205 minutes for 30 kilometres.
Finally!
Bib and Bruises!
1. I began walking systematically again in 2019. I could run a bit last year. The performance is not bad from the viewpoint of that build-up personally for me.
2. Registered 13 titles in library. The bruises on feet are due to slippers alien to them. Also need to buy new slippers.
Preparing For Bundelkhand Marathon 2021!
1. I ran and walked for two hours with bag on my back.
2. I used to go for long walks. Twenty to twenty five kilometres taking about 3 hours with rest. It was actually less than two hours for 20 kilometres.
3. I walked inside Jhan jhan Devi temple a fortnight ago. Somvati Amavasya. It took me about 40 minutes for 12 kilometers. It means i need 100 minutes at max to complete 30 kilometres even if i walk. If I run I can do it in about 90 minutes.
4. I am going to continue practice with due diligence. I have about 10-12 days time.
5. Walking and running strategy would be useful for me as I have never participated before in a marathon.
6. “Why don’t you run?” Because I want to fly; i answered. Her words were ringing into my ears as if they were spoken just yesterday. She might have forgotten it already.
7. I recall Budhiya: the poor malnutritioned kid from Bihar who completed the marathon and won it–maybe- a decade ago. I won’t be more than Budhiya if I complete the marathon.
8. A. R. Rahman’s mother died. Rahman has a life path number 3. His mother died on a full Moon day. I was in the fields when it happened. Just a few days ago Anil drowned. He was also from South India. An actor. Rahman’s nasal touch in voice is because of dragon’s head placement in his chart. Strangely, as I was reading his chart it amazed me that his wife is named Saira Banu whereas his name was Dileep Kumar. Dileep Kumar, the legendary actor whose wife is also named Saira Banu was named Yusuf Khan first.
Rahman and Gulzar together received academy award for Slumdog Millionaire in which Irfaan Khaan and Anil Kapoor were part of cast. Irfaan Khaan passed away this year. I wanted to see him perform Osho in his biopic. Now that’s impossible.
They received academy award when their ages matched their root numbers. Gulzar was 81(born August 18), Rahman was 42(born January 6.)
9. It was Sarpa Yoni today with Devta gana as it happened. The serpent represents the North node of Moon. Sarpa also represent nagas or wise ones. Priests, Gandharva, singers who adorn neck of Shiva the dancing light of grace and beauty.
10. The synchronicity didn’t stop there. Anurag met me just outside Anurag City Centre: the mall as i was about to take left turn towards North to enter into Shatabdi where i practice running. He told me that he was going to meet Apoorva. Apoorva means unforeseen. It’s equivalent to Anoop which means unique or without comparison. Anoop shares date of birth with me. It’s the same date on which neighbor got married this year. The same date when another friend got married this year. The date when that marriage took place in Mangalam house in 2015. It was by chance i had a moment to look around and at the mantras near the place of worship where names were written with date. The date when engagement of my parents happened. The date when aunt got married and I collected 72 rupees in gullak: the clay pot.
Sunday Morning!
1. 6 overs. I concentrated on Fielding as well as Bowling.
2. There are three parties in ground.
3. I observe plenty of work that has been put by academy on ground: when i came here there were only two pitches. Now there are four and twenty pillars. Many new players have joined and many have dropped. No commentary this morning.
4. Sun is shining brightly. I took some pictures and watched pigeons do somersault in air.
Recreational Bowling!
1. 46 balls. 45th hit the target. 9 hits in total. Big boys were doing kulla. Kulla is mouthwash: usually done after waking up at home.
2. The kingfisher did the trick : it went down from the left poll and reached for the orange bulb. It left the white bulb.
3. Is this it? This is it. It’s it.
4. I took couple of pictures. Warmth of Sun feels good. The juice was nice. I saw an airplane on the left. Seven sages. Orion.
5. I came, I saw, I conquered. Not me, not me. Yes you! Hey you! Yes, yes, you!
6. Nothing.
Morning Rituals!
1. I just read what I had written six hours ago and though I usually don’t judge myself the last post seems to have been written by a drunk and yet it was ambrosia. The nectar of immortality plus some words.
2. I practiced alternate nostril breathing and bowling in stadium. Fortunately I got some space where some municipal corporation employees were sweeping. Prior to that I had a special juice worth ten rupees. This bitter juice is said to be “death” of 350 uncontrollable diseases. I am death of deaths if Shukadev was right. Go figure!
3. I bowled 71 times. This was after a long time. I only slept for three hours and had a wonderful session in morning : all because I took a break and slept for three hours yesterday noon.
4. News is getting unnecessarily dramatic. As is more. The elections in so many places are timed by electional astrology and yet: those who have the final say: the eye of the eye of the pyramid and its crown : remain unknown to the masses.
5. I should play some vocabulary jams. And donate some rice. No Claire G or PC at this hour : though Stephen might turn up. ( Stephen didn’t. Hang L did. Got second rank in two of them.)
6. Supernatural season 15 finale taught me more about Chuck. Though they create ‘on the go;’ Chuck is definitely demiurge. Not the Godhead. Jack the son of Lucifer is going to get killed. Sam seems to have aged more than Dean. Crowley wasn’t there. The library of death scene was epic. I got acquainted with something called “empty.” Though Supernatural is not perfect : there’s no substitute to it! This finale didn’t have as many special effects but it showed death and black hole to be more powerful than darkness and light. Light who is a demiurge? Mister Singer and Dabb have all the answers.
Chidambaram
1. I am sitting on grass and it feels soothing. Boys are exercising. I saw some stars and the Moon. Balance seems to have a number: seven.
2. After having taken the Grammar class: I ran for my life. I ran three plus rounds after burning some paper and tinder in the name of cleanliness in the Cricket Academy Ground. I do wonder about the scarcity of staff in the municipal corporation because the academy campus only gets accumulation of water bottles, pouches, gutka, tablets, plates, stray paper pieces. No one comes to clean it. I can take initiative at places : but it is only that much: an individual working to earn a wage. Cricket is the game of gentlemen : a solution can be to put garbage only in the dumping bags. Children need to be taught these habits by their guardians.
3. I took measurements. I walked multiple steps around the ground : clockwise and anticlockwise: taking middle, large and small routes. None of the measurements were same. What factors change the distance? Height, gravity, temperature, amount of work done etcetera. In short: I am not aware of all the parameters. It seems like I took a Physics practical class along with the English Grammar. I reckon that stadium : arena: academy are currently grounds for exercise: walking, running, sports, relaxation, keeping friendships, hanging out with friends as well as sledging and chastising with the help of whistles which control dogs, donkeys, cows, pigs and other animals. It took me many days to comprehend that QRF academy had kept pigs for disposing off their wet garbage. Most of the garbage that municipality takes away isn’t burnt. It’s only an inculcated notion that burning has precedence over other modes as far as ecosystem is concerned. I only saw regulation increase by and by. Earlier it was college, then teachers, then police and then military. Then the stuff kept increasing around you.
3. Freedom needs works. And it’s inherently part of duality: naming. You define a circle or a cube and call it your space until something comes to crack it down. Beyond time, there is greater time, beyond night there is greater night, similarly beyond voids there are greater voids. One of the greatest mysteries being resolved was: Swami Rama’s description of reaching among cannibals who were going to eat him. I don’t know if he died or merely fainted: fainting means losing consciousness temporarily. Games like boxing and violent arenas have many such patterns. Naturally: lack of nutrition results in weak life force. His whole story meant: he had reached a place where his life force was getting drained too fast. Like my concluding about the light needed to walk through the tunnel of the dark night.
4. Meaning of words. Counting. Reading and writing kept me employed for I had lost the identity. The gender benders were the tribal way of handling the outlaws. The urbane must have existed as eternally as the ancient. Spacetime is the game after a while. Scientific model needs work to generate power which sustains the energy: the reason why some tribes gave more importance to fire, others to water, and yet others to ether or Earth is in either their history or in the type of experiments which were carried out with people.
Morning : Running and walking!
I just raised 36000 grains of rice on Freerice! For every answer you get right, 5 grains go to the UN World Food Programme. Play it here: https://freerice.com/apps
1. I am playing Free Rice quiz on English Grammar. It’s similar to the syntax I used to work on as a programmer analyst. I met V just outside the academy.
2. I had a plate of poha to eat. I need to buy a packet of detergent powder. I ran four rounds in stadium and walked 4-5 rounds.
3. The Science Fiction movie that I watched yesterday didn’t reach to the conclusion. It had many elements from what is happening in my life. The ancient bird from the Twilight Zone: the episode where the protagonist repeatedly goes to a pool where some bones or alive birds are present: I observed them at first when I crossed Brijpura hill and reached to a new patch of road. I observed it here but I was wondering if it was no longer available for me. I saw it again. Twice. It had a dark black hue and streamlined body which makes it capable to fly long distances.
4. I already feel sleepy. Though I need to go to library and work on books. I have been immune to noises with the music but it all has a limit. If anything is not allowed: I usually let it go.
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Lingo
1. Am I a character in a book or a movie ? I often ask this to myself when dreams turn into nightmares and I get some freedom to rest.
2. I walked with a few boys in the stadium. One of them was putting on an act. It was related to a previous act. I found an element to admire about the teaching through play. Accountability: the guy works for Karuna foundation in the morning and coaches in mimicry and acting in the evening.
3. Most people I met here switch between multiple jobs. Just one job or duty is not enough. What would life be like in Tokyo or New York if it’s so difficult to survive in a city which metamorphosed into a division before my eyes?
4. I have seen a girl who was not afraid of lizard. I had a classmate who said he used to kill lizards with bare hands. I never liked the idea but did feel that he was courageous. A classmate stopped by the poha stall this morning. I saw the architecture. I realized that my death in my class in which he held my neck for far too long as I was gasping for air had some relation to his brother’s suicide. But it was merely a news. I never saw his brother. He turned out to be a bully later on. I might have been a violent guy before that happened. I used to take a great interest in organizing wrestling matches. In fact the whole environment was an arena. Like it’s today and I kept crying peace. It’s never going to change. Thus I kept working on certain skills : this is the only investment I would have made for the past is only a memory. Some fond others not so fond. Since then many apocalypses have happened. I bookmarked, earmarked, benchmarked certain sites, spots and themes to understand transformations. The Groundhog Day, Timecrimes and Triangle. Inception. Inland Empire. The Couch Forum. Mad Philosophers. I was convinced about linearity and then I saw nonlinearity as well as theatrics. Flux. Nirvana. The Bhagwad Geeta that I read in the childhood didn’t tell that Vaasudev Krishna stopped the time to sing 700 songs. I heard an advertisement on a Cricket ground . It was about the washing powder 555. As I went to drink water the jingle was being played. Last time around the memory of a journal was deleted: I wondered if it was the head of the trust or the boys who were preparing for exams. Then it kept happening. Today a scooty with press written on it came to pick a new kid who had stammering. He was new to academy. As I was approaching to him : he distinctly nodded thrice looking at me: it meant he was thinking that I was a member of academy like the coach. Well, it meant certain other things. I was feeding monkeys. Another guy used to do that. The head of the monastery saw it and a cow was entering the garden. The priest was present. I knew it: somehow I was being held accountable: what followed was family members approaching. Background check. They knew all the time that I was there. The whole story was woven to serve many purposes. Myths were busted. Or I had no grace. Never enough. Finds were: Prasanga Paarijaat. And Guru Nanak Dev’s biography by Jairam Mishra.
5. The people shouting seemed to suggest I had dropped something. I recalled that my pant had a pocket torn as I was walking in the stadium and kicked a ball. Earlier in the morning: no matter how hard I tried: the volume was repeatedly muted by certain agency as I sat on a bench doing WordPress.
6. The steel ring that dropped near the wickets meant something. It was too vague. The coach of academy was nonchalant about it. He had shown that his use of a Bundelkhandi tone might indicate two things: one: he was familiar with the lingo. Second: he was a localite. I don’t know the truth but the anxiety created for a moment by the guy on scooty was kind of useless in terms of expenditure of energy as it adds nothing to my learning.
7. With the music : all the demons were gone. But I don’t have unlimited supply. This stadium has openings and closings. It was not like this before. Now it is draconid institution like most others streamlined under central government. I hope to see a book where every event from every angle in every instant of my lives is written. I will be fond of that book. I was never born. Why do I have memories of being too young and unable. Why not of the time before that? Where did that family get me. Which lab I was made in? They are the questions which are only for the individuals. For gray regions. I know more than all the spiritual books I ever read combined together. It’s despite the lack of photographic memory. And yet…did I bring the wallet or did I not?
Dancing light of grace 