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Gayatri Mantra Plus Anurag Sagar!

1. I had a nice meal and am wrapped under a shawl listening to Gayatri Mantra. This is a way to count blessings. When goings get tough, tough gets going means : tough changes with the change. Resilience.

2. Tough is not literally tough but adapting to changes. Yet: an element of Dharma is based on being stubborn bull: Taurine.

3. I gained first merit in only one of the jams. Can’t complain. I played ten of them with as many as fifty to seventy players in some of them, but as usual the ones with hundred players crashed: ” waiting for host to start the jam.” I might create some jams but where are people willing to join? Same thing as on other social media. Hence: I keep going through same jams. I have taught dozens of kids and told them about this website but couldn’t find even four or five to make a team which could play couple of games with me. Similarly : why I ball alone in stadium. Those with bats feel I am rude but if I let them play the ball will soon be lost and then it all comes to buying another for I don’t know the magic of materializing a ball.

4. I gained 1000 likes on this blog. It certainly has something to do with my participation on Blogger’s World. I thank all common members and uncommon members. I reached to the conclusion after trial and error : I needed to be an author here: the people I interacted most with in the last few years on WordPress were living luxuriously while I was begging and living on social welfare. I can’t monetize anything because government and private all offices have become same: they ask countless questions: use document and scanning to spy on you and control but when it comes to give you privacy or peace of mind: which translates as making you employed without slavery, giving you right to be independent in choice of living, letting you travel or open a bank account: there’s no help whatsoever. Moreover: if you don’t make money offline : chances are: you won’t make it online either.

5. The lasting pointers by parting sister-in-law were : why do parents not keep kitchen and store open? They still ring true. One is: the younger sibling always had a problem following laws. If the kitchen is left open all night: everything will be finished. No milk will be left for Mooslee or Shilaajeet. I need warm water and milk to survive winters. But the eight to ten hours long night and rest of the time with rude voices won’t let me have that. Well, the house was built by Shilajeet for Shilaajeet in Shilajeet. So be it. I was never helped to gain a respectable employment but consistently forced to accept things as they are. Sister-in-law also jabbed about my rushing to get food: because it gets finished: the vultures hate you living: and they have as many shades as you can imagine.

6. If I take a loan to buy a gas cylinder and a burner: it means I might continue to take loans for getting the cylinder filled. Ideals are age old. Grandmother, parents should have gone to Sanyasa and Vaanprastha by now but they are busy fucking each other over and over again. Look at the shameless politicians who should have gone to jungles or taken renunciation: all they do is to manipulate the meaning and to suit it to their ends: in the end they are right. For example: Modi should retire at an age of 71 as per BJP manifesto but he would continue like Shahid Afridi who never aged after 14 years until his retirement. I know that Mahakala grace can do that but…

7. How would taking loans to further take loans make me feel happy or richer. I not only paid loans on bike worth 72000 rupees and laptop worth 47000 rupees but also bought a guitar worth 7000 rupees which became a property of this household when I renounced. Then I was again a householder somehow without any right on materials. What a strange world you live in. The caution money was eaten up by sibling and bank account siezed by Shilaajeet.

8. I do hope that sister-in-law doesn’t come back and they get divorce settlement. New sister-in-law will create a new settlement. Either way I am here to merely witness without taking part in anything. I had warned the youngest about his getting humiliated if he goes for a householder’s life. He told me about being beaten by his father and elder brother with shoes when I returned from Dileep’s marriage. I asked him to be courageous and leave this premise: to which I was given a Chakravyooha charlatan treatment. I don’t like to be fucked merely by close relatives: it should be municipal corporation, country, religions and beasts : then it’s the TRUTH. Narayana.

9. I told him this: if it’s WRONG: I am willing to take my words back. His dreams of becoming an officer were not fulfilled. He was insulted regularly. They couldn’t let him go to coaching institutes. He couldn’t muster courage. They needed gutka shaker slave with fake Hindu values. The Panchali they need is going to be a servant of this house like he is. And these snakes merely want to reincarnate again and again in the same clan to guard their rotting treasures. He will be humiliated by his wife all his life for the want of dependency on her family. He has to say Raja, raja, raja, raja, imitating his father over the call countless times: in the end it will be the Raja not him doing the Rani. So let go of Rani. Let go of the handicap. Let go of the Hridesh Khare myth. Let go of the in-laws who will magically make everything right. Best you could do was to take my ideas and concoct them against me. That was the all creativity you could ever display.

10. The previous in-laws waited for the birth of a female child to get their claim on wealth. The new ones would do the same. And since according to Tiwari Ji the andakosha of the person in concern was destroyed during a bike incident it would need another surgery. Like previous in-laws waiting five years for seed for another baby girl. What’s bad with life; ever more- poor quality life where sandwiched between village and town people you long for more porn, more gutka more tambakoo ?

11. We are on the third storey now. We are competing with Tripathis and Sampat. We will show how filthy our minds, stomachs and brains are. We will, we will, get you!!!! Narayan Narayan. I am the biggest among hypocrites: because I started reading newspaper during the lockdown. I wasn’t allowed to sleep during eight years since 2012 in Peace because old lady refuses to die and young man sleeps only during the day: to educate them on current affairs: I began reading newspaper: the result was his vomitting everytime. What a hypocrite and cunning bastard indeed! Grandmother masturbates: that’s the best of Vedic knowledge. Father takes Mooslee and Shilaajeet while two of the children beg for food. Third one uses fake handicap certificate to maintain his job and fight a court case against another bunch of fake Hindu people. This is me versus who? I really don’t know. I am tucked inside a warm blanket listening Gayatri Mantra.

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Team Blue With Minus 165 points!

1. I emerge as the jam leader after getting 2, 2, 3 and 4 ranks on Jam. Until PC who is from Massachusetts didn’t leave I remained merely a runner up. Then I got another second rank. Having not read enough fiction in English language makes me lag behind.

2. The most strange thing: team red scoring 2000 in minus. Both ships sank. Mine sank lesser!

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Another Story!

1. I paid Vandana two hundred back. Hundred more to be paid on the first of November.

2. One lady in the Gandhi Smarak Bhavan kitchen and a man at the milk dairy asked me about the tally counter that I was wearing on my hand. I explained it one way to the lady : it was short. She asked if I had hurt my hand. The man in the dairy needed more explanation.

3. I had a nice meal for I had money and I could buy an earphone.

4. I need to sleep but I also need to publish a post on Blogger’s World.

5. An Uttar Pradesh bike with Rajjan written on front stopped outside the ATM near Choubey Colony entrance. They asked me the address of SVN nursing college. One of them was spitting gutka. He asked if Galla Mandi doesn’t match with the address.

6. I really don’t know if they were genuine. Most probably fake. They merely needed to find out the way I told address. I was a source of knowledge. I did think that it was many days since anyone asked me directions.

7. Part of the reason was: they might have read my previous post and considered the Vaibhav Choubey Galla Mandi to be the same guy who was my student. It’s a gross error on their behalf because it happened four years ago and my student was a new guy.

8. There are three shades in pavillion besides the main. The Western one has pillars and walls covered with messages and stories.

9. The graffiti advertisement by Panchal art is one such work with contact number. But you can also read the chit chatter between young kids who can barely write either Hindi or English. One of them wrote:

“I like you but don’t want to get entangled in a mess from where there’s no getting back. You have already seen my house. But I am sorry!”

Bay bay(bye bye)

I omitted the details for their safety. Their classes and names are also written on those pillars. Outside stadium is office of Bajrang Sena which is a sister concern of Bajrang Dala. If it had caught them exchanging messages : you know what comes next? Shehnai. They might even bear the cost. It’s cultural heritage.

10. Gulzar’s Dil Se(A. R. Rehman)song has some lines which describe such a scenario: there are wars and communal disturbances. The verse says: there are bondages in relationships. Wires made of thorns. Gates made of stones and walls; and yet creeps flower and groves bear fruits : you get characters and stories.

11. I hope this thread ends here.

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Commitments

1. I scored 112451 ranks in six jams on Vocabulary.com.

2. Most of my commitments to coach students were so short-lived that i could barely introduce them to techniques which might help them master English vocabulary. Why is it so? Most of them drift away. Most of them don’t have enough resources. Most of their communities come to teach me instead of learning from me. They pretend as if they want to learn English but mostly they are about hearsay and moral chastisement. Imagine taking character certificate from sons and daughters of Satan : repeatedly until the end of times. It’s Sisyphean task.

3. I had a nice time practicing bowling in the evening session. I bowled 65 times, took couple of pictures and watched others play. I also heard some quality music. The attestation to having divorced the Mula constellation: even if it’s only partially: is to be able to create events without getting bored. Mula born get bored very easily. 2020 was the year when I mastered boredom and also grasped some nuances of transmigration of soul as per Buddhism and Hinduism. Egyptian mysteries elude.

4. if it says anywhere that some souls burn in hell fire forever: I have read Quran but I only found: Aleph, Liam, meme and shin in it. I had only this much to say and I said this to a muslim teacher and scholar as well: What about those who are already in hell? Who suffers? Is it not the Allah? Then : there must be another agency: discover that agency which is present in both heaven, hell as well as in inbetween. Moreover: Muhammad himself would have known what it’s like to recall previous painful memories when revelations happen: if he was never completely free from the pain they created for him how could he have laid down laws in stone: like Moses and others? It was like writing in prison where no free will exists whatsoever.

5. Purgatory and then back to Earth, Heaven and so on are better concepts. I don’t see various religions as more than vying for spacetime and energy in their domains. Vikram, Hizri, Christian and other eras: all memories of great wars and further wars: era of Donald Bradman, Kapil Dev, Tendulkar, Gandhi, Pele, Modi and Trump. Everyone fighting for the bigger piece of bread. Basically: animal kingdom shown as religious kingdom. Conditions given in Purana for attaining Godhead are so difficult that most human beings have no salvation. Has singularity been reached: are actually machines in charge here? What about Steven Greer’s Disclosure? Where are Sirius, Orion and other civilization beings? Will police and military be back to stadium and streets which are already overpopulated and overcrowded? I don’t have any answer.

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Evening session!

1. 221622: six jams on vocabulary.com. Average rank: 2.5.

2. Jagjit Singh singing Mirza Ghalib’s ghazal. The exit from the garden of Eden happened first for the Satan, aka Lucifer, governor of mind. Demiurge. Yaldabaoth etcetera. Then it happened for children of God: the best of creation. The question is: what’s the difference? The difference is: being smarter than humans he rules the Netherlands then redemption happens to humans, then redemption happens to him, then, again the show must go on. It’s not as easy as I have made it look here but it’s true to the best of my knowledge. In a way: God wanted the Satan to rule in proxy, therefore he created toys for him and then created the whole act of exit and so on: the third Reich: Shin. If I think like that I might appear like Satan. But in that scheme: God is one and only godhead and always remains same. The Satan can never become God. It can only lure some more sparks and mould them until they generate enough energy to break through the egg. All promises of deliverance and all shows of bondage are by Satan, for Satan and so on. Godhead is there to be apprehended. Then you become Satan. Then you continue as Satan for eternity. Or: you’re always the godhead. It became it. Satan is merely a shadow. A temporary shadow for play. Pick any version or don’t.

3. Atheists accumulate material power but are always puzzled by death, diseases and afterlife. After they enter afterlife and appreciate the divine or satanic plan for universes: they see the beauty without gods of archons and realize that though there is no God they need to believe in something to keep going on: either in energy or in happiness being goals of the sum total of their activities.

4. Could ball ten overs quite easily. Toes ache. Weather pleasant. If October was a permanent month or maybe November: weather wise: I wouldn’t mind. It’s better than Spring I think. If you have enough food and internet : winters are a blessing. Now that I have outgrown euthanasia : I don’t have any doubts.

5. I am happy to have a good time. I don’t know if it will continue.