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Log 0812021

1. Had carrot halwa with librarian and naturopath to celebrate the birthday of the naturopath. A four planet stellium in Sagittarius is the actual cause of his being fond of Osho who had a five planet stellium in it. A Virgo. Atmakaraka Saturn in Sagittarius.

2. Uprooted some carrot grass plants from field. The word ‘Nidai’ means weeding. Took many pictures. Internet and earphones acted up dramatically.

3. Had some giant spinach leaves to eat. Narrated Popeye the sailor man to those present.

4. Trip to a field and hospital. First time in elevator in hospital.

5. Another interview with sportspersons. What is the English name for Malkhamb gymnastics. Mal masa and Malkhambha.

6. Registered 22 titles in library. Looked into horoscope of three people. Attended candle protest.

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Bundelkhand Marathon Updated 2021

1. Received a message and then a voice call today.

2. On 11th, Jan 2021, the shirt and energy drink can be received by 12:00 PM in Baburam Chaturvedi Stadium Chhatarpur Madhya Pradesh.

3. They said we can run with cellphones. The bags will be transported to Dhavarra, Nowgong where the race ends.

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Conversations with the Moon!

Hello Moon,

Good afternoon!

Monsoon too soon,

Perchoon perchance chanceon,

Chancellor lord ordained dense marksmanshipwreckedemarcation

Cation anion onion

Ion on ion on and on

Noisome meshuga gasconade bragbro

Bromide Idempotentate tattletale telltale

Ginger ale

Germane mail

Don’t ail,

Anymore,

It’s a chore now-a-days!

Prompt: same as title by My Valiant Soul on instagram

Image credit: myself.

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Time can’t heal timeless wounds!

1. Walked 80 minutes and played vocabulary jams on vocabulary.com. Walking without bag on back is easier. It is possible to complete marathon by using walk and run approach in turns. One of the challenges is to wake up in time on the day of marathon. My heels have cracks and toes have injuries and bruises because of excessive walking. But it’s not new. Time can’t heal timeless wounds.

2. Received 1123124 ranks but not in that order. Moon wasn’t visible today.

Number 9
-9
Evening

3. I own all the images. Though it used to be useless. Who owns what and for how long, yadda yadda.

4. PC and Stephen were missing today. Vimal Rajendran, Yang and another guy whose name is difficult to spell played well.

5. Got shaved. Had to borrow ten rupees. Returned 5 rupees that i had borrowed from the PUBG guy. The game got banned but memories are enough to run a mobile restaurant for youth!

6. We had some discussion in library. I didn’t know it rained in New Delhi. The clouds increased temperature here.

7. Made 100 rupees as a freelancer towards a job which was not completed. Learned to use Paytm. The call which was supposed to last 20 minutes took 2 hours 20 minutes. In 2011 i published a half-baked treatise named ‘A Cookbook For Genius’ on a freelancing site which gave me 25 coins. Then i had a full time job in Cognizant Technology Solutions and yet i couldn’t earn as a freelancer. People from Nigeria and other African countries quoted such low prices that they were immediately hired. I was new. I don’t know how long i can continue but once i am out of this pit i would never be able to forget how deeply entrenched i had become here because of these ancient relationships. You think they’re resolved but complexes keep coming to surface until your identity gets completely changed or you become all-in-all.

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Preparing For Bundelkhand Marathon 2021 Part Three!

1. I walked and ran for about 90 minutes and kept playing vocabulary jams yesterday evening. Wind was furious and Moon looked pale red. There were four cows and a mule and later, to my surprise, five guys joined who left after spreading some garbage in the name of new year celebrations.

2. I enjoyed playing with PC and Vishnu Ram. It’s an honor to play with such wonderful players. Stephen and Paul were also there.

3. Took some pictures which create a series:

National Youth Day!

I own my images, words and ideas, both here and on Blogger’s World.

4. I can complete marathon even at my normal walking speed. I can walk even a 40 kilometres marathon, therefore winning by running faster is not an issue. It’s merely endurance training.

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After Deendayal Rasoi Day Five!

1. I took some pictures: uploaded them on instagram before I began writing this article. The weather is pleasant.

2. It is Sunday market. The Ramlila ground was fully occupied. I had a pleasant meal in Deendayal rasoi. The scrubber was inside the soap bucket. I looked for it around me and then dipped my hand inside the bucket. Guacamole is avocado dipped in a dish. Dipped in what?

3. I saw an exquisite Robin after exiting toilet. I washed my feet before I came to this place.

4. This has been an extraordinary year in many senses. Despite all miracles: it seems as if it’s a huge burden i am carrying. Most people don’t recall words from our last conversations whereas I tell them about chains of events and causation in vain. It’s because of miracles: it seems like an eternity. And there’s an eternity in the making. There’s no death, no aging or defeat in this game.

5. I developed following models for young people I used to interact with:

A. Game

B. Journey

C. War

D. Dream

E. School

6. I have no doubt that I love the School model the most. And yet: these are merely five prime models. There can be countless such models.

7. Journey model is used by Guru or psychonauts. Internal or external journeys are used with landmarks to ascertain progress. Crystalline intelligence is mostly about memories. Good or bad. Organized or disorganized.

8. Every model overlaps with other. As Kabbalistic sephirods scheme has material and spiritual worlds overlapping each other.

9. Take Truth realm universe or Sachkhand for example. There can be countless witnesses to tell about their experiences. I use it to debunk myths.

10. Try it: things are what they seem. If you see people : you’re seeing people. If you see trees: you’re seeing trees. If they say no: they mean no.

11. The laws are wierd and merciless.i participated in making of a video which was shot under Ashok tree. I was a reluctant participant. That journalist is present in the library today. He’s a member of the trust. I was reading “Teere Teere Narmada,” by Amritlal Vegad then. I wanted to buy the book but as they had only one copy left: I didn’t.

12. Shri took my picture. We were reading the post about fishes that was published yesterday from this very spot. First she asked why I don’t upload my selfie pictures on my blogs. Then, without my permission she took two shots. I asked her to show them to me-out of curiosity about my appearance. Then I requested her to delete them. She didn’t. I asked her to give me a picture of her face. She refused. I kept taking her shots with hope of capturing her face. She covered it. Then she asked me to not use her body’s picture on my blog. I agreed. What’s so special about our faces? Conditioning.

I reminded her to not behave in a way with others in which we don’t want others to behave with us.

“Don’t do unto others what you don’t want others to do unto you.”

13. She also showed a sketch done by her. She cut the paper and used it on back of her smartphone. She’s quick to learn and evolve. It was indeed flattering to have my picture captured by someone. But I don’t want to feel incapacitated. She refused to be captured. So did I. One day I was captured and they refused to delete my picture. I didn’t like it.

Eventually: she deleted my images and showed her phone. I deleted all 14 of her images and showed it to her.

14. She didn’t do her homework again. Why do people behave the way they do? We played on Free Rice: German, Algebra and Chemical symbols. She gave up on the last one very easily. Scored much better than me on German but lost on Algebra.

The key to score better than her is:

1. To not to chat with her as you play.

2. To focus on maximizing score instead of being righteous.

3. To not to multitask.

15. All indo-germanic languages have similar roots. That’s why I find it easy to answer questions on German and Spanish though I have never studied them systematically.

16. If I kept playing on Free Rice: soon I would be able to learn basic working ‘visual vocabulary’ of all languages offered there: German, Spanish, Greek and Latin.

17. As I was listening to Lucky Ali’s song from his album Sifar: the triangle on the palm symbol attracted my attention. Mercury, Saturn and Moon mounts are on top of three lines which create the triangle. The shape of Paratha. The cone. The dot in the centre is verily the Sun. The Self. The void. The black hole. Neither nor, either or, 1/0. Sefer Yetzirah.

18. Those who are quick to promise are found faltering when required to fulfill them. Don’t trust young people about serious issues. Buying half a kilogram of guava costs 20 rupees whereas eating them by plucking from a farmer’s farm brings 1000 demons of guilt. This is what comes from experience. If your requirements are simple, definable and affordable : they can be fulfilled if you’re willing to pay the price.

19. Ramcharan Vidyarthi came as I was cataloguing books. He told about Damayanti madam not being happy with my sweeping of library hall. I have been sweeping it on every Saturday. Yesterday she got it Sweeped before I reached. This gave them the right to talk behind my back, then bring it to my front, then make me write it and earn extra brownies. This is the way of the world. A tall broom is needed to remove cobwebs. I should have shown knack of tying the broom to the bamboo which was put outside the library hall. I didn’t.

20. Why should I learn driving a second hand Maruti 800 which has a complex gear mechanism when technological advancements have brought cars which run via manual gears which are as easy as flying personal chartered planes?

21. Why this third world mass manufacturing market of filth has all of the people producing offsprings who have similar fates? Limited and oppressing?

22. I set myself a goal to again reach Kumbhaka level 4 minutes. Lia was responding to oxygenation then. I confounded her with Nandita. Prosopagnosia. I had achieved it in 2003. This year took me on excursions which taught me mysteries of Atma Pariyojna. Mysterious ways of Kabbalistic Deuteronomy. I had to shut myself off comletely as every walk used to bring experience worth one book.

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Isha Garg!

After replying to MVS, i saw Isha Garg’s comment on her blog. Then I recalled having mentioned her in my closure post on Blogger’s World along side MVS. ‘The son of a slave’ was a poignant piece by Isha. She belongs to the league of extraordinary armadillos. Since she doesn’t read my blog or follow me there’s no logical cause for worry or sadness after publishing this innocuous comment.

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You, you or you and you!?

1. It was a pleasant walk back to this place. A walk in twilight after a long time. The librarian was reading newspaper. I took his leave after a few minutes. This morning I had a ride on e-rickshaw. This noon I met a person who was interested in books and arcane knowledge.

2. Lunch in Dindayal rasoi was the highlight of the day. As i reached the place : I saw ongoing construction. A boy with a bike told me that there was no more food. It was only two o’ clock but then he said: if you want to eat, come with me. I followed him and he told that it was roti and curry instead of usual rice. He offered either four rotis with curry for five rupees or eight rotis plus curry for ten rupees. I opted for the latter. After a long time I had plenty of food without guilt. Whatever comes out of this food will be bliss. I was raptrous in library for the rest of the afternoon as I kept reading bits and pieces. The songs of devotion for the divine feminine. I took permission from Damayanti madam to feed guavas to cows. I had bought them for twenty rupees and two of them were left.

3. I observed a painting by an artist named Sanju as i was coming back from Gayatri Mandir. Kala Mandir was written below it. The painting was state-of-art.

4. Shri scored better than me on both Algebra and Vocabulary quizzes on Free Rice sites. It might seem like an exaggeration but Damayanti madam came at the same time to pay me two hundred rupees and asked for the balance. It distracted me for a while: yet i can’t use the same logic to explain why she scored better than me on Algebra on third day consecutively. I told her that I was going to score better tomorrow. Would I? I would practice. We shall see.

Here’s a verse:

I saw a damsel,

A maiden,

A divine melody in a form,

Was it you, you or you?

Or all of you!

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Morning Run!

1. 40 balls. 8 hits on target.

2. Read newspaper on app. Strangely: all news in this town and around is either about accidents or Lodhi community. And accident signboard has an exclamation mark, like my posts do. Not just one post. It’s entire journalism community of Dainik Bhaskar mocking the prevention of accidents, pedestrians getting killed by bikers. Can it be published selectively? Yes. Can events be executed selectively? You will be surprised.

3. I recalled my match with Abhishek Rajput when we were in school. He used to blackmail me as I had told him my secret. The secret was my fondness for one of my classmates. She was also fond of me for a while she stayed. It wasn’t one sided. I was a nerd. Four or five of them took an oath but then they broke it. He kept using me for assignments and so on. Then one day Abhishek Narayana Sinha went to principal’s office to free me. I don’t know if he really did. He returned with the word from principal’s office:

” Everyone is god’s child, love each other!”

It was a relief.

It all occured in classes between fourth and fifth. We were nine or ten years old.

It was the same school where we used to take this pledge every morning:

“India is my country and all indians are my brothers and sisters.”

All of them married to their sisters and brothers. So will Abhishek. We are all incestuous since the beginning of Adam and Eve.

Once he challenged me for a one-on-one match and I began chanting mantras as I had heard my father chanting. When the match happened: you know who won. It was me. Then again it happened with Mayank Shukla.

The same trait was present in Ankur Tripathi. I was fond of Sanat Jayasurya. He was an explosive opener after 1996 world cup. We were both watching a match when he began beating Shrinath and Prasad: Ankur entered pooja room in his house with rosary beads and the result was Jayasurya getting out on his leg side by Prasad. I called him out of the room. We were fanatics. Hero worship.

It came to my mind as I was bowling this morning. Abhishek went on to become the most educated person in our batch. Despite all odds. I understood value of a post doctoral thesis only after coming in contact with Devika and company. Prior to that I used to consider doctorates to be awarded as favor by college authorities.

Dravid said in an interview that he wanted to pursue doctoral thesis. Later he was conferred those honorifics by some university and it seemed he veered away from his initial goals. Don’t we all?

4. The poha stall guy went for getting change for 500 rupees. The girl disappeared soon. The boys came to check if samose were hot. Old thread with samose. I was doing my job and they were doing theirs. It was Arya, the poster girl outside Ratan Palace yesterday. I recalled it later. She must have put earnest work to reach where she’s. Like Dhaniram who came with another getup and fancy dress. He came the way I had imagined him : once he met me on way with calendars in his hands. It’s second time he asked for poha. He took only a bit.

5. There were people running inside stadium. The stadium is locked. Even girls were allowed. This is the country where Truth wins in the end! Happy Shabbath! Gesture by bikers outside NCC office.

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Thanksgiving 2020

A fellow blogger inspired this post.

1. This year i feel grateful for this black cap that I don on my head. The man sitting on the thela outside stadium near Surya Namaskar statues sold this to me in 70 rupees after bargaining. He asked me what the thing on my right hand’s finger was. I told him about the tally counter which I use to keep track of number of mantras chanted everyday. It was given to me first as an idea by Hare Krishna movement’s Iskcon devotees in Bangalore, in 2011-2012.

2. i feel grateful for this smartphone. This technology which makes it possible to listen music, write and read. It also allows me to capture images and share it with world via social media.

3. i feel grateful to people who worked hard to build this house, this room, this community and space where I can sleep peacefully. i also feel grateful to people who made these clothes that keep me warm in night.

4. i feel grateful to you. The reader of this article. Thanks for your attention. Thanks for being there. Thanks for being yourself. Thanks for holding your ground and principles. Thanks for letting me post on Blogger’s World again(Pam Kirst).

5. i feel grateful to people who created language. Without it there wouldn’t have been this communication possible.

6. i feel grateful to all friends and teachers including Abhishek Rajput who invited me to attend a marriage ceremony while many Ku Klux Klan people were spitting as i passed from streets.

7. i feel grateful to valiant people of Tibet who researched Living and Dying. Coded their experiences in written language without hiding them. i thank Padmasambhava, Shakyamuni, Thich naht Hanh and Dalai Lama.

8. i feel grateful to Saint Rajinder Singh ji who allowed me to get initiated into mysteries of Surat Shabad Yoga in 2014, in July. i couldn’t keep the covenant. Yet i am thankful to Guru Nanak Dev Ji and Kabir along with Ramananda.

9. i feel grateful to bloggers on WordPress who inspired me to read and write verses and prose. Pam, Rashmi, Kristina, Izza, Devika, James, Nandita, Rishuu, Lia.

10. i feel grateful to kabbalists. They’ve the best model of reality elucidated clearly in English language available on internet for anyone who can read and understand.

11. i feel grateful to Vallalar aka Ramalinga Swamikal Adigal. Since 1874, there hasn’t been any other person who attained perfect immortality. His last 101 verses attest to this fact and it was confirmed by a British collector who donated 20 rupees towards the cause. If the account published is false: there remains absolutely no value in anything published online or offline. There remain no teachers or taught. There remain no goals or walks. No play. Nothing. (World Food Programme)

12. i feel grateful to Manikavacchagar, Aandal, Meera and Nayanmars and Alvar saints.

13. i feel grateful to Rama, Krishna, Christ, Muhammad, Moses, Zarathustra and other messengers.

14. i feel grateful to teachers like Pandit Shriram Sharma, Osho, UG, JK, Eckhart, Nisargadatt and others whose books inspired me to strive for my own reality.

15. i feel grateful to auteurs like David Lynch and Christopher Nolan who created movies which define an era. I feel grateful to Hitchcock, Shyam Benegal and others.

16. i feel grateful to creators of finest music in Bollywood, Hollywood and elsewhere: lyricists like Irshaad Kamil, Gulzar, Mazrooh, Neeraj, Jaaved Akhtar and singers like Poppy, Kylie, Kishore, Rafi, Mahinder Singh, Lata, Manna Dey, Mohit Chauhan and Atif Aslam.

17. Bands which created songs like Rasputin (Bonnie M.) and Ketchup song.

18. Entertainers who inspired us: Brian Charles Lara, Mark Waugh, Sachin Tendulkar, Rahul Dravid, Sanat Jayasurya, Courtney Walsh, Curtly Ambrose, Mohammad Wasim, Wasim Akram, Akram Khan, Moin Khan, Dhoni, Jaunty Rhodes, Ricky Ponting and others.

19. Role models like: Gandhi, Nehru, Patel, Mandela, Franklin, Rahul Dravid, Gulzar, Superman, Batman, Iron Man, Supercommando Dhruv, Natarajan, Quan Yin, Quan Yang, Vishnu, Narayana, Vaasudev, Krishna etc.

20. Dancinglightofgrace. Logos.

21. DLOG Artificial intelligence apps.

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The Day Begins!

1. Harshan Yoga. Sagittarius ascendant. Mercury and Moon rule the 12 hour day. The stadium is still being used as an isolation cell for those who do not wear mask.

2. November is pronounced as Navambar or new sky in Hindi

3. December is pronounced as this ambar or this sky. The sky which gets generated in November is called so in the month of Margsheersha. Sun is aligned to the galactic core via Orion or Mrigshira constellation in this month. Mrigshira is in Aries- Taurus.

4. I bowled 43 times in Shatabdi ground facing North. I took permission of academy coach to bowl as they were playing a practice match there before I reached.

5. I played free rice vocabulary quiz. Meditated. Did Surya Namaskar and breathing practices. Sun was shining brightly today. I saw a jet plane going up towards North from South. I took a video which seems to have vanished. A mask hangs around my ears. This is a strange world.

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1. I walked 24 rounds. Anti-clockwise. Inside stadium. I had a sprain in the right shoulder and I wanted to give it some rest. I didn’t run. There were not as many people today. I broke my previous record of 23 rounds. It seemed easier this time. (Based on Vrijpura experience: I can walk 50 rounds everyday! It means about three hours of walking everyday) I need to reduce flab on my tummy which is gradually increasing. I should continue to walk in evening as it’s the foundation for running. Morning bowling and evening walk should do the trick! All that you build up has to be maintained. Ah the rut!

2. Milind’s call kept me engaged. Couldn’t teach the kids. I enjoyed speaking to him. It was after a long time. He’s similar to Piyush in a way. Both of them seem to be intellectuals who connected with me because of my ideas and outlook on life.

Dazzling! 7 baloons

3. The earplugs were acting up. Now I need to buy another.(15 days for 50 rupees. Earplugs. Tennis balls. Internet recharges. Most minimalistic of lifestyles can’t be maintained. Regular getting of head shaved needs 50 rupees per week. Plus regular diet) The picture above was taken just outside the stadium where two gentlemen on bike were distributing sweets to kids who were standing near the lights. They asked me to take picture with kids but I didn’t because I am not sure of anything anymore. Piyush told me yesterday that it is illegal to take pictures of people without their consent. I click pictures of Sun and birds without their consent and if groups of people come in my way : I don’t bother to ask each one of them to give me space to take pictures but I need to be careful before I start making a million dollars per hour. Then I might be worth being sued. As of now : what I click or write is worth toilet paper or even lesser.

4. I played vocabulary jams. On three of them I scored 221 ranks. I want to play more if time allows.

5. Shri was happy today. She laughed a lot and scored well on test on clause. (45 out of 50) Her score in Hindi half-yearly exams is 56 marks out of 80. It’s less than 75 percent. Her friend scored 38 marks out of 80 which makes me a suitable candidate to teach her and I asked her to recommend me to her friend. But it’s not how it works here. I am anxious about her tomorrow’s test. After tomorrow we might be able to study new chapters and play some games of verbal intelligence. I need to buy another tennis ball.

Art!

6. The picture above was taken just in front of the Narasimha temple with the permission of the shop owner. I enjoyed teaching Rohan. Shops were all decorated with colors.