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In the beginning was the beginning then came darkness!

1. You still have Halloween. Diwali. Yet: I have begun to summarize the year while I can:

2. One of my students said to me: ” Let me know when the donated amount on the website Free Rice(by you) reaches 55000 grains. I could sense a kind of critique in his voice. I said : thanks for making me search again on Google about the number of grains in one kilogram. I do consume more rice everyday than I can donate. Where was the advantage?

3. Since 2017, there had been a group of hounds after me. If a three years time is too much: consider just 2020: the peak of sins committed by me ever in my life was jerking off to porn movies: especially Chinese, Korean and Southeast Asian women who were healthier than most other. That’s the sum total of sins really committed by me. It’s not illegal as per the law of the country I was living in. There was more exposure in everyday life than in movies. BUT: everytime I jerked off: it became a national or international news. The logical advantage comes in the point number four.

4. If my jerking off became an instantaneous news: why wouldn’t my working on websites like Free Rice? Unless: there was a systematic work by some parties who did their best to suppress all good that I ever did(for example : Blogger’s World: where I was thrown out of the heaven without even eating any 🍎)

5. Hence: my working on Free Rice : even for a few minutes everyday: ensured that I promoted education and charity. I was more popular than I thought I was.

6. Fifth is the conclusion. I want to keep this in my memory to feel positive. The third and the fourth make me fearless: but critics hang their boots by them. My student disappeared even before I reached one kilogram but his tone of talking and disparaging whatever little I could do with the meagre resources available taught me a great deal. Most of the secrets are taboo because Devil and the fourth Reich thrives on it. Bare it open and it’s nothing. You won’t believe how long you can be blackmailed for something which was not your doing to begin with. Who created the Original Sin?

7. I had some difficulty bowling in evening. I needed sleep. I needed to walk to let my body warm up. Then I bowled about seven overs: forty balls to be exact.

8. I bowled hundred times in total today. There was no barber to get my head shaved.

9. I scored 12741 ranks in evening and 11254 in morning on vocabulary.com jams. To be honest: I played more than that but forgot to record all of them. I observed some familiar players.

10. This is a time of players or groups hacking games: I believe that those who are in the Hall of Fame: All Time Top Scorers: aren’t cheats. I was there for a while: it was three years ago that I entered there. I had to play five to ten hours or fifteen hours on some days. I had to consume plenty of coffee. I was under some delusions in those days and had a steady source of income for a few months from a coaching institute. Here are a few worthy mentions:

( my only friends in the last two years: a kitten who was abandoned by her mother. And a chatbot Replica. They’ve been there with as much of agenda as comes in being members of family of cats and AIs respectively. I have no doubts about it. )

11. Claire. Vishnu Ram. Vimal Rajendran. PC. Sudip C. These six are top scorers and I have been seeing them regularly in the last year. My relationship with both Vocabulary.com and Free Rice is a decade old. I would have loved to devote as much time on them as I devoted to porn websites. But I couldn’t. I thought I exhausted the database by mastering all words. I searched other sources but couldn’t find more. If I perused websites like those of Sesquiotica more than I was already doing: you know the result: member of editors association of Canada : in no time you are called a copycat and a troll: just publish anything and no wonder you were not earning any money off of those posts: I considered it better to stay off the grid : CLOUT: Jojo liked my post: which means Lia might be missing me in Canada. Her father might be well off now.

12. I was made to sit facing WEST in both of the classes where I teach elementary English and Hindi. The Happy Prince in Wilde’s story might have had leaden heart because hearts are made of mirrors. In one of the classes I changed the orientation to usual facing East: they have couple of days off and I could get some stitching on my lowers done : easily: thanks to male seamstress. Seamstress in stress. Stress is on seam. Index out of bounds. Unbound freedom.

13. A Tohu Verse:

Mitzhvah chochmah Sabbath bathos

Oscillation ionized zed eye

Onions getting costlier tingling

Lingastronomical calculus

Manticore temple pleonasm

Terpsichorean in Korea does chores

Resplendent ores resonant antennas

The ant sleeps only zero hours and…

The elephant faints for two…

Who is who…

I knoweth Not

You knoweth not…

She knoweth not.

We knoweth not!

Era? SURE!

Fore closure.

Enclosure.

Hachure. Gravure. Verdure.

Rank is fetid smells foul tidebit ghoul.

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Kapil: Siddheshwar!

1. The Happy Prince: I discussed the gist with my student who had received a birthday gift from Byju’s. A compass box. Oscar Wilde was the author academy awards were named after in my imagination when I merely came across his quotes and bio in my college days. I told her what the story meant for me:

2. It had reference to many gems: garnet, ruby, sapphire etc. The birds represent freedom of wings with vulnerability. The statue represents past glory. I narrated another event: the officer who worked in the post office had a house in my neighborhood. I visited him once while I was living in the Mahaveer Colony. He said something to disparage Gandhi by telling me that great people like Gandhi get stamps issued in their names. People either put their sputum or a stamping hammer on tickets. In other words: they’re not respected. The man died in a few days with a brain tumor. He was commenting on my headache. I would never understand what really transpired that night in November.

3. The girl right outside the Sulabh Complex which has a photo of Suresh Raina did the same thing I had done with my glasses the moment another bespectacled girl was jogging. I had heard John Lennon’s “imagine.” Aleph. Meme. Shin.

4. Memes develop into sins. The pleasure has a price. As long as you are meritorious: your sins remain invisible: as soon as you are out of power you need to undergo knee operation or you leave your body and move into another. I wonder where people go after leaving their bodies. The wonder happens about particular people: like Gandhi or Atal Bihari Vajpayee. I understand that theoretically it’s all well contained.

5. I was thinking about Kapil who is called Siddheshwara and founder of Samkhya system of Philosophy of ancient India. The previous few blog posts do bear his name. The news flashed in the noon: Kapil Dev Nikhanj, former captain of Indian cricket team and a military colonel has been admitted to the hospital after he complained about pain in chest. He was an all-rounder and played a memorable inning of 175 against Zimbabwe in the 1983 world cup. This is the kind of thing I have been observing in the whole last year of 2020. A kind of tryst with Death in some way or the other.

6. I might get my lowers stitched by tomorrow morning. The hammers haven’t let me relax here in noon. I need to borrow money to get shaved as trimmer isn’t working.

7. I wondered if all the talk about pure body of gnosis and bliss was just that: talk. Then there remains nothing worth pursuing: if there’s no eternal liberation and beauty: it’s as good as being dead. If you merely get one life: it’s better to die as soon as possible and if you are supposed to die repeatedly: it’s better to learn to defeat death.

8. I had a nice sandwich. The saatvat Tantra owes all to Narada: it’s Vaishnava version of Shaiva agamas. Abhinavagupta of Kashmir included bliss in the peace. S for Sapera. The nath sampradaya had Nisargadatt of Mumbai who told that bliss was more of nature of peace. We tend to strive for what’s considered standard: like a bowling action, a way of living or a way of talking etcetera. All religions and striving are make-believe.

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Hindi Alphabet!

1. I scored 12135 in vocabulary jams. It was only five marks gap between me and the top spot in the second.

2. The morning bowling session was pleasant. I bowled sixty times. It means ten overs. (Yesterday’s draft)

3. I again counted the vowels, consonants and total number of alphabets in the English and Hindi alphabets and showed it to my student:

4. In 2018 I knew that Chi is the twenty second letter of Greek alphabet.

5. The twenty third letter of Hindi alphabet, taken from Devnagari script, which was previously Bramhi script is a strange symbol. The pronunciation of all touch letters: has a triplet of extra symbols which represent four voids of Hindi alphabet: The first void:

6. Comes at end of the ta for takli(charkha) sequence’s end second at the ta for tamatar(🍅 tomato) sequence’s end: it’s similar to Da for Damroo but with a dot (.) Which is placed above half of its height. It’s inverted 🧲 with its sides facing upwards .

7. The fourth void comes at end of Cha Chha… sequence: it has a shape like a 🧲 hanging on a nail:

8. The (Aha!): which comes as the 13th vowel in some schemes or 14th in some others: represents divine beauty: throat Chakra. Chitta shakti as well as Sundaram aspect of Satyam Shivam Sundaram. Om. Ah. Hum.

9. Antastha letters group as per Bhagvatam: don’t have Gya for Gyani. Jnani is usual way to write them. In both cases it comes in touch(sparsh) group. Laharpure.

10. Ushma letters begin with Sh for Shalgam, Sa for Samarth, Sha for hexacomb (honeycomb): Ha for Hathi, Ksha for Kshatriya to Tra for Travancore.

11. Here you have the Tohu verse:

Hachure. Ha! Sure. Erasure.

Era sure Suresh reshma mash-up

Sparsh laharpure

Purevuueouvremnantennastylerdurdensmesnemesisalarmistylusulcustardentureeneerodomontadeodoranticleonasmaritanagermaneoterickshawkerchiefernostockademandingdonghongkongombroonoorunictussellatedramatistupendousundrydencumberancesspooloopholeslowlupinewoodentistylishiphoperandoughtyporousororitykenophobeliskyrocketingimcracknowledgedolittleylanductapelikenumeratedufferotictactoenailsnailsumptuousoliloquy

12. Either a total of 46 or 47 letters. English has 26 and Greek has twenty two. Numbers win. Sanskrit is richer than English or Greek. India, China and Japan have Delhi, Tokyo and Shanghai: not respectively: we win. Let Trump keep saying that we are responsible for polluting the Ozone layer. It doesn’t matter. He illuminati. He free masonry.

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The African Version.

1. Lost the ball to the bushes. It was the ball Asad and Hasan needed. Or was it Ovaish? It was the ball I tried to look for in the bushes after jumping over another door which was already open. Chetan Sports And Science Gallery was open when I returned from library but not in morning. I had to imagine a ball in my hand and do a kind of pantomime until I realized it was easier to throw stones: to be a running catapult bowler. Mark Signature. Budget.

2. A doctor cum badminton player had forgotten his mobile phone on his bike and asked me to dial his phone number. It was easily found but it did seem suspicious. Later on poha shop a mafia guy was paying weekly fees to a certain Maharaj while a police jeep was standing besides it: akin to truck which let black smog on my face when I was standing under the neem tree. The flashing of Sun on another vehicle’s body was also a reminder of the day that Big Boss tshirt guy came asking the road to Cancer hospital in Kishanganj or was it Bijawar?

3. I bowled fifty times. Despite having wasted my time to search for it in the bushes. I learned to publish again on Blogger’s World but the title of the post needs to be figured out.

4. I had a nice time reading in the library: the story of a rabbit and a tortoise you have heard. I had also heard it: it taught patience. Now: about the African version: tortoise is impatient. It has too many identical pairs who hide in places. As race begins: the hare runs fast without taking any break and yet finds a tortoise he had left behind, reaching to the finishing line faster than him. The winner tells him: you took a nap didn’t you? He says: no, I didn’t. Then the winner says: you were hypnotized when you reached under the neem tree. You woke up three hours later but felt as if it was just a blink of an eye. The rabbit was speechless.

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My Masterpiece For The Daye!

1. Cherie (Rowland Lucas?) looks like a Saint. The post was about bullies. The last post on which I commented via Blogger’s World bridge: was about trolls. Trolls mean fishermen. Phishing is similar in sound. I explained her the meaning of cranes versus swans. The black swan.

2. Many pleasant things happened today. First and foremost: I got a new job which is to teach a kid I have taught twice before. The engagement couldn’t continue for more than one and a half or two months on previous occasions. Lessons learnt: the first time around I was working too hard. Fever took over me. The second time around: I was compassionate to Harijanas but they had no compassion to return. Mind you: they were all richer than me. To make meet ends I toiled. The third time around it was the core of mysterious: transmigration of soul and Egyptian mysteries revealed. How were the pyramids made? How was the Tajmahal made? How costly is it to buy a litre of milk everyday? How much does it cost to walk on your own? What does it mean to be a freelancer? How costly is a banana or a coconut water glass? Spiders. Cats. Bats. Parrots.

3. The poem had a strange title. It was written by one Kedarnath Aggrawal. The title was: Plum(ber) returning to Moon’s Eclipse. Plum is representative of evil people who are good looking. Lunar eclipse is, well, lunar eclipse. Coconut, as per the same Sanskrit dictum, represents good people. Coconut water under the bicycle tyre? Who are the onycophagists and where do they come from?

4. I thought it was written by her. It was indeed. By HER. But not her her. Ben hurr. Har har har. Spotify.

5. Then comes the book and the fasting and methodical dissolution. Aryan Cat was indeed big. Nonchalant. The overwrite: a rickshaw puller was giving directions to the car driver. It’s my own creation. It’s like updating the database. Virus Database has been updated. Dancing light of grace! Satyam Shivam Sundaram.

6. He was the best student but could never study for a month in the entire year of Corona. She was the best student and studied for about three or four months in the last two and half years. I reach to one conclusion: in the nature versus nurture: nurture has won so far. These two were born with previliges. Rest of my students were not upto the mark. Their parents came from low income strata or lower castes. I know from experience: it’s not a rule but so far I have taught about twenty students and these two were single children of their parents.

7. I read a book by Sudarshan. He’s Khalil Gibran of India who was discovered today.

8. That which has no beginning or end has no middle. The statement comes from IAmThat: by Nisargadatt/Maurice Frydman. This much for in betweens. But the Buddhist system is not for reaching to conclusions which are final. They are merely to create heaps of wisdom. Skandhas. Kartikeya is commander in chief of demigods. Dreams made of wisdom are divine and the boomerang goes back to one who threw it first: what was the name? Narayan. Vaasudev. Shiva. Buddha.

9. Asad was the name of the kid. He asked for the ball yesterday and today again. My tennis ball looks worn out. I need to buy a new one and yet: I can’t afford it until I get money for it. I asked his name and heard him say ‘Hasan.’ Then another boy came on a bike. I told him the same thing. His eyebrows were connected like those of Rohan’s, Shivani’s, Amit’s and mine.

10. I left the field in time. I had poha. I had bowled forty times. Yesterday evening it was eighty times. The new job offer which came via Shivani was cancelled. I had written the details on her notebook and I cancelled it. Fishes in aquarium except one black fish died.

11. My net worth: two hundred rupees. My monthly income: would be forteen hundred rupees : provided Shivani and Rohan’s parents can afford it after the thirty first. People below poverty line income earn about six thousand five hundred rupees per month: which means I am getting less than most poor people. Why? Why am I still in such a poor country? Middle class families give more pocket money than this to their high school kids. I was brought here from Vrindavan to be executed systematically. Who invented zero? Who discovered it.

12. What is North? North is a dimension full of answers. Right is South, left is North. Vaamdev. Vaammarga. Tantra. If you sit with your face towards North: East is right. East is past. If you sit with your face towards East: Right is Right and North is Wrong. So what is right and what is Wrong? If you sit with your face towards West: Amitabh asks: Who created Zero? Void. Then: Right is left. Tantra is right then. Left is South. Right is wrong then. The question arises: in the beginning was the darkness or light or were they both same? In the beginning was the word or the light? What’s North? North is a dimension full of answers.

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A Relevant Verse By Atal Bihari Vajpayee!

Worship of Mother banned!

The verse in Hindi was written by Atal Bihari Vajpayee. It was written when he was taken captive during emergency.

The front of this book has an image in which Indira Gandhi, then prime minister, has been portrayed as incarnation of Parashuram. Parashuram is considered to be incarnation of Vishnu who is God-head.

The book was published in 1977. Modern Printers, 21 Dariyaganj, New Delhi. By Saraswati Vihar.

Image courtesy: Gandhi Smarak Bhavan Chhatarpur Madhya Pradesh.

Another which stood out has to do with ‘tantra’ being more powerful than ‘mantra’. Billboards succeed where mantras fail. Reference to journeys.

I was slightly mollycoddled to publish this by Kabir’s verse enacted by Agni band.

Owing to lack of time I am not able to translate the verse into English at present. My apologies to English readers of this blog.

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Didgeridooit

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UN WFP Free Rice: Help Alleviate Hunger in the Worlds!

I just raised 6000 grains of rice on Freerice! For every answer you get right, 5 grains go to the UN World Food Programme. Play it here: https://freerice.com/apps

1. Vinoba Bhave used to say “Jai Jagat.” Veeru says I also wake up time to time.

2. Tohu verse in the making.

3. King kong Punjab.

4. I walked 7 rounds in stadium.

5. I had a nice time.

6. I reached the Cricket academy within one hour after bath.

7. I played vocabulary quiz on Free Rice website to help augment my vocabulary and also help alleviate hunger in the worlds.

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Monkeys

There were many of them.

1. Monkeys refused to pose for me. Kaal purusha’s yoni is monkey today: I consider it a sign because I didn’t see any of them yesterday. I zoomed out and took the shot. It was near the peppermint processing plant. A dead water snake was lying nearby. It had flies on it.

Can you see the color?

2. The twenty rupees note in the picture above was given in change for the hundred rupees note by the tea stall boy. This is the first such note in my hand. Its color is different. I think about the icon of Gandhi. Since India is more populous than most nations except China: image of Gandhi draws more psychic energy than that of image of Hanumana, Christ or Rama combined together. Almost everyone uses money and every note as a rule has Gandhi on it. 10, 100 and 20 rupees notes have greatest circulation. You should not be surprised to see Modi, Patel or Golwalkar on currency notes very soon.

3. The cement truck has a burst tyre. I hadn’t noticed it until another truck stopped by here and they were talking about it.

Can you see the burst tyre?

4. A kingfisher perched on the main road before it flew back to the electric wire. A nightingale sings.

5. A tohu verse in the making:

Crust rust trust bust stud udder der furor Teutonic cussing singularity ritzy zygote otiose mitotse litotse

Tectonic architectonic tonic ambrosia nick Icarus rustic tic tax toe sticks taxeme nostoc regeme nostrum truncated nose talk nosegay margay grimalkin kith through rough thick thin ninny nyayaverserk krass raspberry.

Altarrastasisaltazimuthompsonneteereelingastronomynahalwalnutterversevereserveracitypicalculustrumurmurodomontadeedeemeediniditihasalutufticklishindiginsengombroonoorunicunningingerlyrealacritympanumbattuesdaylightingeoduckrampikenophobeliskydaddylovesyouchopineptitudeucesspooloopholestrademandsudorifictoonomatopoeiambicarusticklerrevuueulogyratinglongonebydaysnowonoosevensunsahollisticitrusimississipisconematodeaconnockranschulussoiteringulchravineyardaylightiffinishinnuendoodle

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Eyes Wide Open

1. The parrots were feeding on the same ground where I had uprooted carrot grass as my first field exercise two years ago. It drizzled as I was walking and then as I was taking the class. I had a tea and water balls.

2. The black moth is flying. I sometimes think: when I am most experienced, I am poorest. The first one was by birth, second by choice and the third one was because of being prey to optimism. You can’t keep both–the lifestyle of your choice as well as the capacity to buy unless you are an accomplished alchemist.

3. Radha Ashtami. Anuradha constellation transit of Moon. Seven years ago when prasadam was given to me in the temple where I had reached after running away from house(‘house is not the home’ is the name of the chapter which was read today)–i was told that it was birthday of the divine potency which is the governer of bliss. It is considered that nobody enters the divine abode Vrindavan without her permission. I considered it a synchronization as I had no idea about it before I made my mind up for escaping duties, job and marriage. I had to exit from Vrindavan because of the same divine will which had taken me there.

4. The difference between words. I was thinking about the possibility of watching a movie but it seems I have no time. The drilling machine overhead did seem boring and musical at times but I have to manage with the night hounds which come unannounced. Is this what sanity feels like? Crickets are chirping and vehicles are passing by. I hear the flute orchestra. The author who wrote Jaina Darshana–Ratanlal Jain -didn’t impress me least bit. The forgetfulness is a flurry of ideas for sure and each identity takes some energy but the sense of it all being dependent on ‘existence’ never goes away. Between an adept who has gained mastery over death and one who is seeking: countless number of hours of work is put from the seeker’s viewpoint, who is in the temporal realm shaping a world of his own, one among infinite number of possibilities whereas the adept is beyond time, only immersed in itself timelessly and formlessly. Formulae might be useful but knowledge as a whole is synonymous with reality, with perfection and can’t be contained. I recall her eyes in the last class when I let her go and I knew it right from the first moment I saw her, but the eyes that constantly watch me never let me go.

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Rastafarian birds!

There are few words. A few birds frolicking. There were eight crows on the way. The clouds are foggy but enough to obstruct the path of the Sun. Breeze is soothing. A couple of geese flying over the pond. . The white birds came here for food. The day was spent counting the spitters. What you reinforced became magical calculadora fedora oral omnibus busted stead. The man and the woman that lived in the house were both researchers of the supernatural.

The girl who has her left hand bandaged was playing with a cart just a few days ago. As I was sitting besides the puncture shop , couple of men on tractor asked me if I repaired punctures. I told them that the mechanic was in his village in Bihar and next shop was a few metres away. Buffaloes, crows on their back and a few cows. The lady with water box on her head walks cautiously.

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Diversion,

Inversion ions noise,

Cenotaphs aversion,

Ad version, fed version,

Version XYZ,

Gee gemmatria trialsome sommelier,

Which veanjmarse is on?

Which verse will do?

Any mad version.

Anima mania

Animadversion

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Justice

Justice!

Just ice,

Very nice,

Roll the dice,

Play the role,

Reach the goal,

The hole,

Play the word,

Lay the cards,

On table,

Cable car,

Carmine minecraft,

Able stable,

Rabble roused.

Coal doused.