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Morning Eidolons

Deshaj means born from Desh or country.

I had a brief conversation with a dancer and actor who has been a practitioner of the art forms for about a decade and a half. The birds are chirping and insects are buzzing and the cows are mowing and some crows are also adding to the chorus. Analysis kills the art but I cannot give up. Yesterday it was humidity today it is fresh air because there was drizzling in night.

If you find typos here and there you can only consider that I don’t have requisite equipments. My learning curve has brought me here and you can see frequent posts on this blog. I am Brighter Than you think. I can edit better and I can write with better grammar and punctuation. But constraints at present make it very difficult to publish something which is up to the standard of publishing offline via some reputable publishing house. I do not hesitate even for a second to declare that all of this is for myself. It clearly means that if you never read me again it won’t affect me at all. I will never miss your presence aur aur comments or likes. I am absolutely certain about this

Dragonflies and mango trees are dancing in the breeze which is soothing. News channels and papers are busy with agitprop and my home space is filled with vicious talks about Bureaucracy and courtroom drama. The Grand house of householders has agenda of the so called house owners who are slaves to their dreams fancies and wants and desires. Put your fake problems before the comfort Of Those who work to maintain peace and harmony. This is what ego takes delight in. Being a third grade helping teacher in the government my father always took delight in trying to cancel his transfers which have been frequent in the last few years.

He would have loved to be a politician or at least an IAS officer but the stars were not very kind to him.. these days he is busy and often repeatedly rehashing the same bull shit everyday. It is about his contacts with politicians in high places who would help him cancel his transfer. He has been successful in cancelling his transfers in the past and by getting this challenge he gets something to achieve on in his otherwise empty existence.

If not this then the courtroom drama with the in laws of my sibling. The dowry was the issue since the beginning and the in-laws did not leave even me. They wanted to Drag Me To The court knowing well in full that I avoided company at every occasion. And when I say that I have avoided it literally means avoiding. In the five-year history I did not even talk to them for 5 minutes. And yet they wanted me to be subject to the courtroom drama.

This is the field I am talking about. After bringing me here from Brindavana with the excuse mother’s health being critical did not let me go. I tried at least six Times.

Other than my younger sibling and grandmother who are completely in disciplined and reckless. To keep spitting tobacco members of the family left no opportunity to harass me in subtle as well as obvious ways.

Neighbours and relatives left no no opportunity to insult me and ensure that I am put under pressure to marry and work for my living while I am not allowed to leave for the places where I would be best suited to work. They took away my money as well as documents leaving me stranded.

If all of my friends relatives family members and people of my country to disappear due to some Catastrophe aur miracle I would not even buzz. They wanted me to change in ways conducive for proliferating rotten ideas. You can see how well they have been doing.

I have often thought about avoiding such draining articles. In the best of weather we should focus on writing down ideas which look suitable and pleasant. but the best of human stories are those which are imbued with deepest of emotions.

It is what it is. As if written in the Stone I cannot change it. I had many wants and desire but now I have none.

A truck passed by the bypass road. Struck by the Nagin horn I kept scribbling. Trees and plants are dancing in the breeze which is very high speed. Breathing Deep in UK weather Leeds leads. It is not less than a miracle that I found an hour here to note down my ideas. I am grateful to my existence because first I created a direction to my life and then imagined obstructions in achieving the goals earning money is difficult

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I am a cosmopolitan and all people of the world are people of world.

All Indians are our brothers and sisters.

If you continue taking that pledge for as many as 10 years and then you are supposed to choose one of the romantic partners from those sisters or brothers what would it result into ?

The answer is neurosis. This society is more neurotic than you think full stop you are supposed to touch the feet of elders out of respect but that is not enough women who are not more than a commodity at best are to be given fake reverence by touching their feet. Some groups follow the age bar in which all of them who are elder to you need reverence and some others have this extra condition. All of these complexities leave very little scope for study and research.

A better understanding- since they are all my brothers and sisters I will not have sensual thoughts about them. For the sensual thoughts I will try to select partners from across the borders.

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Thank you readers and followers

My father has gone back on his words for four times in the last 6 months. I am waiting for the new smartphone. My mother grandmother and my younger sibling are slaves trapped inside this building. As soon as I get the new smartphone I would write more efficiently and yet my efficiency has been good enough. Including the blogger blog I have written more than 1500 posts in last 6 months of my publishing with the OK Google Transcription service writing is a piece of cake. Very few people read this blog and comparatively more people used to read the blogger blog. Those people who were trolling me started calling me troll as I came into the light. I don’t need a bunch of fools around me. I have done 200 posts on WordPress. Including all my innings I might have published more than 4000 articles. If my comments on discussion forums are also included then the amount might reach to more than 10000. It does not translate as money. It has given me skill and confidence. My clarity of thinking as well as communication skills are improving day by day.

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Mango gross Gosh flash floss!

15.6.2020
Grove

May I ask you a question please? What is the number of mango trees inside Gandhi Smarak Bhawan?

There are about 130 mango trees out of which 21 have been producing fruits.

Frog is singing a song in the well besides which we are sitting. I ask my student another question: do you know the meaning of occupational hazard?

He doesn’t know he nods his head. The question occurred to me because yesterday I saw some marks on his face. This guy has been plucking down mangoes : raw mangoes from trees the juice of the raw mangoes has created those marks on his face I I think ok he should have been wearing a mask while working around the mangoes but the organisation has not provided that mask for him . This is an example of organisations not taking proper care of their workers. This is an occupational hazard an example of occupational hazard is also me teaching him besides the well where v have a wire: naked wire with live current in it. If I am not careful this current can hurt both of us. The impression of occupational Hazard in his memory will get embedded by it.

Gandhi Bhavan

My student is hungry. After having finished assignments which were pending since last 3 days we had some time to discuss vocabulary. The world ending as well as pendulum and impending have the same route which relates them to time.

The area where we are standing right now is the most oxygen rich area inside the premises and maybe it is the most oxygen rich area inside the city. It is a biosphere. It is a buffer zone. it is a treasure.

I don’t know which kind of planetary conjunction is making my students leave the city. One of them left today morning and would not be available for next 3 days and this one is also going to leave very soon obviously after paying my fees. But the only hope is that I might be able to teach him via Internet connection provided we both have the same internet connection and availability of proper signals as this is a rainy season now. He wants me to teach him models for next 5 days so that he can master the examples with which we can practice models. Some peacocks are singing in the nearby field and a tractor on the bypass road can be heard.

I just check the clock and it has been only 5 minutes so far. Although it happens rarely I have been given the opportunity to speak first by my student today. Maybe because I have helped him with assignments.

Live is a word which is used both as a a verb and as an adjective. Living organism lives by doing certain things. In this sentence lives is a verb which indicates that a life form is living or functioning as an entity.

Live program is type of program which is being telecast or being broadcast via electronic media at the same time it is happening.

A leaf is the the most visible and perhaps the most productive part of a tree or a plant. The plural of leaf is leaves. The word for holidays applied by an employee is also called leaves. When someone leaves for their village they go to the company of many leaves that is why they write an application to their supervisors on flats leaves and Palm leaves. I hope my student is not confused by my explanation and has understood the difference between these usages.

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The noon!

It’s is me reporting. A dog has been barking for some mysterious reason. Some birds can be heard in the fields. A squirrel has passed by. The sky is hazy. Although the Sun has been covered by the clouds the humidity has made it unbearable to function

A black bird which is also known as crow calls out in a harsh voice. A man came walking towards us to buy some raw mangoes. Young dog named Kaalu also visited us. You can see a bullock cart from here. This transcription like the one before is also for my communication skills class. My student is working in capacity of being a mango seller. The noon looks quiet. Mongoose entered inside the library, came out, and then again entered inside the library and then again came out and then again entered inside library and again came out and then finally went south.

A mild breeze is blowing now and it it is soothing for our skins drenched in the Sweat. Ambulance sirens can be heard and also horns of some of the vehicles passing from the nearby road. I have been speaking for about 15 minutes and now it is the time to start discussion with my student on whatever has been spoken so far.

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The Date 🌲 Tree

This is me reporting. It is 8:31 a.m. inside the premises of Gandhi Smarak Bhawan. I just observed a hummingbird on the branch of a mango tree. I can hear the birds chirping nearby. Their twittering is soothing in what is otherwise a hot humid and harrassing climate. It has been suffocating in thelast few days. My pupil and friend tells me he had hard time sleeping last night. I asked him to speak without interruptions for a while he spoke about our surroundings for 12 minutes. Now some cows are approaching us I can also hear the sound of an airplane passing.

I am also supposed to speak for about 12 minutes and 5 minutes have already passed. I can see the Good Shepherd trying to sweep dry mango leaves with his bamboo stick. I salute him and ask his name is Ram Lakhan. He shouts calling the name of the cow. The name is Laali which means a Maroon or dark red hue which is similar to the colour of lipstick worn by women normally.

You might think that I wanted to speak about other things. I wanted to give feedback on what my students spoke about. And the introduction has already taken seven minutes. My student says that you speak too much and don’t let me speak. I told you already all of us are fond of our own voices. We all love to hear our own voices. And the truth is all voices are our own voices. But the ego says that the identity which is being exposed by it right now must be used to generate unique voice.

I am supposed to speak with a low pitch and Tempo as my student requested it in order to help him understand clearly what I speak. The key note of his entire talk was the date tree which I suggested him as the subject on which he should have spoken. I initiated the conversation with the most popular was spoken by mistake poet Kabir:

What is the use of being so tall if you cannot provide fruits or shade.

He told me that the fruits of this tree are used for making brown sugar in the state of Bengal. It has stems and leaves but no branches. It has a root which is white and juicy. It is rich in fibre and known as Gaava. Its Thorns are poisonous. It is a very useful tree for Handlooms and making brooms.

I might not have been able to cover that entire talk on this tree. But it is true that Mystic poet Kabir was not actually talking about the tree. As the discussion with my student revealed this tree is actually a very useful tree. The poet was insinuating the people with grand egos who have great achievements but cannot be useful to our society at large. I have taken 17 minutes instead of 12. I stop my talk here and proceed for the discussion with my student.

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Brahmani

1. Brahmani is the best name given to any lizards found in my village. It is passing by me towards the mound on the left side. It is not interested in me is it seems hungry looking for its food here and there.

2. In a way we have been encroaching on their territory. For a while it senses my energy and finds it to be alarming. I notice a small hole on its neck.

Insects; bramhani eats.

3. I observe the dancing plants and couple of red ants. I am gradually learning to appreciate the importance of accurate pronunciation. The well here might be 150 years old. We are supposed to celebrate Gandhi 150. It is 150 years since Gandhi was born in Porbandar Gujarat. This time around last year we went to administer and organise some quizzes in various schools of our town on behalf of Gandhi Smarak Bhawan in order to increase the awareness for Gandhi 150. But unfortunatly covid-19 pandemic has overshadowed this year’s work and celebrations.

4.

7.6.2020

It seems as if everyone has lost the way. But the truth is there was no way. The truth is you never lose the way. The truth is you are always at home. The truth is this is the complete truth nothing but the truth.

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Patrika and Bhaskar

1. As I write down this note the weather app on my cell phone shows the temperature in the town to be 36 degree celsius.

2. The Patrika edition of Chhatarpur reports today’s temperature to be about 35 degree celsius.

3. The Bhaskar edition of Chhatarpur reports today’s temperature to be 31 degree celsius.

4. Bhaskar edition of Chhatarpur has reported about test on a coronavirus subject in progress in the Choubey Colony. True knot. Not true .

5. Patrika has not reported any such case.

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I found a tribe boy

Right now I am standing in the field and we have a mango tree before us there is a tribe boy who is on the branch picking up the mangoes, actually raw mangoes which are to be sold today in the market may be today or tomorrow some of them might get mature before being sold and his assistant is Mr Kaka who is doing stunts like Tom Cruise in the mission impossible, I was trying to make the music {this is not a conversation Mr Ankit I am writing my blog post when it is complete you can review it if you are offended by any of it you can edit it out , I wont publish that but right now I need you to be silent } this sentence was not part of the blog post but since it has been recorded instead of Editing it we would leave it as it is here we have other people also Mr Krishnakant Mishra, Miss Shrija and Mr Manu, so we are having some fun there was recording of a song before this recording and we share some jokes with each other now I am going for a tea in a short while with Mr Vidyarthi who is a Naturopath as well as librarian here and enjoy talking to him also the class of English has been postponed.

because of the present work and I hope that we continue discussing and this is it for now I am switching out of here I wanted to describe many other things like birds flying nearby and the buses and trucks passing by on the road and the flora and fauna around me as well as the climate which has become more pleasant in last few days and the newspaper reports. it was Kabir Jayanti yesterday and I missed to discuss about Kabir with anyone because I was contemplating about the lunar eclipse therefore; I feel that I should be able to recall all the events in time when we need to discuss them instead of thinking about them in retrospect and tribe boy is really very eager I think he is not focusing on his work instead busy trying to make jokes since people and relations in your life are your reflections I think that these people are actually representations of my mind right now I don’t think that there is anything wrong with anyone they are various states of mind it is alright we can interact we can continue interact in a civil manner which is not at all vulgar and we have with us another gardener who lives in the Chauk Bazaar and he is a very nice guy I have been his name I don’t know but we have been trying to get familiar with each other and in sometime I will get to know him

better yes his name is my yard in The Tribe man tells me crime and nose everyone because he has been here for a very long time and he has been interacting with everyone Actually when I came here he was the first one I mad no it was Mr Krishnakant who directed me to him but he was kind

enough to allow me to sit here and read and he was the only person after my struggle who said that yes this is the place you are searching for in your journey and you would be able to read books here so I was very happy and my search was over finally and I think such people are needed in our society who can help others you can show the way you can lead and I think this is the use we were looking for I think they will lead our country and this is the moment we have been looking for in our destiny and this time will be remembered as a good time I hope that I am making some science and don’t sound like a lunatic so yesterday it was a lunar eclipse as you know now the dark half of the Kumar month begins it is the pratipada of the Krishna paksha I can hear some of the chirping crickets and I can see the dancing light of the grace I am waiting for publishing this article after which I need to meditate on the rest of the day in order to earn our living we need to be mindful of the need of others in order to be mindful we need to witness our activities from moment to moment only then we are able to identify the fruitful and the fruitless those activities which help us become aware of ourselves should be fostered and rest should be shunned we all learn by trial and error the environment in which you work affects your health your states of mind and your well being.

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Another Saturday

6.6.2020

The sun is shining brightly . a pigeon flies towards south . by saying point P o i n t i am able to to put. . Full stop after my sentences now . I am discovering the punctuation marks in my writing. after the medical wave the superstitious wave of worshipping the mother Korean ko Rona who would Heal us is spreading rapidly in the tribesmen .. transcribing this way might be funny for a while and later on it my turn out to be efficient some buffaloes are calling each other. A bird is chilling on top of a Palm leaf. I would have continued to reflect upon my surroundings for a while but there are certain things which I need to do as a routine course in order to sustain my living. In other words I need to go for work. Today’s Saturday and I hope your day turns out to be an excellent one. Time taken to write this was seven minutes with minimal editing.