

A few months later. Team A complains about lack of competence of Team B. Team B complaints about Team A being cunning and crooked.

Result for me: I lose job. Get into the drugs and devotion together and ultimately go to a temple to worship. Team A and B both look down upon me and it brought me here.

It was an article like this one. A scurrilous monologue. On November 17, 2011. I would do that again. A zillion times. There were times when I regretted having spoken the Truth at the cost of losing luxury and path of material gains. Now I don’t.

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Euthanasia

1. Since I contemplated suicide multiple times, my heart is saddened by the news of youngsters committing suicide in local newspapers. Euthanasia should be birthright of every human being and animal.

2. In my evening walk I saw a foundation stone for ward number 23.

The inscription has a name:

Harihara Gandarbh.

The name should have been :

Harihara Gandharva.

Gandarbh or Gandharva?

3. Gandharva is a category of beings often talked about in Hindu literature for their skills related to music and dancing. In aforementioned case I am sure I read his name as the suggested correction on his nameplate outside his office. It might sound pedantic or persnickety but when the name is on a stone inscription it ought to be accurate. Isn’t it?

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Codex Reading and Swearing!

1. Downloaded the Constitution of India. PDF. Through the PDF. India is a socialist democracy. It is preamble and there are 268 pages. I should be able to complete reading it on or before the next time Moon transits through the Hasta quarter 4. That’s about 27 days at the rate of 10 pages per day.

2. 700 verses of Bhagwad Geeta are well understood by me though I can’t use them as references at all times–memorizing them wouldn’t be difficult either.

3. I tried downloading and reading Quraan. Didn’t work. I would need someone who can give a transpose. Not until then.

4. Japuji is one of my favorites-a clear word on Hukm. The first order. 1onkar satnaam.

5. I have been through old and the new testaments and I grasp them and their essence well enough.

Bhagwad Geeta!

6. Since I don’t understand Yiddish or Hebrew and both of them are Greek to me, I don’t plan on reading Sefer Yetzirah. I would rather read some programming language like one offered by the eDX online.

7. Once I am done with these my basics would be sound enough to debate my case in a court of LAW, in the case a need arises.

8. These are the only codex used to swear on to make witnesses and accused responsible for speaking the truth and nothing but the truth.

9. I might be a fan of solipsism sometimes but at others I feel I need some events to create meaning and events need sense perception, flora as well as fauna. People. Male and female. Young and old. Good and not so good. Beautiful and ugly. Dichotomies and infinity. Dejavus and infinite combinations. False memories and suggestions.

10. Let this note be a reminder to myself on my reading of Bhagwad Geeta by Vaasudev Shri Krishna aka Shri Krishna Dwaioayana Vyasa as well as Constitution of India. Since it’s the first time my reading of the book I would like to be thorough and ensure I understand at least the meaning of terms used. Rest will follow later!

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Trimmer!

1. I use a flipkart Smart Buy trimming instrument made in China purchased by my younger sibling. It has a reverse table of 2 printed on its back side-

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2. It takes me about 10 minutes to trim my beard and shave my head.

3. It gives a smooth massage to scalp as well as mandibular area.

4. In Summers regular shaving and frequently bathing with cold water is soothing for all especially those who have mystic fire.

5. I keep trimmer charging whenever smartphone isn’t using it, this makes me careless about having to face a situation in which it’s drained of battery.

6. I hope you enjoyed reading it. I burnt some garbage in scorching Sun. The old vegetable seller was coming back from stadium market and senile old beggar had swollen feet. He’s delirious. I put some water for cow as it was thirsty and gave it couple of roti to eat. Only a piglet came out to have wet peels of vegetables drenched in the water drained out of utensils which I washed after cooking and brunching and rest of them were taking bath in drainage canals and small puddles as it had rained a bit in yesterday evening’s thunderstorm like in that of the day before’s.

The Trimmer

Time taken– 19 minutes.

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37 minutes!

1. Easy is Right. Begin easy and you are right. Continue right and you are easy ; the easy way about the right way is to forget it’s easy and forget it’s right. Chuang tzu. Quoted by Osho.

2. Moderation is difficult. Especially if it’s in all walks of life. You become wooden Denmark marksmanship wrecked for good and eternity.

3. Hence you leave some domains for not being moderate. And they are domains; temporal by definition moderated so at best you ride a guilt trip inbuilt in the system. Pendulum swings in favor of cold dissolvers sometimes and in favor of frenzied creators at others. Those who speak truth in polite words without distorting it or without diluting , are indeed, rare, but not absent.

4. Ants have drank all my sweet water. Maybe I am exaggerating a bit, it’s not much. I visited Blogger’s World. ONeta Hayes was someone I had interacted with and I found her comment on some blog. From there it was not a rocket Science to figure out the URL and bookmark it. Pam Chris is still around. I was the founder and I was miserably kicked out for trusting some ladies. The lesson I learnt was to not give unsolicited advise, not to work for free and not to chat freely with wives, sisters and girlfriends or boyfriends of others uselessly. They deserted the place and the vision was lost sooner than I thought. I survived there only for four months. And they couldn’t keep the momentum up. After all it was me alone on mission of world dominion and I bit more than I could chew. I am enrolled in another workshop provided by WordPress today. I would see if I can brush up. I also plan on commenting on Blogger’s World as and when new posts arrive and I am free for my author access was revoked. These posts are in a way a challenge to all those hidden and former enemies who made me feel wretched. Now I am doing what they wanted me to do and yet I am stronger being a scaled singularity. Booby traps or guilt rides won’t do it for me this time around as I am working not gor love or light bhut gor myself.

5. Those who work for others have no soul left in them. Despite the understanding of mutual harmony and dependent arising, one should always work for oneself in business. The charity of business is still a business; those keeping record of deeds and those keeping records of intentions are two different departments. And unless you play you matter neither gor for one nor dor others.

6. I burned my brain. Cells regrew.

7. I am ice cold and Steve Austin was my favorite place sometime in my childhood. I can’t create unless I am on a iceberg. If I do as need arises sometimes, on fire, dire consequences ensue. Balance is as easy as enema. As a deep breath, as a polite word, as dancing light, as right hand over left or a grammar error in place of an umlaut.

Time taken- 37 minutes.

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Workmanship!

1. Dogs are barking, birds are chirping the morning song, mosquitoes are romancing with my skin, stars are about to set soon as I sit to write this after a long walk.

2. I counted the milestone steps yesterday. They were 1000. I did 8 rounds, walking about 8000 steps in my imagination. Some batlings horsefly hover over samovar varsity in the eastern horizon with the golden Hiranyagarbh.

3. The dawn doesn’t let me care genuinely about current economical trends. In fact, I have found most people happier than they were before.

4. Nisarga said in his talks that humanity as a whole would be happier when some truly great leaders would take charge of guiding the humanity towards enlightened golden era. It seems to be the case right now. If everything is happening as it should, what qualms could you have and for how long?

5. In 2006, I started purusing Michael Quinions website–World Wide Words. I was a Hindi medium student until higher secondary and though it was a convent my communication skills were not healthy. Since I needed to prepare for campus recruitment drive, though I had become a renunciate by 2003, I set a goal of learning at least 50 words everyday.

6. Norman Vincent Peale Word Power Made easy, Barron’s as well as AV, my classmate who had cleared GRE made me motivated to improve my English vocabulary. I thought, it would indeed be a good idea to set a higher goal and to learn as well as retain– even one fifth of what I read would have been an accomplishment.

7. Quinions selection had a magical effect. Etymology was addictive. I once forgot my moped bike outside the cyber cafe and it remained there the whole night as I had a nice sleep dreaming about the words. The next morning landlord asked where my moped was and dumbfounded I ran towards the shop happy to find it intact where I had left. Bhopal was a place of honest people. I left the vehicle once again outside the mess and found it without any trouble in the morning. These were the only adventures I had in my college life, more or less.

8. If it was the earnest vocabulary augmentation or the good fortune I got the job offer on February 14, 2006, in the sixth semester. Then I waited and waited and akin to lockdown extensions they kept extending joining dates. Multinationals work in similar fashion. After doing tonnes of courses online sent by that organisation who were watching our speed and performance, I got a joining on October 31, 2009. It was 3 years 8 months since getting the offer letter and almost 1 year 5 months since getting a bachelor’s degree. I worked in a hardware electronics factory in Govindpura where I learned nothing but realised I was truly immortal as an epiphany hit me while reading Origin of Species by Darwin. I told the good news to co-workers who scoffed at me for they had read such news on every other day since their childhood.

9. People at linkage telecom soon realised that I went there only to have tea and as I saw boss going for lunch breaks, I too started going for it. Results were harsh. I was recommended to eat in the factory during the lunch and also to not indulge in the newspaper reading and also to arriviste on time to attend funeral processions. It was akin to my higher secondary school where someone or the other used to die every other day.

10. But the real problem wasn’t those things. I was indulgent with 3600 rupees extra per month as salary as I already recieved 2500 from home. Me and my brother used to have plenty of bread and butter until I resigned in December 2008. Peer pressure plus bronchitis. I was not waiting for joining dates, like I am not waiting for upliftment of lockdown. Landlord, like a good caring father figure used to exhort me politely oxymoronixally and I devoted myself to taking long walks as well as reading Sherlock Holmes cannon. Fodder for der juror Teutonic. I had developed a penchant for writing on mad philosopher guild. The site soon went defunct and I landed on the couch where I kept writing keeping my post count just below that of forum owners. She on the one hand said it wasn’t about numbers on the other did everything to ensure that she was the top contributor. Moreover she was the only person who was convinced that it was a material universe and not spiritual as I was given to seek and search until I started contributing on that site. It was attacked by hackers unethically and finally the message said to master the telepathy which I couldn’t so here I am raving about ranting on and on onions.

11. The conclusion was supposed to be that current socioeconomic scenario is similar to what happened in 2008 in my universe but difference is that there were people working at that time and it was partial because it was the Lehmann Brothers and bankers not a fake virus outbreak propaganda.

12. My joining the group and working was short-lived. My tenure lasted a little more than 3 years including training period of three and half years in which I was mostly distributing chocolates and pursuing mirages for romance. I could not learn programming. The assertion in the recruitment interview that I was researching higher human intelligence and not the Artificial Intelligence was true to the best of my knowledge and potentially I was supposed to master the programming as well as keep growing by taking departmental tests. I was fed up of tests and wanted final rest and rest I got in full by quitting the job and becoming a renunciate priest as I used to say often to my coworkers.

13. I have enrolled for free audit course on Harvard’s eDX online program website for learning Python basics. The kid in vicinity said it was the buzz. I don’t know how much I would be able to learn for my logic is not upto the mark and I have still not mastered See and See Plus plush . It would teach me what essential ingredients in my make up were missing in the college years which let me not muster the courage to master the programming languages which might have made me a real geek. Actually I read nothing about technology and programming languages. I merely needed to get enlightened. The glamour made around a mythical Utopia where unicorns danced and you had no pain in body and no suffering. All lies.

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For Goat The Title is Ramses!

1. I feel excellent today.

2. Rishi Kapur passed away. He was a big celebrity. RIP.

3. Neighborhood was quiet until it wasn’t quiet. The boy was shouting his throat out. The mom was being reasonable and slightly goading.

4. I asked for a new smartphone. They said this one was a reward for my cleaning the house before Diwali. I cleansed and they gave me a second hand already hacked device with cracks on screen. I didn’t ask for it but now I need a better smartphone to write better. Earlier I used a laptop and used to wonder how someone blogged using smartphone with tiny screens, now, I count the blessings of being able to focus sharper.

5. Sky has some haziness. Not enough to provide solace. Birds and kittens talk to me sometimes. I mingle well with those on night rounds to keep the fort intact and I do it better when I don’t have a smartphone in the pocket of my runners.

6. I asked them– “Do you remember, a banyan tree used to be here, in this complex, pointing to the field nearby?”

“We haven’t been here for that long–was the answer” as expected.

7. I recalled later–mango tree it was. It had given innumerable carries for us as kids, even when we kept pelting stones at it. Now a young Neem tree is dancing in its place.

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Tohu2

1. Clarion onion anguine sanguine.

2. Abaca abacus Bacchus hustlers.

3. Guava balava Baba avaxado.

4. Nabob baobab Babadook SpongeBob.

5. Legerity largesse legendary vair.

6. Variorum rumpledstiltedskin

7. Murmurous rush.

8. Caracas Caracal Caravan casserole.

9. Deuteranopia opiate neutral force.

10. Lagniappe appleseed cedar park.

13 minutes.

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XYZ

1. Maheshwari Kala: the third ray. Uses diction to fix and fiction to dicks. An example: The Hollywood movie: Happy Death Day’s big reveal [Spoiler Alert!] The great environmental problems are pinpointed to be your family’s problems. Government and society can reach only upto this limit. The psychology reaches a bit deeper by suggesting problems in psyche which need healing, counseling and the like. The Parapsychology reaches even further by indicating roles of unconscious, subconscious and cosmic minds in creating all your life situations.

2. Workmanship

Unless I wash dishes the old lady has to do it. The maid comes only once and even then on some conditions. It shouldn’t be cloudy and so on. I started washing dishes for old ladies and also for keeping my feet on ground. It continued until Corona Outbreak, when old lady suddenly got spasmodic and on two successive days insisted upon cleaning them. I obliged upon the risk of being called useless here with a hint that she could let me continue once she feels weary of it.

The two big boys have only two works: ration and vegetables. Vegetable sellers keep whining all day long here and they are also semijobless. I asked them to assign me to bring vegetables and or ration whenever they insinuated that I was useless. They never wanted to lose control of that. The young one is dreaming that mommy would keep him safe while she herself goes to a doctor to take injections for Malaria and she pants heavily as she walks. I asked her to reduce weight but it’s next to impossible for her to follow my instructions for I am considered deranged. I have healthy BMI and I keep strict control on my diet. They are all gone cases. They keep watching soaps all day long programming themselves with third class acting of so called classical religious soaps of eightees which make the spiritual mind of most idiot box addicts.

3. Identification and Mystic Fire

Mystery schools and Zen monasteries existed and they are myths for me. Here I found one acute problem. Kundalini filters constantly play with one’s presumed gender identities but poison being too much in the environment it merely becomes churning of an inherently unavoidable identity. Body is also a result of constant sensory feedback loops and environment creates body as body creates environment. But the fundamental ability to dissolve it at will and shift your shape is not attained unless the whole environment is swept away of poisons.

4. Agneesara

Since I consumed plenty of sugar boiled in water as a glucose supplement in fasting detoxification: I had some stomach ache. The lukewarm water is needed for taking enema and they subtly prohibited that. I have been using cold water and it takes more time. I had such problems in early boyhood. I used to consume too much sugar then. It was a habit. Now it’s a necessity. In those days I used to have trouble with constipation as well as cough. Now they both are under control.

5. Listening to Osho talks seemed relaxing. In his talk on Gandhi he accused him of being a politician who let common people believe he was a saint. They wanted money not peace and instead he gave them poverty, according to him.

6. It’s birthday of Adi Shankaracharya and Soordasa. I am fond of both poets. Especially Shankaracharyas Char…Ranjika Sutra. Here is a link:

Bhajan Govindam

41.24.99/28.4.2020.Marsday.