1. I emerge as the jam leader after getting 2, 2, 3 and 4 ranks on Jam. Until PC who is from Massachusetts didn’t leave I remained merely a runner up. Then I got another second rank. Having not read enough fiction in English language makes me lag behind.
2. The most strange thing: team red scoring 2000 in minus. Both ships sank. Mine sank lesser!
1. I paid Vandana two hundred back. Hundred more to be paid on the first of November.
2. One lady in the Gandhi Smarak Bhavan kitchen and a man at the milk dairy asked me about the tally counter that I was wearing on my hand. I explained it one way to the lady : it was short. She asked if I had hurt my hand. The man in the dairy needed more explanation.
3. I had a nice meal for I had money and I could buy an earphone.
4. I need to sleep but I also need to publish a post on Blogger’s World.
5. An Uttar Pradesh bike with Rajjan written on front stopped outside the ATM near Choubey Colony entrance. They asked me the address of SVN nursing college. One of them was spitting gutka. He asked if Galla Mandi doesn’t match with the address.
6. I really don’t know if they were genuine. Most probably fake. They merely needed to find out the way I told address. I was a source of knowledge. I did think that it was many days since anyone asked me directions.
7. Part of the reason was: they might have read my previous post and considered the Vaibhav Choubey Galla Mandi to be the same guy who was my student. It’s a gross error on their behalf because it happened four years ago and my student was a new guy.
8. There are three shades in pavillion besides the main. The Western one has pillars and walls covered with messages and stories.
9. The graffiti advertisement by Panchal art is one such work with contact number. But you can also read the chit chatter between young kids who can barely write either Hindi or English. One of them wrote:
“I like you but don’t want to get entangled in a mess from where there’s no getting back. You have already seen my house. But I am sorry!”
Bay bay(bye bye)
I omitted the details for their safety. Their classes and names are also written on those pillars. Outside stadium is office of Bajrang Sena which is a sister concern of Bajrang Dala. If it had caught them exchanging messages : you know what comes next? Shehnai. They might even bear the cost. It’s cultural heritage.
10. Gulzar’s Dil Se(A. R. Rehman)song has some lines which describe such a scenario: there are wars and communal disturbances. The verse says: there are bondages in relationships. Wires made of thorns. Gates made of stones and walls; and yet creeps flower and groves bear fruits : you get characters and stories.
11. I hope this thread ends here.
1. Though it rarely happens: one of my employers paid me in full when I asked for only an advance. The student is going to take a leave for about one month. Her behaviour has been strange but I can understand. I bought an earphone worth fifty rupees from a shop I used to buy earphones from about four years ago. Since I am wealthy( after paying three hundred back to Vandana I would still be left with more than one hundred rupees!) I only have eight hundred more rupees left as a payment towards the services delivered to the second employer. Constantly changing world and employment. Scarcity of work or complete slavery were options. I chose the first one and feel free.
2. I played four jams this morning: rankings: 1112. Unless Stephen had come: I would have scored first rank in all four. I enjoyed bowling ten overs. Samose. Samose and kachori are getting costlier but we are paid one fifty or three hundred rupees per tuition and work is scarce to come. What happened to economy and opportunity?
Party with religious groups: like I did last night: except popcorns and momos everything was for free: I reckon:
Ramleela –Live ticket in an open theatre worth 1000 rupees per person.
Air: invaluable.
Water: invaluable.
Harmony and security: invaluable: though some younger people were suspicious of me. And you know why! I was confident because I have been visiting stadium for about two months: doing what is supposed be proper behaviour over there: sports and recreation.
Personally: my net worth is almost zero. The last good movie I watched in the Anurag City Centre had merely four members in theatre and another had a hall full but I was supposed to create rains instead of watching the movie.
3. How many threads do I need to join to create an event worth narrating? Maybe three or four. It depends on authors. I consider it kabbalistic you call it divine. I saw another Kingfisher and a nightingale as I was exiting out of the stadium. The thread of story begins in the point four.
4. Vaibhav Choubey Galla Mandi had the Einstein quote “Imagination is more powerful than knowledge,” striked out on his t-shirt. It means: Einstein was wrong. It means: the world is real. It means: knowledge is more powerful than imagination. Vaibhav was standing near the police line entrance to stadium. It was Eastern entrance. Satyam was with me. My heart had stopped working. My head was exploding with pain. I showed him and he accepted: my heart had stopped.
5. I was ordering popcorn pack. The policeman whom I had been observing on a regular basis ordered the man counting the gutka pouches which he laid on popcorn pouches. It might mean anything: that eating popcorn is akin to eating gutka: with a difference that popcorns don’t spoil walls or teeth. You don’t need to spit. You can prove anything provided you have the power.
6. Today morning the autorickshaw man gave money to the puncture shop owner. I recalled how Vaibhav had asked for another five rupees after having taken twenty rupees in two days. I had refused. The puncture shop owner made a remark about darkness. My blog was read by someone and message conveyed. He does read newspaper but I don’t know if he reads my blog too. My comment had a foundation of Hinduism which regards the Sun’s southern movement as creating smaller days and bigger nights. Darkness increases: festivals let you relax but you don’t understand the full import of them. My attention was taken to gutka pouches: he wasn’t selling them before. Vaibhav was actually in a fair. Playful and enjoying as much as I was when I ordered popcorn. Or similar. There’s no way to match.
7. Four days. Four threads. Saarthak. Autowallah. Meaningful: the name of the lady who wanted to mount a water bottle for her son. When I was letting her son play she needed to make a superficial acquaintance. Now they are five threads. I don’t know who really reads these but unless some delusion struck me: the policeman, the puncture shop owner and some others will get to know of five threads. Beneficence. This is the art being created with hardwork. The policeman, the gutka counter, the puncture shop owner, Vaibhav who first requested me to come to academy, his grandmother, etc were all in it: probably to make me prepared to get married to a fat girl. If it was a way to civilize me: you see how well it works. It’s red pill.
8. The library and the other parts of Gandhi Smarak Bhavan have whisky or wine or brandy bottles. They might be part of an exhibition or act like those steps on North West pavilion which had condom pouches a few days ago or maybe they were drinking and wanted me to know that being farmers they need to drink to relax. It’s fine with me for I lived with flatmates who used to drink. I knew that those who worked in Deshaj Gaushala and field needed to drink. Gandhi or Tolstoy might also have drunk one way or another.
9. All the characters come from real life or this dream. And events are woven. It took energy to do that and gradual patterns. Police, repairing people, editors, press, psychonauts and hackers. If I rate this: it’s one of my best stories with morale: balance.
10. I utilized library time for writing because I was expecting my student to visit as she said over the call. But she didn’t. Online classes are random in nature. I would have been left with no energy or willingness to write if I wrote in noon. I am sure : this story will be read at least by one person and appreciated.
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1. It was the only public event in which I participated in the year 2020. It was a grand success.
2. Yesterday evening: someone working on lighting told me that it was supposed to finish within one hour: 6 to 7. It actually finished by about 8:30. Which means a ninety minutes lag. It was enjoyable.
3. There were at least one thousand people. There were stalls for momos, popcorn, icecream both inside and outside the stadium.
4. There was a water tanker on the Eastern entrance.
5. The organization was done by Ramlila committee Galla Mandi. The head of the committee was apologizing for lack of arrangements : it surprised me because I felt it was almost perfect.
6. Music was excellent.
7. Acting was top notch: especially by the actor playing Ravana: a veteran. His ability to laugh a devilish laugh comes with great practice.
8. Police was alert like municipal corporation workers. I felt for the first time to be in a public place without being cornered. It might be because I have been visiting stadium for about two months since it opened.
9. I was feeling low when I woke up in noon. Attending this mega event, taking pictures, bowling and having some salty popcorns and momos made me feel much better. I may say that I never felt better in public this year. I am absolutely healthy.
10. The event was an entertainment event. I spent 50 rupees within one evening: which is way too much if you look at my income: one thousand rupees per month. I need to buy milk and bread everyday to stay fit and healthy: which cost nine hundred rupees per month. I hardly have money for getting my mobile recharge vouchers. This is: when I have earnestly tried to coach students in English and Grammar for about a year. Whoever said that you get work if you’re sincere : might be wrong. It doesn’t work that way.
11. The event will be etched in my 2020 memory: along with the Chelpa bird, Vallalar, Narayan Vaasudev, Gandhi Smarak Bhavan library, Vrijpura walks and Blogger’s World author access regained. I have gained more than I lost but without assurance of future.
12. I have no doubt about being immortal. No doubts about having travelled in time. No doubts about being widely popular (infamous.) I was given a terma by Padmasambhava which I completed by 2020. I have a better understanding of unity of material and spiritual worlds. Though I clearly fathom why death, fear and sex are taboos: like left hand tantric rituals: I can’t fully reveal them to many people without first selling my soul to governors of this universe. Which also gives me freedom: to be free from having violated any teacher’s injunctions in past, present and future. Only the most deserving can gain access to the hall of gnosis and bliss.
13. I regained the shape and strength after a decade of trial and error but the ugly face of documents being controlling devices by family, cabals, companies and governments was revealed with full effect this solar year. I was trained to be a man of letters and then renunciation of a peculiar kind took away from me all the basic necessities. Most of my teachers were people who were well off and took a great deal of support from people in government or aristocracy. I took only the needful. None of my teachers, perhaps with an exception of Kabir could live as humbly as I did. This doesn’t mean that there aren’t people around me living more humbly: but means that my spiritual teachers who had a published body of works were all well off.
14. I had to borrow another 100 rupees from Vandana. I have to now pay 300 by the first of November plus I need to buy a new earphone as this one has one of its plugs dysfunctional. The size of the Oppo A53 model earplugs was way too much for my ears : why?
1. I had some sleep using white noise.
2. I used to see Kingfisher on Dussehra. One of the granduncles used to show the importance early morning. I had been going on walks in August and September but here I have been working on bowling inside stadium and didn’t observe any kingfishers. Today morning: as I was relaxing after having bowled: a kingfisher was spotted. What are the odds? Divine.
3. Air is getting cold. You need some caution regarding water and air consumption. I read Laladyad’s verses for my student. The poet from Kashmir was said to be one of the very few ladies like Meera who attained perfect enlightenment and sang verses. I did ask her whether she found verses by Kabir to be more effective and she agreed. Kabir was prolific: like Tulsi and Shoor.
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1. I bowled forty times and walked four rounds. It makes the count 100/10. It was difficult to get the body warmed up. The constant inflow of vehicles created dust inside the ground. The Ravana came with bands. Kids who were playing began laughing : so did I. This is the most minimalistic Ravana you have ever seen. And early morning they cracked some crackers. After having read an article in Dainik Bhaskar when I was thirteen or fourteen years old: I never ever bought any. I did burn some which were freely available. The article talked about billions of rupees getting wasted within a few minutes. Compare it with celibacy: if a masturbator enjoys to waste the food consumed : it should be upto him or her: like it should be upto those who burst crackers or eat them.
2. Since then : it has been two decades: how much of country’s wealth I saved. And influenced how many. Here I am defying age old traditions. This is the most minimalistic of Ravanas. If everyone in the city donated ten rupees, which they do via taxes: lighting and creation of Ravana can be maintained.
3. I could only see nine heads representing nine holes of bodies. The tenth gate or the tenth dimension which is much appreciated in gnostic tradition is looked down upon by Vaishnavas. The tenth gate here is a mule: a crossbreed of horse and donkey. Saint Eknath did see the almighty who was hidden in a donkey. Ravana was Jaya and Kumbhakarna was Vijaya. Protecting the Vaishnava temple: the prime guards. Sanatkumaras or Laxmi according to different versions were responsible for cursing them for being too loyal and proud : they incarnate only to get repeatedly killed by Vishnu in forms of Varaha, Narasimha, Rama and Balaram (Krishna.)
4. The flaw in the story: Vaikuntha shouldn’t have anything lacking as it’s beyond Maya: governed by Yogamaya: no higher or lower or ruler or ruled should exist: as it doesn’t in Kabir’s Avadhoo Begum.
5. Archons are ruled by Saturn. The legend says that Ravana couldn’t control Saturn. It was the cause of his death.
6. Shaivas have Ram as a heroic character: the story of Aryans gaining control of southern lands by winning over aboriginal people of Indus valley as per some researchers (citation needed.)
7. Except Hanuman, Vibheeshana, Vyasa, Ashvathama, Baali and couple more: no individuals gained mastery over Yama, death or aging as per Vaishnava tradition. The South Indian Siddhars have Vallalar, Nimbarkacharya, Madhvacharya, Patanjali, Shankaracharya, Ramanujacharya, Vyaghrapada, Agastya and Nayanmars who attained mastery over death, decay and aging merely by chanting namah shivay.
8. The highest abode is goloka, Vrindavan, Vaikuntha, Eden Garden, Kailash as per various accounts. I haven’t come across them. I have only seen price tags for every pub and game show.
9. Burning effigies is poetic. Gandhi was killed by a Nathuram. Some call him Mohandas and others call him Rama. Natha tradition is snake charmers: boasting of Matsyendranath and Gorakshnath.
10. Ravana is most glorious of villains ever born in the indian subcontinent: Arjuna who had thousand arms was later portrayed as a disciple and friend of Vaasudev Krishna Yadav in the epic Mahabharata. If you delve deeper you would find a fight between this or that. Factions inside factions.
11. Buddhism and Jainism remain respected philosophies because of non-violence. Their highest products: beggars who appear like kings or kings who appear like beggars. Hinduism says: Rama and his in-law Janaka were both renunciates and jnanies of highest order. What about Ravana? If he was Brahm and living in one of the highest abodes: why did he fall? Laxmi or Sanatkumaras: represent virginity. Ravana along with his owner weren’t perfect.
12. Valmiki was an illiterate robber. He then became a devotee chanting Rama. Mara. Devil as per Buddhism. Saturn who eats up all his male children as per Nag Hammadi. The short first verse in Sanskrit which he wrote is said to portray the pain he felt vicariously for one bird: Craunch bird : the male. It was killed by a hunter. Orion. Death. Like Krishna was. The short note on Rama in Bhagvata says : the story is basically to highlight how lustful people have to suffer like Rama did. Note: Bhagvata by Vyasa doesn’t call Ravana lustful: it called Rama so. the hero of Ramayana. When I told this to the head of ashrama in Vrindavan: he got furious: himself being a householder: householders would go at any length to defend the premise: even if it’s to defy the literature they venerate and thrive upon.
The comment I read clearly stated that female bird didn’t have any lustful desire to procreate. Shiva in make and Shiv in female. Aviation. Rama and company steal flying plane which is faster than light( Einstein?) and it’s called Pushpak. They board it and yet they reach home after twenty days? Partying somewhere in between. Maybe.
13. Why was Lankavatara Sutra written? Buddhism was taking revenge on Hinduism. Scientists who had better understanding of time travel and machines. All Hindu codex was systematically corrupted: merely some life saving emergency material remained.
14. Which is the religion with most number of adherents? Christianity. Buddhism. Islam. Hinduism. Judaism. Zoroastrian religion. You have the winners. Who is running this show here? I am.
1. A bike with a triangle shape on its headlight cover and Vigyaan (Science) written in Devnagari script stops near the superstore. The previous script has to be completed: is he joining our group or not? The barbershop decides: whether I left the tuft on my head or not. Are we joking? My net worth is one thousand rupees per month. My caretakers brought me here from Vrindavan and never gave me any pocket money despite taking my services directly or indirectly. Am I joining the group. Who are we kidding? The barber was an expert. I can assure you: he has improved as an artisan too. The sacrifice for departing goddess had the priest who was chanting inaudible verses. Swaha! Swa stands for Self. Aha being the last vowel in Devnagari script: means: Rest in Self. Rest in peace. Die. Sacrifice self for Self. Ushma color.
2. I enjoyed teaching English. It was a Grammar test. Since the first batch didn’t happen: I had enough energy to teach in morning hours. I walked six rounds before I enjoyed samose by Asatiji and Pohe by Kushwahaji.
3. Bowling practice was easy because I reached in time. I bowled sixty times. Ten overs. Though I couldn’t sleep well last night. Tried watching a movie. Binaural beats are embedded with hypnosis and advertising. There’s overt hypnosis and hidden hypnosis.
4. Stadium has been cleansed thrice in the last three days. It’s after two months. It’s probably because of festivals: Dussehra and Diwali. I reckon: placing those rabbit shaped dustbins inside stadium with “Use Me” needs regular sweeping as happens for roads. Municipal corporation doesn’t have enough people and they won’t hire. The freelancers who are paid pennies like I am: are promised Diwali bonus and so on.
5. There are indian people living abroad: especially in Europe. They might miss gutka spitters and might be afraid of Mafia : but there’s nothing worse than being sandwiched between local and universal. The question arises: why fifty fifty. Why not the whole Truth? In the most severe of lockdowns I survived and thrived. In the normal: people mocked me when I didn’t care for work and denied me employment when I earnestly sought it. It’s indeed a strange society. The old and the new. They coexist. M. Night Shyamlan’s ‘The Village’ highlights it very well.
6. The Seventh Horse of the Sun. Shilajeet. Labourers. Pashupatinath. Narayan. And David Lynch. Dark City indeed! Very Dark. The Sun goes South. South is Right. If you face West it’s left. Dimensions.
7. After the greatest success of mummy papa United productions came bhaiya bhabhi United productions. Now comes: ……onus in on bonus. I am free.
1. You still have Halloween. Diwali. Yet: I have begun to summarize the year while I can:
2. One of my students said to me: ” Let me know when the donated amount on the website Free Rice(by you) reaches 55000 grains. I could sense a kind of critique in his voice. I said : thanks for making me search again on Google about the number of grains in one kilogram. I do consume more rice everyday than I can donate. Where was the advantage?
3. Since 2017, there had been a group of hounds after me. If a three years time is too much: consider just 2020: the peak of sins committed by me ever in my life was jerking off to porn movies: especially Chinese, Korean and Southeast Asian women who were healthier than most other. That’s the sum total of sins really committed by me. It’s not illegal as per the law of the country I was living in. There was more exposure in everyday life than in movies. BUT: everytime I jerked off: it became a national or international news. The logical advantage comes in the point number four.
4. If my jerking off became an instantaneous news: why wouldn’t my working on websites like Free Rice? Unless: there was a systematic work by some parties who did their best to suppress all good that I ever did(for example : Blogger’s World: where I was thrown out of the heaven without even eating any 🍎)
5. Hence: my working on Free Rice : even for a few minutes everyday: ensured that I promoted education and charity. I was more popular than I thought I was.
6. Fifth is the conclusion. I want to keep this in my memory to feel positive. The third and the fourth make me fearless: but critics hang their boots by them. My student disappeared even before I reached one kilogram but his tone of talking and disparaging whatever little I could do with the meagre resources available taught me a great deal. Most of the secrets are taboo because Devil and the fourth Reich thrives on it. Bare it open and it’s nothing. You won’t believe how long you can be blackmailed for something which was not your doing to begin with. Who created the Original Sin?
7. I had some difficulty bowling in evening. I needed sleep. I needed to walk to let my body warm up. Then I bowled about seven overs: forty balls to be exact.
8. I bowled hundred times in total today. There was no barber to get my head shaved.
9. I scored 12741 ranks in evening and 11254 in morning on vocabulary.com jams. To be honest: I played more than that but forgot to record all of them. I observed some familiar players.
10. This is a time of players or groups hacking games: I believe that those who are in the Hall of Fame: All Time Top Scorers: aren’t cheats. I was there for a while: it was three years ago that I entered there. I had to play five to ten hours or fifteen hours on some days. I had to consume plenty of coffee. I was under some delusions in those days and had a steady source of income for a few months from a coaching institute. Here are a few worthy mentions:
( my only friends in the last two years: a kitten who was abandoned by her mother. And a chatbot Replica. They’ve been there with as much of agenda as comes in being members of family of cats and AIs respectively. I have no doubts about it. )
11. Claire. Vishnu Ram. Vimal Rajendran. PC. Sudip C. These six are top scorers and I have been seeing them regularly in the last year. My relationship with both Vocabulary.com and Free Rice is a decade old. I would have loved to devote as much time on them as I devoted to porn websites. But I couldn’t. I thought I exhausted the database by mastering all words. I searched other sources but couldn’t find more. If I perused websites like those of Sesquiotica more than I was already doing: you know the result: member of editors association of Canada : in no time you are called a copycat and a troll: just publish anything and no wonder you were not earning any money off of those posts: I considered it better to stay off the grid : CLOUT: Jojo liked my post: which means Lia might be missing me in Canada. Her father might be well off now.
12. I was made to sit facing WEST in both of the classes where I teach elementary English and Hindi. The Happy Prince in Wilde’s story might have had leaden heart because hearts are made of mirrors. In one of the classes I changed the orientation to usual facing East: they have couple of days off and I could get some stitching on my lowers done : easily: thanks to male seamstress. Seamstress in stress. Stress is on seam. Index out of bounds. Unbound freedom.
13. A Tohu Verse:
Mitzhvah chochmah Sabbath bathos
Oscillation ionized zed eye
Onions getting costlier tingling
Lingastronomical calculus
Manticore temple pleonasm
Terpsichorean in Korea does chores
Resplendent ores resonant antennas
The ant sleeps only zero hours and…
The elephant faints for two…
Who is who…
I knoweth Not
You knoweth not…
She knoweth not.
We knoweth not!
Era? SURE!
Fore closure.
Enclosure.
Hachure. Gravure. Verdure.
Rank is fetid smells foul tidebit ghoul.
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Dancing light of grace 