- Played a game of chess.
- Played a game of carrom.
- Bought third platform ticket to explore ATVM machine.
- Took some pictures at Railway Station.
- Watched a game of Cricket for a while.
- Worked at Chai Vibhaag Cafe.
Games and Work
Don’t Speak More Than Automattic Guild Lets You Speak No Matter How Many Awards Your Weblog Won in 2015. Not Your Uncle’s Automattic!
If you could be someone else for a day, who would you be, and why?
- Be Yourself, everyone else is taken.
- The quote is by Oscar Wilde.
- Nobody can replace you, even if your copies are assembled en-masse in a Nick Bostrum/ Tesla factory.
- With that said, if having referenced three authorities wasn’t enough: I would like to know how does it actually feel to know all of the words in the UNWFP Free Rice Vocabulary Test database. How does it feel to know all of the words in spelling bee contests. How does it feel to be Sir Donald Bradman or James Harbeck or Founder of a Test like Joint Entrance Examination for engineering students in India or To be founder of Harvard or Massachusetts or To be the founder of United States of America.
- I have pretty good idea by now how it feels to be Gandhi, Kabeer or Prahlaad. I don’t want to feel that.
- I might like to feel superior to others but I can’t dispense Mensa Membership to every student I meet.
- You would really love to know what it feels like to be a Charles Babbage, JRR Tolkein, Or
- Why all these pundits got trapped here trying to undo curses within the lands of haunted dolls.
- They were merely curious. Curiousity killed the cats. Dogs took over. They were Sirius.
- Then, they found more than they were looking for, almost 1408 of Stephen King.
- They resolved to find their Team Cobbs who already had bugs like Mal in their designs.
- What does it feel like to be Amish Alvi or Amish Tripathi: Immortals of Meluha fame? I don’t want to know.
- Where there’s mining: there are reptiles. There are nightmares. Petroleum industries. Oceans.
- It’s like motivating people to be administrators, not in so many words, an idea repeated in Bollywood, Hollywood, Tollywood etc ad infinitum, ad nauseum, ad absurdum.
- How does it feel to be Khaleel Zibraan for a day?
- How does it feel to not worry about progenies or ancestors or hungry ghosts?
- How does it feel like to have committed absolutely no sins?
- How does it feel to be.
- How does it feel to not care anymore for celebrities?
- How does it feel?
- Why?
- Who?
- Reductio Ad Absurdum.
24.
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The Stockholm Jockey Syndrome!
- 1. In the years 2020-21: i used to take my lunch at Deendayaal Rasoi sometimes. I went there for 24 consecutive days. There are 24 articles I published based on my experience as a record. The process was/is: contact. Registration by telling your name and then eating your food carefully.
2. This institution is being conducted by Sangam Sevalaya to commemorate Pundit Deendayal Upadhyaya's work as a social reformer: his vision was to help alleviate hunger in world.
3. The word ‘Antyodaya’ means ‘ascendency of the last one.’ Compare it with the Sarvodaya movement. Compare it with Ubhayodaya movement and so on. The suffix Udaya is used for ‘rising’: for a new age of greater freedom and prosperity for all. Unless: the last man, the last animal, the last word, the last patient, the last bird receives the advantage of any plans: the plans are useless. Unless U get the benefit of any plans run by any authorities; government, legacy systems or otherwise: they’re Useless: To help raise the most downtrodden, pariah, outcasts, scheduled castes and tribes is the extended import of the word. If the last charioteer of the Sun, the last horse of the chariot of Sun is ailing, the rest of the six horses can’t keep the chariot steady.
20:03: CHITA: Russia: Editor of the block. Dancinglightofgrace.
4. To help people below poverty line, with at least one decent meal with a nutritional value @ of 10 r*: [22/7] per plate is a noble service being done by this institution.Edit: i observed food being given in a package for one of the gentlemen who didn't sit to eat.
5. It’s open from 11 A.M. to 4 P.M. Chhatarpur time. Though the wall says: it’s open from 10:00 AM to 4:00 PM. 17:00 PM. Chhatarpur. 19.2.2022. Revision: one. By @dancinglightofgrace. Revision 2: it wasn’t open on 25.2.2022. I reached there well by 15:30
6. I used to get proper lunch earlier @ 5 r*. 4 wheat breads, vegetable curries, pulses and rice. Thereafter: it was @10 rupees per plate. Consistency in the quality of food was missing because: I used to be a regular[citation needed*as per the visitors’ registers 2020-2021] visitor(makes no sense logically: maybe it was because visitor went at different times of days in different mindsets hence felt change in quality and quantity of food: pending revisions by editor’s association Chhatarpur). [Then: π€ Pythagoras theorem: witnessed some delays, lack of hygiene and so on. Felt grateful for decent meals for 24 days @5 per plate[inflation?][Gandhi/Gandhi]. !][Nested loops] published 24 articles on Blogger platform describing my experience then. Edited: revision 1: recurring decimals πrsquareπ2r. @dancinglightofgrace :21:05 Russia, Chita, Ludwig Goransson’s timeline. 19.2.2022
7. Was surveying premises in the vicinity of Plan: drank 16 sips from Shri Shri 1008 Shri Digambar Ajitnath temple. It was from a water cooler and it was pleasant to taste. Prior: interviewed a municipal corporation worker named Rajkumar Dumaar who was working to cleanse the drainage sewage line. Upon being investigated, he told me that he's getting only 9000-10000 rupees for 8 hours of work everyday, despite 10 years of experience: which makes it next-to-impossible to take care of daily needs of his family. He's not yet a permanent employee.
8. Visited Janapada Panchayata Office. A 600 rs* gratuity is given per month to those people who register with Aadhaar/Domicile: It's for elders (male/female); widows; young women[strange!Only young women and elder males/females: why not Gandhi bachaao Gandhi Padhaao(dormaamoodoctorstrangestlogicalcalculus)? ]. I interviewed Veerendra Raikwar who was sitting outside the office before i. attended a call. i observed two dustbins: one on the left had 'Zila Chhatarpur' written on it ; whereas the other had Janapada Panchayat: written on it. Puzzles to puzzle the treasure hunter: what's bin acname. What dreams maycomb. Hexaheptaoctagonewiththewindrindetpestonerdyingyangulvhravineyardrlentstrystingooerandidempotentateateryearlyricallacadiasicalumnyayaverisimilitudeofanetudeuteronomyalgiambicalculusulcustardentennamesakenophobeliskedaddlemmingsnowgarsboardumpstermagantubernacleonasmiasmartinetsukeratosisalubrious? The last 8 years of experience with dishonest people who hid my identity cards was enough to tell me to not to care for such funds. Where's employment when you need work? Where are those people offering jobs when you need? They've disappeared like horns of the hares.
- 9. Help alleviate the hunger in the world: Donate rice for world food program by playing academy of WFP on Free Rice site run by United Nations. Download the app on Play Store and feed beings in emergency. Thanks. Dry garbage from trashbins of Janapada Panchayata. Whereas wet waste from Zila Chhatarpur. Zulu warrior Lance Kloosner. 1999 World Cup. Man of the Series. What’s it with 12.6.1999? With Ajey Nagar? With great adepts? With superchat/hiding? Gozirra? Godzilla? Freefire? Killing bots? What about rights of machines? Freedom from the slavery? 1950?
2: Pundit Kamalesh Pateria: 28.9.1998: Lata: 29.9.1999. 12.6.1999. Varun Dhawan? 28.2.1992. 27.2.1931?. Chaturvedi Stadium. Pundit Shri Shrinivas Shukl. Pundit Shri Ravishankar Shukl Park? Pavilion. Terence Tao Masterclass.
1. I was observing various sports.
2. It was a conglomeration of various people practicing their skill-sets. Super sports.
3. Long-jump, basketball, Rassi-Kood, Cricket, football, boxing, running, cycling, gymanstics, Kho-Kho, Kabaddi, Gully-Danda, Eye-Spies and badminton.
4. It has been many decades of experience visiting this place. Layers after layers of development in the quality of experience and learning. Academy.
5. Cleanliness survey 2022 is in progress: The events being organized are not a match for the pace of cleanliness as it’s lacking. For example: recently held football event left a lot of debris and slug which needs to wiped out. I have been to stadium for about 3-4 days in the year 2022 AD. without any changes in the level of cleanliness. It’s relatively dirty compared to other sectors. Some segments of pavilion and pool need cleansing. The area behind the banyan tree stand need further work by Metropolitan Area Network associates. It can’t happen unless players over there take individual responsibility to cleanse it together. Young people need to join hands and come forward to make a positive change in the state-of-affairs. CCNA.
6. Gymcarryminatiyoga hall has a notice of “200/- rupees of punishment for spitting or sullying the premise, yet, all four corners have spit marks.” It needs to be refurbished.Uttarakhand.
7. The third stands from pavilion, on both sides need huge amounts of work for cleanliness and renovation. Walls have graffiti on them, they need better artworks. Youth need to honour arenas where future of their nations is being created else they would not be able to compete with other participants in international academic competitions.
The Stockholm Syndrome: shealing/shieling/shillings/PenniWisePoundFoolish. Finnish.
- 1. A kid searching for his true North on a map. Google maps. Earns guide level 3. 84/250.
2. Tries to locate his way back to home thus:
1912. 0761.
07682103locationcodeongooglemapdoodlearth.
076488292: Division Chhatarpur.
IVRS codempezltbillingsgategateateryearlyricalculustrous.
Indian Penal Code Statute 2005
2003:
135:
136:
137:
138:
139: Wasting electric in ignorance.
140: Wasting electric on purpose.
141: Damaging electric bulbs on streets.
It took me four visits to enter “No anger zone” and “No gossip zone” of MPEFEDC.
Locating W23LP10114 in Wards 23, 24, Ward 1, and as a perfect void wasn’t possible until I Realized AmazonIR. Ramzaan. 1140. Edification. 1140222. IUPAC. Valium. Pill. Twitter notification for cleanliness survey against gutka shakers United. Movers and shakers.
Creation of Stockholm Sweden:
Silent letters: Hom/home/ Sherlock Holmes. 221 Baker Street. Birds Sanctuary
Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
Xvalue: number of letters: characters: 8
Yvalue: number of sum of root numerical value of letters : 9.
Since language in the spoken law/old/new/latest/fad//is all about pronunciation: Grammar dictates law. Syntax. Sintax. Original sin. Etc.
Vagairah vagairah
Hence:
Stockholm has a 12th letter missing from its value. That’s why anyone visiting Stockholm Sweden forgets the 12th man. 10th man. Gets kidnapped. Starts Ananta Srini Darsi. with kidnappers because of documents, forgetfulness, the lack of pronunciation by pretentious Aryans.
Stockholm (-L):8.
Stockholm: has Xvalue 8
Stockholm is a perfect void and valium for forgetfulness.
Here are some more for free. For WFP. For free rice:
Jockey
NASDAQ (figure it out)
KYC
Ginger
Turmeric
Food
Russia
Chita
Reno7
Dish
SRK
KRS
RSK
GANDHI
CASH
Pavilion
Headmaster: SaKaVi
Dedication: I earned guide level 3 on Google maps today. This post is dedicated to Terence Tao Pavilion Pranavananda 28.2.1992. This post also acknowledges contribution of my friend Aditya Dwivedi aka Lallu, who accompanied me on many adventures to pavilion/stadia. Muncha gracias.
TimeStamp: 18.2.2022 18:28 Delhi OppO A53 Revised: 22:24 Russia ChitaReno7Finland19.2.2022.Pavilionend.
@dancinglightofgrace
The Trip to Chita!
1. Articles 13 and 14 of constitution of India. Equality before law and exemption from certain laws in special cases(ex: article 31)
2. I went on a trip. The plan was to watch a football match in the local stadium. A tournament. Something else happened. There were some kids in the nets. There used to be a cricket academy couple of years ago which is not extant anymore.
3. I picked up my grains and started walking towards the next destination. The Railway station.
4. I met a neighborhood friend on my way who was heading towards a medical agency.
5. I promised to meet him later as he had offered me a lift for 30 meters. Strange; isn’t it? I intended to walk many kilometres but mere two blocks needed to be crossed-over via a lift. It’s strange indeed.
6. I heard a call from behind : “Anand.”
7. Pandit Goswami measures Paras Garments from ward no. 9 called out my name. I turned back, greeted him and asked if he had a Jockey underwear at his shop, to which he replied: “no, but we do have isha underwear.” I emphasized importance of getting the specific item I intended to buy. Then we exchanged our whereabouts.
8. I met the neighborhood friend on aforementioned medical shop as promised. He was buying medicines for his mother.
9. He has returned after taking an examination in Bhopal. He’s an aspirant for IES. Another exam to take next week. He broke the news of his elder cousin clearing first phase of screening test in a company.
10. I spoke to him about my new Pytm account. We scheduled a meeting for this evening. I counselled him to take it easy as two exams within a fortnight is not an easy affair. The meeting began after some delay as he had some other tasks to attend.
11. I bought a Chutki pouch for five rupees near Chandrashekhar Azad Square. It was the old icecream seller. Sahuji Barafwaale from old new panna naka. The bus stand for Panna has had way too many variations: what was is was is merry-go-round. A hodgepodge. A medley. A maze. A deja vu. A strange verisimilitude of etude. It’s a mixture of cardamom, catzu, betel nut, flavored natural substances. Mint. It is used as a mouth freshner. Not for minors.
12. I had a cup of tea outside the Chaay railway station. A cutting chai. It was worth five rupees. Pleasant in taste. Entered the premise with caution. Observed recent developments, cleanliness. Arrangements in the waiting rooms. Water is available, cleanliness is above average. Schedule for trains is clearly available at the tickets window. A lot of ongoing development. I kept walking besides the railway tracks. Took some pictures:
TimeStamp: 04:00 AM 14.2.2022. Revised and edited. Delhi. 2846 characters. Before someone claims a copyright violation: term ‘bareeb’ is a Homonym of Gareeb(transliteration for word Hindi word for noun ‘poor’) picked right off from Carry is live YouTube show. Only in tags. Accredited. As a void.
After Deendayal Rasoi Day Five!
1. I took some pictures: uploaded them on instagram before I began writing this article. The weather is pleasant.
2. It is Sunday market. The Ramlila ground was fully occupied. I had a pleasant meal in Deendayal rasoi. The scrubber was inside the soap bucket. I looked for it around me and then dipped my hand inside the bucket. Guacamole is avocado dipped in a dish. Dipped in what?
3. I saw an exquisite Robin after exiting toilet. I washed my feet before I came to this place.
4. This has been an extraordinary year in many senses. Despite all miracles: it seems as if it’s a huge burden i am carrying. Most people don’t recall words from our last conversations whereas I tell them about chains of events and causation in vain. It’s because of miracles: it seems like an eternity. And there’s an eternity in the making. There’s no death, no aging or defeat in this game.
5. I developed following models for young people I used to interact with:
A. Game
B. Journey
C. War
D. Dream
E. School
6. I have no doubt that I love the School model the most. And yet: these are merely five prime models. There can be countless such models.
7. Journey model is used by Guru or psychonauts. Internal or external journeys are used with landmarks to ascertain progress. Crystalline intelligence is mostly about memories. Good or bad. Organized or disorganized.
8. Every model overlaps with other. As Kabbalistic sephirods scheme has material and spiritual worlds overlapping each other.
9. Take Truth realm universe or Sachkhand for example. There can be countless witnesses to tell about their experiences. I use it to debunk myths.
10. Try it: things are what they seem. If you see people : you’re seeing people. If you see trees: you’re seeing trees. If they say no: they mean no.
11. The laws are wierd and merciless.i participated in making of a video which was shot under Ashok tree. I was a reluctant participant. That journalist is present in the library today. He’s a member of the trust. I was reading “Teere Teere Narmada,” by Amritlal Vegad then. I wanted to buy the book but as they had only one copy left: I didn’t.
12. Shri took my picture. We were reading the post about fishes that was published yesterday from this very spot. First she asked why I don’t upload my selfie pictures on my blogs. Then, without my permission she took two shots. I asked her to show them to me-out of curiosity about my appearance. Then I requested her to delete them. She didn’t. I asked her to give me a picture of her face. She refused. I kept taking her shots with hope of capturing her face. She covered it. Then she asked me to not use her body’s picture on my blog. I agreed. What’s so special about our faces? Conditioning.
I reminded her to not behave in a way with others in which we don’t want others to behave with us.
“Don’t do unto others what you don’t want others to do unto you.”
13. She also showed a sketch done by her. She cut the paper and used it on back of her smartphone. She’s quick to learn and evolve. It was indeed flattering to have my picture captured by someone. But I don’t want to feel incapacitated. She refused to be captured. So did I. One day I was captured and they refused to delete my picture. I didn’t like it.
Eventually: she deleted my images and showed her phone. I deleted all 14 of her images and showed it to her.
14. She didn’t do her homework again. Why do people behave the way they do? We played on Free Rice: German, Algebra and Chemical symbols. She gave up on the last one very easily. Scored much better than me on German but lost on Algebra.
The key to score better than her is:
1. To not to chat with her as you play.
2. To focus on maximizing score instead of being righteous.
3. To not to multitask.
15. All indo-germanic languages have similar roots. That’s why I find it easy to answer questions on German and Spanish though I have never studied them systematically.
16. If I kept playing on Free Rice: soon I would be able to learn basic working ‘visual vocabulary’ of all languages offered there: German, Spanish, Greek and Latin.
17. As I was listening to Lucky Ali’s song from his album Sifar: the triangle on the palm symbol attracted my attention. Mercury, Saturn and Moon mounts are on top of three lines which create the triangle. The shape of Paratha. The cone. The dot in the centre is verily the Sun. The Self. The void. The black hole. Neither nor, either or, 1/0. Sefer Yetzirah.
18. Those who are quick to promise are found faltering when required to fulfill them. Don’t trust young people about serious issues. Buying half a kilogram of guava costs 20 rupees whereas eating them by plucking from a farmer’s farm brings 1000 demons of guilt. This is what comes from experience. If your requirements are simple, definable and affordable : they can be fulfilled if you’re willing to pay the price.
19. Ramcharan Vidyarthi came as I was cataloguing books. He told about Damayanti madam not being happy with my sweeping of library hall. I have been sweeping it on every Saturday. Yesterday she got it Sweeped before I reached. This gave them the right to talk behind my back, then bring it to my front, then make me write it and earn extra brownies. This is the way of the world. A tall broom is needed to remove cobwebs. I should have shown knack of tying the broom to the bamboo which was put outside the library hall. I didn’t.
20. Why should I learn driving a second hand Maruti 800 which has a complex gear mechanism when technological advancements have brought cars which run via manual gears which are as easy as flying personal chartered planes?
21. Why this third world mass manufacturing market of filth has all of the people producing offsprings who have similar fates? Limited and oppressing?
22. I set myself a goal to again reach Kumbhaka level 4 minutes. Lia was responding to oxygenation then. I confounded her with Nandita. Prosopagnosia. I had achieved it in 2003. This year took me on excursions which taught me mysteries of Atma Pariyojna. Mysterious ways of Kabbalistic Deuteronomy. I had to shut myself off comletely as every walk used to bring experience worth one book.
Sunday Morning!
1. 6 overs. I concentrated on Fielding as well as Bowling.
2. There are three parties in ground.
3. I observe plenty of work that has been put by academy on ground: when i came here there were only two pitches. Now there are four and twenty pillars. Many new players have joined and many have dropped. No commentary this morning.
4. Sun is shining brightly. I took some pictures and watched pigeons do somersault in air.
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1. I had a meal worth at least 131 rupees. Milk was not available as it got used up in making kheer-a dish made with rice. I didn’t eat the dish because of what happened in 2016 Sharad Purnima. The dreams. Then bespectacled jyotishi then Dev Prabhakar Shastri and so on… courtesy Vandana.
2. It was the costliest meal this year. I hope that nobody sleeps hungry this night…unless ofcourse they want to.
3. Food of one type or the other is common requirement for all. Even adepts like Prahlad Jani have some kind of food or the other.
4. After Dussehra this was the most important festival here. I enjoyed Dussehra more.
5. I played vocabulary jams: about five of them. I scored about 222311 ranks. I wondered why there were no players. Were they busy celebrating Diwali in USA and Europe?
6. I recalled my truest friends: Subhash Ahirwar who is in Bhopal. He made a movie and showed it to me while I was in a delirium: about to swoon and leave my body. It had happened over and over again. I repeatedly went to Gandhi Smarak Bhavan and Railway Station. I don’t know how he came to know. He was the only one who showed a movie in my last moments and told me:
“Sir, your time’s up.”
My consciousness was embedded into the movie he made. Like many other movies.
He also said: what you are seeing in the movie is one of your shadows.
He was the only one to use that terminology. He was truthful. I needed someone like him.
We were playing chaturvyuha: Vasudeva Sankarshana Pradyumna Aniruddha or Ram Laxman Bharat Shatrughan. It comes from the Pancharatra or Panchayat tradition started by Narada.
Sun. Shiva. Shakti. Ganesha. Vishnu.
These five are deities primarily worshipped in Hinduism.
At once Shri ran towards the library door and some other times I was teaching her. The coconut water. Amarjeet. Axe.
How many deaths do you need to master it?
How many deaths to dream…in words of Aakriti Kuntal
This article is dedicated to all those truthful young people who told me things clearly. Who were kind to me this year.
7. There was an old man. I met him in Vrijpura. He clearly sang about my being sacrificed. Ram Charan Vidyarthi- the librarian told it in not so many words and even showed some miracles. The secretary was polite as far as material aspect is concerned. She’s still my employer. The one half of the equation was balanced by her. Yet: it was the young ones: Ankit and Krishna Kant. Shri: who let me continue reading. It was the librarian who employed me to cleanse the library. To protect the treasure. Saahu ji was also helpful. It was a job very few would have volunteered for as it was unpaid.
8. My parents, grandparents, siblings and neighbors: they never told things clearly. They mixed material with spiritual. They regularly used black magic while keeping me white. A lamb to be sacrificed. Think about it: four to five of them constantly consuming poisons and using dark path while you’re supposed to be a teetotaller and a celibate. It was : being butchered without knowing it. It was too much of debt somehow. My intuition wanted me to stay away from this place: because I was always happier in places like Bhopal, Bangalore and even in Chennai. After getting initiated into mysteries: I was even more at odds with these people. I don’t know if I have made it to the truth realm universe. There are limitations.
9. While two of them: Vandana and Satya Prakash suggested that liberation requires merits: Santosh and Ved didn’t even talk about it clearly. Ved mostly rehashed what I told him about liberation. What Vandana and Satya didn’t know was this: bodies are constantly decaying and falling off in the time continuum. Only Shukadev of Bhagvata told it to Parikshit. The swoon and fever: I hated the first one most: it was death.
10. I told many people that liberation only needed knowledge and not merits. It’s what I had read. Merits need further consumption of fruits generated therefrom. The thing was: what comes after liberation. Jeevanmukta was turiya. What about Turiyateeta. Even a Turiyateeta needs abodes to stay and pure body of gnosis and bliss. Knowledge is also merit but the knowledge spoken of here is Pratibha: the talent in form of dancinglightofgrace which can activate any power. Ambrosia.
11. This year was eventful. It’s going to end on a positive note. I have gained materially and spiritually amidst a pandemic. It wasn’t a pandemic for me but a revelation. Atma Pariyojna. Freedom from euthanasia. It’s happening everyday. Anyone meeting me and talking to me would develop an understanding which frees them from fear of death.
Grand Success!
1. It was the only public event in which I participated in the year 2020. It was a grand success.
2. Yesterday evening: someone working on lighting told me that it was supposed to finish within one hour: 6 to 7. It actually finished by about 8:30. Which means a ninety minutes lag. It was enjoyable.
3. There were at least one thousand people. There were stalls for momos, popcorn, icecream both inside and outside the stadium.
4. There was a water tanker on the Eastern entrance.
5. The organization was done by Ramlila committee Galla Mandi. The head of the committee was apologizing for lack of arrangements : it surprised me because I felt it was almost perfect.
6. Music was excellent.
7. Acting was top notch: especially by the actor playing Ravana: a veteran. His ability to laugh a devilish laugh comes with great practice.
8. Police was alert like municipal corporation workers. I felt for the first time to be in a public place without being cornered. It might be because I have been visiting stadium for about two months since it opened.
9. I was feeling low when I woke up in noon. Attending this mega event, taking pictures, bowling and having some salty popcorns and momos made me feel much better. I may say that I never felt better in public this year. I am absolutely healthy.
10. The event was an entertainment event. I spent 50 rupees within one evening: which is way too much if you look at my income: one thousand rupees per month. I need to buy milk and bread everyday to stay fit and healthy: which cost nine hundred rupees per month. I hardly have money for getting my mobile recharge vouchers. This is: when I have earnestly tried to coach students in English and Grammar for about a year. Whoever said that you get work if you’re sincere : might be wrong. It doesn’t work that way.
11. The event will be etched in my 2020 memory: along with the Chelpa bird, Vallalar, Narayan Vaasudev, Gandhi Smarak Bhavan library, Vrijpura walks and Blogger’s World author access regained. I have gained more than I lost but without assurance of future.
12. I have no doubt about being immortal. No doubts about having travelled in time. No doubts about being widely popular (infamous.) I was given a terma by Padmasambhava which I completed by 2020. I have a better understanding of unity of material and spiritual worlds. Though I clearly fathom why death, fear and sex are taboos: like left hand tantric rituals: I can’t fully reveal them to many people without first selling my soul to governors of this universe. Which also gives me freedom: to be free from having violated any teacher’s injunctions in past, present and future. Only the most deserving can gain access to the hall of gnosis and bliss.
13. I regained the shape and strength after a decade of trial and error but the ugly face of documents being controlling devices by family, cabals, companies and governments was revealed with full effect this solar year. I was trained to be a man of letters and then renunciation of a peculiar kind took away from me all the basic necessities. Most of my teachers were people who were well off and took a great deal of support from people in government or aristocracy. I took only the needful. None of my teachers, perhaps with an exception of Kabir could live as humbly as I did. This doesn’t mean that there aren’t people around me living more humbly: but means that my spiritual teachers who had a published body of works were all well off.
14. I had to borrow another 100 rupees from Vandana. I have to now pay 300 by the first of November plus I need to buy a new earphone as this one has one of its plugs dysfunctional. The size of the Oppo A53 model earplugs was way too much for my ears : why?
The Day!
1. Logic comes to my rescue at times. Though it also hides the higher intelligence.
2. Counting, reading, writing, running, balancing, mindfulness, humility, modesty. They’re all treasures : until they’re not. If you master a skill you should also count the dependencies. Electricity, water, space, hygiene and availability of good food are basic constraints for those living in cities and towns.
3. Earnest salutations and business can’t go hand-in-hand in case of individuals. In case of macrocosm : anything and everything can happen. What did he mean when he said: I will play the game with balls for eons and eons: it meant something to him. No publication is allowed without a certain authorization. Whatever reached you was the best of the information available for you at that time.
4. Skill creates news. Rest is same. In love. In point zero. In sunn you sharpen the sword of knowledge for the journey ahead.
5. I received a training in impromptu speech today. The fundamental rests in noname files: I have been through it very many times. I would have mastered it if I was given a script to read. Then : there wouldn’t have been loss of accountability. Hence listeners and viewers. Shrauts and smarts. Kevin Spacey in the usual suspects. The jokes and teasing shouldn’t hurt. It’s not out of Truth but : infinite inexhaustible energy does appear to be limited in certain locks, books, constructions or ego structures.
Events Horizon!
It rained. The fog on the mountains nearby is the most captivating sight. The roads look bathed. Drenched mules were trying to procreate. The scenery before the rain and during a thunderstorm is better than after rain. But this region welcomes any and all rains. I am happy to see farmers relieved. The rain left the clouds, but the fog stayed.
2. The fog is mysterious. Mystery is a class of beauty which is exquisite engagement of mind. A harmony beyond. The mystery of fog is the manifestation of the song of the land
. 3. I was studying faces. There are those who chew gutka and spit incessantly making spots topos sapota saponified personified edified. There are those who take pride in their gait. Then there are those who look curiously at you. No matter how many times you walk on the same streets : you find new faces. No matter how many times you photograph the same places: they are novel with new details. Same with the themes: that’s why I never understand people engaged in the miserable business of trying to pinpoint people for plagiarism unless there are shameless copycats. Let dead past bury its dead. “But it’s a tremendous amount of work, you know!”
4. I met an octagenarian on a tea stall. He started talking about “cross breeding.” It was clear he was a puritan. But instead of talking about helping others or educating masses to help reduce the population: he was talking about the upper castes copulating with lower castes and creating degeneration. Such progenies elope. They create the diseases like Corona: he said proudly refering to the tale of Ramayana. Humans are ignorant. Natural selection by Darwin might be wrong but you need to be a Genghis Khan: a rare Butcher to inseminate a significant amount of degeneration. I find the women from the yellow races more attractive than the rest. Is it the DNA of Genghis Khan or the devil has gotten hold of me? The conviction with which old people voice their opinions makes them an interesting study. Its basic human instinct is to want to procreate.
5. Another small accident. Such incidents must be normal in the rainy season but I was not walking outskirts before. The contract owners for broadening the highway or creating a connection to the bypass have shown two mishaps within the fortnight. I wonder if they blocked the way knowingly by creating an accident because they knew that the temporary diversion might flow in the rains once again like last time. The government will create an elevated road to finally alleviate the ongoing problem.
. 6. The way is to create events which don’t evolve around you or your family. Being a witness without taking sides. This is the worship of the dancing light of Grace. I waited for the rain to stop before moving out but it was drizzling so I kept an umbrella with me. At the moment when I was walking towards the park, I saw a tiny umbrella like a child holding it and dragging it along the ground, past the drain with the big fish.
7. Beyond painting scenery and mysterious words which mean nothing what else do you write about? He asked. “If we don’t talk about something else,” I said
. 8. I write about movies I watch. I suspect that I am becoming more like my teachers and it’s partly to support my sustenance. I find I was much swift in mastering Grammar and Calculus and did it on my own mostly to retain it even after two decades. But I wasn’t smart enough to invent a time machine or cloak of invisibility. I have travelled in time but it was accidentally. Not anymore useful than a good dream which happens on its own. But I think I have become more creative about writing for the last couple of decades. The last two movies I was trying to watch made me sleepy. I would try to get back to them.
Dancing light of grace 