I woke up with wonderful dark clouds all around. Birds are chirping around me. Some of them are heading to their offices. All plants and trees look green and fresh. Air is cool with water sprinkler as I walk on roof clicking pictures. I kept thinking about you. I feel your absence from the back of my heart. I was wondering if there was any compulsion which made you respond to every single call. I guess I’ll have to reach out and touch you. You move my heart. Too profound to describe it. It’s like this most comfortable presence: all doubts and seeking is lost in it. I find myself at home. Beyond worries. Beyond holding.
1. Malkin was archaic for an old woman or mop. I came across it as I was looking up grimalkin: cat or greymalkin.
Greymalkin Malkin
Grimalkin kin
Mall besides desi design
Signature alkaline
Wild card
Wild cat
Auto cad
Maleficent grim reaper
Cent percent cenotaphs.
2. I had tears for a kid. A kid dreaming to make it big in the world of Cricket. Skid id . The childhood was eaten up by alcoholic beverages and domestic violence. He absconded multiple times to fulfill his dream of becoming a cricketer.
Thanks for reading. It ends there. Tagline. Catching fire. Catchword. Stock phrases.
1. Mosquitoes are eager to draw their life force out from this body and some batlings were acting like horsefly when I came upstairs.
2. I had my early dinner and a cup of tea for a change (instead of coffee which is instant pleasure these days.)
3. I learnt about the word bildungsroman and phrase coming of age. I had heard that phrase and I thought I knew the meaning. Bambi is the book being read by a student. I enquired what she was reading and also enquired about the author and genre. In my search for answers which she couldn’t provide: I gleaned that novel has been adapted into a popular Hollywood flick. It was written in 1923 and it was gifted to my student by someone. I might have a go at it if she lets me. I was working on the catalogue in the library. The preface of “Unique Pilgrimage” by Dada Dharmadhikari. It seemed like an engrossing entry for he differentiated between commonly accepted meaning of the word “aniket” from immanent, impersonal brahm which is without any abode because of its all pervasive nature. Actually it’s nature of the nature. The commonly accepted nature is that of a hobo. Bozo. Bezoar. Oar. Arra. Rastafaria. Aria. Rial. Lariat. Lanugo. Goanna. Nanny. Nyayalaya. Laya
4. I was asked this question–
” Amaron battery for the Massey Ferguson costs 5600₹ if you return the old worn out one. With a warranty period of 44 months. The same deal with Exide battery costs 5500₹. With a warranty period of 36 months. Which would be the deal worth doing ?”
The first one. Obviously. We had to grasp the formula for the warranty period after 24 months. It turned out to be about 40 percent being provided by the company. Meanwhile I looked up “Cranking Power.”
Silver Inside
Sidetracked sidereal zodiac.
I am country.
Try a rendezvous.
5. Pooja G belonged to the old circle of trolls. Melbuddhi is a new regular. Another technical blogger who seemed like a hacker is back with a new name. 5 years is a long time on wordpress. 10 years is long time online. I don’t have what it takes to earn money online. If apocalypse doesn’t happen by December: I might start thinking seriously about it. WordPress is an automatically self promoting firm. If you live in Canada or USA or work for them; you get to force feed all others and chances are you would be “freshly pressed and roasted like beans. He brew it so well that’s still fresh.”👍👍👍👍👍👍
1. Time is the only stamp. The pictures don’t tell if I was feeling comfortable or uncomfortable.
2. China, Corona and drizzling is the news. The latest. I had a short trip with some friends to a village. It wasn’t what I expected it to be. I kept puking. Akon is developing a new crypto currency and a new city. Here is a song which was a pleasure once from the vocal belting maestro: don’t matter.
3. We saw monkeys on our way and back but no tigers in the buffer zone. It was a small journey and it was after a long time. I wanted it to end as soon as possible. Towards the end I wondered if I wanted to squelch it off from my memory. The stone shall be reminder: going out of comfort zones and unplanned trips. What is a routine for someone might be an adventure for others and an addiction for another.
Cold Stone: 22.6.2020
3.
The Hut
What was the moot point?
Why did Modi use Gandhi selectively? Why was he being compared to him? Why did it matter?
4.
Mister Chamleone!
It all started here. The warehouse. Mr. Chamleone has his left hand holding the stem tightly. The right hand is free and he looks at me with a swaggering pride–almost panache. Panacea pansy pants panatela telamon monstrous monsoon sisyphean citadels.
5
The Crooked Roads.
The crooked roads. Sidewinding sidewalks. Sideways and sudden breaks caused my multiple deaths.
6.
We concluded that there are no great humans. Just myth which is busted with a very little digging. But you need something to gossip about. You need someone to gossip about. Maybe you don’t. Maybe it’s just me.
1. Sun, Moon and its North node conjoined in the fourth quarter of Orion–Mrigshira to make this occultation possible. Six retrograde planets along with Naaga Karana, Ganda Yoga and international Yoga Day. Ganda means garland.
2. World Music Day. Father’s day. I don’t know how many times mother’s and father’s day is celebrated every year.
3. It’s quiet here. I had a conversation with a retired teacher in his seventies.
4. Birds are chirping around me. Vehicles passing nearby. Sun is playing hide and seek in the clouds.
5. I need to take a class after a while. The stadium was closed again. The local admins seem to be acting on whim. Extraordinary times. Prime Minister Modi didn’t even utter a single word criticizing the violence in the JNU campus earlier this year. How can he use ideals of Gandhi while talking about “cleanliness is godliness?”
6. The owner of the mobile company running this country from behind the screens openly tweeted against a celebrity. Was it genuine? I don’t know. But he could have told his employee silently about firing him. Why use rhetoric and create ado?
7. I am not popular. That’s the only reason I am able to write for now. I was beaten by the police on April 11 for seemingly nonsense reasons.
8. Stadium might be open or close. Nobody would talk about Euthanasia. Draconian rule was the “golden age promised in the twenty first century.”
2. I came to visit stadium. It was open in the morning and I walked 10 rounds clockwise. I thought it would be open for good and for all. I was wrong. The local administration has been as much of a mystery is the world events at large.
3. The same boys who were playing in the morning were also playing in the evening. I think they were from the police force but I might be wrong.
4. I tried finding an alternate entry but in vain. Therefore the morning exercise might remain a memory.
Twilight
5. This is another luxury. To be able to sit besides this pond. There are some Birds hanging upside down on the peepal tree. The park nearby is still locked and there are couple of boats in the pond. There are some guys fishing on the other side of the pond. The setting sun looks beautiful.
6. I wanted to come here. It’s only the second visit this year. There are some dark clouds on the sky. I could port my sim card to Idea. It has been a long time since I watched a good movie. I feel there are no good new movies being released right now. I had already watched all the Great movies available. Web series and new TV shows are not affordable.
7. I met a guy who was my classmate long ago. We had met only once before. He asked me if I could lend him 250 rupees. I I told him that the situation is tight and I had no money to give him. Then he told me about the upcoming occultation and the suggestion given by his Guru to stay inside home for the period.
8. Someone had told him that he is a Virgo. I asked for his DOB. He said that he didn’t remember that.
9. I am not sure if it is the best medicine for boredom. But it is something which I have been longing for for a while now.
10. Some delusions have gone for good. The hope has also died. It is what it is. The Hungry ghosts which came in between have bid adieu. I take the responsibility of the situation I am in right now.
11. In the morning I am looking 7. I can see. Seesaw gewgaw gawn hawkshaw Wishing I could sleep. Sleep leap year early lyre I see, and I see, and I see, and I see. Seen sean Shawn lawn awning Omnivores. Yes, seeing, I can see. Hawk skein see, I see, I see, I see, I see.
1. In sidereal zodiac, transit of planets with respect to moon indicates current trends. Intriguing combination of 6 retro grid planets includes North and South nodes of moon which are considered to be always retrograde.
2. Not much is known about the behaviour of retrograde planets. It is actually the appearance of a planet which is passing through some unique point with respect to observers on Earth. I clearly remember that as I was beginning to delve into the vedic astrology in the year 2009 when I was about to join the firm in which I worked for the next 3 years; the planet Mars was retrograde in the eighth house of cancer. Usually it takes one month two to transit through any sign but due to the retrograde motion it took an exceptional 8 months full stop it was revelation and learning for me.
3. The website Vaidik scholar.com was in its Inception in those days. And I used to frequently visit it to check the transit charts. Now it charges and the process is also difficult. With the passage of time the same services get costlier. This seems to be the only direction our society heads.
4. Trees are dancing in the breeze right now. I practiced breathing to get rid of toxins. International yoga day will be celebrated with the summer solstice or is it Equinox ? I would have to check.
19.6.2020.8.30 am
5. Some experts say that the malefics start behaving like benefics and vice versa in case of retrograde planets.
6. Whatever happens might be an interesting study for all the astrology students. Do the planets show regressive thinking in the populace at large ? it remains to be seen.
7. I went to play cricket with my friends to a large ground yesterday in the evening. It seemed to be a luxury. It was very ordinary some 25 years ago. in the last 10 to 15 years urbanisation has happened at a rapid speed in my town. Stadium is still closed and reserved only for the police force. I do not understand. Maybe I would after awhile.
I got one clear shot of the lizard bramhani before it headed for the bush. Today my student is not present therefore I have got enough time to record my ideas freely and as I want to without any interruptions from anyone I can hear crickets and other insects buzzing and birds chirping some people are busy plucking mangoes down for sale.
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This is me reporting. It is 8:31 a.m. inside the premises of Gandhi Smarak Bhawan. I just observed a hummingbird on the branch of a mango tree. I can hear the birds chirping nearby. Their twittering is soothing in what is otherwise a hot humid and harrassing climate. It has been suffocating in thelast few days. My pupil and friend tells me he had hard time sleeping last night. I asked him to speak without interruptions for a while he spoke about our surroundings for 12 minutes. Now some cows are approaching us I can also hear the sound of an airplane passing.
I am also supposed to speak for about 12 minutes and 5 minutes have already passed. I can see the Good Shepherd trying to sweep dry mango leaves with his bamboo stick. I salute him and ask his name is Ram Lakhan. He shouts calling the name of the cow. The name is Laali which means a Maroon or dark red hue which is similar to the colour of lipstick worn by women normally.
You might think that I wanted to speak about other things. I wanted to give feedback on what my students spoke about. And the introduction has already taken seven minutes. My student says that you speak too much and don’t let me speak. I told you already all of us are fond of our own voices. We all love to hear our own voices. And the truth is all voices are our own voices. But the ego says that the identity which is being exposed by it right now must be used to generate unique voice.
I am supposed to speak with a low pitch and Tempo as my student requested it in order to help him understand clearly what I speak. The key note of his entire talk was the date tree which I suggested him as the subject on which he should have spoken. I initiated the conversation with the most popular was spoken by mistake poet Kabir:
What is the use of being so tall if you cannot provide fruits or shade.
He told me that the fruits of this tree are used for making brown sugar in the state of Bengal. It has stems and leaves but no branches. It has a root which is white and juicy. It is rich in fibre and known as Gaava. Its Thorns are poisonous. It is a very useful tree for Handlooms and making brooms.
I might not have been able to cover that entire talk on this tree. But it is true that Mystic poet Kabir was not actually talking about the tree. As the discussion with my student revealed this tree is actually a very useful tree. The poet was insinuating the people with grand egos who have great achievements but cannot be useful to our society at large. I have taken 17 minutes instead of 12. I stop my talk here and proceed for the discussion with my student.
When I met him I saw a bearded guy in his Forties or fifties and later I was told that he is a retired engineer from Indian Railways I did find him to be knowledgeable person as you have told and I interacted with him in a few meetings when we were in the lockdown situation especially came to Gandhi Ashrama to meet him and we discussed many things including singularity black holes identities and the creation of our past present and future since you were present in that prayer meeting where I participated for the first and the last time this season you remember that I asked him a question about fearlessness one of the mahavratas propounded by Gandhi and I was asked to wait later on when he replied I did not feel content with his response and during the the play full Chat after the meeting I told that he was not balanced on the side of listening because he had upgraded retire of knowledge he was looking for an audience only I did you feel even during my meetings with him he was not a patient listener at all he always wanted to speak speak and speak as if he came here to create some kind of cult or a religion or a group in which he wanted to take the position of a leader this is what I felt about him it might be so or might not be so despite that since there were very few people who were willing to engage in a discussion with me at the time of the lock down I found him to be a very nice company we went on a brief trip to visit the Mahavira Temple as well as that Hanuman toria temple and id3 spend some time together to know ourselves better I do feel that the impression he left on me was that of a knowledgeable person who was somewhat of sceptic and sometimes he did say a few words in just which were the two leftist where he should have a exercise caution of speech this is what I felt about it so I think this is it and I would end this post here with his memory and I do remember that when I try to engage him in the conversation the last 2 days he was not willing to do so he was reluctant you told me that he was not feeling well so on account of that maybe but later on in the farewell he was interacting with everyone so I don’t know what The Grudge with me was in particular he had a pain in ears baby but I tend to overlook these things therefore I am not working on it on the whole he is a nice guy I hope wherever he is he is feeling well and I hope he visits again and I get to meet him again.
Dancing light of grace 