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The Moon Shines!

1. It’s 17:35 when I sat writing this note after having bowled forty times. It makes ninety balls today. Moderation has kept my knees from not hurting as much as they were.

2. I had a nice nap this noon despite the Bundelkhandi hammers.

3. PWD people are doing something in the middle of the ground. There are at least ninety four wheelers and many two wheelers inside the ground but not as many people: this space is being used like parking lot as it’s a Friday market. As I entered the ground I felt like i was entering a bus stand.

4. It’s the full Moon of Bhagvata fame. Nectar fame. Autumn being most truthful of seasons and most beautiful: tells about the ambrosia which confers freedom from aging, decay and death. Vallalar was born on the full Moon day in 1823. Kripaluji was born on full Moon day in the twentieth century : but they were both born on this day and on the fifth of October. Vallalar declared victory over death, decay, aging and slavery. After composing his final 101 verses as an offering to Natarajan: vast effulgence of Grace: which was synonymous with his own being, he disappeared leaving a fragrance of camphor in Siddhivalagam. It’s accepted as a historical fact. Kripaluji didn’t reach those heights but he had an impeccable learning and a memory which made him able to spontaneously quote from scriptures as he delivered sermons. I saw his body becoming white pure light when I was in Vrindavan. He died in mysterious circumstances at an age of 95. I went to attend the buffet after his death ceremony. Prem Mandir.

5.

Sharad Purnima, 2020

6. Ashvini Kumaras bearers of nectar, incarnations of godhead are presiding deities who heal. Twins also represent Gemini and Narayana who along with Nara has been worshipped as primordial sage or ultimate destiny of mankind. Ketu rules the asterism. Jupiter, Venus and Saturn ruled the day. Vajra sceptre Yoga. Jupiter retrograde Atmakaraka.

7. The B.Ed. exams are also being conducted here. Couple of people asked me for directions.

8. I should play a jam or two for mosquitoes are harassing me!

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Notes from the distractions!

1. He was one of the genuine trolls belonging to the league who somehow became inimical to me for no reason: as much as to write verses which described hellfire. It was a long ago. Hackers. Blackmailing kabbalistic league.

2. I hardly have energy left for any recording. Hero has his nameplate and company pasted on his bike.

3. Ashutosh Thakur was back with same story. No variation. I was obliged to take him to the librarian.

4. For this guy interpreted Quaran to mean to ‘read,’ : eyes are placed above ears in head: only one book: But what about the grace on top of the skull: then all organs are blissful gateways to eternity. Void upon void.

5. I was assembling books in Vrindavan where I tried to create a library for everyone’s advantage. It clearly meant that I was reading even before trolls and company started complaining about reading.

6. And among other things: he wrote a post about disputed lands. Every peace of land here is disputed: which whore bought which one is immaterial to me beyond a means of everyday behaviour.

7. Gandhi Smarak Bhavan has at least four chains of commands: they all finally merge into Congress party.

8. One chain is that of Harijana Sevak Sangh. They looked down upon me more than bramhins looked down upon Harijana in the history of mankind. Ambedkar would have cried looking at them and Gandhi as well. All of them are opportunists.

9. Other chain is that of municipal corporation: Harijana Sevak Sangh plus Satyashodhan is associated with it as they all come under it. For a long time: the librarian kept feeding me with worries about them using the complex as parking space for their vehicles. Now: there’s no conflict between those two.

10. The naturopathy group is small and at odds with the trust it seems but internally they are all one. My only objective was to read books and then I was given the task of bookkeeping by the librarian. It was a volunteer activity without any payment. Whatever tuitions I have been allowed to take created mostly enough energy to keep me on the ventilator : never enough.

11. Thus: with four or five chains of command: plus there being a hidden, unspoken sphere of socio-political activities in which clairvoyants, shamans, tantrikis as well as farmers and aboriginal people work together: the centre is constant flux.

12. I scored well on jams. Why are these people agitated? I played three in morning.

13. I had a nice sleeping session in the afternoon before I woke up. I was late to stadium. I bowled only ten times with a new Mark ball bought from Chetan Sports and Science gallery.

14. Imitating must be the best of compliment. I found a couple mocking me by imitating my subroutine.

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Books

1. I had momos worth ten rupees. They were not as good as momos in the Dussehra fair because they were not as fried or crisp because they were prepared on a quick order. I would have preferred Mahajana’s water balls as I needed to re-enter the stadium.

2. I don’t want my prediction to be true: it’s merely based on patterns so far: after elections are over: Corona is used as an excuse for another lockdown. Feel good is related to exercise. The art of winning elections is making people feel entertained at the times of elections. I voted but once and it was for Hema Malini: it was in Vrindavan under pressure of Mahanta of Jagannath Ghat who was a goon converted into Mahanta. He used to insult and beat people in his ashrama on a regular basis and took their labours for free himself enjoying luxury. Unless I voted : he would have ensured that my stay over there was difficult and I was not able to stay in Vrindavan under romantic adventurous devotional melodramatic guise. That’s what he did after a few months when I had decided to go to another Ashrama after getting initiated from another master.

3. The pleasure has a limit and its opposite. It’s always at someone’s cost that someone else feels pleasure. Call it sacrifice, call it cooperation or anything else. It’s the Truth. Peace or bliss beyond duality doesn’t let the body fall unless you’re in a heaven wherefrom you don’t fall ever again. So far I haven’t been to any such.

4. The causal layer needs digging. Some call it darkness, some others call it enlightenment. It’s a point or a layer or a wall or a television or a background where knowledge and ignorance lose meaning. It’s the free fall. It’s where you lose gravity. It’s the field where wrongdoing and rightdoing lose meaning.

5. The reason why Hindu texts like Bhagvata disparage the understanding of space and enlightenment is: archons being all powerful get worshipped via channels which are religions and genuine: like humanity. The fear, sex, desire, ambition, music and countless modes keep you under one belief or other.

6. I verily say it: if the way of fog accompanied with my study conferred understanding of Buddhism and astral travel along with Hindu counterpart of the same upon me: there’s no reason why I should consider it to be a path where you are stuck with titans, goblins, ghouls and demons. Unless: I never lived among gods. Then: I never have anything to compare with this life other than the variations in past. And yet: I have a firm understanding of death, life and inbetween.

7. The cause why police ground and college grounds are associated is obvious: athletes come from only those two arenas in a civil area. Someone like me who did play a lot in childhood but had most of the family members in the business of prostitution are not likely to stay in shape for long. Police line door is kept open for long. Police and military are given charge of the city and martial law : draconid meteor shower.

8. I had a difficult time coming to terms with this: while I had no difficulty with Corona: as I had lived better than most of my life during this period: I wondered why they would keep stadium closed. The answer is in ninth.

9. Family. The depression strikes hard when all Sanghi attack you together. The poem in 2017 had title Sangha for Buddhistic communes but it was interpreted to be BJP Sangha. The original three point program was to give refuge to practitioners. This new Sangha like Raju Shrivastav comedy only took you to a corner and beat you up good. Spied on your smartphone after taking your thumb and eye prints in the name of national security. I stopped writing and reading and could never forget how PMO girl was involved in it.

10. The causal body is merely uncovering of your hidden connections based on memory. Why all avatars of Vishnu sleep on a mystical serpent named Ananta? It’s also called Shesha or remnant. It’s memory which always remains. It’s not in your body or mind. It’s outside and inside and everywhere. It’s where you sleep: in memories. When Ramana says: sleep is Pragya : the third state: it’s actually a sage sleeping on remnant memories.

11. Turiya or Turiyateeta are one when you become fearless enough to burn one and every book of knowledge if need arises. Why archons prohibit the way of mist: why it has remained a mystery and true dimension of healing? Because it’s where treasure of knowledge is hidden. It’s where dark controllers live. Who torture you with 440 volts if you don’t comply. Hence Buddhas return to balance after penance.

12. If you know that 4 hours, 4 days or 40 days are same: why would you imitate passion or fasting of Christ, Buddha, Gandhi or anyone else? It’s the understanding of time which liberates by grace.

13. I never met anyone who was searching for liberation like me. I only read about them in books. I found it…then I found freedom from death by all accounts. I think there’s not just one death or one void or one time as far as the knowledge body goes. That’s why Gorakhnath and others talked about many voids.

14. It’s not about creating positive memories as law of attraction would let you believe: instincts go deeper than that. The whole body of gnosis must have all memories and all their possible variations if one were to understand truly the subject of mastery over death and life.

15. For example: madman, dancer or Natarajan is formless vast effulgence of Grace also known as Vishnu or Narayana or Vaasudev by Vaishnavas. The consistent coding or programs to embed them in your psyche is to protect you from threats of inbetween where you are left in space which fills you with negativity or ultimate pain of swoon.

16. The selftalk is usually considered to be lack of socialization. Psychopath and sociopath. But it’s only refuge for those who know the reality of costly heavens. You create stories and live in them: that’s the only way to survive when you are against all odds. That gives you immense respect and compassion towards all beings.

17. To be honest: to gain perfect and most compassionate understanding of all states: that of a king, a ruler, a priest, a worker, a poor man, a beggar, an ill man, a dog or a slave, a wise sage, a girl, a boy, a neuter and a ghost, an alien etcetera : you need to experience all of them one by one. You also need to be stones, trees, walls and machines: then and only then you can say: I have a perfect understanding of all karmic webs. Then they don’t bind you. But it means something impossible. You can’t repeat your emotional mood of morning in evening. As soon as you are fed you forget the hunger: though repeated hunger or fasting only makes you aware of pangs of all life forms: making you moderate. All such coding in the causal layer is result of countless number of learning patterns.

18. A fool is one who repeats same mistake twice. I think whoever said that was a fool himself. Bring me any great person whose biography is available and I would show you him or her repeatedly doing same things until life threatening forces are used against them in various aspects. Thus : fundamentals are expressed well in philosophy but you need too many repetitions to master them : in different scenarios different lessons emerge. In a way it’s never the same mistake since you never bath in the same river or spacetime continuum again: you keep listening and learning from different mistakes.

19. 1.Three modes of nature: truth or harmony. Passion or energy. Inertia or darkness.

2. The father, the son and the holy ghost.

3. The satchitananda: truth. knowledge. bliss.

4. Bramha. The creator. Vishnu the preserver. The Mahesh: dissolver or terminator.

5. Aleph. Meme. Shin.

6. Triplets: why do you have this system? It’s because of mapping onto three dimensional structure: length, breadth and height or depth.

7. Truth body. Emanation body. Bliss body.

8. There are unifying and analyzing agents and languages creating creative or destructive versions of religions. Destructive versions ultimately merge into dissolving: chaos becoming intelligence.

9. Islam. Buddhism. Judaism. Christianity. Hinduism. Jainism are all book based religions along with Sikhism. The book might be in form of cloud Atlas or a tattoo or a microchip or binary one zero one zero…

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An Appeal!

1. It’s an appeal to myself.

2. When I become able to relate or understand the nature of this problem.

3. I should come back to read it here or in the causal body. Or via Akashic records and resolve it for all who have it.

4. Why do I need to switch between Vocabulary.com and Free Rice?

5. Since I had no means to save money or get a good source of employment despite my multiple efforts : earnest seeking in the last three to four years: I found the Free Rice to be the only open source, noncommunal and secular source where I may learn many languages or subjects and also donate some rice via sponsors.

6. I felt embarrassment once: opening an advertisement page was needed. I gave up on that too. Then: it dawned on me: so many psychics, Russian Mafia, local mafia and such along with thought police were after me. Whatever I wrote was circulated irrespective of statistics shown. This confirmed that : at least those people, if they’re really for righteousness and for life: they will ensure that for every such effort by me many reasonable and not miraculous efforts are done to alleviate hunger of others. It ensures that even if I beg for food: I would deserve that as long as I have given some of my time for charity for a long time systematically.

7. Databases of Vocabulary.com and Free Rice are limited. You tend to get bored. You need revision because you also forget words but they can’t keep up with most contestants. My correspondence with Vocabulary.com wasn’t very productive. They do have agenda. Both of the sites are run by most powerful groups on planet.

8. I merely wanted them to tie up. If they became one website or the vocabulary.com started donating say rice or wheat or books for kids: I would not need to play on both of them and switch over.

9. I understand: the way I put suggestions do seem naive and when you go into details you might find that two sites might have very different objectives in mind(education of two types? Duh, education can be of countless types.) I haven’t come across better initiatives where you don’t need PAN card, bank account, driving licence and so on to be charitable and you also learn new words.

10. I thank Jhonson O’ Connors of Generic Electrical for publishing annotated bibliography highlighting the verbal advantage which didn’t happen for me his family and son own Wordsmart Challenge. I got zero success with good vocabulary in my country. My rights were revoked and possessions seized. I really don’t know why. You may reckon by reading this article.

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A Story Worth Reading !

1. Though it rarely happens: one of my employers paid me in full when I asked for only an advance. The student is going to take a leave for about one month. Her behaviour has been strange but I can understand. I bought an earphone worth fifty rupees from a shop I used to buy earphones from about four years ago. Since I am wealthy( after paying three hundred back to Vandana I would still be left with more than one hundred rupees!) I only have eight hundred more rupees left as a payment towards the services delivered to the second employer. Constantly changing world and employment. Scarcity of work or complete slavery were options. I chose the first one and feel free.

2. I played four jams this morning: rankings: 1112. Unless Stephen had come: I would have scored first rank in all four. I enjoyed bowling ten overs. Samose. Samose and kachori are getting costlier but we are paid one fifty or three hundred rupees per tuition and work is scarce to come. What happened to economy and opportunity?

Party with religious groups: like I did last night: except popcorns and momos everything was for free: I reckon:

Ramleela –Live ticket in an open theatre worth 1000 rupees per person.

Air: invaluable.

Water: invaluable.

Harmony and security: invaluable: though some younger people were suspicious of me. And you know why! I was confident because I have been visiting stadium for about two months: doing what is supposed be proper behaviour over there: sports and recreation.

Personally: my net worth is almost zero. The last good movie I watched in the Anurag City Centre had merely four members in theatre and another had a hall full but I was supposed to create rains instead of watching the movie.

3. How many threads do I need to join to create an event worth narrating? Maybe three or four. It depends on authors. I consider it kabbalistic you call it divine. I saw another Kingfisher and a nightingale as I was exiting out of the stadium. The thread of story begins in the point four.

4. Vaibhav Choubey Galla Mandi had the Einstein quote “Imagination is more powerful than knowledge,” striked out on his t-shirt. It means: Einstein was wrong. It means: the world is real. It means: knowledge is more powerful than imagination. Vaibhav was standing near the police line entrance to stadium. It was Eastern entrance. Satyam was with me. My heart had stopped working. My head was exploding with pain. I showed him and he accepted: my heart had stopped.

5. I was ordering popcorn pack. The policeman whom I had been observing on a regular basis ordered the man counting the gutka pouches which he laid on popcorn pouches. It might mean anything: that eating popcorn is akin to eating gutka: with a difference that popcorns don’t spoil walls or teeth. You don’t need to spit. You can prove anything provided you have the power.

6. Today morning the autorickshaw man gave money to the puncture shop owner. I recalled how Vaibhav had asked for another five rupees after having taken twenty rupees in two days. I had refused. The puncture shop owner made a remark about darkness. My blog was read by someone and message conveyed. He does read newspaper but I don’t know if he reads my blog too. My comment had a foundation of Hinduism which regards the Sun’s southern movement as creating smaller days and bigger nights. Darkness increases: festivals let you relax but you don’t understand the full import of them. My attention was taken to gutka pouches: he wasn’t selling them before. Vaibhav was actually in a fair. Playful and enjoying as much as I was when I ordered popcorn. Or similar. There’s no way to match.

7. Four days. Four threads. Saarthak. Autowallah. Meaningful: the name of the lady who wanted to mount a water bottle for her son. When I was letting her son play she needed to make a superficial acquaintance. Now they are five threads. I don’t know who really reads these but unless some delusion struck me: the policeman, the puncture shop owner and some others will get to know of five threads. Beneficence. This is the art being created with hardwork. The policeman, the gutka counter, the puncture shop owner, Vaibhav who first requested me to come to academy, his grandmother, etc were all in it: probably to make me prepared to get married to a fat girl. If it was a way to civilize me: you see how well it works. It’s red pill.

8. The library and the other parts of Gandhi Smarak Bhavan have whisky or wine or brandy bottles. They might be part of an exhibition or act like those steps on North West pavilion which had condom pouches a few days ago or maybe they were drinking and wanted me to know that being farmers they need to drink to relax. It’s fine with me for I lived with flatmates who used to drink. I knew that those who worked in Deshaj Gaushala and field needed to drink. Gandhi or Tolstoy might also have drunk one way or another.

9. All the characters come from real life or this dream. And events are woven. It took energy to do that and gradual patterns. Police, repairing people, editors, press, psychonauts and hackers. If I rate this: it’s one of my best stories with morale: balance.

10. I utilized library time for writing because I was expecting my student to visit as she said over the call. But she didn’t. Online classes are random in nature. I would have been left with no energy or willingness to write if I wrote in noon. I am sure : this story will be read at least by one person and appreciated.

Courtesy: police department. Cricket academy. Vaibhav Choubey Galla Mandi. WordPress. Win Wenger PhD. S. S. Khare. Bob Dylan. Devika Mathur. Sister Haycinth. Kabbalists. Saarthak’s mother. Mohandas Karamchand Gandhi. Wine Shops. Ramlila committee. Baburam Chaturvedi. Shrinivas Shukla. Chhatrasal. Saint Rajinder Singh. Kabir. Nanak. Secret Russian Mafia Police. Vladimir Putin. Rajasthani Red Light Workers. Vaasudev Krishna Yadav. Akshay Kumar.

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The Matchmakers!

1. A bike with a triangle shape on its headlight cover and Vigyaan (Science) written in Devnagari script stops near the superstore. The previous script has to be completed: is he joining our group or not? The barbershop decides: whether I left the tuft on my head or not. Are we joking? My net worth is one thousand rupees per month. My caretakers brought me here from Vrindavan and never gave me any pocket money despite taking my services directly or indirectly. Am I joining the group. Who are we kidding? The barber was an expert. I can assure you: he has improved as an artisan too. The sacrifice for departing goddess had the priest who was chanting inaudible verses. Swaha! Swa stands for Self. Aha being the last vowel in Devnagari script: means: Rest in Self. Rest in peace. Die. Sacrifice self for Self. Ushma color.

2. I enjoyed teaching English. It was a Grammar test. Since the first batch didn’t happen: I had enough energy to teach in morning hours. I walked six rounds before I enjoyed samose by Asatiji and Pohe by Kushwahaji.

3. Bowling practice was easy because I reached in time. I bowled sixty times. Ten overs. Though I couldn’t sleep well last night. Tried watching a movie. Binaural beats are embedded with hypnosis and advertising. There’s overt hypnosis and hidden hypnosis.

4. Stadium has been cleansed thrice in the last three days. It’s after two months. It’s probably because of festivals: Dussehra and Diwali. I reckon: placing those rabbit shaped dustbins inside stadium with “Use Me” needs regular sweeping as happens for roads. Municipal corporation doesn’t have enough people and they won’t hire. The freelancers who are paid pennies like I am: are promised Diwali bonus and so on.

5. There are indian people living abroad: especially in Europe. They might miss gutka spitters and might be afraid of Mafia : but there’s nothing worse than being sandwiched between local and universal. The question arises: why fifty fifty. Why not the whole Truth? In the most severe of lockdowns I survived and thrived. In the normal: people mocked me when I didn’t care for work and denied me employment when I earnestly sought it. It’s indeed a strange society. The old and the new. They coexist. M. Night Shyamlan’s ‘The Village’ highlights it very well.

6. The Seventh Horse of the Sun. Shilajeet. Labourers. Pashupatinath. Narayan. And David Lynch. Dark City indeed! Very Dark. The Sun goes South. South is Right. If you face West it’s left. Dimensions.

7. After the greatest success of mummy papa United productions came bhaiya bhabhi United productions. Now comes: ……onus in on bonus. I am free.

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Charvaka: Yavat Jeevet Sukham Jeevet!

1. Despite being tired I write this.

2. I write this only and only because it’s the purest and most authentic of my body of Gnosis. It’s what remains when everyone around has abandoned me. It has revived me: time and again. Ideas with a stamp of actual experience: free from indoctrination.

3. I borrowed another hundred rupees note from Vandana with a promise to return the money by the first of November when I receive payment from my patrons: four fifty rupees.

4. I also took an advance payment of two hundred rupees from the secretary: my other employer. She looks at it not like a loan because she gives it to many employees working under her. Here I have witnessed Mahajani forever and I could understand true import of Time only in the year 2020. The events worth all previous years combined together happened in this year. This isn’t to make me feel happy about how much my knowledge body or chitta or experience has increased : but to underline that despite UG and others: there’s some solid foundation on which various departments of knowledge or experience are based. This is the language of a believer who has the power to negate everything.

5. Bhagvata Purana as well as Hindu scriptures are nothing but formulae to protect mind. If I had a teacher like myself: I would have been given free access to library I visit now. Saatvat Tantra versus Shaiva Tantra are practical ways to survive in the world. People here could never accept me or my way of living: which is fine: everyday you see countless gutka shakers coloring walls: though they worship goddess of opulence who loves cleanliness.

6. Chanting one name gives one pointedness : but to be able to maintain the environment: where you practice: you need to espouse diversity. This needs stories and fables which are carved in the shape of environmental prototypes.

7. When the horse which is to be sacrificed in the Ashvamedh of Vedic bramhins listens its praises: in forms of various hymns: it thinks : they are for me. Then comes the invisible owner of the horse. It’s Arabic. Gulzar has summed it up in Lakdi ki Kathi…

8. The Hayagriva is appreciated as avatara in one canto of Bhagvata and criticized as the thief who stole Vedas from Bramha in another.

9. I was reading Jainism’s Philosophy: as far as ‘hope’ is considered: it’s the most optimistic of philosophies: it says : you are a soul which can attain perfect enlightenment. Samkhya and Yoga are similar with Jnana and Opulences being countless and ever incremental. Buddhism was one step ahead: it took a stop at enlightenment which was known as Arhat and told about dependent arising: denying soul as well as supersoul. Empty souls or elementals or tanha are Wandering Souls in purgatory or inbetween schemes in Buddhism and Christianity.

10. The book clearly tells: the Vedic bramhins didn’t have complete understanding of transmigration of soul until they borrowed it from Buddhism during Upanishads era. Hinduism being inclusive : included Buddha as an avatar of Vishnu and made it look like it was always so.

11. Ambrosia. Light. Rudra Granthi. Vishnu Granthi. Bramha Granthi. Vishwaroopam of Geeta: are all my first hand experiences supported by books. Logos or the word brought light and counting or Kabbalah taught me to survive.

12. World bank, USA, India : they are all in loan. Even the goddess of wealth might be in loan. I am free. I owe nothing to nobody. It’s a FACT to the best of my knowledge.

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Commitments

1. I scored 112451 ranks in six jams on Vocabulary.com.

2. Most of my commitments to coach students were so short-lived that i could barely introduce them to techniques which might help them master English vocabulary. Why is it so? Most of them drift away. Most of them don’t have enough resources. Most of their communities come to teach me instead of learning from me. They pretend as if they want to learn English but mostly they are about hearsay and moral chastisement. Imagine taking character certificate from sons and daughters of Satan : repeatedly until the end of times. It’s Sisyphean task.

3. I had a nice time practicing bowling in the evening session. I bowled 65 times, took couple of pictures and watched others play. I also heard some quality music. The attestation to having divorced the Mula constellation: even if it’s only partially: is to be able to create events without getting bored. Mula born get bored very easily. 2020 was the year when I mastered boredom and also grasped some nuances of transmigration of soul as per Buddhism and Hinduism. Egyptian mysteries elude.

4. if it says anywhere that some souls burn in hell fire forever: I have read Quran but I only found: Aleph, Liam, meme and shin in it. I had only this much to say and I said this to a muslim teacher and scholar as well: What about those who are already in hell? Who suffers? Is it not the Allah? Then : there must be another agency: discover that agency which is present in both heaven, hell as well as in inbetween. Moreover: Muhammad himself would have known what it’s like to recall previous painful memories when revelations happen: if he was never completely free from the pain they created for him how could he have laid down laws in stone: like Moses and others? It was like writing in prison where no free will exists whatsoever.

5. Purgatory and then back to Earth, Heaven and so on are better concepts. I don’t see various religions as more than vying for spacetime and energy in their domains. Vikram, Hizri, Christian and other eras: all memories of great wars and further wars: era of Donald Bradman, Kapil Dev, Tendulkar, Gandhi, Pele, Modi and Trump. Everyone fighting for the bigger piece of bread. Basically: animal kingdom shown as religious kingdom. Conditions given in Purana for attaining Godhead are so difficult that most human beings have no salvation. Has singularity been reached: are actually machines in charge here? What about Steven Greer’s Disclosure? Where are Sirius, Orion and other civilization beings? Will police and military be back to stadium and streets which are already overpopulated and overcrowded? I don’t have any answer.

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Rocky!

1. I feel lazy. Lazy people can afford to be lazy. I spent some time editing the previous article’s typos. Weather is pleasant once again. I bowled ten overs. It’s the latest version of bowling practice:

A. If the spot is empty: begin practice.

B. Choose a spot where ball has least probability of getting lost.

C. If others come to practice batting: politely refuse: they will neither care for ball getting lost nor pay you money if your ball is lost. You also need to run all over the place to collect the ball.

D. If they want you to help them practice with their ball: it’s fine: then you only get to burn energy and gain skill as well as cooperation.

E. The last ball I lost: it was a hard earned treasure. Some kids kept asking me to give it to them. Then: I chose a place which has a swimming pool just behind the pavilion with bushes and algae.

F. Saying ‘no’ is better than borrowing money from people to buy balls.

G. Watch and learn: don’t rely on promises made by boys or damsels: though they look attractive: most often they fail to fulfill. If you want to survive: you need the ball. Nothing better than it to bring the play online in focus. Then you need to protect it like a hard earned treasure.

H. Needless to say: if I had extra balls or money I would have given it to begging kids today or to those who were begging to get money. But: if I begin doing this: the question arises: who is genuine and who is merely hoarding balls at his or her house.

I. I saw a young girl leading the way on running track for her four or five siblings. It might be one of the most beautiful things I have seen. Yet: some kids looked malnutritioned. It’s a fact.

J. I saw “Neev-Shila” by Shri Shrinivas Shukla, M.A., L.L.B. of Chhatarpur in library today. I read some verses. The central pavilion has been named after him. The track where I practice was inaugurated by Digvijay Singh. The stadium is known as Baburam Chaturvedi Stadium. One entrance also had name of Swami Pranavananda engraved on it. History is written by conquerers: Modi is on mission Bengal. Let’s see who performs better over there. It would be as interesting as Trump’s mission in USA.

K. Rocky.

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146274

1. The title means : I received first, fourth, sixth, second, seventh and fourth ranks in the vocabulary jams I played on vocabulary.com after my bowling practice. Some games had as many as ninety players and most of them had forty to seventy players on an average. My reaction time is not as good as it should be, still, being in the top five on an average means I am doing better than most. Accuracy can be improved at the cost of reaction time. To maintain both needs constant practice. I have limited time to do that. When I was in dire need of smartphone I could not practice. Now I need to toil to get internet recharge vouchers. It’s what it’s.

2. A total of 130 balls today. It’s more than twenty one overs. The bunch of kids did this:

They came together: one of them called another bald. Then the third one slapped the one who did that. It was as soon as I looked at him with wonder. Who are these people, where do they come from? (Arshad Warsi, Jolly LLB, the dialogue was repeated ad nauseum when movie was to be released on some TV channel)

They were kids in sixth or seventh class mostly. What is the difference between mockery done by elders and them?

In case of elders: a guy who has gray hairs will be called names by another without shame. It’s directed at the person who is being made fun of: so that there remains no logical error. It takes plenty of effort, jealousy, hatred and guts. But it’s a regular business for some people. Byaj Ninda or Byaj Stuti is the format name given to such devices in Hindi literature.

I have also come across some naive people who mocked me without having sound logical foundation. It was happening in the group Gaslight phase. It worked until you were watching. As soon as you looked at them: their logical fallacy was caught and they were suspended in embarrassment.

Fake problems like diseases: Corona and AIDS. Police and shamans working hand in hand with priests to subdue independent individuals is the worst form of nightmare you can see. Municipal corporation walls being dirtiest. All gutka shakers uniting to protect some weird wicker men Dharma.

I have shown you three levels of gaslighting. If children enjoy it: so do elders. It’s all about numbers. My demeanor changes when I walk with four people. When I am alone: I am most real. The other might be hell as per Sartre or Da Vinci or illusion as per vedantins or your own mind’s production as per Samkhya or Yoga tradition; you do need a way to behave with others. Call it a strategy or call it civility or religion. It’s what makes history of mankind.

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Events Horizon!

1. Ashutosh Thakur, son of upper collector, Tikamgarh is jobless. He did B. Lib. and M. Lib. from Hari Singh Gaur University Sagar. It was in 2016. Since then he applied to many colleges in Chhatarpur and Nowgong but only met rejection everywhere. He works at a cyber cafe with a meagre income of three hundred rupees per month. His body didn’t show any signs of hardwork done physically. His eyes had dark circles and complexion was fair with enough hair on head and bushy eyebrows. It took me a few minutes to understand his need after he entered into library. Most libraries told him

“two librarians aren’t needed.” I thought he came to join library as a member and told him the procedure as well as fees.

2. Devendra came to say hello, disappeared and later appeared only to make me refuse invitation to his theatrical production of Vijay Tendulkar’s play :

“Jaat Hi Poochho Saadhu Ki.”

The title is contrary to Kabir’s popular saying. It seems to be a critique of social esteem given to monks and hierarchies. Devendra also teaches dance classes but there are no classes at present. I can’t afford to be among theatre people.

3. I was looking for the news in today’s newspaper. A murder. Piyush talked about it yesterday evening but it didn’t happen. It wasn’t reported.

4. The Haigo girl told me in advance that she won’t take classes after this month. It’s a blessing. She asked me to wait until the thirty first before, but now it’s evident. I felt a bit down for a while but then consolidated my strength as I have nothing to lose.

5. I borrowed a hundred rupees from Vandana and told her that I would give them back by the first of November. The secretary also said that I would get an advance if needed.

6. There are as many tutors as students. I hardly get any jobs. The only positive this morning was the bowling session: I bowled ten overs and played four to five jams where I scored top ranks.

7. I read a few passages from Nehru’s Discovery of India. It’s clear that his account of Kapil doesn’t match with Geetapress Gorakhpur’s version.

8. The madman who stays near Brijpura met me near Anjana Doodh Dairy. I asked him why he came so far. He told me it was for buying clothes: in his symbolic language. A cow was thirsty. I exercised my left arm a bit and tried to control myself by eating less than what is usual these days.

9. Vidyasagar Nautiyal, son of Narayan and Ratna was born near Tehri. His story “Maatiwaali” was read by my student. I could only focus on snippets. The refrain was:

” Is hunger sweeter or the food?”

I explained the class struggle in the poem. I told her about the dependent arising of sweetness. It’s dependent on meeting of hunger with food. Independently they have no sweetness. Sanskrit is a creative language whereas Hindi is an analytical language. Hinduism is an inclusive religion, Buddhism is an analytical philosophy. Jainism honoured classes in society and became almost integral with Hinduism which only objected perfect nonviolence. Buddhism couldn’t. Some ideas were inspired by Nehru’s comparison between Buddhism and Jainism.

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The African Version.

1. Lost the ball to the bushes. It was the ball Asad and Hasan needed. Or was it Ovaish? It was the ball I tried to look for in the bushes after jumping over another door which was already open. Chetan Sports And Science Gallery was open when I returned from library but not in morning. I had to imagine a ball in my hand and do a kind of pantomime until I realized it was easier to throw stones: to be a running catapult bowler. Mark Signature. Budget.

2. A doctor cum badminton player had forgotten his mobile phone on his bike and asked me to dial his phone number. It was easily found but it did seem suspicious. Later on poha shop a mafia guy was paying weekly fees to a certain Maharaj while a police jeep was standing besides it: akin to truck which let black smog on my face when I was standing under the neem tree. The flashing of Sun on another vehicle’s body was also a reminder of the day that Big Boss tshirt guy came asking the road to Cancer hospital in Kishanganj or was it Bijawar?

3. I bowled fifty times. Despite having wasted my time to search for it in the bushes. I learned to publish again on Blogger’s World but the title of the post needs to be figured out.

4. I had a nice time reading in the library: the story of a rabbit and a tortoise you have heard. I had also heard it: it taught patience. Now: about the African version: tortoise is impatient. It has too many identical pairs who hide in places. As race begins: the hare runs fast without taking any break and yet finds a tortoise he had left behind, reaching to the finishing line faster than him. The winner tells him: you took a nap didn’t you? He says: no, I didn’t. Then the winner says: you were hypnotized when you reached under the neem tree. You woke up three hours later but felt as if it was just a blink of an eye. The rabbit was speechless.