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It ended in 2010.

1. The best of celebrations was a decade ago. They so arranged it that i was left with her and her.

2. It was serene. An Italian restaurant. Monika. The boys didn’t come on a pretext.

3. She was there for two birthdays in a row. Once i was washing clothes using washing machine when she called exactly at 12:00. It had never happened before and i wasn’t expecting it. The next one was in that restaurant. Pasta. Second best after the pasta made by Ramona Skovroneck.

4. I asked Vibhuti to lend me her mascara(eyeliner, kohl.) Then they took the best picture. Three of us. Not just one. She remarked on my transformation because of her(Monika not Vibhuti) influence. Only half of story…her half.

5. By the end of November 2011 it had all changed. Dark magic. These witches were calling me. My merits were too short-lived. A decade of struggle and pain with kabbalists after a 2.5 years of heaven…semi heaven. Lower middle class to middle middle class to below poverty line. What a waste of a life indeed!

6. By 2017 i had grown accustomed to stale porridge. The dark duo had eaten up all my space . These were people who promised of happiness and respect when they called upon me. Sadly they were charlatans waiting to avenge upon someone who escaped their daily grind of greed and cruelty to a place of pilgrimage.

7. Sad. Very sad indeed.

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Prank calls list last month!

1. The lady calling in Punjabi said that I got a lottery worth 21 lakhs and she was calling from JIO. She told her name to be Tina. Police who keeps a sharp eye on each and every online and offline movement of mine should investigate the matter. It was after the 1912 hint when I found Tibetans were using most number of calendars.

2. Aakash-the son of Devkunwar wanted to avenge my righteous behaviour to him. I worked very hard and slowed myself down to bring him up to the mark. Ghanchoo called me the day Shri vamoosed without notice. He said he would give me my quote. He was never seen again. Add that with ‘Coherence’ joke where he alongwith Shailendra were wearing red and pretended to not recognise me near that handpump. Roze se ho kyaa?

3. Imran Akhtar Beg had absolutely no background enmity with me. We never quarrelled with each other. He once showed up when autowallah gave side: clout. Then: a false promise of a job plus advertisement of his post in consumer court. I must have hurt him in some way sometime. I hope it ends here because it wasn’t funny. Especially when he earns 16 times more than I do with an assurance of future income.

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Isha Garg!

After replying to MVS, i saw Isha Garg’s comment on her blog. Then I recalled having mentioned her in my closure post on Blogger’s World along side MVS. ‘The son of a slave’ was a poignant piece by Isha. She belongs to the league of extraordinary armadillos. Since she doesn’t read my blog or follow me there’s no logical cause for worry or sadness after publishing this innocuous comment.

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Prank Calls!

1. It’s not about yet another business failure.

2. If Imran Akhtar Beg: didn’t return my call. Gave me a white slip which I still have with details about his attending my classes beginning with 11122020.

3. It’s not about my forgiving him for a prank call.

4. It’s about the value of word. Regarding jobs.

5. I would close this case with this assumption:

Imran works in consumer court and wanted me to advertise him with posts in which he’s painted as gaining advantage by making me feel desperate for work.

6. It was only 5 calls this morning from Shatabdi. But let me keep this in memory forever.

7. When I asked him : to tell anyone who needs tuition to refer them to me: he said he wanted it himself.

8. Now he is not picking my call. At all.

9. There must be a very good reason to it.

10. I lost trust in your goodness today. There goes the consumer court office advertisement. You shouldn’t have sold a fake product my friend. Anyways.

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Genealogy: Kaulava Tantra!

1. I just edited an article on Blogger’s World. Vishnu Jha who called yesterday didn’t call today. He specifically asked about the time and I asked him to call at about six o’ clock.

2. Absolute is formless. It’s also with form. It’s both and neither. It’s beyond description. If it was a male: devotion would be easy for all females: naturally. If it was a female: devotion would be easy for all males.

3. To suggest that all males should worship female deities for emancipation and vice versa is opposition of natural instinct in some people for same sex: gays and lesbians. It might be a trivial matter for some people but people like Oscar Wilde martyred themselves in what might have been dark ages.

4. Those who called same sex marriages unnatural might be right in an orthodox sense. Keeping males and females segregated for long in groups when nature actually drives them to produce offsprings and then carry that hanging stomach for the rest of their lifetimes; might have been the root cause or maybe not. In any case the resolution is towards highest individual freedom without hurting communities at large.

5. Most of our lives are wasted in search of Truth about temples, deities and reality. Whose search is that?

6. As many deities as cards. As many supports as lives. As many companions as walks of lives. As many romances as possible. Who or what brought the concept of one husband and one wife to whom we always return? One mother. One father. One friend. One Self. Oneself. Why? Fatigue. Activity and rest.

7. Sun took the baton of Jaiminee Atmakaraka from Mars in afternoon.

8. It was a most pleasant day. Beautiful. It drizzled after a long time.

9. I saw a car with number plate MP16MC5555. The number is certainly a special number. I thought about testing the vehicle number search app. I tried it in vain. An advertisement asked me to use Google voice search instead. As soon as I cancelled the advertisement I saw that the car door opened and an angel came out of it. She was talking on phone. A moustached man was looking towards Southeast. A baby boy was in the front seat. Playing.

10. How many synchronicities I observe everyday? How many of them are well planned because people care about what I think, read or write?

11. She told me that Shri went to attend an NCC class. Immediately i recalled the addition I did yesterday: CHHATARPUR adds up to 6. The whole thing written on the entrance to NCC wing adjacent to stadium complex adds up to 69. I recall the bikers who acted with that pony tail girl that day. I understand it in conjunction with “Bhavana Ke Bhojpatron Par:” someone attended the camp. She considered me intelligent. I was better than ‘A.’ I knew about the L movement of horse while he could only make an open square. The trip to Gayatri Mandir: the code was cracked in favor of higher intelligence by Damayanti madam. So instead of just one family two were involved with a national institute. I keep working harder.

She said :” she’s still not working…is she?”

I was wondering what my response was supposed to be as nothing had transpired between two of us since yesterday.

12. This is mind boggling for most readers. I can ensure that if you read it without experience in genealogy you’re bound to confound.

She needs more credit: she asked me: “you aren’t in any kind of search anymore now, are you?”

13. This was clearly in opposition to my command to Shri when we used to sit just besides sieving machine. Osho as well as Ramkrishna mission teachers used to advise their students to sit properly as body postures are first and foremost foundations for further progress in Yoga.

14. What has Yoga got to do with English and Hindi lessons ?

15. If students sit properly they learn better. If they don’t they don’t. Same with concentration: if they’re onycophagists and keep moving their legs or arranging their hair or attending their calls while teachers give them their total attention: they receive less than they should. They learn less than they should.

16. If you can’t take my class for more than half an hour: pay me 1000 rupees for 15 hours per month. That’s fine by me. If your wards can’t sit with a straight spinal cord for more than 15 minutes: pay me 1000 rupees per 15 hours.

16. To all those who doubt my ethical uprightness: I have given it enough thought. If it was a boy instead of girl and I was paid 1000 rupees for 30 hours : I would have been equally responsible. Why do I need to give a character certificate to myself? CAA is coming Pranaam dena padega.

17. I taught Golu, Ankit, Vivek and couple of his friends, Aakash and Saarthak inside that premise. Shri was smarter than all of them. I knew that as soon as I spoke to her for a while. She had studied in an English medium school. In a CBSE school. She is an only child of her parents. She’s from Bengal and Orissa. For a while she kept paying emphasis on Bengal and then she switched over to Orissa. She doesn’t know Oriya: therefore you know whether patriarchy or matriarchy is valued in her family.

18. Of all people who interacted with me: Jasveer had good English vocabulary but he lacked balance. He was out there to convert. As soon as I reached there he tagged me “right wing.” Only when I praised Ravish Kumar: “oh he’s my friend!” Ok Sardar ji: now please calm down. I took him to Mote Ke Mahaveer and Hanuman Tauriya on auto because I wasn’t sure about driving licence thing. Their behaviour did change when I took bike for a few days. Remember Viraat? Bahut Badaa ho gaya… irrigation department!!!!!!!!!!!

19. I am for hire. Anyone who’s willing to pay me more than 1000 rupees per 30 hours for teaching them English vocabulary, writing, Grammar, Hindi writing, vocabulary etc. And have an environment or space where they can study undisturbed for about an hour can contact me. They should be living inside Chhatarpur district. Age, sex, color, cast, creed, nationality, ethnicity, sexual orientation, religious views: no bar.

20. Contact number: 7000697798

21. I would have continued to teach her Mathematics and Science in evening if the school board hadn’t interrupted with sudden tests. I need some sleep now.

22. The yogadas: Yogananda searched for some lost love. So did Osho. I also do so by looking for Aditi. Perhaps that’s why that memory was created. I have seen many adepts in 2020 but none who could bring back true message from Aditi. Where did she reincarnate? If she didn’t: what was my karmic connection? Her name was Aditi Billore. She died in a car accident on Nowgong road with two of her parents in 1992. Let me know if you can show me.

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Piccalilli

Aren’t you odd?

Oh piccalilli?

I once met a Piccadilly

Dilly dallying,

Shilly shallying,

Through thick and through thin,

Kith and kin.

Oh piccolo,

Piccalilli,

Piccadilly!

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Brahmacharya!

1. The sixth page of book titled “Brahmcharya” by Gandhiji offers this solution:

Treat all women as you would treat your sisters, mothers and so on.

This would result in celibacy according to him.

2. The commitment towards just one person binds. Then your love becomes limited.

3. What about those committed?

4. Let them become like brothers and sisters.

5. Then a Godse would come.

6. Same with Adam and Eve. Incest is the root cause of all evil no matter what philosophy you subscribe to. Therefore UG advised “fuck your mother and sex problem will be over forever.” Not my ideas. UG Krishnamurthy.

7. I always asked people about incest. The Maria Mata oath might not be just one such case. “All indians are my brothers and sisters :” I should not marry one of my brothers or sisters then? Even Dilip Jacob married. Then he must have married his sister? Yes. This is where you put the ribcage clonning theory. You marry yourself. Predestination : a thought provoking thriller. I am out of this BS.

8. The only pleasure which people hanker after is taboo and taxed. It’s the way of the world. It’s the churning of the ocean. Only one pool. You sometimes call yourself God and at others you call yourself not-so-godly.

9. My stomach is India’s stomach. My stomach is cosmic stomach why not. Ravana had nectar in his navel. Godse becomes Rama. It’s all fiction and novels anyway.

10. If school oaths can be broken to marry your sisters(openly or secretly) any oaths can be broken: Hippocampus oath? No. Hippocrates oath.

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Laddoo!

1. I went to get the bottle filled with water. The lady preparing laddoos offered me some the moment recognition converted from fragrance to form.

2. I told her: “I don’t eat anything stealthily.” At that moment secretary appeared with the president of the trust. I saluted them both and then told her that I was in the field and entered into kitchen to fill the bottle. She then gave me a laddoo: an offer I couldn’t resist. Coming from authority. That’s the way things are in the world of archons. Let’s forget about masks for a while: black and white. I had til candies which I bought at Sahooji’s shop. Til laddoo is next.

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You, you or you and you!?

1. It was a pleasant walk back to this place. A walk in twilight after a long time. The librarian was reading newspaper. I took his leave after a few minutes. This morning I had a ride on e-rickshaw. This noon I met a person who was interested in books and arcane knowledge.

2. Lunch in Dindayal rasoi was the highlight of the day. As i reached the place : I saw ongoing construction. A boy with a bike told me that there was no more food. It was only two o’ clock but then he said: if you want to eat, come with me. I followed him and he told that it was roti and curry instead of usual rice. He offered either four rotis with curry for five rupees or eight rotis plus curry for ten rupees. I opted for the latter. After a long time I had plenty of food without guilt. Whatever comes out of this food will be bliss. I was raptrous in library for the rest of the afternoon as I kept reading bits and pieces. The songs of devotion for the divine feminine. I took permission from Damayanti madam to feed guavas to cows. I had bought them for twenty rupees and two of them were left.

3. I observed a painting by an artist named Sanju as i was coming back from Gayatri Mandir. Kala Mandir was written below it. The painting was state-of-art.

4. Shri scored better than me on both Algebra and Vocabulary quizzes on Free Rice sites. It might seem like an exaggeration but Damayanti madam came at the same time to pay me two hundred rupees and asked for the balance. It distracted me for a while: yet i can’t use the same logic to explain why she scored better than me on Algebra on third day consecutively. I told her that I was going to score better tomorrow. Would I? I would practice. We shall see.

Here’s a verse:

I saw a damsel,

A maiden,

A divine melody in a form,

Was it you, you or you?

Or all of you!