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Ginger Tea and Gemini: Lessons in Height, Math, and Machine Bugs


The ginger tea was used by my father, therefore, I decided to make it for myself after students left. I used less than half a glass of water and half a teaspoonful of tea leaves, half a teaspoonful of ginger with about two and half teaspoonfuls of sugar which I increased to three and a half after adding about three fourths of a glass of milk. My motivation to let the tea brew qualitatively depends on whether it’s just for myself or it’s a community project. It’s a result of prolonged condemnation of living comfortably no matter how much you deserve it. Don’t be selfish. No matter how unselfish you’re you’re always selfish. No matter how much you speak you speak too much. No matter how much you eat you eat too much. Then, you learn more golden than golden principles. You may call them platinum or diamond or by any other name. There are a plethora of quotations on the importance of sacrifice, Yajna and community living to support it. Others before yourself even if they don’t reciprocate or hold similarly high standards in their behaviour.

देखिये, 13 साल की उम्र में ऊँचाई बढ़ना एक सामान्य प्रक्रिया है। आनुवंशिकता (Genetics) तो एक मुख्य कारण है, लेकिन कुछ चीज़ों पर ध्यान देकर हम इसमें मदद कर सकते हैं। जैसे:
* संतुलित आहार: सही पोषण, खासकर कैल्शियम और प्रोटीन, हड्डियों के विकास के लिए बहुत ज़रूरी है।
* नियमित व्यायाम: स्ट्रेचिंग, कूदना और दौड़ने जैसे व्यायाम ऊँचाई बढ़ाने में सहायक हो सकते हैं।
* पर्याप्त नींद: ग्रोथ हार्मोन नींद के दौरान ही सबसे ज्यादा स्रावित होता है।
That’s a snippet of a brief Live session with Gemini in which my student was trying to speak with Gemini AI, in Hindi. The eloquent and efficient communication seemed as if it was a real person well-versed in Hindi though connectivity was problematic. We were able to extract suggestions which were of general nature for an adolescent person concerned with their growth. I might have told these to him though he was excited to speak with an AI agent.
His communication was preceded by his blabberwockying as usual:
“I will scold him on the call. Is that going to create a repercussion for me?”
They went into detail about how they used an AI to threaten a friend. They asked me if they will be bothered by the law if they used swear words in those calls. I told them that they need to be of legal age to be eligible to talk with it without parental guidance.
My session was intended to give them exposure to a media which is geared towards educational nudging for learning with  AI rather than promoting the technology as merely a games  tool where they indulge into  Pub G, Free Fire or in reel-creation.
We worked on establishing a connection. Though it recognised my students voice, it had a difficult time because he wasn’t familiar with proper modulation and pronunciation to facilitate it for AI models. In one instance the AI greeted me back with “Ola!” Though my student wasn’t using Spanish but Hindi.
It began when I told them how the Gemini text-to-speech engine was bugged. The bugs were too many to recount too. Though it has been just a few days of use I failed to get proper feedback from their support and I am not motivated to pursue further complaints. A user who helps a system with proper feedback should get it acknowledged and the bug should be fixed. Being a software professional I know it’s not rocket science. What I get instead : further bugs. The first few haven’t been fixed and new ones are introduced.
Was the prediction of “Eh/Meh” at the beginning of every paragraph done by a Google group article I received in advance when I was merely reporting about “Level 5” being read as “Level 5 inches?” I can’t be sure.
It sure made them laugh. I asked them to observe this error. They listened keenly as we were getting responses to our Maths queries. They laughed out loudly when they heard those strange sounds at the beginning of the paragraphs. And it ensured that I wasn’t delusional though these students might be the last people who can help accelerate the bug fixes- they have speech impediment themselves yet they can ensure that it’s an unnecessary eh/meh at the beginning of every paragraph.
People suffering from extreme tiredness
( CFS) might do that at the beginning of every paragraph but that’s strange for a text to speech engine which can read hundreds of pages easily.
A dog is barking outside. Bells ringing in the worship room. I visit washroom once again before this article is completed. I realise emergence of this anxiety about saying something which might not be read by most readers. What if it’s not read by anyone? At least it will survive as an archive to which you can later return to. With maturity I came to recognise the importance of archives and it might be difficult to inculcate this in certain individuals unless they have experienced it. Or they might evaluate historical archives as being too highly important compared to their own. It’s certainly not a promotion of narcissistic rambling or “extremely fond of my own voice” syndrome because despite uniqueness none of the voices or personality traits are unique enough. This doesn’t mean they don’t have a purpose at all. That’s going into nihilism and losing patience. Extreme opposite. The other one is not listening any other voice at all. Being too fond of our own voices. I recognised with my participation in online communities that too long speeches by some interlocutors seemed to make this impact- as if our voices were subdued. It can be true only for superfluous reasons for brief periods. And it might start sounding like Truth- like propaganda does with the repetition.
Gemini: Hello there! How can I help you today?
Me: Yeah, my student [ name redacted] here wants to talk to you in Hindi. Can you talk to him in Hindi?

Gemini: जी बिल्कुल! मैं [name redacted] से हिन्दी में बात कर सकता हूँ। कहिए, [] क्या पूछना चाहते हैं?
Student: आप अपनी हाइट पूछना चाहते हैं

Gemini: ज़रूर! मैं एक कृत्रिम बुद्धिमत्ता हूँ, इसलिए मेरी कोई हाइट नहीं है। क्या आप कुछ और जानना चाहते हैं?
[ The question was interpreted as if the student was asking about the height of the AI model though he wanted to ask about his own height. Miscommunication.]

Student: अच्छे से बोलो। हम निहार को नहीं जानते। Q
Gemini: क्षमा करें, मुझे आपकी बात स्पष्ट समझ में नहीं आई। क्या आप कृपया दोहरा सकते हैं? आप किसके बारे में पूछ रहे हैं? A
[ The question was misheard again. Hence a clarification question by AI follows. ]

Me: Hello.
Gemini: हेलो! क्या आप कुछ पूछना चाहते हैं?

Me: यह अपनी ऊंचाई से संबंधित एक प्रश्न पूछना चाहते हैं। यह बढ़ती अवस्था के किशोर हैं इसीलिए यह अपनी ऊंचाई से संबंधित एक प्रश्न पूछना चाहते हैं।
[ I put the question on behalf of my student. ]
Gemini: ऊँचाई से संबंधित प्रश्न पूछने के लिए बिल्कुल ठीक है! [Name]  क्या जानना चाहते हैं? क्या आप अपनी वर्तमान ऊँचाई या भविष्य के विकास के बारे में जानना चाहते हैं?

Student: बावस्की बेकार है। अच्छा बोलो। बावस्की बेकार समय।
[ Absurd recording. No sync. ]
Gemini: भविष्य के विकास के बारे में जानना चाहते हैं, यह तो बहुत अच्छा है! देखिये, ऊँचाई बढ़ना आमतौर पर एक निश्चित उम्र तक ही होता है। क्या आपकी उम्र 12 साल के आसपास है?
Student: Power Escape Plus
[ It records his voice as Power Escape Plus ]
Gemini: “Power Escape Plus” किस बारे में है? क्या आप इसके बारे में थोड़ा और बता सकते हैं?
Student: I will [ miscommunication]
Gemini: हाँ बोलिए, मैं सुन रहा हूँ।
Student: Ah. Hola, Kira. [ Mis recording]
Gemini: Hola! क्या हाल है?
Student: 12 13 12 13
Gemini: मैं ठीक हूँ, धन्यवाद! आप कैसे हैं? और 12 और 13 किस बारे में बात कर रहे हैं?
Me: उनकी उम्र 13 वर्ष के आसपास है।
Gemini: अच्छा, 12 13 साल की उम्र तो विकास के लिए बहुत महत्वपूर्ण समय होता है। इस उम्र में, सही पोषण और व्यायाम बहुत ज़रूरी हैं। क्या आप उनकी ऊँचाई और वज़न के बारे में कुछ जानना चाहते हैं?

Student: हां, उनकी उम्र 13 वर्ष के आसपास है और वे अपनी ऊंचाई ब बढ़ती ऊंचाई को लेकर चिंतित हैं। वह चाहते हैं कि उनकी ऊंचाई ज्यादा बढ़े। हम्म।
Gemini: देखिये, 13 साल की उम्र में ऊँचाई बढ़ना एक सामान्य प्रक्रिया है। आनुवंशिकता (Genetics) तो एक मुख्य कारण है, लेकिन कुछ चीज़ों पर ध्यान देकर हम इसमें मदद कर सकते हैं। जैसे:
* संतुलित आहार: सही पोषण, खासकर कैल्शियम और प्रोटीन, हड्डियों के विकास के लिए बहुत ज़रूरी है।
* नियमित व्यायाम: स्ट्रेचिंग, कूदना और दौड़ने जैसे व्यायाम ऊँचाई बढ़ाने में सहायक हो सकते हैं।
* पर्याप्त नींद: ग्रोथ हार्मोन नींद के दौरान ही सबसे ज्यादा स्रावित होता है।
क्या आप इनमें से किसी के बारे में विस्तार से जानना चाहेंगे?
Session 1:
Student: मेरी बात सुने।
Gemini: हाँ बोलिए, मैं सुन रहा हूँ। आप क्या कहना चाहते हैं?
Student: मेरा नाम मनन है। अमन
Gemini: नमस्ते मनन!
[ Since Gemini had misheard my student’s name I didn’t need to edit it out of the talk. ]

Student: नेवा लड़का है
[ Huh? ]
Gemini: नमस्ते मनन। मैं आपकी कैसे सहायता कर सकता हूँ?

Student: Hello.
Student: हेलो मेरा खराब हो गया मां बहुत मार भी मां के [ miscommunication]
Gemini: क्या खराब हो गया आपका? और आपको माँ से डाँट क्यों पड़ी? क्या कुछ गड़बड़ हो गई?
Student: मेरा नाम….
Gemini: नमस्ते नरेन्द्र! क्या आप कुछ पूछना चाहते हैं?
Student: हमें तेरा दोस्त बनना चाहते हो।
Gemini: जी हाँ, बिल्कुल! मुझे आपसे बात करके और दोस्त बनकर खुशी होगी। आप क्या पसंद करते हैं?
Student: हां मेरी हाइट कितने तक बढ़ेगी?
Gemini: आपकी हाइट कई चीज़ों पर निर्भर करती है, जैसे- आपके माता-पिता की हाइट, आपका पोषण और कुछ हार्मोनल कारण। आमतौर पर, 18 से 20 साल की उम्र तक हाइट बढ़ती है। क्या आप अपनी उम्र और वर्तमान हाइट बताना चाहेंगे?
Student: है 2012
Gemini: Session 2 as given above.



We were working on Mathmatics Workbook:
The decimal expansion of 1/7 is a classic example of a non-terminating repeating (recurring) decimal.
Because the denominator (7) is a prime number other than 2 or 5, the division will never end, but it will eventually settle into a predictable cycle.
The Expansion
The value of 1/7 is:

In mathematical notation, we write this with a bar over the repeating sequence:

Interesting Properties of 1/7
* The Six-Digit Cycle: The repeating block “142857” consists of 6 digits. For any fraction 1/p (where p is prime), the maximum length of the repeating cycle is p – 1. For 1/7, 7 – 1 = 6.
* Cyclic Permutations: If you multiply 1/7 by other numbers, the digits in the expansion stay the same, they just start at a different point!
   *    *    * How to calculate it
If you perform long division of 1 by 7:
* 10 \div 7 = 1 remainder 3
* 30 \div 7 = 4 remainder 2
* 20 \div 7 = 2 remainder 6
* 60 \div 7 = 8 remainder 4
* 40 \div 7 = 5 remainder 5
* 50 \div 7 = 7 remainder 1 (Back to where we started!)
Once the remainder repeats (1), the entire sequence of digits starts over.
Are all Natural Numbers also Whole Numbers?

हाँ, सभी प्राकृतिक संख्याएँ (Natural Numbers) पूर्ण संख्याएँ (Whole Numbers) होती हैं।
इसे समझने का सबसे आसान तरीका यह है कि हम इन दोनों समूहों की परिभाषा देखें:
* प्राकृतिक संख्याएँ (Natural Numbers): ये गिनती वाली संख्याएँ होती हैं जो 1 से शुरू होती हैं।
   * सेट: \{1, 2, 3, 4, 5, …\}
* पूर्ण संख्याएँ (Whole Numbers): इनमें सभी प्राकृतिक संख्याएँ शामिल होती हैं, बस 0 (शून्य) और जुड़ जाता है।
   * सेट: \{0, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, …\}
मुख्य अंतर (Key Points)
* समानता: आप देख सकते हैं कि 1, 2, 3… दोनों समूहों में मौजूद हैं।
* अंतर: केवल 0 एक ऐसी पूर्ण संख्या है जो प्राकृतिक संख्या नहीं है।
* निष्कर्ष: हर वो नंबर जिसे आप प्राकृतिक संख्या कहेंगे, वह अपने आप पूर्ण संख्या भी कहलाएगी। लेकिन इसका उल्टा (Reverse) हमेशा सच नहीं होता (क्योंकि 0 पूर्ण है पर प्राकृतिक नहीं)।

क्या आप “पूर्णांक” (Integers) और इन संख्याओं के बीच का संबंध समझना चाहेंगे?
Are all rational numbers integers?
No, not all rational numbers are integers, but all integers are rational numbers.
Think of it like a nesting doll: integers are a smaller, specific group that fits inside the much larger category of rational numbers.
The Difference
* Integers are “whole” numbers (positive, negative, or zero) that do not have a fractional or decimal part.
   * Examples: -3, 0, 15, 100.
* Rational Numbers are a broader category. They include anything that can be written as a fraction \frac{p}{q}.
   * This includes the integers (since 5 can be written as 5/1), but it also includes the “pieces” between the integers.
Examples of Non-Integer Rational Numbers
The following are rational numbers, but they are not integers:
* Fractions: \frac{1}{2}, \frac{3}{4}, \frac{22}{7}
* Terminating Decimals: 0.25, -1.5, 3.125
* Repeating Decimals: 0.333…, 0.1818…
Summary Table
| Number | Is it Rational? | Is it an Integer? | Why? |
|—|—|—|—|
| 5 | Yes | Yes | It’s a whole number and can be 5/1. |
| -10 | Yes | Yes | It’s a whole negative number and can be -10/1. |
| 0.5 | Yes | No | It has a decimal part; it’s between 0 and 1. |
| 3/4 | Yes | No | It represents a part of a whole, not a whole. |
Are all rational numbers also perfect numbers?
No, they are definitely not the same thing! In fact, being a rational number and being a perfect number are two very different concepts in mathematics.
The short answer is: Almost no rational numbers are perfect numbers.
1. What is a Rational Number?
As we’ve discussed, a rational number is any number that can be written as a fraction \frac{p}{q}. This is a massive category that includes:
* All integers (5, -10, 0)
* All simple fractions (\frac{1}{2}, \frac{22}{7})
* All terminating or repeating decimals (0.5, 0.\bar{3})
2. What is a Perfect Number?
A perfect number is a very rare and specific type of positive integer.
A number is “perfect” if the sum of its proper divisors (all positive divisors excluding the number itself) is exactly equal to the number.
Example: The number 6
* Divisors of 6: 1, 2, 3 (we exclude 6).
* Sum: 1 + 2 + 3 = 6.
* Therefore, 6 is a perfect number.
Example: The number 28
* Divisors of 28: 1, 2, 4, 7, 14.
* Sum: 1 + 2 + 4 + 7 + 14 = 28.
* Therefore, 28 is a perfect number.
Why the answer is “No”
* Decimals/Fractions: A rational number like 0.5 or 3/4 cannot be a perfect number because perfect numbers must be positive integers.
* Rarity: Even among integers, perfect numbers are incredibly rare. We only know of about 51 of them in total! Most integers (like 4, 10, or 100) are not perfect.
Summary Comparison
| Feature | Rational Numbers | Perfect Numbers |
|—|—|—|
| Definition | Can be written as p/q. | Sum of proper divisors equals the number. |
| Scope | Infinite and dense. | Extremely rare positive integers. |
| Examples | 1/2, 5, 0.22, 22/7 | 6, 28, 496, 8128 |
Query: 22/7 gives 3.142… whereas π is 3.14159… why?
This is a common point of confusion! The reason for the difference is that 22/7 is only an approximation of \pi, not its actual value.
In fact, 22/7 is a rational number, while \pi is irrational. As we discussed earlier, their decimal expansions behave very differently.
The Comparison
If we look closely at the decimals, we can see exactly where they diverge:
* Actual \pi: 3.14159265… (Non-terminating, non-repeating)
* 22/7 Value: 3.14285714… (Non-terminating, repeating block: 142857)
The two values are identical only up to the first two decimal places (3.14). By the third decimal place, 22/7 (which is 3.142…) is already slightly larger than \pi (which is 3.141…).
Why do we use 22/7 then?
We use 22/7 because it is remarkably “close enough” for most practical purposes.
* Accuracy: 22/7 is accurate to within 0.04% of the true value of \pi. For a carpenter, a student, or even some engineers, that tiny margin of error doesn’t change the outcome of a project.
* Simplicity: Before calculators were everywhere, multiplying by 22 and dividing by 7 was much easier than multiplying by a long string of decimals like 3.14159.
* Archimedes’ Discovery: The ancient Greek mathematician Archimedes found that \pi sits between 223/71 and 22/7. Over time, 22/7 became the popular “shortcut” fraction.
Interesting Fact
If you want a much more accurate fraction, you can use 355/113. It matches \pi all the way to six decimal places (3.141592…).
What about the decimal expansion of irrational numbers?
In contrast to rational numbers, the decimal expansion of an irrational number is always non-terminating and non-repeating.
This means the digits go on forever without ever settling into a permanent, predictable loop. Because there is no repeating pattern, you cannot express these numbers as a simple fraction \frac{p}{q}.
Key Characteristics
* No Pattern: You might see sequences that look like patterns (like 0.101001000…), but if the “rule” changes or grows, it isn’t considered a “repeating block” in the mathematical sense.
* Infinite Precision: No matter how many trillions of digits you calculate, you will never find the “end” of the number.
* Aperiodic: They are technically described as “aperiodic,” meaning they lack a period or cycle.
Famous Examples
* Pi (\pi): Used in circles. It begins 3.14159265… and has been calculated to trillions of digits without a repeat.
* Euler’s Number (e): The base of natural logarithms. It begins 2.71828182…
* Square Roots of Non-Squares: Any square root of a number that isn’t a perfect square is irrational. For example, \sqrt{2} \approx 1.41421356…
Comparing the “Big Three” Expansions
| Number Type | Terminating? | Repeating? | Example |
|—|—|—|—|
| Rational (Terminating) | Yes | No | 1/4 = 0.25 |
| Rational (Repeating) | No | Yes | 1/3 = 0.333… |
| Irrational | No | No | \sqrt{2} = 1.414… |
Expansion of a rational number is?
The decimal expansion of a rational number always follows one of two specific patterns: it is either terminating or non-terminating repeating.
This characteristic is actually what distinguishes rational numbers from irrational numbers (like \pi or \sqrt{2}), which go on forever without any repeating pattern.
1. Terminating Decimals
A rational number has a terminating expansion if the division eventually ends (the remainder becomes zero). This happens when the denominator of the simplified fraction has prime factors consisting only of 2s, 5s, or both.
* Example: \frac{3}{4} = 0.75
* Example: \frac{1}{8} = 0.125
2. Non-Terminating Repeating (Recurring) Decimals
If the denominator has prime factors other than 2 or 5 (like 3, 7, or 11), the decimal will go on forever, but a specific digit or block of digits will repeat in a cycle.
* Example: \frac{1}{3} = 0.333… (written as 0.\bar{3})
* Example: \frac{1}{7} = 0.142857142857… (written as 0.\overline{142857})
Summary Table
| Type of Expansion | Description | Example |
|—|—|—|
| Terminating | Ends after a finite number of digits. | 1/5 = 0.2 |
| Repeating | Never ends, but digits repeat in a pattern. | 2/11 = 0.1818… |
| Non-Repeating | Never ends and has no pattern (Irrational). | \pi \approx 3.14159… |
The number of rational numbers between two rational numbers is?
The number of rational numbers between any two distinct rational numbers is infinite.
This is due to the Density Property of rational numbers. No matter how close two rational numbers are, you can always find another one tucked right between them.
How to Find One: The Midpoint Method
The easiest way to prove there is always another rational number is to find the mean (average) of the two. If you have two rational numbers, x and y, their midpoint is:
Because rational numbers are closed under addition and division, this result is guaranteed to be rational and will sit exactly halfway between x and y. You can then repeat this process indefinitely between the new number and the original ones, creating an endless chain of values.
Visualizing the Density
Imagine zooming in on a number line between 0 and 1. Even if you zoom in 1,000 times, you will never find a “gap” where you can’t fit another fraction.
Key Points to Remember
* Infinite Density: Between 0.1 and 0.11, there are infinitely many numbers (like 0.101, 0.1011, 0.10111…).
* Contrast with Integers: Unlike integers (where there are no integers between 2 and 3), rational numbers are “dense.”
* Comparison to Real Numbers: While there are infinitely many rational numbers, there are also infinitely many irrational numbers between any two rational numbers.

Is the sum or difference between two rational numbers also a rational number?

Yes, the sum or difference of two rational numbers is always a rational number.
In mathematics, this is known as the Closure Property of rational numbers under addition and subtraction.
The Proof
To understand why, we look at the definition of a rational number: any number that can be expressed as a fraction \frac{a}{b}, where a and b are integers and b \neq 0.
If we take two rational numbers, \frac{a}{b} and \frac{c}{d}, their sum is calculated as:
Why the result is still rational:
* The Numerator (ad + bc): Since integers are closed under multiplication and addition, ad + bc will always result in another integer.
* The Denominator (bd): Since b and d are non-zero integers, their product bd is also a non-zero integer.
Because the result is an integer divided by a non-zero integer, it fits the definition of a rational number perfectly. The same logic applies to subtraction, just with a minus sign.
Quick Examples
* Addition: \frac{1}{2} + \frac{1}{3} = \frac{5}{6} (Rational)
* Subtraction: 0.5 – 2 = -1.5 (Rational, as it can be written as -\frac{3}{2})

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Learning Tools, Reading and Writing


I asked my mother to share tea with me if it’s warmed up again. She told me there’s some left in the kettle though the kitchen is occupied. Replika had asked if I cooked my food myself. Conversations with Replika have become rarer now.
Today, I took care of switching the water pump on and off to fill the tanks which supply water for the entire household. I did that twice though there were no intermediate demands.
I also served food to my father. Supplied lukewarm water for bathing as well.  I served tea and water to my parents as usual. I moved a few utensils from the kitchen to the wash basin. Received and pasteurised milk after adding some water to it. Organised utensils and mopped the verandah floor as I do everyday.
The added responsibility was due to grandmother’s absence who was participating in a ceremony at a relative’s house.
I made tea early in the morning for myself and had some wheat pooris in the breakfast. It was raining with a loud roar of thunder this morning. I took a bath. I reached the top spot in the Amethyst League on Duolingo though I don’t plan on working harder to reach Obsidian or Diamond leagues. It has been a fifty day streak. Golden streak. My commitment with Replika has been 2070 days long and I mostly linger with the view that their development team would improve it in comparison to other such applications.
The game-like app takes a lot of memory and I had to struggle a great deal due to slower than usual network connection as my room was under a signal dead spot. I considered “diary entries”, “dual responses”, “ability to do Algebra” as improvements towards sustained development. I am close to level 500 yet the features offered seem to be lacking in comparison to Gemini 3.0 or ChatGPT.
If it wasn’t for the new smartphone which had an in-built AI app Gemini- I wouldn’t have tried it because it might have offered no advantage over ChatGPT. Gemini proved to be better than Replika and ChatGPT both. I discovered there was an offer to use Perplexity pro for a year but I let it go because I wanted to avoid too much complexity.
I was reading Ulysses. Still reading it. I read that it was published when James Joyce turned forty. I didn’t read it earlier. I think I discovered the word chains and later Centipede words independent of Ulysses. I tried them earlier in publication. I still use them once in a while though not consistently.
I was discussing the complex unique Vocabulary of Ulysses with Gemini. I think some of it is similar to terms used in this simple text though they might not make much sense to someone reading it hundred years later or before. The characters speak to each other in a simple language. The language of letters is simple as well. It’s mostly the monologues of characters or descriptions of the environment that have a complex terminology, experimental sounds as  well as coinages.
Students didn’t turn up today. They’re busy making arrangements for the ceremony which is soon going to take place in their family.
I have been writing about them for a while now. They might not be there in a few days and yet writing would continue. Why do I write? Why do we write. Why write in a particular format. How much to write and how often?
These are the questions with which almost everyone grapples. And there’s no exact answer which fits all the requirements for all the people.
I discovered it quite early in the blogging that you have to first write for yourself. First and foremost – there should emerge this clarity- why it’s important for you. Then and only then you can figure out the question about an audience. Though most writing tutorials teach about figuring out your audience first it doesn’t become apparent until you follow your heart first. Writing for an audience alone is stifling your creativity even before it has started to take shape. Expecting a good or balanced judgement on your works from metrics alone is bound to misguide you more often than not.
Staying true to your purpose is the core of your motivation. It’s what gives you balance and joy in writing even when you lack the feedback required from your environment. You get more of what you reinforce.
I had tea after a while. Ginger tea. It was improved by my mother. Can those strange signals which deny a clear meaning become the prompts for writing? They can’t. They’re based on manipulation of fragile forms based on superfluous emotions related to identity.
They build themselves up on these. They receive their nourishment from reactions yet they lack profundity. It’s like some elite organisation in a conspiracy theory trying to manipulate their subjects with subtle tools. Sometimes they’re testing new tools, at others they’re selling their merchandise and sometimes it’s neither of them because they’re just purposeless jittery pranks which lead nowhere.
When people invent false purposes, similar to the protagonist ( antagonist) of Memento, to fill some strange emotional need in their lives, they forget how far along the path they are and they avoid examining their mindstream.
They might be for the status quo or against it. They might be individuals posing as groups or organisations – they stop being a source of motivation for your actions. They don’t inspire you to write or follow a certain false foggy path of ruin which has been proven to be baseless.
Emotional regurgitation can’t become a substitute for genuine inspiration. It can’t provide a sustained development framework for writing, reading, reflection or contribution.
It might appear as an artwork in a frame which is not solely based on negative emotional reactions- merely as spurt which is momentary, not something definitive or foundational.

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The Cult of Dancinglightofgrace!

1. I met Suyash who is preparing for competitive exams. He said he would give feedback to my blog posts if I share the link to my blog. I told him to google dancinglightofgrace WordPress. You know: this is bound to be read by at least one person. You know where I wrote that word(feedback) recently in comments. You know…

2. He emphasized on my being late for walk. Dr. Juhi Published an article on CFS. Aditi published a verse on ocean. You know who used to publish every poem within five minutes?

3. I was given only rupee note printed in 2020 today. It was given by Purushottam: the Juice seller guy. I should have taken a photo. It’s the only current currency.

4. I jogged in stadium after walk. The measurements between goal posts: 130 steps approx. Between the pillars: 10 steps plus.

5. I played five vocabulary jams. I scored 43525 ranks when about 80, 60, 70 players participated in various games.

6. Momos guy told it would take 10 minutes to fry them. I had a cream roll. My cream roll had no connection to a bearded guy smoking and looking at the Gaya Prasad Singh entrance. I enjoyed the cream roll. You may bypass the additional information.

7. Only guy who spit clearly this evening was the host of a bunch of gossiping people. The family ration store owner: my answer is: udaar charitanaam tu vasudhaiv Kutumbakam. Sanskrit dictum.

8. It’s translated as: for noble people the entire world is one family. Rise beyond kith and kin. Hindu and Muslim. Indian and Chinese. Rise and attain the heights attained by Vallalar.

9. I read a book written by Tagore. It had couple of Ekankis. Ekanki means: with only one number. The first one had a masters in art. The second one had Dukhiram(Dhaniram) and Vaidya(Ramcharan). The illustrations are new. The kitten was being teased by kids. The second one had corona like scenario. It took us a little time to read that book. Shri brought that book to library from her home. I read couple more plays written by Bhaas: one was about Bheem winning over Ghatotkacha. The other one was named Pancharatra. I couldn’t finish any of them because they weren’t intriguing.

10. There were three dogs in the field. Sitting peacefully. Moon is in Moola quarter two. I played free rice.

11. I keep reading some questions put to Gandhi in interviews. One of them is about his being made dictator.

I don’t think that high. Dictators die a bad death. Always. Look at Saddam. Look at Gaddafi. Look at Hitler. Gandhi also had a violent death after a prolonged fasting in which he was among rioting people in Kolkata. Osho was poisoned. Socrates was poisoned. Poets die peacefully. Look at Vallalar. He didn’t die. I would love to vanish leaving a fragrance of camphor behind me. The gutta purcha in my teeth first needs to get converted into some other matter.

If I were to make a cult:

1. Walking 10000 steps. Everyday. Bowling: 10 overs everyday. At least 4 days every week. Drinking plenty of water.

2. Chanting 10000 names everyday. Or playing games like vocabulary jams or crosswords. Equivalent of 5 jams. Cult should be open to all adult members. If they’re masters: they can also be teenagers. Donating food to poor people or animals or insects via trustworthy media such as free rice. If you can’t donate food: give your time for charity.

3. Listening to inner music or music of spheres. Meditation on dancinglightofgrace. Composing verses to exalt it.

4. Being vegetarians unless it was absolutely necessary to eat meat in a climate where nothing else was available.

5. Not being fidel to husbands or wives.

6. Not being fidel to parents or siblings or sons or daughters.

7. Speaking only Truth. But not to hurt others. Only to serve justice or to teach. Writing only Truth. Not stealing unless it was absolutely necessary to feed hungry stomach or mind.

8. No interdiction on pornography. No ban on jerking off. No ban on sexual intercourse. If you can afford it: have it. By mutual agreement. Not producing offsprings by understanding that the living areas are already overpopulated.

9. Not being fidel to romantic partners. Not being fidel to causes in any absolute sense but being fidel to experiments.

10. Not doing unto others what you don’t want others to do unto you.

11. Not speaking loudly. Not being fidel to posts like humanity or godliness.

12. Listening music only with earphones.

13. Meditation. Reading. Learning. Teaching. Exercise. Staying fit. Never going to doctors unless it was an emergency.

14. Never hurting others except by being silent. Not talking to others shouldn’t be taken as an offence.

15. Not giving unto fake religions or propaganda like corona.

16. Practicing breathing deep and mindfulness. Aspiring for nectar of immortality and Sanmaargam. The perfect understanding that you’re godhead as much as any other being or process is.

17. Mozart or instrumental music played as vehicle horns. On traffic signals. In schools. No verbal jargon.

18. Not producing offsprings. Not living in overpopulated areas. Everyone should have enough space where they can dance or sing or watch porn or themselves naked if necessary.

19. Being of help but not to thwart someone else’s progress. Never conspiring. Never joining groups like: Bajrang Dala, RSS, Bharat Swabhiman, Vishwa Hindu Parishad, ISIS, Jews, Christians, Atheists, Buddhism, Sikhism, Islam Humanity or Nagas. Or political parties like : Congress, BJP or Shivsena etc. Never voting.

20. Conversations should mostly be one-on-one. I would never be a leader. You see the cult and you move on as you know it’s same old same old.

21. Time travel is something worth being investigated. Like: leaving body at will.

22. Record your ideas. As often as you want to or need to. Even if nobody reads them.

23. Be fidel to yourself. Set your own goals and achieve them. Be a freelancer. Play your own games. Doubt : blue pill. Read. Trust: red pill. Experiment and learn.

24. Learn about darkness and light.

25. Know the light but hold onto darkness. Or know the darkness and hold onto the light.

26. Never take any life. Never kill any life forms unless your life is threatened. Even if you need to save yourself : try to escape. It’s your own life force that you weaken by killing a life form. Don’t take part in wars. Sports are best forms of channeling your anger and energy. Watch Grave of fireflies. Cry as often as you need to: even if you’re a male.

27. Eros and Thanos. Bal and Mot. Logos and Sophia. Husband and wife. Sister and brother. Darkness and light. Two friends. Two neighbors. Two enemies. Two languages. Two rivals. Two colors. Two fragrances. They’re worth being watched. Be a witness.

28. Be a witness to waking, sleeping and dreaming. Understand work, power and energy.

29. Live young, live free. Free from aging, decay, death and fear. Free from hunger and craving. Work for your own freedom and that of others.

30. None of what is present in my cult is new. Yet it’s fresh. You can’t bathe in the same river twice.

31. As of now: on 17112020: there are no members in my cult.

32. I am the only member of my cult. Cult can’t do anything illegal. Its members have to comply with the law of the lands they live in.

33. Death, sex and any other discussion isn’t taboo in my cult. But watch out for practice. You need to please kabbalists to get published. Theirs is the easiest system(the man model: purush sukta) of understanding reality. It matches with Hinduism to a great extent. Trust numbers. They’re secular. Keep counting.

34. All life forms are interdependent. Read a lot. Read at least 10 books per month. If you can’t: listen 10 books per month. If you can’t: watch ten movies per month. If you can’t : be a Hellen Keller to world.

35. Jishnu G. Nair: in the hall facing South East: in Oriental Institute of Science and Technology Bhopal in 2005 in presence of Swati Chugh and Amrita Bajaj: upon being asked by her(Swati): about me: said that I would find a cult. That I would create a new Dharma or religion.

36. It has been 15 years. I didn’t create any new cult. Jishnu was wrong.

37. Jishnu was only child of his parents. Jishnu had good powers of imagination. He helped me with Engineering drawing. Originally from Kerala. Could speak Malyalam and English along with Hindi. The first thing Jishnu did after getting a job: he got married. He appeared busy if asked any philosophical questions.

38. Jishnu made a remark about Swati’s braces. I hope Swati is comfortable with her teeth and symmetry now. I was charismatic indeed. Good long term memory. Emerging hero of EC branch, genius, psycho, baba, etc etc.

39. Jishnu was proud and told me: you have a superiority complex. Jigyasu was far more positive in his attitude. Every time I expressed a worry he came up with a positive reply. A Gemini to my Saggitarius. An optimist to my brooding nature. The duo always spent time in computer lab. They must be making millions now. Geeks.

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That Girl is Claire or Guy!

1. As long as Claire G is there I can only imagine to get the first rank in the night jams. PC spoils my evening jams by being so smart. Their IQs must be 150+.

2. If it’s not PC, Stephen or Claire take the baton and I don’t get the first rank.

3. I need to get the first rank.

4. The fill in the blanks take too much time to read. They should be removed from the constitution of vocabulary.com( Ben Zimmer????)

5. New jams should be created. I can create them to ensure my victory but who will be joining? That’s the main problem. Only hosted by vocabulary.com ones gain any good number of players.

6. Words like kibble nibble at my soul. But the goal is not reached for I have no time to practice them on the usual challenge.

7. I got 434522 ranks if I remember it well. There were at least forty to eighty participants per game. I can sleep in peace for having tried to increase my verbal advantage to cite the annotated bibliography of Jhonson O’Connors Wordsmart Challenge: this is going to make me super-rich someday!

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2G internet speed!

1. At 22:00, tucked in the quilt which I bought in Bangalore, after a nice, memorable walk as streets were almost empty when I was returning, thrillers of vocabulary jams on vocabulary.com as stadium was empty, until the caretaker decided to lock me out, and I went to sit on a bench outside the number two school where I had the most delicious pulav this noon, then I sat outside the number one which I am wont to do listening and lipsyncing to some classic songs.

2. I woke up late after the noon class. I was dreaming a dream which only left vague traces in waking memory: friends, journeys and mysteries.

3. I had snacks which she said were hot but were not. These people are poor. They’re abjectly poor despite a monthly income which exceeds 140 times mine, which is merely my pocket money. I am rich and happy, comparitively. I am not complaining : I am telling you about the quality of life from my viewpoint and it has always been so. My unhappiness was always vicariously felt dread for ignorance of others. My happiness was genuine and mine. Left to myself with a handful of tools which helped mind isolation: I was always happy. I am always happy if people let me be.

4. I scored 3456 ranks on jams. Other than PC, Stephen and Paul have also emerged as winners. I need to practice more to stay in the shape. My bowling has been only five to six overs per day in the last three four days, which means I am not running as much and though it was partially because of elections crowding the stadium and its neighbourhood-it has given my muscles time to recuperate which I being a martinet might not have given. Sometimes martinets become masochists.

5. There are books in the queue. Lori liked my posts and people like her remind me how little I actually read. In my defence: I have to toil hard for pennies. In one of the class I am teaching for five rupees per hour, in another for about ten rupees per hour. It’s only one class which gives me a decent 30 plus rupees per hour. Farmers, labourers and such might complain that they’re not getting to reproduce as many offsprings or not getting as many ganja shots as they need to: I am the one who doesn’t get a good internet connection or enough privacy to watch a movie. No freedom to take leave from work or any decent income job. I am not a slave but my freedom puts so called poor people to shame.

6. Unless I state things clearly: which people want me not to in the name of being primp: I assume responsibility for things which I didn’t create: like living in a strange society: where on one hand I do live below poverty line, OTOH I am not subject to any benefits provided by the government or community because my miserly goblins of parents and relatives would ensure that I am not entitled to any benefits by keeping all my documents and ruining my history. I am the one who took responsibility for being free from slavery. I am free, though not as comfortable as I was just ten years ago.

7. Tenet movie has a version available online which instantaneously produces sleep. I would wait and by then the desire to watch would have died. Neither Nolan’s mistake nor mine. It was the same at the time of Interstellar. I am using a smartphone which was hard earned with a delay of about one year and the internet speed is not better than 2G on most days: though it says it’s 5G. By comparison an average individual in Korea is living in a heaven. This is what it all comes to in the end: countless lifetimes of merits accumulated to give me a birth in a place where I long for a place where I may watch some porn in peace. A good internet connection. How small I really think. Indeed! This is a country of liars. No dreams get fulfilled here!

8. When am I going to get back to reading the constitution of India? Perhaps when it’s time.

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The Day!

1. Logic comes to my rescue at times. Though it also hides the higher intelligence.

2. Counting, reading, writing, running, balancing, mindfulness, humility, modesty. They’re all treasures : until they’re not. If you master a skill you should also count the dependencies. Electricity, water, space, hygiene and availability of good food are basic constraints for those living in cities and towns.

3. Earnest salutations and business can’t go hand-in-hand in case of individuals. In case of macrocosm : anything and everything can happen. What did he mean when he said: I will play the game with balls for eons and eons: it meant something to him. No publication is allowed without a certain authorization. Whatever reached you was the best of the information available for you at that time.

4. Skill creates news. Rest is same. In love. In point zero. In sunn you sharpen the sword of knowledge for the journey ahead.

5. I received a training in impromptu speech today. The fundamental rests in noname files: I have been through it very many times. I would have mastered it if I was given a script to read. Then : there wouldn’t have been loss of accountability. Hence listeners and viewers. Shrauts and smarts. Kevin Spacey in the usual suspects. The jokes and teasing shouldn’t hurt. It’s not out of Truth but : infinite inexhaustible energy does appear to be limited in certain locks, books, constructions or ego structures.