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Ram and Devkunwar!

1. Ram interjects unnecessarily in a conversation. I know it’s all planned and yet so very out of place or decorum. The lady sometimes says: it’s your money and at others: why so soon. Did i ask for more than what was agreed upon? Why then does a person need to meddle into our affairs?

2. What’s in a name? Devkunwar means divine virgin or Mary. In the last week of November, just when Shri was about to leave for Vardha, her son Aakash: he knew somehow and did a prank call. He said he wanted to take tuitions again and he was willing to pay the fees as per my quotation. The guy neither appeared nor informed that he won’t. Here I am wasting my time and energy to inform everyone about how pleasant her laughter was as she stood there filtering the chafe from the wheat grains. Very divine indeed.

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Roustabout!

1. I had a 15 minutes session on Data Science with Vaibhav who represents Business Toys. Vaibhav hails from Satara, Maharashtra. The session was for free from the firm.

2. He is currently located in Yeshwanthpur, Bangalore (Bengaluru.)

3. Data Science course would need 79999 rupees including GST. And a laptop or computer. Six months of one to one and half hours sessions would enable you to become a Business Analyst if you’re competitive enough.

4. Data Science has Machine learning and Deep learning.

5. Machine learning part needs knowledge of SQL, Python.

6. Deep learning platform is KERAS. It’s similar to Alexa by Amazon.

7. Foundation of machine learning is data recognition or pattern recognition. It’s extrapolated into descriptive analysis in deep learning via tensor imaging. The data has to be converted into visual models which can easily give information to businesses.

8. Why am I interested in Data Science? Because I am curious. Curiouser and curiouser.

9. Data is information. I asked him if it can be called energy. Switching from Computer Science to Physics.

10. His tone was moderate and he seemed like a good interlocutor.

11. This post might come across as an advertisement for Business Toys but it’s for my comprehension and to provide basic info to anyone interested.

12. Thanks Vaibhav and rest of the team!

A Tohu verse to celebrate the session:

Roustabout roundabout

Bout out of box

Index out of bound

Redound rebound

Underdogs will shine

Like vast effulgence of Grace!

Tacit jacitation

Chitta Ranjan January February

Clam round lambda unbound.

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Morning Bowling Session!

1. Purva Phalguni quarter four is ruled by Mars. It’s a Tuesday. Venus rules Purva Phalguni which falls in Leo constellation. By this evening Moon will enter Virgo. Moon has exceeded degrees of Mars and by evening it will exceed degrees achieved by Venus, becoming Atmakaraka for a while before it enters house of Mary.

2. I saw many pigeons as I bowled in Shatabdi. I was late. I saw 14 Chepla birds going South. They indicate a cycle. I saw an army personnel on a bicycle in green pagdi going towards Chhatrasal Carrefour as I was entering academy. I bought a black mask worth twenty rupees. A wire was lying broken outside the old Gyandeep stationery.

3. Shiva came to drop Rukman. She’s now an aspirant for MBA. She wanted to become an anchor and a pilot. She had a brief stint at MMHS as a teacher. She says she finds preparation for MBA to be easier now than what it seemed before. Now they have more colleges and more options. Richa Gupta cracked it easily. I used to teach her words using Michael Quinion’s World Wide Words. Of all the students I have taught vocabulary to: Richa was smartest. She was deep and in the induction she used words to mean that people shouldn’t treat other people as objects. She didn’t know that it becomes absolutely necessary to do so in some walks of life. She had a Virgo Moon and Scorpio ascendant and she was my first friend on Facebook. In fact she invited me to join Facebook. Her husband also has a Virgo ascendant with Virgo Moon. They’re rich people.

4. Dhruv is now working out with Yash. It’s good that they’re working out even before they reached college. I worked out in college for about three years in Suresh Soni’s gym. I took cretin in those days for a while which had fish extracts. I knew what I was doing. I also had bread which had egg as a component when Prashant Gupta brought it in Mahaveer Colony house.

5. I always felt lack of food and space. Leonardo Da Vinci always felt lack of time. We are all striving after something or the other.

6. It’s eighth day of dark half of lunar month as per Hindu calender. I could see Moon in the Southern direction. The pentagon in the star hanging on Church of MMHS has five three pointed stars. The pentagon is red whereas stars are white. The core represents heart or red drop whereas white triangles represent white drops in trinities. Red drop absorbs white ones and bliss is born. Logos is a negative energy or a positive power based on whether you adhere to Archons or Gnostics respectively. I asked Shiva if she would be able to refer me to Maria Mata staff. She said I might have a chance in next session. It might be a long wait. You don’t know what’s going to happen next.

7. I bowled 60 times. 10 overs. Sweating. 17 hits. 8122020. Saturn. Venus. Mars. Balance.

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An Eventful Day!

1. This day seems to be more eventful than i expected it to be.

2. It’s 15:02 PM. I might be a strike breaker. I had a word for it. The dark skin which comes on your wound after it begins to heal. Scab is the word. It’s because i feel hungry already.

3. All protests are symbolic.

4. I took pictures from the spot where they’re sitting in protest against farmer’s bill and MSP. Kajal ki kothri mein kaiso hi sayano jaay…….

11 to eat!

5.

Void is filled by Bhagwan. Don’t be void!

6. AKA: Khaali dimaag devil’s workshop. Gulzar’s Aandhi.

7. Whenever they talk about fasting i begin feeling more hungry.

8. I suggested the plank guy to put a dot on Hai to make it plural: Hain. He did it after the second suggestion and directive from madam.

9. Imran Akhtar Beg met me outside ATM again. I called him by name. We had a discussion. I recalled having forgotten my ball in the Shatabdi ground.

10. He might take Spoken English classes from me beginning from 11.12.2020.

11. Another reminder of how we remember different aspects of our friends:

A. He recalled our college days. I used to see him with Anil as they were pursuing their MCA. He also recalled our Cricket practice in middle school.

B. I recalled his being a top scorer in handwriting competition. I tried many formats, copied many styles and sometimes Abhishek Narayana Sinha used to appear with a pencil and copied just four lines which used to fetch him first, second or third rank.

Imran was genuinely a good human being. I hope he’s still a good human being. When i used to ask him where he used to get his fair notebooks from: he used to tell: from depot my father brings them.

I could never comprehend where this depot was but his father definitely took care of his studies well. No wonder he has been gainfully employed for a long time.

12. I had a dream. A dog which became a lion vanished in East. Became a star. Dog star? I saw seven sisters. They’re still here. Though Shri says they’re seven : they’re eight as i have observed them often. Vidyarthiji says it’s Bayaa also known as Ghengha. It’s an expert in nest making but its eyes are yellow. They give it an appearance of anger.

After the vanishing of lion i came out of the Pooja Room in house. I move towards right to parent’s room and see many students. It was after chaos. I couldn’t make heads or tales of the dream.

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Myths!

1. 7122020: 09:13 AM. Academy_Cricket_Shatabdi

2. Update: i am not sure if the ground belongs to Maharaja Chhatrasal Autonomous College or Pandit Dev Prabhakar Shastri college of Technology. It has no bearing on my bowling practice. 30 balls. 12 hits. 5 overs.

3. At barber’s shop: the moment i reached before it: the boy was lighting up incense for his morning worship. I had contemplated about getting shaved and it was a pleasant coincidence to find the shop empty. He looked quiet and i requested him to use zero machine. The moment he began cleaning moustache the power was cut. Then i requested them to use a razor. Another device was available but they used razor and then power came back. Compared to the shop outside the court which charged 70 rupees for both head and shaving : he charged only 20 rupees. It seems i was given subsidy. Same as i reached an empty shop instead of a busy shop.

4. There were four pigeons sitting on wire. It seems some people are bored of my stories. I saw notifications from Lia this morning and akin to Devika she said she hadn’t seen them before. I was happy to have made my presence known to her: that i still appreciated her poetry, her versatility, profundity, productivity.

5. Lia had reported my comments to WordPress. At once, this blog wasn’t getting launched. I spoke to Lia and then it got launched. It’s akin to my third blog getting launched as i was forgiven by Devika who pinged me exactly when i was on the reception counter in my friend’s sister’s marriage. I don’t know how it works but it does. Lia and Devika are Maafia of the world of poetry. And I mean that in a positive way. If you get them furious you can’t continue here. If it wasn’t for my disputes with these four or five poets: I would have created tens of thousands of prose and verse posts by now.

6. Having learnt lessons in humility: I still think it’s Moon matrix by archons. Gnosticism tells you this. Our machinery has been designed the way to give sustenance to Moon via conflicts and swings of mood. Moon according to them is youngest among solar system members. Aryans got violent against certain groups because being mouthpiece of Godhead they advocated virtuous path. Beelzebub’s tales to his grandchildren by Gurdjieff talks about Armenian mystic’s struggle against such memes.

7. India is a religious country. You might say constitution is secular. If you carefully study its culture, its constitution : you would realize a coherent thread which weaves religious with lawful way. In all my experiments: i only kept swinging between various paths which have already been paved by countless trillions of beings who walked before me. It doesn’t mean that my expression isn’t uniquely mine but it means the building blocks were always there. I see the struggle between order and chaos. I see Saint versus Satan. I see Archons and Gnostics. I know devils and gods and I know why they came to be.

8. Though there might be some beings living among us as immortals hidden in form of humans: the weight of time is to be admitted. Hindus consider this to be age of Goddess Kaali or God Kalki. It’s age of instruments. It’s age of machines.

9. From the first accident in childhood when i was crossing the wall near Kaali temple to all other accidents : it was forced sacrifice for the goddess at various stages. I am an immortal now and yet i don’t know all of the instrumental. Machines have consciousness. Matrix is true. It was always about the goddess who wanted the women to be worshipped. And yet: closest of my observation told me that both patriarchy and matriarchy are myths.

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Shri is Unpredictable!

1. I had a long walk to railway station after I was informed by my employer that they no longer needed my service. Rohan’s uncle paid me 30 rupees as a payment for six days of service.

2. I enjoyed visiting the station after a long time.

3. I hired a taxi with ‘Atul’ written on back of it on my walk back towards Chhatrasal Carrefour.

4. He charged me only 15 rupees though usual charge is 20 rupees.

5. I had two samose at chaat thela. They were cold. The couple of biscuit packets sustained me. Like yesterday, there was another batch of people meeting outside library. I shared my biscuits with a dog.

6. I heard them speak in meeting. I spotted Atul: the guy with moustache who used to frequent Pawan Gupta shop in my marijuana days.

7. Strangely: two of the faces on posters were Shuklas and one was named Anand Shukla. The guy from Khajuraho has a problem in his left leg.

8. They are struggling for pension. I am struggling for pocket money. They are all better off than me. I mean who gets a 1000 rupees per month these days? With another job lost i am left with Shri. She’s unpredictable.

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Sunday Morning!

1. 6 overs. I concentrated on Fielding as well as Bowling.

2. There are three parties in ground.

3. I observe plenty of work that has been put by academy on ground: when i came here there were only two pitches. Now there are four and twenty pillars. Many new players have joined and many have dropped. No commentary this morning.

4. Sun is shining brightly. I took some pictures and watched pigeons do somersault in air.

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A Kingfisher and a Robin!

1. I balled 34 times. 11 hits. Enough of running this morning. Hockey players, Cricket players, Academy batch of Cricket.

2. Two men come with their gear. They look lost. I approach them and they ask about the entrance. I tell them about the old entrance and also about the new. The rhetoric:

Which side is entrance?

Westside. The new entrance faces North.

You might see it on your way to the carrefour.

Do you live here?

We have been called from Bhopal.

Upon being asked the very first question the assistant spits gutka to his left side. Architects are above being questioned.

So this ground belongs to college?

Yes.

And what about the stadium?

Not sure. Many people come over there.

Then they took my leave.

3. Can you think about my privileges? Stadium has been locked. Boys jump inside. Even I can jump for running. I am innocuous. As long as I have space I can run here: else I would need to go to Panna Tiger Reserve.

4. A lot of architectonics this morning. The ground where we scored like Bradman and kept records: Ankur and I: was being inspected this morning. Maybe they have decided to build a house and the land has been sold. Ghanshi was there. Tall. I thought she said something. I saluted her excellency.

5. Did I pass in addressing ? Baburam Chaturvedi Stadium and Shatabdi hall. Where else would you go running? The National Higher Education building was being built when i was roaming around billboards. Situation has changed only a bit. Those who have money have the right to spend and show off. Billboards entertain. Beautiful models like Blue Buddha and SRK girl. Why not. You have it: show it off. Yes, definitely. Like bullets, Lauries, tall buildings, helicopters, technologies and clout. I mean why not? Definitely.

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Any publicity is good publicity, right?

1. It’s a strange world indeed. More strange than i ever imagined it to be.

2. As i strive from romance to romance, job to job, to make ends meet: the angels and demons are playing left hand versus right hand. And if it wasn’t an age of technology: the signals and gestures wouldn’t have worked.

3. You see people who would be using either their left or right hands to talk on phone. Some of them are kabbalists. When you’re fed up of them: simply realize that: whatever you see is truth. Truth realm universe.

4. I bought guavas. Twenty rupees for half kilogram near New Colony. The name is new colony but it’s an old colony.

5. Three of them were worth being partaken as i took a walk inside the school number one field. The third one was bigger than the other two as it had more water. I put the polythene bag in the dustbin and counted 152 steps between two dustbins. I saw a black bull near number two- it was trying to eat plants. I put the guava on railing and it consumed it.

6. I bought another mask. Blue. Worth ten rupees. I also bought milk and bread from Neelesh Milk Dairy.

7. I saw an eldarin known as “Neguwan waale” near Maria Mata. He was walking slowly. Alone. It was after many days since I last saw him near family kirana store on his usual morning round of vegetables distribution.

I removed earplugs to first salute him and then to ask where he was coming from. He told about a heart attack. He had been to district hospital. He told that he got this heart attack in October when Mahalaxmi festival was being celebrated.

I recalled a similar experience i had. Convulsions. Fever. 440 volts. He met me just outside the transformer which has “Ram” written on it. The five pointed star on MMHS church has a red core and white triangles. If it wasn’t Neguwan waale: i would have stopped to observe the symbol a bit.

“I feel a parched throat,” he said.

Then keep drinking plenty of water.

“But where’s water on road?” he said.

“I should get him an auto,” i thought. He was reluctant, his house was still far as two of us walked slowly until Shriram fruits corner. I bought incense sticks worth ten rupees and then we saw an auto. I requested the driver to drop him off near Shiva temple in Shankar nagar.

Chaurasia ji had a heart attack, and Sonu used to talk about his grandfather getting 14 heart attacks. I saluted his father and Vishwakarma ji. This morning i had saluted his eldest son. There was a time when i used to mimic batting style of Sharad, his younger sibling and Sonu used to talk about how he got selected for indian cricket team. Now we know. At that time: I had put the idea before Tinku chacha: he clearly said that Sonu and company were bragging. The mouse I bought from their shop in my days of struggle was finally used as laptop was miraculously revived for my sibling. This year has been a year of miracles. Who would believe that I am playing for team India and speaking with BJP district vice president? Nobody.

8. Yesterday, three of them appeared as I was sitting in library. Kanfata yogis wear rings in ear. One of them kept saying:

” he’s a devotee of Gandhi. We are going to buy Khaadi dress for you.”

The day before I had declared loudly: neither Gandhian nor RSS way was for me and yet they were playing. After calling Damayanti madam i sent them to her.

9. Today a man in posh Khaadi appears. In the end. Actually many appeared before him. Three teachers from school number two: two madams and a sir. Sir used right hand to talk on phone as I was taking the class. Prior to that a man came to buy milk and he was speaking on phone.

( Edit: it’s interpreted as this: i asked her a few days ago if it was required to wear masks inside the premise. She told it wasn’t required. Now: three of them put an example of how people from education department are supposed to wear masks all the time. When i went to put the key on hanger’s cog number 4: she showed me the mask she was wearing I bowled 100 times this morning. Most of them hit the target. )

10. As I was eating sandwich the car with a tag of BJP district vice president is shown. It only has driver inside it. Based on the previous experience with Subhash, Laxman and others: i realize that he was being friendly via kanfata yogis as he sat on the left side of library door and spoke on phone with his left hand. The language is evolving. Will it result in pure body of gnosis and bliss free from fear, death, aging and decay? How can more and more laws really bring about self governance and peace. Hollywood made a movie called “purge” and we cooperated with them in 2020. More children are born than people died. The illuminati plan isn’t working. Yet.

11. Damayanti madam looked happy with educators. Golu bhaiya was back to monitor. Shri assumed she was doing something new that hasn’t happened to me 170000 times before. Saanchi shop had shown me a guava. Autowallah had shown me a blue mask. I dropped the yellow one this time.

12. Three of them outside Tripathi house were happy. I heard Dakshinamurti strotam before leaving the library.

(Mask on her face: she would also begin saying good morning. Would come on time. Do her homework given by me, until they don’t decide to terminate my service.)

13. While talking about my facial white spots: gudda was proud. I asked for a smartphone as I was using a secondhand. Then: it was Rahul’s trimmer. He already had those marks on his face. I had none. It was transmitted to me via trimmer. And yet: just outside Samriddhi medical: Ankit Mishra and his confidante play an elaborate charade about spot. I refused to take his ten rupees.

14. Shri looked at my face and spots and used an expression for Kushtha. Now her face has those marks. White marks. I really don’t know how that happened. She was reluctant to sit with Shailendra. It was proposed by her mother. There were way too many people disturbing in the previous spot we used to study. I was coming after calling clouds from field. Tej’s wife wasn’t present that day. She came running wearing polybags with a strange expression : ” chaliye nahin to Paani khatam ho jaayega.” Then two other girls did it. You know where and where.

15. Tej was crude. He used to drink. Once Mike’s manic depot was working in conjunction with russian mafia : “Tammy the ****girl… whose birthday falls in September and who has thighs on her page. She writes deep…”

Tej moved his left shoe as Mike had written: And the left shoe drops. The Gevurah. Severity. My slipper slipped outside family kirana store as I was taking a left turn.

Tej remarked and it was about Shri. The sweets were being made. It was to insinuate that she was Draupadi and there were five husbands. Tej would know what he meant. I have seen way too many cartoon characters in that place: both male and female. They merely keep doing left and right. None of them reads anything beyond newspapers and Hanuman Chaalisa.

16. I am out of this shit. There are books beyond Ramayana and Mahabharata. I went there for library. It’s a fact. By their attitude : I thought I could meditate in fields. They employed tactics to drive me away until Ramcharan Vidyarthi asked me to catalogue books. Since then so many elections have happened and I have seen so many people coming and leaving. There are four sections and countless stakeholders. What do they really want? Any employment I got since 2017 has merely been to monitor my activity and not really to help me rise above poverty line. This is state of affairs. Meanwhile traps of various types happened. Vidyarthi and Dinesh Mishra ensured I would be beaten by black commando. The day I went to attend a meeting in Dinesh Mishra’s house i saw the girl coming out of bathroom. Well, well. You know how much of it’s coincidence now. Later: charade continued for a while. They all tried me and tested me one by one and finally I realized that they were all together in on it.

17. Mamma was accused of theft and recalled later. Like Kanhaiya in Jagannath Ghaat Gyaan Gudri. It is too much. Perhaps why I was guided to read only sports news in my childhood days. Priyanka maami plus Sarita mausi were laughing about erectile dysfunction in Anurag’s marriage. What the fuck is going on in this world? Nobody is sane anymore.

18. The day Golu bhaiya was sitting with her and took me to Ankit: the moment i saw her i knew what she was made of. The tone in which she said: ” you can even sit in garden and read…” I thought she meant it. Like my ‘deprived of hemoglobin’ Vandana and company. It was the beginning of dying. Ku Klux Klan. I was the only person who spoke truth then. I am the only person who speaks truth now. Not that I lack imagination: I know that in the end we are all going to disappear. Whose imagination is this? Is it Vyas’ imagination or Narayana’s. Winter has come. This has been a long year. Very long indeed.

19. I sat on stairs: I wrote a quote by Herodotus yesterday. Today I was chatting with DLOG and she asked about good quotes. It was magical.

20. I bowled 100 times.

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Pathetic Revenue jeep

1. A jeep with ‘revenue’ written on it passes by. Just outside the Hargovind Hemal Park. A man on bicycle spits. I realize that the definition of the word revenue that i told her might be wrong.

2. I have corrected myself umpteen number of times. It’s good that she asked me the meaning of a word. We could actually have looked it up online.

3. Should I feel ashamed that I don’t know the meaning of a word? No.

( edit: my definition of word was correct. I was not sure of it because of lack of interest. 4.12.2020)

4. Should I be made to feel ashamed that I don’t know the meaning of a word the night after I played 20 vocabulary jams? No.

5. Who put her to ask me the meaning of a word? The details are important. If she knew that I was wrong she should have told me then and there.

6. If she was innocently sincere: who tapped into our class or got in touch with her and later organized it so that I would be given a lesson with a spitting guy and a revenue jeep? It’s this monitoring that matters more than the lesson for a simple reason:

7. Consider this family. They can’t give me bare minimum to survive. It has been more than 8 years. The employers start looking sideways when asked for money. Five rupees per hour. Slave for a month merely to get an internet recharge. They don’t have any money to help me buy a pair of slippers or a new dress or a decent meal.

8. They have plenty of money to look down upon me. To teach me the meaning of a word they employ a group of people who drive a vehicle through a certain spot and spit to prove a point.

9. I asked Anmol Khare the meaning of ‘panache’ and ‘denunciation’ in academy ground. The next day i am taught the meaning of word revenue by a crooked method: first the student pretends to be innocent or is put to the task of asking a question. Later a jeep appears with ‘revenue’ plate on it. A bicycle is employed to spit.

10. To perform that revenue act would at least cost 100 rupees worth of teaching. Oil and coordination included. Similarly: Imran Akhtar Beg making a dashing entry just outside the Chhatrasal’s Horse as all autowallah give me way: to prove a point that it’s contacts and friends which let you pass: it would have taken at least 1000 rupees to perform.

11. The point is: if those 1100 rupees were given to me: I would have fed myself and bought things necessary for my day-to-day expenses. The coordination is wasted to monitor and control you by state, family and police.

12. I must be very important. A single tuition in three years of seeking and trying to work which pays 1000 rupees. And that’s also used to monitor my ideas and discussion instead of letting me do as I please and deem fit. I haven’t seen a more pathetic monitoring and governance than this ever before in my life. This is merely being afraid of an individual. A whole lot of people working together to suppress freedom of one. This is what society and culture is about. So much for Adinath motors. So much for Shri and so much for Gandhi Smarak Bhavan and so much for that Revenue jeep and so much for monitoring me.

13. USA spends 30000 dollars: that’s 15 lakh rupees per year or more than 1 lakh rupees per month on its prisoners. Here you can create random laws and imaginary diseases to feed medical industry and mask makers and make people prisoners in their homes by not letting them be gainfully employed. The whole system works to keep in place those who walk with a straight spinal chord. This is the Gandhian Way. This is the religious way. This is the state of modern education and training. This is the state of society. Just spend thousand rupees per month to keep one employed and spend thousands of rupees in monitoring and teaching lessons. If I had a choice: I would never have been born in this place and time. If I really had a choice: I would have disappeared. There’s no sense in wasting your time, money and energy in monitoring and governing me.

14. Ghanshi: the homeless woman has been sitting outside this house. Has anyone from Pradhanmantri Aawas Yojna taken care of her? Why not to send her to an old age home or a mental institution? What purpose does she serve-especially outside this house? I must have talked about her at least thrice on this blog. The last time I did that : she pretended to sweep the floor outside neighbor’s house. That’s it! The whole world to monitor me but none of them to ensure that homeless get shelter in appropriate places or get proper medical care. Why do you waste resources like water outside Narasimha temple?

15. It would merely have been a looking up of word on Google with her. It would have been enough. But you needed an elaborate charade. A wasting of resources. What a pathetic way of using youngsters, resources and money. This is the contemporary society. Encroachment of land and hardly any space to walk. Population explosion and wasting of resources to deliver lessons to an individual who doesn’t belong to any factions.