I know it’s not a discussion forum. I also know that I am not likely to get an answer. I intend to increase my post count.
I have heard about bees disappeared results in world war or was it draught or apocalypse. What about Mosquitoes. I don’t have a Vivekananda concentration but you wish. My life would have been infinitely richer without them.
Margin barges in…
The mars gingerly,
Lyrically calculably
Lullaby abalone
Baloney
Shingles jingles
Till toll free roll,
Dives endives nice mouse
Chouse use house loose.
1. All threads started by Sun.
2. Am reading through the looking glass. Haven’t read it before unlike Wonderland.
3. This could just have been a tweet. A microbiology why knot.
I was not the same when I had a difficult time believing that one day reading my own words would become the greatest source of inspiration to me. Now as I read myself: I find a most authentic and most trustworthy source of inspiration which is more than merely surface consciousness. There was a time when I remembered all that I had written. I recall that day in Bhopal when I told SV about having scribbled 35 pages at stretch. And I retained all that I had written. I was confident that I recalled all that I had spoken or written down. That was also the reason why it didn’t give me the inspiration or sheer joy to read myself back. Now it’s a different matter. My bandwidth has increased. And I find new gems: soothing and comforting to my body and mind. My pure body of gnosis grows vast.
Birds are chirping and singing. A drilling machine makes noise in the hands of a carpenter working in the neighborhood. He has been working for many days. This body has been sweating incessantly as I sit under the shed of tin foil.
Miss communication is so rampant. It made me drive a few blocks. I have broken a few of my resolves recently: like- no sleeping during the day, no consuming of milk products, no Kurkure or sweets and sweat is so near to sweetmeats.
I need to burn oil lamps under an Ashwath tree at the time of the Twilight as it’s a Saturday and retrograde Saturn must be appeased. I hear distant sirens of buses and dogs barking. Clouds have been playing hide and seek with the Sun. I tried listening to A Scandal in Bohemia but it didn’t create the requisite effect. I need to read the newspaper aloud to grandma for appeasing her demons. But only after I have had an instant coffee. Riding the bike goes with instant coffee and bike had a dry battery today because of the heat. I registered for another edX course on Ebola pandemic and I plan on finishing it up by the end of the next week.
A subtle soft chirping of crickets is audible. I keep asking myself: was this day a success? What were the key events of this day?
Vaidhri ti is not considered a good Nitya Yoga and a lot of planets are retrograde. I read Bhagvat Puran and sang Gayatri Mantra early morning. Yesterday evening drizzle only increased the humidity in the environment therefore the last two days felt extremely hot. I burnt some garbage and cleansed the pig dung along with soot. Ambulance sirens are audible and an acau seed pod flies high. It’s the most potent seed pod I have observed naturally because instead of birds it does its own job. No wonder the whole nine yard is full of new acau shoots whereas we had chopped them off. It wasn’t possible to uproot them. I hesitate in doing that again. My objective is primarily to keep drainage lines clean and the ground in a situation which lets kids enjoy the game without making them injured or fatigued. I hurt my right leg thumb and it bled during a fielding session where I saved some runs. The reason? Accumulation of small stones and pebbles on ground during the severe lockdown version 2. Those debrees are still waiting to be cleared out. Now kids don’t contribute into cleansing the ground. I invited them to participate in the cleaning ritual to inculcate a good habit in them. We cleansed for 5 minutes everyday and since we were 10 or more people it was about an hour of work everyday.
Observing that they were reluctant, I stopped asking them. And you might be surprised how thorough I am in reaching to conclusions regarding public affairs where I am the one in charge: I wanted one of them to say it: that they didn’t want to give their five minutes everyday for cleaning. We were playing for about 90 to 100 minutes at the time. After relaxation in the lockdown 3.0 we started playing again and none of them came forward to offer help in keeping the ground clean. Having previously witnessed their reluctance I only considered it normal to let go and continue doing it myself. Nobody likes policing. I have been doing garbanzo beans for about six months this season and yet polyethylene, leaves, stones and wood is piling up in the drainage lines.
I need tools. Individuation wasn’t as miraculous as living fluid in the schizopolis but it keeps you safe. Of what use a rotten system of Tantra in India is : since it depends on clothes, hair, tuft, classes and money along with lots of swearing. I understand why humans are crown of creation. I also understand why education is so important. I also realise how kabbalah is essentially Bhagvat dharma. Easy eradication of delusional superstition is much preferably superior to fathomless dark night of pseudo religions where nobody understands meaning of any words but talks a lot.
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I needed to admit my guilty pleasure:
Let the whole world know: I have thrived in the last six months beyond my wildest dreams. As Tesla said in an interview: I have only gained and gained. Not weight offcourse but all the rest.
Should I have a survivor’s guilt?
I shared models of life to educate myself:
War. School. Prison. Dream. Journey. Work.
They overlap yet it’s the prison which made me feel my darkest fears. Solitary confinement is as much of a joke to me as Corona. I challenge Red Onion or any other state prisons to lock me up for experiment.
I once entered the parking lot of Cognizant solutions where lift dropped you but didn’t pick you up back unless someone came to take you. That was one of the mini deaths of being in a box for five to ten minutes but I would have stayed there for as long as body allowed itself : Rajkumar Rao’s trapped gives the vicarious experience of eating rats and becoming a non-vegetarian to save one’s life.
How many years before Zombie Apocalypse or Ramalinga Paradesi?
It’s still Purge and Contagion. Two Hollywood movies did better than all of India’s political and media houses combined together: add minority report and inception and you’re done. I downloaded project Gutenberg and it was crazy crap. I need some real science fiction movies to dream but new ones are not being made and olden are golden.
I am more free than most. Means i belong to those who have brought about the calamity? Thanos the nose. Populace lac lace embrace
1. It’s the first quarter of Swati and Leo ascendant. I was talking to my grandmother and mother about hype created around the character of Karan in the epic Mahabharata. Immaculate conception seems to be one of the cause and solar dynasty ruling our psyche the other. Bhagvat Puran among many others has clear lineage of Solar Dynasty given in it. And if it’s historical as the word Itihaas suggests it means it should be taken seriously. A Hanuman temple in the city has lineage of Rama the hero of Ramayana of Valmiki inscribed on its wall. I took time to read Mahabharata published by Geeta press Gorakhpur during my ten months stay in Vrindavan as I was serving lord Jagannatha temple in Gyaan Gudri. I felt Karan had almost no role to play. It was Vaasudev Shri Krishna and Arjuna who turned the game singlehandedly. Mahakaala did what it had promised to do.
2. Team A had 3 players. Team B had 4-6 players. Team A was preying and Team B was preyed upon. I was the one snake like Vaasuki being churned for getting ambrosia from Ocean. Which team had gods, which team had demons?
I would leave it upto you.
Team A lead was my flatmate.
Team B lead was my sibling.
A Skype interview.
Some false hope and cash transactions .
A few months later. Team A complains about lack of competence of Team B. Team B complaints about Team A being cunning and crooked.
Result for me: I lose job. Get into the drugs and devotion together and ultimately go to a temple to worship. Team A and B both look down upon me and it brought me here.
It was an article like this one. A scurrilous monologue. On November 17, 2011. I would do that again. A zillion times. There were times when I regretted having spoken the Truth at the cost of losing luxury and path of material gains. Now I don’t.
1. Since I contemplated suicide multiple times, my heart is saddened by the news of youngsters committing suicide in local newspapers. Euthanasia should be birthright of every human being and animal.
2. In my evening walk I saw a foundation stone for ward number 23.
The inscription has a name:
Harihara Gandarbh.
The name should have been :
Harihara Gandharva.
3. Gandharva is a category of beings often talked about in Hindu literature for their skills related to music and dancing. In aforementioned case I am sure I read his name as the suggested correction on his nameplate outside his office. It might sound pedantic or persnickety but when the name is on a stone inscription it ought to be accurate. Isn’t it?
1. I use a flipkart Smart Buy trimming instrument made in China purchased by my younger sibling. It has a reverse table of 2 printed on its back side-
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2. It takes me about 10 minutes to trim my beard and shave my head.
3. It gives a smooth massage to scalp as well as mandibular area.
4. In Summers regular shaving and frequently bathing with cold water is soothing for all especially those who have mystic fire.
5. I keep trimmer charging whenever smartphone isn’t using it, this makes me careless about having to face a situation in which it’s drained of battery.
6. I hope you enjoyed reading it. I burnt some garbage in scorching Sun. The old vegetable seller was coming back from stadium market and senile old beggar had swollen feet. He’s delirious. I put some water for cow as it was thirsty and gave it couple of roti to eat. Only a piglet came out to have wet peels of vegetables drenched in the water drained out of utensils which I washed after cooking and brunching and rest of them were taking bath in drainage canals and small puddles as it had rained a bit in yesterday evening’s thunderstorm like in that of the day before’s.
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1. Easy is Right. Begin easy and you are right. Continue right and you are easy ; the easy way about the right way is to forget it’s easy and forget it’s right. Chuang tzu. Quoted by Osho.
2. Moderation is difficult. Especially if it’s in all walks of life. You become wooden Denmark marksmanship wrecked for good and eternity.
3. Hence you leave some domains for not being moderate. And they are domains; temporal by definition moderated so at best you ride a guilt trip inbuilt in the system. Pendulum swings in favor of cold dissolvers sometimes and in favor of frenzied creators at others. Those who speak truth in polite words without distorting it or without diluting , are indeed, rare, but not absent.
4. Ants have drank all my sweet water. Maybe I am exaggerating a bit, it’s not much. I visited Blogger’s World. ONeta Hayes was someone I had interacted with and I found her comment on some blog. From there it was not a rocket Science to figure out the URL and bookmark it. Pam Chris is still around. I was the founder and I was miserably kicked out for trusting some ladies. The lesson I learnt was to not give unsolicited advise, not to work for free and not to chat freely with wives, sisters and girlfriends or boyfriends of others uselessly. They deserted the place and the vision was lost sooner than I thought. I survived there only for four months. And they couldn’t keep the momentum up. After all it was me alone on mission of world dominion and I bit more than I could chew. I am enrolled in another workshop provided by WordPress today. I would see if I can brush up. I also plan on commenting on Blogger’s World as and when new posts arrive and I am free for my author access was revoked. These posts are in a way a challenge to all those hidden and former enemies who made me feel wretched. Now I am doing what they wanted me to do and yet I am stronger being a scaled singularity. Booby traps or guilt rides won’t do it for me this time around as I am working not gor love or light bhut gor myself.
5. Those who work for others have no soul left in them. Despite the understanding of mutual harmony and dependent arising, one should always work for oneself in business. The charity of business is still a business; those keeping record of deeds and those keeping records of intentions are two different departments. And unless you play you matter neither gor for one nor dor others.
6. I burned my brain. Cells regrew.
7. I am ice cold and Steve Austin was my favorite place sometime in my childhood. I can’t create unless I am on a iceberg. If I do as need arises sometimes, on fire, dire consequences ensue. Balance is as easy as enema. As a deep breath, as a polite word, as dancing light, as right hand over left or a grammar error in place of an umlaut.
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Tai Quando
Quantum tummy of mystic DAO,
Ode to diode,
Branle rankles lestrade tradecraft raddled addlepated addler handler.
Tai chi
Tai pei
Tilted white sphere,
The churning grindwheels,
Heels eels sleeves vestibules,
Surplus of surplices,
Cesspool rhombus idempotent dices.
5 minutes. Inspired by a WordPress blogger : Blog
1. Face the music is one of the sayings with music being something which doesn’t just entertain but it does uplift. Martin Heidegger addressed musicality of being in his book Time and Being. Heidigger was a better philosopher but Nietzsche was more influential in Hitler’s contemporaries or so thought Osho aka Acharya Rajneesh Mohan Chandra Jain. Laotzu said that too much music deafens the ear and here he used it in a positive sense as we know by a Sanskrit saying “ATI Sarva tra varjayet.” Which means excess is always prohibited. Or excess of a good thing is actually a bad thing.
2. I used earphones or lead to avoid the environmental music until I developed the reserve to face the music easily. I may resort back to it in need but my eardrums have disintegrated and regenerated by excessive and prolonged listening. There is no doubt about two things: in the last 17 years, I have heard to more music and words than I have voiced. It might be a ratio of 5: 1 with inflation adjustment and I have written more words than I have read in journals, blogs and websites. Here ration of reading versus writing might be 1:6. Both these imbalances of reading writing versus speaking listening need readjusted because towards balance and equilibrium points the compass. I need to also gain balance towards being severe in my donations. I would continue to donate my time but with an intentional vector which rides on carrier wave of physical immortality and deathlessness. I feel with due diligence the goal can be achieved provided I continue to work for it.
3. May second, twenty twenty means roots two and two respectively. Moon rules the day. Saturday is 100, perfect day of Shabbat dinner. Unlike mercury which is too work like. This day pleases both Moon and Saturday. The Moon Matrix as propounded by Bhagwad Geeta, Warner Bros, and David Icke among others plays via help of these two adepts. One is a good cook and cop 21 who operates via drugs like marijuana and shrubs, herbs as well as water. The other is the bad cop catch 22 who regulates you via chastising via hierarchical structures which are based primarily on salutations and credit. If you saluted or not you were doomed both ways. The easy way is right way until you forget it was easy or destrier. Then you realise what it means to live with a dead mind like grays until you don’t and by then you have had many liver transplantations.
4. Ramalinga Paradesi asked why nails and hair grew. Science may have an answer but his intention was to draw your attention to details for virtually graphic reality of holographic universe depended on it. Why Jain monks get rid of all hair and even Buddhist too whereas Hindu monks insist on keeping the tuft. I realised that Mahakaala had a great game down the rabbit hole with red pills and I realised that by his grace by slaving for him for long. The game in human body is dependent on hair, clothes you wear(weir) and a bit on what you eat and you have no idea about how deep it runs unless you take a walk in the marketplace or in your hometown. It’s strange Japanese fashion a few centuries ago included shaving eyebrows off.
5. This morning as I saw a marjarie on roof I said to it in Sanskrit:
” it’s a saying in Sanskrit: wherever ladies are worshipped, gods dwell. But where they’re not worshipped all actions become fruitless. Now I replaced the word Naari with Cat, and yes, I replaced a Sanskrit word meaning women with another English word meaning cat and sang it to cat who was looking curiously and alertly at me as I was doing rapid exhalation breathing aka Ka Paal Bhaati. Literally meaning “shining skull”: the shining skull makes your skull and skin glow as it reinforces the apana among five fold Prana of Prana, Apana, Vyana, Samana and Udana. In 2003 I read in a book by Osho that Buddha worked on a breathing technique which conquered death. Prior to that I had read about it in “Gayatri Mahavijnana” by Shriram Sharma. The sixfold cleansing rituals in the system of Patanjali had this one to remove toxins via sweat, urine and feces as it helped remove constipation. Baba Ramdev popularized this technique along with alternate nostril breathing in 2004-2005 and I was able to save my life after the freezing of brain and motor currents in the year 2012. It helps activate the solar plexus which is where 72000 subtle pathways meet. Holding the middle path of Sushumna makes you humbly reach the supreme peace and bliss but you need to keep walking. Rama to Ramadev and Buddha to Vamadev all taught this subtle path of Sushumna and ofcourse the Kumbhaks both internal and external which converts into Anandmide your internal THC, tetra hydro carbadinnol which is the natural high of meditation practice.
The cat sat quietly then. Mishras are Egyptian descendents who mix techniques. Cats were worshipped as deities once in ancient Egypt.
6. My initiation master insisted on not disturbing the motor currents or Pranayama kosha while working on manomaya as well vijnanmaya kosha simultaneously by handling only the sensory currents. I had some complexes in the motor currents region because of my practice prior to initiation and it took me some 6 years to comprehend why Saint Matt or Gnosticism emphasizes to stay away from Pranayama. Nanaka also emphasized on keeping hair: they were building an army of warriors then and now warfare shifted to psychic realms. Ramavhari Manas by Tulsidas means the Ramayana or Devasura war in the subtle mind.
7. To elaborate a bit upon the 6: the Panchayat tradition by Narada and other sages has Vaasudev-Sankarshana- Pradyumna-Aniruddha as the descendants of divinity in your earthly realm. These four correspond to inner organ or conscience as Chitta-Ahankara-Mannah-Buddhi. With functions like blissful expansion, dark uniting of subject and object or restful sleep, waxing and waning desires to create and procreate and discrimination as well as divine expansion aka necessary evil. The reference is from Kapil Dev”s Samkhya Yoga as given in Bhagvat Puran canto third.
8. In the Upanishads waking, sleeping and dreaming are ruled by Vaishvanara, Taijas and Praagya respectively whereas fourth is the witness of these three. All sacrifices and oblations are to Vaishvanara or Agni or Mahakaala who is the Chieftain of day like Sun God. The dream realm is ruled by the Taijas or Vaasudev who is actually Vasudev or lord of dream realm. In the sense Bhagwad Geeta is only about lucid dreaming. Pragya is lord of sleep and unless one appeased lords Rudras, Sankarshana or Ananth, Sesha and other Nagas are propitiated one can’t have a wakeful sleep nor a restful sleep. Narayana or Buddha or Vishnu being a perfect human is protected by the life force or motor currents which reside in the ahamkara or darkness. Thus Pranayama is helpful to give you traction but to transcend you need to praise the dancing light of grace and detoxify yourself on a regular basis as well as help others around you.
9. Narrow path means via sensory currents controlled following the golden light of grace as you don’t perturb the motor currents. You get agitated on broad path as too many people meet on that. Rest later.
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1. Feelow: was the compound word used by the little girl who used to study in the kindergarten as I was going towards the water tank and found her on my way, other taps all being obstructed by other kids–she took a handful of water in her palms and splashed it on my face saying that strange word because she couldn’t pronounce peelo the Hindi for : go drink.
2. Near the water tank in school there used to be a small pond with lotuses. This was a Roman Catholic Church. I have been to the protestant one as well, which is located in the parish.
3. I have been to Jain temples, Bodhi stupas and Muslim saint’s tomb too but never prayed inside a mosque.
4. Friday is : 61894125: 9. Venus, Mars and Jupiter collectively rule this day. Prime influence being Venus–day has 1 as root number and 10 as sum. Sefer yetzirah. The entire month would be ruled by the number 9 as May is 5 and year 2020 gives 4 and the two add up to 9. The last month was ruled by the number 8. Saturn is the ruler of 8, whereas 9 is ruled by Jupiter.
5. Today is the eighth day of the bright half of lunar calendar. Moon is still in the sign Cancer. People around me are complaining about the heat. I burnt garbage after singing some mantras early in the morning.
6. What does Corona mean to me? Other than the obvious word meaning: it means sacrifice by humanity for mother Earth, its sister Moon and great father Vaishvanara or Mahakaal or supreme personality of Godhead or solar logoi. We need to sacrifice what no longer works for us. Dependency, old habits, looking upto government and mega companies for everything. Some things like this internet or smartphone can’t be made without infrastructure and capital yet to walk peacefully and to live minimally you don’t need much. People still spit on road after chewing betel leaves and illegal liquor is being sold for consumption. India is at least 30 years behind Tokyo and I am really in a hurry to leave but it seems that euthanasia is available only for elites and poor people have to walk long miles for water and food especially as you double whammy us by programming us with two very opposite strains of portraying Graam Swaraj in TV soaps and instill fear and suspicion towards others by spreading the news of a false virus. There is no Corona virus. Awakening of thousands petals of crown as you realise how everything is connected to everything via words, numbers and hidden, subtle as well as intricate network which is almost magical, is unfolding right now for me. Yet I am fighting multiple small battles. I don’t get bored these days but akin to atlas or Sisyphus, like the daily wage earner or labourer, I struggle very hard seeing that people around me are dying and aging very fast and a secret cabal might be holding onto anti aging and time traveling technology which they are not willing to share with others.
Time Taken: 33 minutes.
Dancing light of grace 