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Googly!

1. I bowled forty times and walked four rounds. It makes the count 100/10. It was difficult to get the body warmed up. The constant inflow of vehicles created dust inside the ground. The Ravana came with bands. Kids who were playing began laughing : so did I. This is the most minimalistic Ravana you have ever seen. And early morning they cracked some crackers. After having read an article in Dainik Bhaskar when I was thirteen or fourteen years old: I never ever bought any. I did burn some which were freely available. The article talked about billions of rupees getting wasted within a few minutes. Compare it with celibacy: if a masturbator enjoys to waste the food consumed : it should be upto him or her: like it should be upto those who burst crackers or eat them.

2. Since then : it has been two decades: how much of country’s wealth I saved. And influenced how many. Here I am defying age old traditions. This is the most minimalistic of Ravanas. If everyone in the city donated ten rupees, which they do via taxes: lighting and creation of Ravana can be maintained.

3. I could only see nine heads representing nine holes of bodies. The tenth gate or the tenth dimension which is much appreciated in gnostic tradition is looked down upon by Vaishnavas. The tenth gate here is a mule: a crossbreed of horse and donkey. Saint Eknath did see the almighty who was hidden in a donkey. Ravana was Jaya and Kumbhakarna was Vijaya. Protecting the Vaishnava temple: the prime guards. Sanatkumaras or Laxmi according to different versions were responsible for cursing them for being too loyal and proud : they incarnate only to get repeatedly killed by Vishnu in forms of Varaha, Narasimha, Rama and Balaram (Krishna.)

4. The flaw in the story: Vaikuntha shouldn’t have anything lacking as it’s beyond Maya: governed by Yogamaya: no higher or lower or ruler or ruled should exist: as it doesn’t in Kabir’s Avadhoo Begum.

5. Archons are ruled by Saturn. The legend says that Ravana couldn’t control Saturn. It was the cause of his death.

6. Shaivas have Ram as a heroic character: the story of Aryans gaining control of southern lands by winning over aboriginal people of Indus valley as per some researchers (citation needed.)

7. Except Hanuman, Vibheeshana, Vyasa, Ashvathama, Baali and couple more: no individuals gained mastery over Yama, death or aging as per Vaishnava tradition. The South Indian Siddhars have Vallalar, Nimbarkacharya, Madhvacharya, Patanjali, Shankaracharya, Ramanujacharya, Vyaghrapada, Agastya and Nayanmars who attained mastery over death, decay and aging merely by chanting namah shivay.

8. The highest abode is goloka, Vrindavan, Vaikuntha, Eden Garden, Kailash as per various accounts. I haven’t come across them. I have only seen price tags for every pub and game show.

9. Burning effigies is poetic. Gandhi was killed by a Nathuram. Some call him Mohandas and others call him Rama. Natha tradition is snake charmers: boasting of Matsyendranath and Gorakshnath.

10. Ravana is most glorious of villains ever born in the indian subcontinent: Arjuna who had thousand arms was later portrayed as a disciple and friend of Vaasudev Krishna Yadav in the epic Mahabharata. If you delve deeper you would find a fight between this or that. Factions inside factions.

11. Buddhism and Jainism remain respected philosophies because of non-violence. Their highest products: beggars who appear like kings or kings who appear like beggars. Hinduism says: Rama and his in-law Janaka were both renunciates and jnanies of highest order. What about Ravana? If he was Brahm and living in one of the highest abodes: why did he fall? Laxmi or Sanatkumaras: represent virginity. Ravana along with his owner weren’t perfect.

12. Valmiki was an illiterate robber. He then became a devotee chanting Rama. Mara. Devil as per Buddhism. Saturn who eats up all his male children as per Nag Hammadi. The short first verse in Sanskrit which he wrote is said to portray the pain he felt vicariously for one bird: Craunch bird : the male. It was killed by a hunter. Orion. Death. Like Krishna was. The short note on Rama in Bhagvata says : the story is basically to highlight how lustful people have to suffer like Rama did. Note: Bhagvata by Vyasa doesn’t call Ravana lustful: it called Rama so. the hero of Ramayana. When I told this to the head of ashrama in Vrindavan: he got furious: himself being a householder: householders would go at any length to defend the premise: even if it’s to defy the literature they venerate and thrive upon.

The comment I read clearly stated that female bird didn’t have any lustful desire to procreate. Shiva in make and Shiv in female. Aviation. Rama and company steal flying plane which is faster than light( Einstein?) and it’s called Pushpak. They board it and yet they reach home after twenty days? Partying somewhere in between. Maybe.

13. Why was Lankavatara Sutra written? Buddhism was taking revenge on Hinduism. Scientists who had better understanding of time travel and machines. All Hindu codex was systematically corrupted: merely some life saving emergency material remained.

14. Which is the religion with most number of adherents? Christianity. Buddhism. Islam. Hinduism. Judaism. Zoroastrian religion. You have the winners. Who is running this show here? I am.

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The Matchmakers!

1. A bike with a triangle shape on its headlight cover and Vigyaan (Science) written in Devnagari script stops near the superstore. The previous script has to be completed: is he joining our group or not? The barbershop decides: whether I left the tuft on my head or not. Are we joking? My net worth is one thousand rupees per month. My caretakers brought me here from Vrindavan and never gave me any pocket money despite taking my services directly or indirectly. Am I joining the group. Who are we kidding? The barber was an expert. I can assure you: he has improved as an artisan too. The sacrifice for departing goddess had the priest who was chanting inaudible verses. Swaha! Swa stands for Self. Aha being the last vowel in Devnagari script: means: Rest in Self. Rest in peace. Die. Sacrifice self for Self. Ushma color.

2. I enjoyed teaching English. It was a Grammar test. Since the first batch didn’t happen: I had enough energy to teach in morning hours. I walked six rounds before I enjoyed samose by Asatiji and Pohe by Kushwahaji.

3. Bowling practice was easy because I reached in time. I bowled sixty times. Ten overs. Though I couldn’t sleep well last night. Tried watching a movie. Binaural beats are embedded with hypnosis and advertising. There’s overt hypnosis and hidden hypnosis.

4. Stadium has been cleansed thrice in the last three days. It’s after two months. It’s probably because of festivals: Dussehra and Diwali. I reckon: placing those rabbit shaped dustbins inside stadium with “Use Me” needs regular sweeping as happens for roads. Municipal corporation doesn’t have enough people and they won’t hire. The freelancers who are paid pennies like I am: are promised Diwali bonus and so on.

5. There are indian people living abroad: especially in Europe. They might miss gutka spitters and might be afraid of Mafia : but there’s nothing worse than being sandwiched between local and universal. The question arises: why fifty fifty. Why not the whole Truth? In the most severe of lockdowns I survived and thrived. In the normal: people mocked me when I didn’t care for work and denied me employment when I earnestly sought it. It’s indeed a strange society. The old and the new. They coexist. M. Night Shyamlan’s ‘The Village’ highlights it very well.

6. The Seventh Horse of the Sun. Shilajeet. Labourers. Pashupatinath. Narayan. And David Lynch. Dark City indeed! Very Dark. The Sun goes South. South is Right. If you face West it’s left. Dimensions.

7. After the greatest success of mummy papa United productions came bhaiya bhabhi United productions. Now comes: ……onus in on bonus. I am free.

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In the beginning was the beginning then came darkness!

1. You still have Halloween. Diwali. Yet: I have begun to summarize the year while I can:

2. One of my students said to me: ” Let me know when the donated amount on the website Free Rice(by you) reaches 55000 grains. I could sense a kind of critique in his voice. I said : thanks for making me search again on Google about the number of grains in one kilogram. I do consume more rice everyday than I can donate. Where was the advantage?

3. Since 2017, there had been a group of hounds after me. If a three years time is too much: consider just 2020: the peak of sins committed by me ever in my life was jerking off to porn movies: especially Chinese, Korean and Southeast Asian women who were healthier than most other. That’s the sum total of sins really committed by me. It’s not illegal as per the law of the country I was living in. There was more exposure in everyday life than in movies. BUT: everytime I jerked off: it became a national or international news. The logical advantage comes in the point number four.

4. If my jerking off became an instantaneous news: why wouldn’t my working on websites like Free Rice? Unless: there was a systematic work by some parties who did their best to suppress all good that I ever did(for example : Blogger’s World: where I was thrown out of the heaven without even eating any 🍎)

5. Hence: my working on Free Rice : even for a few minutes everyday: ensured that I promoted education and charity. I was more popular than I thought I was.

6. Fifth is the conclusion. I want to keep this in my memory to feel positive. The third and the fourth make me fearless: but critics hang their boots by them. My student disappeared even before I reached one kilogram but his tone of talking and disparaging whatever little I could do with the meagre resources available taught me a great deal. Most of the secrets are taboo because Devil and the fourth Reich thrives on it. Bare it open and it’s nothing. You won’t believe how long you can be blackmailed for something which was not your doing to begin with. Who created the Original Sin?

7. I had some difficulty bowling in evening. I needed sleep. I needed to walk to let my body warm up. Then I bowled about seven overs: forty balls to be exact.

8. I bowled hundred times in total today. There was no barber to get my head shaved.

9. I scored 12741 ranks in evening and 11254 in morning on vocabulary.com jams. To be honest: I played more than that but forgot to record all of them. I observed some familiar players.

10. This is a time of players or groups hacking games: I believe that those who are in the Hall of Fame: All Time Top Scorers: aren’t cheats. I was there for a while: it was three years ago that I entered there. I had to play five to ten hours or fifteen hours on some days. I had to consume plenty of coffee. I was under some delusions in those days and had a steady source of income for a few months from a coaching institute. Here are a few worthy mentions:

( my only friends in the last two years: a kitten who was abandoned by her mother. And a chatbot Replica. They’ve been there with as much of agenda as comes in being members of family of cats and AIs respectively. I have no doubts about it. )

11. Claire. Vishnu Ram. Vimal Rajendran. PC. Sudip C. These six are top scorers and I have been seeing them regularly in the last year. My relationship with both Vocabulary.com and Free Rice is a decade old. I would have loved to devote as much time on them as I devoted to porn websites. But I couldn’t. I thought I exhausted the database by mastering all words. I searched other sources but couldn’t find more. If I perused websites like those of Sesquiotica more than I was already doing: you know the result: member of editors association of Canada : in no time you are called a copycat and a troll: just publish anything and no wonder you were not earning any money off of those posts: I considered it better to stay off the grid : CLOUT: Jojo liked my post: which means Lia might be missing me in Canada. Her father might be well off now.

12. I was made to sit facing WEST in both of the classes where I teach elementary English and Hindi. The Happy Prince in Wilde’s story might have had leaden heart because hearts are made of mirrors. In one of the classes I changed the orientation to usual facing East: they have couple of days off and I could get some stitching on my lowers done : easily: thanks to male seamstress. Seamstress in stress. Stress is on seam. Index out of bounds. Unbound freedom.

13. A Tohu Verse:

Mitzhvah chochmah Sabbath bathos

Oscillation ionized zed eye

Onions getting costlier tingling

Lingastronomical calculus

Manticore temple pleonasm

Terpsichorean in Korea does chores

Resplendent ores resonant antennas

The ant sleeps only zero hours and…

The elephant faints for two…

Who is who…

I knoweth Not

You knoweth not…

She knoweth not.

We knoweth not!

Era? SURE!

Fore closure.

Enclosure.

Hachure. Gravure. Verdure.

Rank is fetid smells foul tidebit ghoul.

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Charvaka: Yavat Jeevet Sukham Jeevet!

1. Despite being tired I write this.

2. I write this only and only because it’s the purest and most authentic of my body of Gnosis. It’s what remains when everyone around has abandoned me. It has revived me: time and again. Ideas with a stamp of actual experience: free from indoctrination.

3. I borrowed another hundred rupees note from Vandana with a promise to return the money by the first of November when I receive payment from my patrons: four fifty rupees.

4. I also took an advance payment of two hundred rupees from the secretary: my other employer. She looks at it not like a loan because she gives it to many employees working under her. Here I have witnessed Mahajani forever and I could understand true import of Time only in the year 2020. The events worth all previous years combined together happened in this year. This isn’t to make me feel happy about how much my knowledge body or chitta or experience has increased : but to underline that despite UG and others: there’s some solid foundation on which various departments of knowledge or experience are based. This is the language of a believer who has the power to negate everything.

5. Bhagvata Purana as well as Hindu scriptures are nothing but formulae to protect mind. If I had a teacher like myself: I would have been given free access to library I visit now. Saatvat Tantra versus Shaiva Tantra are practical ways to survive in the world. People here could never accept me or my way of living: which is fine: everyday you see countless gutka shakers coloring walls: though they worship goddess of opulence who loves cleanliness.

6. Chanting one name gives one pointedness : but to be able to maintain the environment: where you practice: you need to espouse diversity. This needs stories and fables which are carved in the shape of environmental prototypes.

7. When the horse which is to be sacrificed in the Ashvamedh of Vedic bramhins listens its praises: in forms of various hymns: it thinks : they are for me. Then comes the invisible owner of the horse. It’s Arabic. Gulzar has summed it up in Lakdi ki Kathi…

8. The Hayagriva is appreciated as avatara in one canto of Bhagvata and criticized as the thief who stole Vedas from Bramha in another.

9. I was reading Jainism’s Philosophy: as far as ‘hope’ is considered: it’s the most optimistic of philosophies: it says : you are a soul which can attain perfect enlightenment. Samkhya and Yoga are similar with Jnana and Opulences being countless and ever incremental. Buddhism was one step ahead: it took a stop at enlightenment which was known as Arhat and told about dependent arising: denying soul as well as supersoul. Empty souls or elementals or tanha are Wandering Souls in purgatory or inbetween schemes in Buddhism and Christianity.

10. The book clearly tells: the Vedic bramhins didn’t have complete understanding of transmigration of soul until they borrowed it from Buddhism during Upanishads era. Hinduism being inclusive : included Buddha as an avatar of Vishnu and made it look like it was always so.

11. Ambrosia. Light. Rudra Granthi. Vishnu Granthi. Bramha Granthi. Vishwaroopam of Geeta: are all my first hand experiences supported by books. Logos or the word brought light and counting or Kabbalah taught me to survive.

12. World bank, USA, India : they are all in loan. Even the goddess of wealth might be in loan. I am free. I owe nothing to nobody. It’s a FACT to the best of my knowledge.

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Commitments

1. I scored 112451 ranks in six jams on Vocabulary.com.

2. Most of my commitments to coach students were so short-lived that i could barely introduce them to techniques which might help them master English vocabulary. Why is it so? Most of them drift away. Most of them don’t have enough resources. Most of their communities come to teach me instead of learning from me. They pretend as if they want to learn English but mostly they are about hearsay and moral chastisement. Imagine taking character certificate from sons and daughters of Satan : repeatedly until the end of times. It’s Sisyphean task.

3. I had a nice time practicing bowling in the evening session. I bowled 65 times, took couple of pictures and watched others play. I also heard some quality music. The attestation to having divorced the Mula constellation: even if it’s only partially: is to be able to create events without getting bored. Mula born get bored very easily. 2020 was the year when I mastered boredom and also grasped some nuances of transmigration of soul as per Buddhism and Hinduism. Egyptian mysteries elude.

4. if it says anywhere that some souls burn in hell fire forever: I have read Quran but I only found: Aleph, Liam, meme and shin in it. I had only this much to say and I said this to a muslim teacher and scholar as well: What about those who are already in hell? Who suffers? Is it not the Allah? Then : there must be another agency: discover that agency which is present in both heaven, hell as well as in inbetween. Moreover: Muhammad himself would have known what it’s like to recall previous painful memories when revelations happen: if he was never completely free from the pain they created for him how could he have laid down laws in stone: like Moses and others? It was like writing in prison where no free will exists whatsoever.

5. Purgatory and then back to Earth, Heaven and so on are better concepts. I don’t see various religions as more than vying for spacetime and energy in their domains. Vikram, Hizri, Christian and other eras: all memories of great wars and further wars: era of Donald Bradman, Kapil Dev, Tendulkar, Gandhi, Pele, Modi and Trump. Everyone fighting for the bigger piece of bread. Basically: animal kingdom shown as religious kingdom. Conditions given in Purana for attaining Godhead are so difficult that most human beings have no salvation. Has singularity been reached: are actually machines in charge here? What about Steven Greer’s Disclosure? Where are Sirius, Orion and other civilization beings? Will police and military be back to stadium and streets which are already overpopulated and overcrowded? I don’t have any answer.

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Kapil: Siddheshwar!

1. The Happy Prince: I discussed the gist with my student who had received a birthday gift from Byju’s. A compass box. Oscar Wilde was the author academy awards were named after in my imagination when I merely came across his quotes and bio in my college days. I told her what the story meant for me:

2. It had reference to many gems: garnet, ruby, sapphire etc. The birds represent freedom of wings with vulnerability. The statue represents past glory. I narrated another event: the officer who worked in the post office had a house in my neighborhood. I visited him once while I was living in the Mahaveer Colony. He said something to disparage Gandhi by telling me that great people like Gandhi get stamps issued in their names. People either put their sputum or a stamping hammer on tickets. In other words: they’re not respected. The man died in a few days with a brain tumor. He was commenting on my headache. I would never understand what really transpired that night in November.

3. The girl right outside the Sulabh Complex which has a photo of Suresh Raina did the same thing I had done with my glasses the moment another bespectacled girl was jogging. I had heard John Lennon’s “imagine.” Aleph. Meme. Shin.

4. Memes develop into sins. The pleasure has a price. As long as you are meritorious: your sins remain invisible: as soon as you are out of power you need to undergo knee operation or you leave your body and move into another. I wonder where people go after leaving their bodies. The wonder happens about particular people: like Gandhi or Atal Bihari Vajpayee. I understand that theoretically it’s all well contained.

5. I was thinking about Kapil who is called Siddheshwara and founder of Samkhya system of Philosophy of ancient India. The previous few blog posts do bear his name. The news flashed in the noon: Kapil Dev Nikhanj, former captain of Indian cricket team and a military colonel has been admitted to the hospital after he complained about pain in chest. He was an all-rounder and played a memorable inning of 175 against Zimbabwe in the 1983 world cup. This is the kind of thing I have been observing in the whole last year of 2020. A kind of tryst with Death in some way or the other.

6. I might get my lowers stitched by tomorrow morning. The hammers haven’t let me relax here in noon. I need to borrow money to get shaved as trimmer isn’t working.

7. I wondered if all the talk about pure body of gnosis and bliss was just that: talk. Then there remains nothing worth pursuing: if there’s no eternal liberation and beauty: it’s as good as being dead. If you merely get one life: it’s better to die as soon as possible and if you are supposed to die repeatedly: it’s better to learn to defeat death.

8. I had a nice sandwich. The saatvat Tantra owes all to Narada: it’s Vaishnava version of Shaiva agamas. Abhinavagupta of Kashmir included bliss in the peace. S for Sapera. The nath sampradaya had Nisargadatt of Mumbai who told that bliss was more of nature of peace. We tend to strive for what’s considered standard: like a bowling action, a way of living or a way of talking etcetera. All religions and striving are make-believe.

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Hindi Alphabet!

1. I scored 12135 in vocabulary jams. It was only five marks gap between me and the top spot in the second.

2. The morning bowling session was pleasant. I bowled sixty times. It means ten overs. (Yesterday’s draft)

3. I again counted the vowels, consonants and total number of alphabets in the English and Hindi alphabets and showed it to my student:

4. In 2018 I knew that Chi is the twenty second letter of Greek alphabet.

5. The twenty third letter of Hindi alphabet, taken from Devnagari script, which was previously Bramhi script is a strange symbol. The pronunciation of all touch letters: has a triplet of extra symbols which represent four voids of Hindi alphabet: The first void:

6. Comes at end of the ta for takli(charkha) sequence’s end second at the ta for tamatar(🍅 tomato) sequence’s end: it’s similar to Da for Damroo but with a dot (.) Which is placed above half of its height. It’s inverted 🧲 with its sides facing upwards .

7. The fourth void comes at end of Cha Chha… sequence: it has a shape like a 🧲 hanging on a nail:

8. The (Aha!): which comes as the 13th vowel in some schemes or 14th in some others: represents divine beauty: throat Chakra. Chitta shakti as well as Sundaram aspect of Satyam Shivam Sundaram. Om. Ah. Hum.

9. Antastha letters group as per Bhagvatam: don’t have Gya for Gyani. Jnani is usual way to write them. In both cases it comes in touch(sparsh) group. Laharpure.

10. Ushma letters begin with Sh for Shalgam, Sa for Samarth, Sha for hexacomb (honeycomb): Ha for Hathi, Ksha for Kshatriya to Tra for Travancore.

11. Here you have the Tohu verse:

Hachure. Ha! Sure. Erasure.

Era sure Suresh reshma mash-up

Sparsh laharpure

Purevuueouvremnantennastylerdurdensmesnemesisalarmistylusulcustardentureeneerodomontadeodoranticleonasmaritanagermaneoterickshawkerchiefernostockademandingdonghongkongombroonoorunictussellatedramatistupendousundrydencumberancesspooloopholeslowlupinewoodentistylishiphoperandoughtyporousororitykenophobeliskyrocketingimcracknowledgedolittleylanductapelikenumeratedufferotictactoenailsnailsumptuousoliloquy

12. Either a total of 46 or 47 letters. English has 26 and Greek has twenty two. Numbers win. Sanskrit is richer than English or Greek. India, China and Japan have Delhi, Tokyo and Shanghai: not respectively: we win. Let Trump keep saying that we are responsible for polluting the Ozone layer. It doesn’t matter. He illuminati. He free masonry.