The camera is strange. While my eyes record an impression of a waning Moon of Dwadashi, crescent arc hanging out of haze in the East, Ayushmaan– the camera records a circular dot. A dot, ideally shouldn’t have any depth like a line.
What do you see?
Shridevi and Bhoodevi
7. 17. Out of those four: one who serves me with steadfast devotion with the nondual realisation of being one with me without a wavering mind with love with my essential knowledge : such knower of reality is dearest to me.
The verse ascertains superiority of right knowledge. The chapter is known as gyanavigyanayoga meaning the yoga of science and knowledge.
I was reading Deva Dutt Patnaik: his article today clarifying the difference between Shridevi and Bhoodevi.
The iron Paya versus gold Paya.
The grain versus gold.
The system of feudal lords versus the system of merchandise.
Slavery belonged to system of feudal lords. East India Company.
Abraham Lincoln, Mahatma Gandhi, Thomas Jefferson and Benjamin Franklin along with George Washington worked for the same cause: equality and justice: Shridevi.
Indian constitution heavily borrowed from British and American. I am still reading it. Ambedkar converted to Buddhism and he was also the head of the committee which made the constitution. Is it fair to say that he favoured Shridevi like Gandhi?
The war between East India Company and USA. The feudal versus mercantile system becomes highlight of the current economic crisis. No fresh air and plenty of loans. In the foundation remains the land owner and 1% own entire land. Look at the rebellious Edward Snowden and Wikileaks founder : groundmail delivery address counts. Counts still count. Slavery still exists. It only keeps changing forms. I am telling you from my first hand experience of having worked for a multinational company where all I had after three years of slavery wasn’t enough to feed me for next few months and since I had no foothold in the feudal system either I was looked down upon by both worlds.
Credit cards and EMI. I bought my laptop and bike by using them. I enjoyed laptop for about 8 years. It had cost 47000 rupees and now it’s defunct. The bike cost me 72000 rupees and it’s still available for use. Until I had paid off my debts I was perpetually in stress. I was receiving a meagre 21000 when I joined and 27000 per month when I retired. It wasn’t enough to live comfortably in Bangalore. And my father wanted me to save money and send it to them to pay back the loan on my education.
Since I didn’t give him anything substantial except the 65000 left in my account and the 23000 in my security deposit from my flat : they still consider me to be in debt.
The 300000 on my bachelor’s degree plus 88000 for JEE preparation meant about 400000₹ and it was never paid back by me.
And yet: I never snatched a single rupee out of his pocket. I never asked for JEE or Bachelor’s degree. Whatever my savings were: they used without my permission. They used my bike with my permission.
I am not in any debt today.
And yet: the war is about debts. Imaginary land owners. Imaginary goods. Imaginary parents. Real desires?
Shriman Narayana Narayana Hari Hari!
The southern India would not accept Hindi or English. No one language or one currency. Mission accomplished by language of Love and light.
Striving for a better station!
1. I read the local newspaper for grandma.
2. Did shopping for three clothes : couple of t-shirts and a lower. The lot would last for a year, hopefully. Spent 570/- ₹ on them.
3. Still looking for tuition jobs. Can’t apply online because of lack of PAN card. I have hated paperwork all my life.
4. After a very short stint in vegan experiment I realised socializing and tea party go hand in hand so why not as long as I can afford the coffee.
5. Gifting my used phone the basic Nokia model to grandma is an exercise I was waiting for in minimalism.
6. If I had a better mother I would have been a minimalist Saint. Wooly clothes and things in this room have teetered themselves to me thanks to her.
7. Neighborhood reminded me to watch Hollywood again: some quality food for mind forsooth. I can download a movie a day provided I give up on Osho Rajneesh and other sirens and also use Spotify. Spotify is a suggestion by Varjak whom I no longer see because of his orientation.
8. I am in want of a better season to continue with reading the constitution of India and linguistics. This room is a boiler most of the times. I can’t get a mosquito net else roof would have been a solace.
9. I am comfortable and numb. My reading is meagre these days but my listening has improved. Almost nothing happened today. I do plan on reading on Black holes.
10. By transit Sun changes sign. I measured my weight and it’s in ideal range as per the BMI range. I plan on maintaining it. Enema is a blessing whereas bike is a curse. A necessary evil. I had this balance only in college when I was working out for three years in a gym and then I let it be lost. Since 2011: I struggled to maintain my circulation and weight. Now I am comfortable but my greys and male pattern baldness along with my weak eyesight and slow reflexes can’t be hidden. I am grateful for what I have. I shall strive for a better station in life.
My mother is slightly overweight as well as severely argumentative. She considers herself perfect.
The Friend of the World: VishwaMitra!
1. International Nurse Day.
2. 12.5.2020=23=5.
3. Subha Nitya Yoga: auspicious.
4. Kaal sharp Yoga.
5. Gemini rises with Rahu.
6. Pluto, Jupiter, Saturn, Moon in Uttarashadha. Ruled by Sun.
7. Atmakaraka Moon being in the same sign Sagittarius in navamsa and lagna.
8. Sun with Moon in Navamsa: royal assignment. In Sagittarius: fall from a high place.
9. Saturn retrograde.
10. Nakul Yoni. Gorakhnath. Mangoose. Fourth legitimate son of Kunti: wife of Pandu and fifth in total including Karana the son of Sun.
11. I am reading a book on linguistics given by a neighbour who is pursuing his master’s in English literature. I read about work of Patanjali, Panini and Katayayna and name of Patanjali as a linguist amazed me. Panini is considered the prime linguist in Sanskrit with his Ashta dhyayi being the authoritative book on the subject.
12. It’s Jiddu Krishnamurti birthday. His saying: you’re the world was a confirmation in college in 2005. An Einstein in metaphysics: perhaps the only thinker contemporary to Rajneesh Osho who was respected by him. I read his biography by Pupul Jayakar. What pained me most?
A. The manner of his awakening. Nitai, his brother suffered along with him.
B. His demise: he realised in the very end: that despite being the world teacher and a 12 cylinder engine–he had to suffer before shedding off the mortal coil. UG kept criticizing him all through his life but he was a major influence.
International Nurse Day: my ashram head in Jagannath Ghat, Jnana Gudri told me: he had decided to remain a renunciate: then once he was admitted in a hospital because of an electric shock and wanted to marry the nurse because of the change of his heart. His guru venerated Ishvara Puri made him marry in his own caste: following tradition.
13. It rained a bit. I bought a new earphone. This is what North Eastern skies look like from my roof this morning at 9:23 AM as I listen to Spotify : Aum Namaha Shivaya by Vaishnavi Brassey and company with a wonderful background music. I am grateful for the tea I had this morning. The biscuits, the fresh air, this ability to share my experience with you via Word Press.
14. I am participating in a prayer meeting in my neighborhood with my friend AT. His grandfather, a retired principal and a renowned astrologer along with his cousins join to chant Gayatri Mantra. The guided meditation is in the voice of Pandit Shriram Sharma, the founder of All World Gayatri Parivaar. And Dr. Pranav Pandya, M.D. We meditate for world peace spreading positive vibrations to help speedy recovery of all of us. Vishwa Mitra is the Drishta of this vedic mantra. His name means a friend of world. I feel good by saying this prayer in a group. A group where my voice is one of many.
Dancing light of grace 