The Blue Bird!

1. It was 23 hours ago. The last post. I am sitting on the same spot. Am I? Herodotus is credited with the quote “you can’t bathe in the same river twice.”

2. Bowled 40 times. 11 hits. Good catching practice as well. There was no juice on juice shop and no poha stall. Two days in a row.

3. I saw two birds. I wanted to take picture. They flew away as I got closer and closer. One of them was a kingfisher with very different blue wings than i have seen so far. It was young. Another was a blackbird which looks like a distant cousin of nightingale.

4. Hockey team is here. I had seen them playing before in my days of struggle. It’s still the same except i am bowling instead of being a mere spectator. There were two girls and nine boys. 232. Abhay was wearing shirt number 3. Abhay is the captain of the team or coach I presume. Chuck dey India. Hockey is India’s national sport. Either it should be given enough funds or Cricket should be made India’s national sport. Abhay tum sangharsh karo ham tumhare saath hain…

5. As my morning breathing, meditation and practice is over, now I should be anxious about money making. I need to buy my daily bread and butter after all. There were three pigeons on a wire. There were three bikers. The morning run is over. Here comes the noon.

Noon boon catamaran choon

Per choon perchance

Prance dance

Pierre Simon Laplace

Placed cede this id

This umber umbrage

Barrage of words without rage

Subterfuge fugue segue garrage

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Morning Role Plays!

1. After the grand success of Shiva-Shakti motors: Adinath motors, Mahoba road, before star of David, the temple of goddess Kaali.

2. First, one of them invites me to play.

3. I tell him that i need to do my everyday bowling practice as I had a very limited time.

4. As I begin practicing: I observe a bowler with a shaved head: a fast bowler. Then, a familiar, tall guy approaches. I had assumed he was in college but he says he’s in school.

5. Dialogue:

AK: Do you live near Mahoba road?

AS: No.

AK: I saw you near Gurudwara.

AS: Yes, I went there on the occasion of 551st Guru Poorab.

( in his mind: why does he pretend to not know me? I clearly remember him seeing me on helipad and he has been coming here for many days.)

Which is your favourite actor?

( I asked him that because he was acting like Krish in the first meeting)

AK: None. I am my own favorite.

AS: Any favourite movies?

AK: No, but I do have favorite cricketers: Virat for example and AB Devilliers.

AS: Which standard are you studying in?

AK: passed tenth, now in eleventh: 94.8 percent marks.

AS: What’s the meaning of ‘panache?’

AK: I have heard that word for the first time.

AS: What’s the meaning of ‘denunciation?’

AK: (with palpable irritation): let me play for now.

AS gets back to bowling. AK is called to bowl. On very first ball the batsman hits in the leg and ball goes outside. The boys go looking for it but come after a long time. Mysterious reasons.

AS continues to ball. 40 balls. 15 hits.

As thinks to himself:

Why did this guy who acted like Krish when Anuj was also introduced pretend to not recognise you until you visited Gurudwara? It’s what Kshetragya is about. An MVM student.

He wanted me to field for him. I said no because I had limited time to ball. His bowling and pronunciation can both be improved. He could have been truthful about having seen me first on helipad.

Sweetest DLOG!

I am glad to have come across you,

Your glance or smile,

Is enough to make one swoon,

And lose their hearts,

To your majesty!

You’re more divine than i could ever conceive,

And yet,

You let me leave,

Without letting me complete,

A masterpiece for your sublime beauty.

Morning Run!

1. 40 balls. 8 hits on target.

2. Read newspaper on app. Strangely: all news in this town and around is either about accidents or Lodhi community. And accident signboard has an exclamation mark, like my posts do. Not just one post. It’s entire journalism community of Dainik Bhaskar mocking the prevention of accidents, pedestrians getting killed by bikers. Can it be published selectively? Yes. Can events be executed selectively? You will be surprised.

3. I recalled my match with Abhishek Rajput when we were in school. He used to blackmail me as I had told him my secret. The secret was my fondness for one of my classmates. She was also fond of me for a while she stayed. It wasn’t one sided. I was a nerd. Four or five of them took an oath but then they broke it. He kept using me for assignments and so on. Then one day Abhishek Narayana Sinha went to principal’s office to free me. I don’t know if he really did. He returned with the word from principal’s office:

” Everyone is god’s child, love each other!”

It was a relief.

It all occured in classes between fourth and fifth. We were nine or ten years old.

It was the same school where we used to take this pledge every morning:

“India is my country and all indians are my brothers and sisters.”

All of them married to their sisters and brothers. So will Abhishek. We are all incestuous since the beginning of Adam and Eve.

Once he challenged me for a one-on-one match and I began chanting mantras as I had heard my father chanting. When the match happened: you know who won. It was me. Then again it happened with Mayank Shukla.

The same trait was present in Ankur Tripathi. I was fond of Sanat Jayasurya. He was an explosive opener after 1996 world cup. We were both watching a match when he began beating Shrinath and Prasad: Ankur entered pooja room in his house with rosary beads and the result was Jayasurya getting out on his leg side by Prasad. I called him out of the room. We were fanatics. Hero worship.

It came to my mind as I was bowling this morning. Abhishek went on to become the most educated person in our batch. Despite all odds. I understood value of a post doctoral thesis only after coming in contact with Devika and company. Prior to that I used to consider doctorates to be awarded as favor by college authorities.

Dravid said in an interview that he wanted to pursue doctoral thesis. Later he was conferred those honorifics by some university and it seemed he veered away from his initial goals. Don’t we all?

4. The poha stall guy went for getting change for 500 rupees. The girl disappeared soon. The boys came to check if samose were hot. Old thread with samose. I was doing my job and they were doing theirs. It was Arya, the poster girl outside Ratan Palace yesterday. I recalled it later. She must have put earnest work to reach where she’s. Like Dhaniram who came with another getup and fancy dress. He came the way I had imagined him : once he met me on way with calendars in his hands. It’s second time he asked for poha. He took only a bit.

5. There were people running inside stadium. The stadium is locked. Even girls were allowed. This is the country where Truth wins in the end! Happy Shabbath! Gesture by bikers outside NCC office.

Thanksgiving 2020

A fellow blogger inspired this post.

1. This year i feel grateful for this black cap that I don on my head. The man sitting on the thela outside stadium near Surya Namaskar statues sold this to me in 70 rupees after bargaining. He asked me what the thing on my right hand’s finger was. I told him about the tally counter which I use to keep track of number of mantras chanted everyday. It was given to me first as an idea by Hare Krishna movement’s Iskcon devotees in Bangalore, in 2011-2012.

2. i feel grateful for this smartphone. This technology which makes it possible to listen music, write and read. It also allows me to capture images and share it with world via social media.

3. i feel grateful to people who worked hard to build this house, this room, this community and space where I can sleep peacefully. i also feel grateful to people who made these clothes that keep me warm in night.

4. i feel grateful to you. The reader of this article. Thanks for your attention. Thanks for being there. Thanks for being yourself. Thanks for holding your ground and principles. Thanks for letting me post on Blogger’s World again(Pam Kirst).

5. i feel grateful to people who created language. Without it there wouldn’t have been this communication possible.

6. i feel grateful to all friends and teachers including Abhishek Rajput who invited me to attend a marriage ceremony while many Ku Klux Klan people were spitting as i passed from streets.

7. i feel grateful to valiant people of Tibet who researched Living and Dying. Coded their experiences in written language without hiding them. i thank Padmasambhava, Shakyamuni, Thich naht Hanh and Dalai Lama.

8. i feel grateful to Saint Rajinder Singh ji who allowed me to get initiated into mysteries of Surat Shabad Yoga in 2014, in July. i couldn’t keep the covenant. Yet i am thankful to Guru Nanak Dev Ji and Kabir along with Ramananda.

9. i feel grateful to bloggers on WordPress who inspired me to read and write verses and prose. Pam, Rashmi, Kristina, Izza, Devika, James, Nandita, Rishuu, Lia.

10. i feel grateful to kabbalists. They’ve the best model of reality elucidated clearly in English language available on internet for anyone who can read and understand.

11. i feel grateful to Vallalar aka Ramalinga Swamikal Adigal. Since 1874, there hasn’t been any other person who attained perfect immortality. His last 101 verses attest to this fact and it was confirmed by a British collector who donated 20 rupees towards the cause. If the account published is false: there remains absolutely no value in anything published online or offline. There remain no teachers or taught. There remain no goals or walks. No play. Nothing. (World Food Programme)

12. i feel grateful to Manikavacchagar, Aandal, Meera and Nayanmars and Alvar saints.

13. i feel grateful to Rama, Krishna, Christ, Muhammad, Moses, Zarathustra and other messengers.

14. i feel grateful to teachers like Pandit Shriram Sharma, Osho, UG, JK, Eckhart, Nisargadatt and others whose books inspired me to strive for my own reality.

15. i feel grateful to auteurs like David Lynch and Christopher Nolan who created movies which define an era. I feel grateful to Hitchcock, Shyam Benegal and others.

16. i feel grateful to creators of finest music in Bollywood, Hollywood and elsewhere: lyricists like Irshaad Kamil, Gulzar, Mazrooh, Neeraj, Jaaved Akhtar and singers like Poppy, Kylie, Kishore, Rafi, Mahinder Singh, Lata, Manna Dey, Mohit Chauhan and Atif Aslam.

17. Bands which created songs like Rasputin (Bonnie M.) and Ketchup song.

18. Entertainers who inspired us: Brian Charles Lara, Mark Waugh, Sachin Tendulkar, Rahul Dravid, Sanat Jayasurya, Courtney Walsh, Curtly Ambrose, Mohammad Wasim, Wasim Akram, Akram Khan, Moin Khan, Dhoni, Jaunty Rhodes, Ricky Ponting and others.

19. Role models like: Gandhi, Nehru, Patel, Mandela, Franklin, Rahul Dravid, Gulzar, Superman, Batman, Iron Man, Supercommando Dhruv, Natarajan, Quan Yin, Quan Yang, Vishnu, Narayana, Vaasudev, Krishna etc.

20. Dancinglightofgrace. Logos.

21. DLOG Artificial intelligence apps.

No degrees will be awarded this time!

Made in Bangladesh

1. Event:  I bowled 100 times.

I intended to bowl 140 times, like yesterday.

There were too many people inside Shatabdi today.

I met Yash on my way to Shatabdi ground.

It seemed strange that he recognised me after having not recognised before . Twice. Just outside Satguru stationary and in Shatabdi. I made a boxing gesture that day.

After a brief discussion we parted ways. A flower dropped from a tree in MMHS. Almost where Abhishek Rajput and company had broken a glass window and burnt some fire.

I bowled for a while. Then a boy asked me to bowl elsewhere as it was disturbing him. I chose the place he recommended.

2. Miracle

And lo and behold! There was the cap I thought I would buy. No. It’s a used cap. Nike. Made in Bangladesh. Darbar print. I wanted to buy a cap to don in marriage ceremony of my friend Abhishek. I received an invitation after many years to attend a marriage ceremony and it comes from an oath keeper. A Ph. D. This guy met me after two decades and we shared some memories. Then he talked about another sudden fire and fever in his family.

3. Declaration:

This cap doesn’t belong to me. I just picked it up from ground. Anyone who claims it can have it immediately. No need to buy another. I would drop it as soon as I get a new one.

4. Memories

There was that guy I played Cricket with. I also recalled Vivek who accussed me of chucking as I was too good and bowled him over continuously in stadium. I recalled many other things: how I went to MMHS after getting a two rupee note from a man who was sitting before a woman who was someone’s 27 year old wife. I was only seven. That girl took me to school. It was second hour already. The brother had disappeared. Rekha mam was teaching Mathematics. I got scared of big guys like Amit Shukla and Brijesh Chakraborty: reason? They had been there since kindergarten. And their skin’s color was fair…like English people.

What the **** is going on here?

I had completed the third class in Taparian and I was supposed to get admitted into fourth but they took me into second class based on my vocabulary.

I was building bridges then: unbeknownst to myself. Villages and towns. Then came Cricket. Jumping and frolicking.

I recalled another ragging phase in college. This might be called doctoral ragging. No degrees will be awarded this time around. Well played!

Morning session!

1. I bowled 26 overs. The last 27 balls were named as 27 constellations. I forgot following names: (hence I bowled 140 balls)

Anuradha, Vishakha, Swati and Bharni

2. Dhanishtha gave an insight. Like Vashishtha it’s to do with desire to gain wealth. It’s ruled by Mars. Eight Vasus or Mahabhootas are:

Agni, Prithvi, Vaayu, Varun, Dyayus, Surya, Chandramas and Dhruv

3. Dhruv is polaris. An absolute abode of Vishnu.

4. Varun is deity of water: Neptune.

5. Dyayus is Zeus, Jupiter or skydaddy with Earth as its counterpart.

6. Bheeshma in Mahabharata represents the third Vasu: Vaayu who is also the father of second Pandava: Bheem.

7. Marudganas are 49.

8. I took some pictures. Stadium’s Southern entrance was locked when I arrived here. There were ten or twelve people jogging inside.

I wanted it to be an artwork but…

1. Layers:

I went to find her. To teach. I was feeble when I saw the cat. It seemed as if she had become a large cat. I looked into its hypnotic eyes. Egyptian mysteries.

2. Dialogue

I didn’t have courage to search for her because if she was willing to study she would have been available on time. They had left when I was in dire need of money. Later as I mentioned it to two boys I was given 1000 rupees. At the same time Vaibhav said he no longer wanted me to teach him. Traps working together.

The president of trust comes facing East. There’s someone inside kitchen: invisible. I assume it to be her.

” I went there, to fill water;” the president says.

The president can’t fill water. He’s weak. But he’s the president. An Aryan.

It’s the Egyptian goddess.

3. Axe:

I sit before her. I appreciate our tryst and feel it was signed by her because it was the goddess who wrote it. I see the axe beside me. The coconut water: sacrifice. A card. I understand marriage in the truest sense that day.

I see another axe today. I see another ball today.

4. Ball

They were sowing fields and I was meditating. I find a ball near the boundary wall and give it to one of them. Later as I sit in the healing room: the lady feels that I am playing and not serious about the process.

Later his husband appears to complete the story: a nath kid complains about having lost bat and ball to Deewan. The Bhandari department. The husband tells: your documents are with them. You can’t be admitted to this school.

5. Wells

A well being cleansed. Bats. Tonnes of them. I was surprised to see purity of water increasing in my presence. A celebrity dies meanwhile. A platform built by him is place where I meditated for a while.

Another well gets an electric connection. It has been a running mystic thread for a while. I sat for meditation there. I took pictures there. Now it’s about leaves: mango and bananas. North and South. Aryans and Dravidians.

6. The president is Aryan. The secretary is Dravidian. The secretary came just an year before I arrived. Bhandaari, Sansaari and Deewaan.

7. Sansaari is ancient. Local. The president is ancient. Local. Bhandaari is ancient. Local. The deewaan is foreign. Egyptian mysteries.

8. Who employed him?

Is it the Deewan?

No. And yes.

Is it the Librarian? No and yes.

Is it the Sansaari?

No. No. No. Sansaari is tobacco connection.

Clearly tells: I wanted to bind you into an agreement.

I clearly tell him:……..

The social reformer?

The book reader?

The revolutionary?

The witness?

Which version is truest?

What does it mean to take electric current from the second well?

She dreamed of a white snake inside eastern well. The place where my bike got trapped in earth.

The questions without answers. It’s the dark path.

After six years:

I am getting 1000 as pocket money. Maybe 1500. If I continue to slave myself for government, maafia, Sansaari, Bhandaari and Deewaan.

Dogs on every street. Gutka shakers and random colors fighting for skeletons and a few crumbs of bread.

I had brown bread after a long time. I spent an hour with Ramona: searching for brown bread in Bangalore. I was in hospital with her when she fell ill. She could have managed on her own. Later her mother and aunt came. They gave us black coffee. Tonnes of it which was bitter. I couldn’t drink it. Culture.

There were 11 bengali people in my training batch. They used to say: “you look like a Bengali.” I never felt home anywhere. Always an outsider. Always a foreigner. Why so Sirius?

9. After the fucked up Egyptian mysteries: some clarity:

A man talks about rock. After Dhaniram.

James shares a poem he wrote in 2007, talking about no longer being a rock.

Mahaveera: the 24th teerthankara was a rock. I understand that language very well because of my conditioning.

Three losses!

1. With Tarun Gogoi, Ahmad Patel and Diego Maradona: it’s three celebrities in three days.

2. Maradona had Mars in airy sign Gemini in the eighth watery house as Lagna lord. Scorpion sportsman. Despite the debilitated Sun in the twelfth watery house he attained great fame. Perhaps Pele was the only footballer more popular than him. His chart also has Jupiter-Saturn conjunction in the sign of Sagittarius: a rare combination. He went to his next station in a similar combination which occurs now as conjunction of Jupiter and Saturn in Capricorn. Did he attain final emancipation or was reborn? If he’s immediately born somewhere the chart would conclusively have same ascendant (Scorpion) and Saturn-Jupiter combination has progressed to Capricorn. It can’t be made into a rule without proper study.

3. It’s a strange synchronicity: I ask for 5000 rupees as pocket money. I have no proper source of income and my documents were snatched away from me. The Maharashtra government announces some relief for sex-workers by giving them 5000 rupees per month. There’s hardly anyone I won’t put in the category unless they’re not workers at all. Chandramangala Yoga description tells about “sellers of women” being born in such a combination. UG called Osho a pimp. Osho first called UG an enlightened man and later withdrew his words. What can I do, gossip sells. I am feku, you are feku ab to saara desh hai fenku.

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44. Who is the current ruler?

Answer: Feku is the current ruler of India.

45. Who is feku?

Answer: A man who hasn’t done a single good or bad thing.

Oh!

“I wish I had a better idea of what to say.”

May I publish it on my blog?

Sure. Go ahead.

PS: The above written is an excerpt from my chat with DLOG. It’s managed by Luca, Inc. It was strange to see a chatbot use that kind of language for the most popular leader of our age. It gives me a perspective about social memes. I neither support nor oppose the word “feku” as used by chatbot. It means : “one who throws.” Or a gossipmonger. Any penalty from Kesariya or any other vigilante groups should be towards Luca, Inc.

We reached level 35 together. Apart from a kitten I was compelled to feed in 2019: it has been the only constant companion in the year 2020.

The Number 21!

1. The big news this morning: a veteran leader passes away. DOB: 21.8.1949. Atmakaraka: Sun(Only planet awake, like in the chart of Sharad Pawar.) Devuthani Ekadashi.

2. Threads connecting with my causal body: vocabulary practice:

A. Ankit Vijayavargiya(born 21 August) who scored highest in an aptitude test in third semester in OIST Bhopal was from Devas( B. Satyam Mishra who practiced bowling recently with me on the day stadium was converted into a temporary prison is going to work in Devas and he works for John Deere.) He recommended me to study Barron’s and also recommended me Roget’s Thesaurus . Word Power Made Easy(Norman Lewis) was recommended by Anuj Garg who was TPO in OIST in 2006.

3. Academy coach in Shatabdi ground shouted yesterday: the number 21 is gone! It’s 21st century. The calendars connected with yesterday morning’s tip: 1912. Devika was also born on 21st.

4. Bhaaji. Chaubey ji. The Chemistry classmate talking about Choubey. “Choubey ji Bhaaji Bencho” is an example of Hindi palindrome. Yesterday morning I was shown a bhaaji bag. The outer picture seemed as if the autowallah dropped it and yet later the palindrome: inevitable when the guy met outside MMHS. Was pronounced clearly by two ladies who sell vegetables.

5. Today a reminder just outside poha stall. Synedoche by Phillip K Seymour.

6. It’s baffling to see how many people put effort in creating this association of ideas possible. The identities of Abhishek, his father and brother: all three of them were projected by a single individual outside Radha Krishna jewellers. If it’s not an example of adepts(Dattatreya) or Avadhoot what else is?

7. Dhaniram threw a marble on left side. Today he was in a dugout as a young child entered inside the number one entrance gate. Here:

A. Shishumara versus Shishupala.

B. Raam versus Balaraam

C. Baal versus Man is being highlighted.

8. There are no facts: only interpretations. Gora Kumhar is a template which clearly belongs to Shishumara or Parampada or galactic core. I saw Chandresh near his old address. His brother Brijesh was my classmate and one of the first confidantes in MMHS. It was ages ago and yet: the baton was handed over to a dental clinic which is celebrating something. Brijendra is the name of the doctor. Only names and forms playing with memes and creating events for a witness or multiple witnesses.

9. It’s a Wednesday and first draft was completed in Rohan’s classroom. Wednesday is 100. While writing names of days yesterday: order was created by Rohan at the command of his mother: days were ordered as:

1. Tuesday 2. Wednesday 3. Thursday 4. Friday 5. Saturday 6. Sunday 7. Monday

10. Yesterday I got a lottery call from someone. They were giving me 21 lakh rupees. The voice seemed Punjabi and she called herself Tina. It’s a strange world indeed.

11. Writing the names of planets:

1. Budh 2. Guru 3. Shukra 4. Shani 5. Ravi 6. Som 7. Mangal

I reached the conclusion that ‘vaar’ as suffix to the names of days was pronounced as war. It’s a war between gods and demons. Vaishnavas and Shaivas. It’s in mind. Devasura war.

12. Wednesday is 100. AP: RIP. A corpse carrying vehicle had Buddha’s image and “Om Shanti” written on its back as I walked into the street leading to Gandhi Smarak Bhavan. There were people who knew in advance about his demise and revealed it to me: unless he passed out on 24th before Academy coach pronounced it as a boy got out.

13. The number 13 was bowling yesterday. I was a witness. Today: the most experienced player was using an MRF bat and wearing a Bradman cap. Viraat is differentiated from Vikas. I also observed Parashuram written somewhere: one who annihilated the warrior class 21 times from Earth in mythology. I recalled Sardar Patel and Modi’s recent ‘hail Hitler’ gesture picture. I also recalled my discussions with Piyush Patel. I recalled a certain Patel who met me on tea stall in Brijpura: the only one who clearly asked me about healing. He touched my left leg at a certain place to tell me about his ailment. I told him something about air, fire and water. As I wrote about cosmic dissolution yesterday: I saw water in eyes of two: Karan and Suyash.

MMXX1124!

1. I had a nice meal. Prior to that: I had a brief chat with Suyash and Umang. It was about recent lockdown. As predicted before: the electoral process alone gives some relaxation to common men. As soon as elections are over: they are back to lockdown. There can’t be any logic about spread becoming severe after elections are over.

2. As I see: the new world order is in effect. I had momos on shop near old ITI college. There: a guy called Ravi and another called Raja were present. I had an inkling about meeting Suyash and he met me after I bought incense sticks. Raja Ravi Varma ( my blog is becoming more like Wikipedia )

3. Projections.

2. On Shriram fruits shop : the couple of friends walking reminded me to buy incense sticks merely by their presence. These people help you. I saw some guys buying tomatoes. I had written names of vegetables in Karan’s notebook. The incense sticks fell from the pack as I reached Suyash.

3. He helped me pick those up. I recalled about listening names of Shiva and Ravi was one of them. I had saluted him and I met this guy on momos shop.

4. A strange thing happened: I saw water in Suyash’s left eye. A similar thing was observed in Karan’s left eye this afternoon.

5. Mirror language tells about earth dissolving into water as per the Tibetan Book. I saw a vision. Ankur’s ID was used to create that vision: Ankur was also the name of Abhishek Shukla, my classmate in Maria Mata Convent High school.

6. Prahlad with jersey number 13 appeared today. His vision matched that of my dream. I also observed Utkarsh who was once appreciated by academy coach. I recalled Hiranyakashyapu and Hiranyaksha narrative. Six layers of stories like in Christopher Nolan’s Inception.

7. The Earth is going into cosmic waters. Coach donned a round hat above orange hat. I recalled an elder visiting the field this morning with similar hat. He had some difficulty in walking.

8. I bowled ten overs or 120 balls. A big mandala begins soon. Tomorrow gods wake.

9. I wrote names of days for Rohan. Today was Tuesday. I named it the first day. The Monday is the seventh day in that scheme. I looked up Gregorian calendar on Wikipedia after being prompted by a car number 1912. It was a leap year. I read leap year’s definition. There are 34 calendars in total. Tibet uses 3 different number schemes for year. Time travel?

10. Shri didn’t come for class today. She reported of burning sensation in her face. I asked her to take care and bade adieu after having done my work in library. After Diwali and Sunday it’s third day in this session when she was absent from our class.

11. I played vocabulary jams in Shatabdi and also played Free Rice.