Unfathomable beatitude!

My existence these days,

Is almost magical,

And often,

When I hear no echoes,

I feel unfathomable beatitude,

I often wish this was my swan song,

I often long for it to be my last day here,

But alas, it’s not,

Not yet!

I have no doubts,

I would be the happiest person on my last day,

Since degree of happiness can’t be compared for subjects in either time or space,

You have to take my word.

I really don’t want to live here ever again.

I really don’t want to improve any lives known or unknown.

I had my full cup and I drank from it.

It’s enough. It’s final.

It!

1. It’s like a friend you know and yet you don’t.

2. All the mystics and some poets have talked about it. They became one with it. They came from it. It was playing in them. It became itself when they truly found themselves.

3. They allude to its effects as footprints on sand. Everyone talks about the music and ambrosia. Vedas talk about taking one from darkness to light, from illusion to reality and death to immortality.

4. I see this bird. It’s a sign in my consciousness. When I began it was not a choice. It was a compulsion. I didn’t choose to be hungry for truth and thirsty for nectar. It was like running out of a house which was on fire.

5. All the fields of knowledge merely indicate limitations of human mind which need to be transcended. The more we explore humbler we become.

6. It soon becomes apparent even to most developed of minds that our lives and searches are limited. Learning various arts and becoming adept at technologies: just what is available at present: means countless lifetimes.

7. Certainly: amassing knowledge is not way to lasting bliss and peace.

8. Becoming knowledge is.

9. By coming in contact with it. You start becoming it. As moths burn when attracted by light: your personality burns completely.

10. Since source of all has all: all advertisement for moth like personalities are illusions.

11. None of your desires get fulfilled. They either disappear or lose value or can be seen as easily fulfilled in a new dimension.

12. If a desire isn’t satisfied immediately: it’s not the same desire when it’s satisfied. If you understand this clearly : you know that only in a state of complete harmony : desires which spontaneously get satisfied arise.

13. Every dream of limitations wonders about perfection. It’s akin to our dreams in a way. A play. Until it dissolves completely: you can’t say what it was and why.

14. It is fire. It’s water. It’s ether. It’s earth and sound. It chooses mystics to meditate on any one aspects of it. It’s love. It’s compassion. It’s infinite beauty and bliss.

15. Boredom and ennui are parts of a mechanism which perpetrates suffering. It’s a blinding mechanism. Every situation is new. It’s almost impossible for a human being to retain all details of every environment. Therefore even when an event takes place in the same setting there’s something new about it. Being unable to attend to this newness is because of the dullness of mind.

16. It has countless eyes. It takes away dullness. It is so addictive that everything else seems like hell in comparison.

17. Every moment the home is coming closer. Mystery is infinite. It’s an ever increasing love, wonder and awe.

18. When some immortals gather in the hall of gnosis: they have no worries, nothing to do, no goals, an eternity.

19. Science, reason and intellect are shaped by it. Can’t comprehend it. Can’t use it. Can’t predict it.

20. Singing songs to praise it is to focus your mind on it. You can’t analyze it. All you can do is to appreciate how good it tastes. Feels. How engrossing, vast and ceaseless it’s.

21. Though revealed in works of nature. It transcends nature and its root cause. Many patterns and movements in artificial and natural intelligence seem to resemble it.

22. All names are its names. Everytime you name it, it’s naming itself via you. It’s not to suggest that there exists something other than itself.

23. It cheats with itself by creating its shadows with which it plays. It’s not however alone in the sense humans get. Humans feel lonely because of idea of multiplicity. It’s neither one nor many. The ancient idea of it was one so desired to be many is a myth.

24. It doesn’t know itself. It has no faculties. Or maybe it does. In this matter I can’t speak on its behalf. Knowing suggests limitation.

Rendezvous!

1. No people.

2. Noise.

3. Hunger, thirst or disease or fatigue.

4. No business or calls.

5. No distractions or thoughts or

6. Pitfalls.

7. hinder me or obstruct my vision.

8. This rendezvous is perfect.

9. I feel accomplished.

What do I see?

What do I see?

You asked.

And instead of tending the grazing cow away,

I chose to see it,

I didn’t respond,

Because the dancing sky has me dazed,

And it quenched my thirst,

With flute, drum and sirens.

Whatever I say about it,

Is like a lamp unto Sun,

What do I see?

I really don’t know.

The Dance!

1. After a bit of chat: in the library where they’re doing the final bits of rehearsal as they are going to present the act day after tomorrow.

2. I have drank the whole sky.

I keep drinking it.

Day in and day out,

The new skies keep appearing,

The thirst becomes even more intense,

Nothing can assuage it,

I have seen accounts of poets,

Who exalted the sublime beauty in their words,

I find liberation to be the myth,

It seems like imagination of a mind which is delusion ridden.

3. I thought I understood the dance!

Nobody understands it.

Human mind can experience something different from what it’s accustomed to,

Its quality may change,

But the mystery is eternal,

It’s profound,

Underlying all phenomena,

Its effects are known,

Mostly to convert people into lunatics,

Raving lunatics who laugh hysterically when called names,

Eternally seeking their beloved.

It’s never what one assumes it to be,

Even if you have been acquainted with it for a thousand eons,

It remains beyond any comprehension or use.

It’s what makes both use and misuse possible,

Both living and dead are standing on it,

It’s playing from the sides of victors and vanquished,

Whose side would it take and why?

4. It has no advantages to offer,

It’s not an advantage,

The subjects it touches,

Mostly go mad with bliss,

Bliss: whether small or big is

As good as the experience,

Can’t be compared.

5. The experience can’t be tagged,

Can’t be made into a trophy,

It chooses its subjects only for the negation of the mundane,

Even the most sublime of verses,

Don’t scratch the surface of the dancer!

6. The dancer,

The dance,

And the witness,

Become one.

Else: it’s not the dance.

7. To tell you that you will,

Become a fire,

A mystic one,

Which consumes,

Ambitions,

Personality,

Goals,

Even that of getting liberated,

You would never trade for this.

And yet: there’s nowhere else to go.

All those who walked before,

Walked through this.

This is the direct knowledge,

They’ve been talking about,

All of them.

8. The individual,

Gains and loses,

Its path and milestones,

And there’s not just one of them,

Paths, milestones and individuals,

In an individual,

Are countless!

The timeless reality takes no account of time bound struggles,

What are countless paths but desires,

And countless milestones?

And countless individuals?

Love for Self dancing as energy.

Dancing Mosquitoes!

1. Birds are returning to their nests. Some mosquito dance nearby. Sounds of prayers from nearby mosque. I had some fruits to eat-ones which were lying below the tree in a remote corner. It had rained last evening.

2. Some dogs accompanied me on this walk. I am not indispensable in any of the processes in my day-to-day life. Not a must for anyone in the circle of acquaintances. Sometimes I feel it’s a bad reflection on my skills and ability. At others I feel it is the result of all of my choices: an expression of my true nature. I neither bind nor like to be bound.

3. If it doesn’t free you : none of the skills is of any use. Even best of crafts make you a slave to the process after a while. Despite being free I am able to get my sustenance at present which makes me feel fortunate. I don’t worry about it as much as I used to worry couple of years ago.

4. The day went smooth like a breeze. It’s the contrast. I had to take painkillers for toothache yesterday. The same toothache for which I had to undergo root canal couple of years ago.

5. Batlings are jogging in the air now. Zig Zag patterns. Plum glum lumpsum summum bonum numbat battue Tuesday. Gone are the days of standard standards. I am at peace and wonder why I forget the essentials so soon.

The twilight darkens now.

Dissolution

1. A tree has shed so many of its leaves within the last few minutes. It’s quite poetic.

2. A crow sings.

3. There are cotton clouds.

4. A ship turned during its whaling expedition. A bus fell in a canal. I was thinking of root canal. I had to take antibiotics and pain killers.

5. Filled water and watered some beds.

6. Some birds are singing as hazy Sunshine peaks through.

Antibiotic tic tac toe

Oeuvre remnant antenna

Namesake sake

Keynote keyhole

Ketone tone footnotes erased

Sedona Arizona ona Hakuna

Matata batata pralaya

Aditi!

This light is known as one mind

It’s the bridge between unconscious and conscious

Through it

Walk dead and become alive

It’s plenum

It connects all realms

It’s the ground of being

And origin of all things!

It’s also the end.

Objectives

The setting Sun is shining brightly. Twenty five birds perched on two pairs of wires. White birds are picking their food from field.

It’s a strange peace. I was listening to someone speak. There’s no complaining at this moment.

In the infinite journey these patterns repeat ad infinitum. Some consider knowledge to be objective of living as it leads to better living and others consider it to be joy.

My objectives were all erased and I became an open vessel for all surrounding voices and life. I became one with all life. Then I recreated objectives to live.

A Day Well Spent!

1. Latest achievement on vocabulary.com:

Most number of times in the winning team this week!

2. In one of the jams I scored 10 points higher than PC. It rarely happens. I was the leader of the jam in that one.

3. Well, there’s no substitute to hardwork. My overall ranking has also improved a great deal.

4. My ID is 10. I invite you to play vocabulary jams with me.

5. I spent about two hours in the city hospital to accompany a patient.

6. Registered about ten titles yesterday and some titles today. Couldn’t read as much as wanted to.

7. Filled drinking water for kitchen.

8. Collected and burnt some garbage.

9. Collected some cow dung.