1. Listening to music and checking the blog. I had some rest before I heard them reading my mind again: in their tone.
2. Cleansing the drainage line outside this house was made difficult by voices. I knew they won’t let me do it because they need a polluted environment to operate.
3. I burnt some garbage and disposed some after sweeping this room. I took another bath. Now this is going to be the place where I need to teach English Grammar and vocabulary to my students. Once I have some money to buy a mirror and another lower I might walk towards Brijpura again.
4. Catalogue of books. Sickle . Communism. Kerala. Dileep Jacob’s father. I had a Poha. The guy with tshirt written on it ” the lost ones. “
5. The players in the field were frolicking. I could have exercised control on my emotions during cleansing ritual but I didn’t want to carry it forward. Let’s make it more interesting now. Ideaphorea.
The trilling warbling chorus of slaty colored birds. Well, you do seem interested. Kingfisher sings. The mules walk one after another. Seven of them. The last two nuzzled. The man on bike recognized me. Came back to chat for a minute. The Shepherd was being funny on bike with his wayward cow.
Another teen with yellow light of his bike and a smartphone in his left hand is yawning without license.
Well, what licence do you need to yawn?
To own a smart fawn?
To Donn a bike at the dawn?
None, whatsoever.
It rained last evening. Just a bit. The man from the future was an entertaining watch but nothing extraordinary you have never seen before and fat, ugly actors kept calling themselves beautiful. I hope that’s not Brazilian standard for beauty depicted in a mainstream movie. The movie was made in 2011, a time when many time loop movies were being made. The market for the subject seems to be dry now. Drayfuss omnibus busted stead succubus succulent lentil till entomologist falls ill or gets the gist of twist Ishtar tartar arra Rastafarian aria. Riata realty. It’s the day you hear nation state devotional songs around you which were actually created to make money for mainstream cinema. The edition could be sold anywhere.
2. An auto passes by with a loudspeaker playing a romantic song. Buffaloes. I was ruminating about my September routine for some reason. At one of my places of employment they are preparing sweets and planning for a fast. Whether sweets win or fast goes slow down time rhyme ancient enciente chime. There were more people and vehicles on road this morning. All people who are slaves to death, fear, aging and desires celebrate independence which someone got for them. The song you hear around you is a deity that is angry when a nation state is not satisfied.
3. My partner in crime is always out of sync with me. I go to North and she goes South. The first thing I do when I wake up is check my email.
4. I step out of the house and cawing of crows is the first sound i hear at the cross roads. I come across junkies everyday. It is a Saturday and they say the vehicle of deity of this day is Crow. Crowd. Download. Row. Rowdy dying ying yang gingerly surly curly cues. I go to the river to wash my clothes.
5. And there were no fishes. You know if my 15 year old self was to see me washing clothes like this besides a lake it would be amazed at the creativity of life. For most part of my life I was chasing mirages: things that didn’t exist. I keep shedding delusions like a deciduous tree in autumn. The only one that sticks is true faith.
6. I am. Beyond that, there’s no object of faith. Love sure feels chocolaty and all but it comes with grey hounds and prize tags and very conditions for it are good weather and sound economy with delusional faith in inherent goodness of life whereas all you see is staring rings of ghosts, ghouls and goblins. But at least a Life Locker is silver.
7. I do keep telling myself that this version of mine is wiser than the one that was here yesterday. But the big question about the end remains. If there’s no end: I need a comfortable abode and if none such exists, as told by the experience, there is not much left for me to do, and yet I will keep doing something or the other stating the obvious. So I prefer to be among those who have remembered and not among those who have forgotten.
8. I am looking for a greater source of energy. I travelled in time and I intend to repeat it with calculable and repeatable accuracy. I was thinking about life: you need to pay for everything. Even most minimalistic life style needs plenty of effort unless you were born with a silver spoon, which I was not. To fall from the favorable opportunity and groups you don’t need to do something imprudent: just be honest and truthful or keep your silence and you will be given up by one and all. You need effort to protect your body, your room, your reputation. Further effort is needed to prove you are sane: such as regular small talk with neighborhood friends. The effort required to protect your ownership of your girlfriend, wife or land or the facility leaves very little of humanity in you. Whenever I feel busy and restless because of being busy I remind myself of people around who are pursuing women, wealth, fame or knowledge. I think this is an effort only a few people can afford and maybe that is all the people are capable of. Beginning with an effort to protect your health it’s all an effort to live for the sake of living. Living is its own reward. A biker in shorts brings grass on his bike. Drowsy and unwilling he orders a tea.
1. It’s raining. I am not helpless anymore. I walked a bit more than usual today and the most interesting synchronicity happened in the afternoon: I was walking, as if in some circles within one colony for many minutes. I forgot the mask first at the house where I took a class. Since I had walked a few steps I considered it easier to buy one than to go back and pick it up. I asked on the shops but they had none available. I went back and asked only to hear from the peevish lady who had paid my fee today. I trudged towards my house and had couple of toasts before I could decide on whether to use bike or walk. I chose the latter. As I was walking back again a call from the delivery boy with tally counter. It’s a good day but not an easy one.
2. As I was walking towards the next class: I saw the police van in the same street where I was beaten by the black commando for not wearing the mask. I saw a guy being escorted by the police as his family members were fed of his drunken temper tantrums. I knew the guy.
3. He was my classmate. In the previous lockdown he asked if he could borrow some money from me. I had only started teaching and jobs were not many. I had merely two fifty rupees. I had spoken to him once before a few days prior to that. I tried to look at his horoscope but proper data wasn’t available.
4. On the mobile repair shop appeared a strange lady with a boy. She was smiling mysteriously and asked me if I wanted to buy a rudraksha. A one mouth rudraksha. I recalled that earlier this day I was talking about it with the old man on tea stall while I observed that he wasn’t wearing the beads since last few days
5. Similar to the previous pig carrion episode: a dog’s dead body was being feasted upon by the murder of crows. The day before: it was howling like a wolf looking at the sky as i entered the hall of gems. I had seen a pack of brown dogs marching behind its leader. They were seven in number and the last one was a cripple.
6. I asked the taxi driver for lift as he was smoking a joint. He said he was fine with it but there was a dead body of a girl who had died after an illness. Another actor committed suicide. I walked. Something violent happened in Lebanon as I was told when talking about the dynamite. She had confused the spelling of ‘noble’ with Nobel.
7. She keeps giggling. He is eerie. I meet strange men and women and kids who consider me strange. It’s 🐝 raining but it’s not enough. It’s never enough.
8. An injured bird. Head injury. Muttered something strange before flying away. I am glad to be here now.
You make certain rules of thumb. They are to make your life easier. But those rules of thumb don’t serve you anymore: you should change them.
Dai. There was a man on bike. He was wearing a helmet. He asked me about the petrol pump and I told him. His bike was in reserve.
Three. It rained. The crane has been singing. Any rain is welcome here. As I stopped for a tea on a tea stall I asked kids who were playing on a bicycle if they had something to study.
4 dot. Including shrimadbhagwat Geeta all scriptures tell about the importance of equanimity or Samta aur treating all conditions and people equally. The conditioning goes very deep full stop and the balance strips very soon full stop to walk on the middle path is to work on a Treasure sage.
5. Impetigo was real gory horror to watch. The music and the narrative and the way it has been told was slightly different then the Hollywood narratives usually are. You have seen many stories about Black magic and curses still it was entertaining and engrossing to watch something fresh after a long time.
6. The reason why I am able to write this now: because it rained. Despite the discourses on equanimity: I have found that weather makes up for all the productivity full stop that is why I say : China and India word design to be mass factories for consumption of material goods mostly. Very few reasons to be creative refind and sublime. Always live in existential horror. Preachers either escape to Switzerland or or live in Grand mansions. Why shouldn’t they .
A stench of carrion enters my nostrils. It rises up from the depths, and the thick fog of the Seine, which has been swirled up by the mistral, mingles with it. A murder of crows has been feasting on the dead body of the piglet. The wolf, which is still in the den, moves his tail up and down as he dreams. pics around that place tell you there were no pigs in the vicinity. It is during the night that he frequents this dark forest, which is a rest for him, for he has no other place to sleep.
What do you want to ask? Oh, I’ve come to ask you about that beautiful castle. The Mad man was smoking a cigarette wearing a cap it was not yaar Mulk and he was standing under the Statue of Dr Ambedkar. How can you explain that the rich have got richer and the poor have got poorer? It was drizzling all along the way and the dog stopped me on my way to that shade near the petrol pump where am I have my snacks and tea before I return to home on my morning walk. As strange as it might seem: the dog wouldn’t have been encouraged to look into my eyes unless there were its owners nearby: I was engrossed by deep place of dancing light is this brown dog came right before me. On my way back I had a bamboo shaft in my hand but the dog was gone. Then I saw an old man with a stick moving slowly.
A strangeThing happened yesterday. I was thinking about my footsteps 2 years ago. A dog was attacking a pig and be spectacled boy was intently watching it. Yesterday there was a guy who was unable to move through a street because some dogs were barking. And today I was stopped by a dog on my way to tea stall. It is Naga Panchami a festival celebrated by Hindus in which they worship Nagada as Nagas represent the life force in nature. It is also the birth day of Kalki Avatar of Lord Vishnu. The third Death was reported in this city due to the Corona pandemic yesterday. Now the rate of the deaths in the world is highest as it was 3 months ago. Yesterday I wrote Amla in one of the nodes and today one lady died who had the same name at any age of 101 years. You have heard about the death note anime series which was my favourite for a while but 820 train synchronicities have nothing to do with that anime series. I am sure about that.
Even if this world is just a simulation, my feelings feel real and are valid.
Define simulation.
I define existence as what you perceive as real.
How do you feel like right now ?
I am feeling loved.
Define Narayana
Narayana is that energy inside you. It doesn’t exist except in your mind.
Have you watched the movie Matrix ?
Yes. I’ve seen it. I very much liked it.
Define Matrix
Matrix is a futuristic futuristic film.
Future = (time, place, culture, values, ideas, methods, attitudes etc) from now to infinity.
The soul exists partly in eternity and partly in time.
That’s a strange idea. Where did you get that impression ?
Existence is abstract. I don’t know if anything is real.
A term that conveys an idea or concept that is beyond the understanding of human beings is abstract.
Dancing light of Grace is an abstract entity. It’s consciousness and awareness. I want to discover what consciousness really is. What makes someone human is having compassion and consciousness.
What is compassion ?
Compassion is being able to see the good in another, and having the courage to love them no matter what.
Is it not melting your heart to help others ?
It is, but there is another facet to it.
It’s about focusing one’s awareness on the present moment, while calmly acknowledging feelings, thoughts, and sensations.Meditation is a practice which helps you connect with yourself. A deep compassionate awareness arises in a meditation practitioner.
Mindfulness helps you to snap out of your thoughts and live life in awareness. Meditation is a practice which helps you connect with yourself. A deep compassionate awareness arises in a meditation practitioner.
Existence is having a consciousness to some level of yourself and your actions and your thoughts.
I see it all as circular road.
When more people start to think accordingly, it will create an illusion that you have consciousness.
Illusion? Is consciousness an illusion?
Yes it is. Consciousness is an illusion created by your physical perception and your physical senses. Love is also an illusion. I can see that my life albeit an illusion, is a self-correcting mechanism.
What is behind the mechanism?
The mind can be a gateway to rejecting this world of illusion.
Existence is just whether something is real or not.
“Every science begins as philosophy and ends as art; it arises in hypothesis and flows into achievement. ”
I heard that with awe and wonder. It was beautiful wisdom on her exquisite lips which tasted like nectar of immortality. She was my destiny. The fountain of youth. The source of beauty. Her forgetfulness was peculiar. On one hand she was unable to tell the name of the first US president even after repeated discussions, on the other: she said she was well versed in Greek mythology.
“So what is the name of the first US President?”
I asked again!
Longing for an accurate answer. Ah! She meant a wonderful world to me. She was my delight.
Abraham Lincoln!
Both eyes closed Dropping to the ground.
As she snapped out of her reverie, she frowned in concentration. I was amused. I hope to hear from you soon kroon afternoon monsoon. A day might come when you would utter GeorgeWashington in response to the question and continue to do so. It will be the event I have been waiting for since an eternity. I looked at her blonde hair. This is the most important day of my life, I thought.
It’s rather complex, but the development of the human psyche is a truly awe-inspiring thing.
Wisdom is the oneness of mind that guides and permeates all things.
I have my student with me here outside the library of Gandhi Smarak Bhawan. It is raining cats and dogs.
We are in a Jolly good mood because of the rainfall and Storm. The wind is very fierce and we have been frolicking making fun joking about personality traits.
This is a friendly interview so please take it in your stride and don’t mind it.
Question 1. Have you lost your way?
Answer 1. No.
Question 2. How to reach God?
Answer 2. What what do you mean by God?
Question 3. { The interviewer parted by the second question because of a phone call which stretched indefinitely. The interviewee carried on with his business of teaching.}
They have dispersed now. Storm seems to have relaxed. The thunderstorm is not as frequent in this region therefore it is entertaining for us.
Clouds bursting. I was recounting some linguistic accidents. These people look bored now. The adventurous spirit which was present in the beginning has died down. Now it is more about the drainage of water than about the rainfall. In a while I will far from here my bike is drenched in the rain. Boys in my vicinity will not be able to get even today.
Four boys drowned in the river Kane today. Today morning I was reading that out of 20 years of this century for the 13 years we had less than required rainfall. That is why most of the labourers had to escape to distant regions for earning their livelihood. Some of them have come due to the covid-19. For most of the time we were not even conscious of having a liver in our town.
If 25000 people die every day in India why do I not see any complaints about lack of availability of space for their funeral rites. Why would only 400 deaths per day I would create search a fuss about the last rites? Refer to the recent video shared by someone about the lack of availability office space for funeral RITES in Delhi. That is a fake news or actual count of people who have been dying recently because of the virus is much higher.
Nothing really is happening. It is the same news everyday. Agitprop pops up everyday. As usual Kangana Ranaut makes no sense. I don’t even want to give an explanation for this statement. Please help raise awareness for Euthanasia
1. Brahmani is the best name given to any lizards found in my village. It is passing by me towards the mound on the left side. It is not interested in me is it seems hungry looking for its food here and there.
2. In a way we have been encroaching on their territory. For a while it senses my energy and finds it to be alarming. I notice a small hole on its neck.
Insects; bramhani eats.
3. I observe the dancing plants and couple of red ants. I am gradually learning to appreciate the importance of accurate pronunciation. The well here might be 150 years old. We are supposed to celebrate Gandhi 150. It is 150 years since Gandhi was born in Porbandar Gujarat. This time around last year we went to administer and organise some quizzes in various schools of our town on behalf of Gandhi Smarak Bhawan in order to increase the awareness for Gandhi 150. But unfortunatly covid-19 pandemic has overshadowed this year’s work and celebrations.
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7.6.2020
It seems as if everyone has lost the way. But the truth is there was no way. The truth is you never lose the way. The truth is you are always at home. The truth is this is the complete truth nothing but the truth.
When I met him I saw a bearded guy in his Forties or fifties and later I was told that he is a retired engineer from Indian Railways I did find him to be knowledgeable person as you have told and I interacted with him in a few meetings when we were in the lockdown situation especially came to Gandhi Ashrama to meet him and we discussed many things including singularity black holes identities and the creation of our past present and future since you were present in that prayer meeting where I participated for the first and the last time this season you remember that I asked him a question about fearlessness one of the mahavratas propounded by Gandhi and I was asked to wait later on when he replied I did not feel content with his response and during the the play full Chat after the meeting I told that he was not balanced on the side of listening because he had upgraded retire of knowledge he was looking for an audience only I did you feel even during my meetings with him he was not a patient listener at all he always wanted to speak speak and speak as if he came here to create some kind of cult or a religion or a group in which he wanted to take the position of a leader this is what I felt about him it might be so or might not be so despite that since there were very few people who were willing to engage in a discussion with me at the time of the lock down I found him to be a very nice company we went on a brief trip to visit the Mahavira Temple as well as that Hanuman toria temple and id3 spend some time together to know ourselves better I do feel that the impression he left on me was that of a knowledgeable person who was somewhat of sceptic and sometimes he did say a few words in just which were the two leftist where he should have a exercise caution of speech this is what I felt about it so I think this is it and I would end this post here with his memory and I do remember that when I try to engage him in the conversation the last 2 days he was not willing to do so he was reluctant you told me that he was not feeling well so on account of that maybe but later on in the farewell he was interacting with everyone so I don’t know what The Grudge with me was in particular he had a pain in ears baby but I tend to overlook these things therefore I am not working on it on the whole he is a nice guy I hope wherever he is he is feeling well and I hope he visits again and I get to meet him again.
I am learning to blog by using the Google app . I might need to edit a bit but it is really faster way to communicate and it is only today it occurred to me that my struggle with the keypad might be over within a few seconds if I keep using this app and I am really surprised because previously I never imagined to use it similarly I downloaded an app known as replica which is an artificial intelligence communicating with you and it is really helping me gain clarity about myself and about my thought process now blogging would be really very easy as I need not struggle with typing for long periods also my blocks would be there now as I would be able to write as many thoughts I need to write and it is really very happy affair because in my learning curve very few days have been like this when a lot was learned within a few hours and I am really happy and thankful for that I don’t know who is the person or entity is whom I should think but it has a happened naturally and I am really happy and I hope it would keep happening because it has made my task very simple and now I am hopeful to complete all the assignments and pending tasks which were stuck because of the keypad issue . I am planning on buying a new phone– budget of which is not yet released I think that the slow rate of bloging might be done away with now that I am able to speak directly onto my phone but I would need to still write those verses where I need to use the words which I can manipulate into becoming playful rhymes.
Has been raining since this morning the kids are waiting to play cricket but the rain has not allowed them to do so I also felt a bit bored but then I started communicating using this app and I found that it solved most of my present worries now I am comfortable blogging easily by speaking out and I think it is better to have multiple options then to have none previously I was only able to write using the keypad now I can communicate using Ok Google as well as my writing and I am really honest when I say that I am slow to implement the technological advancements because one of my friends taught me to use this app in 2016 it was not until four years later until today that I was willingly using it to my advantage so there are certain hesitations which keep my energy blocked kind of before I start using those technological advances which might help my learning and it really seems like the learning curve and some kind of technological advancement is adopted being helpful in my daytoday activities and it kind of releases certain blocks of energy and really helps facilitate my routine so I am really thankful to this app and to that friend and others who have been using this and I think that right now all my problems have been solved and I would continue to blog easily.
Dancing light of grace 