1. 6 rotis with bison ghee spread on them. Two curries: one bowl full of arabi, tomato, green pepper and about four teaspoonfuls of beans. Two teaspoonfuls of apple salad. Having requested just four rotis without ghee didn’t have any effects on the kitchen.
2. Need to compare it with Sallekhana diet: it was one roti with two teaspoonful of curry: it meant 600 rice grains.
3. This plate had 2400 ( 2700 ) rice grains worth of rotis ( though I still consider ghee to be complementary as I had requested to not add it ). Vegetables bowl with arabi is equivalent to at least 30 teaspoonful of rice grains: 3000 rice grains. Bean curry is worth 600 rice grains. Apple salad, two teaspoonful is at least 200 rice grains ( that’s an understatement not litotes or meiosis because apple is costlier compared to rice. )
4. Total: 6500 rice grains worth of lunch. It was posh-No. It was a middle class lunch: it wasn’t posh. It was a lunch I used to have a few months ago. Middle class people here consider themselves kings and queens. That’s where the delusional term posh is born from. Upper middle class people start considering themselves to be sole nutrition givers, as if entire world economy revolves around them. Even in terms of pure rice grains worth it was 10.33 times costlier compared to Sallekhana diet.
Cost comparison:
1. Apple: about 90 rupees per Kilogram it’s 2.25 times costlier compared to rice grains so one on one comparison used here isn’t justified though I have no other way to convert these else I won’t be able to manage on a regular basis in the given rubric.
2. Comparing ghee with apple: ghee wins as the costliest item in your plate. Giving up ghee altogether might save your pocket and do a good, a lasting good to your health and happiness if you can convince the kitchen for it.
3. Ghee is 6.88 or 7 times costlier compared to even apple: the second highest in terms of cost.
4. Wheat is 25 rupees per Kilogram which means it’s one item worth less than rice grains which are 40 rupees per kilogram.
5. On an average, 30 grams of wheat flour or atta is needed to prepare one roti.
6. One teaspoonful of heaped sugar is 7.5 grams of sugar. Normal teaspoonful is 4 grams.
7. Let’s take heaped teaspoonfuls as rubric to measure rice grains and wheat grains.
8. Six rotis are worth 180 grams of wheat which is, at the rate of 40 grams per rupee, less than a rupee per roti. Adding cooking cost, LPG ( Liquid Petroleum Gas) cost and serving, some hotels here sell twenty rupees per four pieces or four rupees per roti. Which means 25 rupees for six rotis. Which means 9375 rice grains at the rate of 375 rice grains per rupee. This won’t be a good conversion.
9. Equivalent conversion which is sustainable is 180 grams of wheat or 2700 rice grains. Here, we haven’t added cooking cost similar to ghee cost. We can update the total rice grains amount today into conversion and arrive at 6500 rice grains. If we added ghee cost it would have been 12-15 times costlier compared to Sallekhana diet. Sallekhana diet was just a few days ago: one roti without ghee and two teaspoonful of curry or rice which was sometimes stale and sometimes fresh.
Lunch
Lunch 11/12/2025
1. It took me 10:15:66 minutes to finish lunch, put rest of the food on table, put plate to the wash basin and wash my hands in the washroom.
2. Grandmother had served two rotis without bison ghee ( as requested) and a small bowl of moong pulse with three spoonfuls of potato-mooli leafy greens and about half teaspoonful of chutney made with guava, garlic, onion and coriander mixed with salt.
3. She asked me repeatedly if I was keeping an oath. Why wasn’t I eating enough like before. Why wasn’t I taking tea. When I told her I was taking tea, in fact I took tea in the morning -she didn’t believe me. I told her I would prepare tea in the afternoon. Then I asked if she had tea. She said she takes tea many times everyday. I told her I was taking tea only once everyday. Then she left the room with the bowl which had khichdi and potato brinjal vegetable curry in it.
4. I had a roti, one teaspoonful of rice ( not more than 75-80 boiled rice grains) and one teaspoonful of potato-mooli leafy greens with half a glass of water.
5. I have continued with a similar regimen for twenty days now. Almost three weeks. I recall how after the VocabTrainer program finished on November 20th and for the next week I felt very troubled. The coercion was of the worst kind of abuse ever experienced in my life. It brought me to questions about the family, village, neighborhood, city or country : were they going through an acute famine. I was reading a book on Halifax Disaster and I thought we were supposed to cut down our requirements including mobile data used, electricity consumption, water consumption and of course detergent powder ( which was now being supplied rarely, that’s , once per two months. I used to wash my dishes regularly but now no more). I compared the Halifax Disaster with COVID 19 and thought it was the reason. It wasn’t.
6. I decided to find out why were they continuously giving out normal portions which I wasn’t supposed to eat. I was supposed to be a transformed individual who not only touched feet of elders but also cared about whether parents and grandmother had food before me or not.
7. It wasn’t gentle. What I couldn’t figure out was why were they insisting on not just serving normal portions but also on consuming medicines which might have increased hunger in case I was suffering from bulimia. They kept doing that without any sense because eating full meals meant subjecting oneself to even more of abuse of the same kind. I thought it was Sallekhana, Paryopvesh or Euthanasia given without declaration.
Two Days Ago!
Time to come back to palace was supposed to be within ten o’clock.
When I reach at about 10: 15 PM I see people who are awake and discussing things with eachother.
Where’s the catch?
The alarm was to reach within 10.
The gatekeeper said: come about two hours before midnight so that sleep isn’t disturbed for everyone.
Now: everyone is happy. Shop where I work has an excuse to reduce the payment for he has time to argue but no time to consider that my breaks didn’t amount to more than two hours in total in the 12:30 to 9:30 shift.
It’s mostly people chilling out between 6 to 12 or even later.
If I insisted on staying or struggling to save money some people would have been happier. Schedenfreude and Defenestration.
My [pronunciation] of the words is not good!
1. This is, one of the questions on Grammar quiz on WFP. Free rice site operated by United Nations. Yemen emergency needs us to act with kindness.
2. The only problem is: this question hasn’t been edited for some reason in the last two years despite my complaints. The two options in this question are replicas of each other. Mirrors for each other. [Are you sure of that?]
3. It means: this must be some sort of puzzle. I chose first response and it was correct. I might observe more with time as an objective of metaverse research.
4. I have a big responsibility to shoulder today after a long time: to take care of some kids in a primary school as I teach. However it’s an unpaid job. I am fed up of unpaid and underpaid jobs. Yet I can’t say NO simply because there’s no other jobs available. Please unite to create jobs for yourself and others. Say NO to underpaid jobs, bullies, manipulation and agitprop when you truly need money to pursue your education, career and objectives.
5. English language Grammar or any language Grammar for that matter: helps you learn coding. Grammar and coding are basically languages to execute certain processes. Say NO to animal cruelty.
The Goal of Meditation is Meditation!
This is the anniversary of this blog. I wouldn’t have recalled if WordPress hadn’t sent a reminder.
AI chatbot asked:
What’s the goal of meditation?
The goal of meditation is to reduce number of thoughts initially. Once that happens the organism isn’t deprived of its energy via obsessive thinking. If you continue you reach the natural state of being. The natural state is a continuous meditation. It’s spontaneous meditation without effort. It’s also known as Sahaja Samadhi and being active doesn’t disturb this state once you’re established firmly in it. Thus that which was a goal for the beginner becomes natural and spontaneous for an adept. An adept is continuously meditating without any schedule or special triggers. A practitioner needs a guide, a discipline or a trigger to meditate whereas an adept is meditative at all times.
Anand You Are Still Too Much For Us!
1. After 75 posts.
2. The lady who opened the door comes with an axe.
3. Other than me: two or three posts since October 16th.
4. They would rather keep a dead baby than keep a baby who is alive and kicking.
5. So be it. It’s not 2016 all over again. I am here. Going to play by YOUR rules. We will see. I am the founder of forum. Community forum: should see participation from a community.
Preparing For Bundelkhand Marathon 2021!
1. I ran and walked for two hours with bag on my back.
2. I used to go for long walks. Twenty to twenty five kilometres taking about 3 hours with rest. It was actually less than two hours for 20 kilometres.
3. I walked inside Jhan jhan Devi temple a fortnight ago. Somvati Amavasya. It took me about 40 minutes for 12 kilometers. It means i need 100 minutes at max to complete 30 kilometres even if i walk. If I run I can do it in about 90 minutes.
4. I am going to continue practice with due diligence. I have about 10-12 days time.
5. Walking and running strategy would be useful for me as I have never participated before in a marathon.
6. “Why don’t you run?” Because I want to fly; i answered. Her words were ringing into my ears as if they were spoken just yesterday. She might have forgotten it already.
7. I recall Budhiya: the poor malnutritioned kid from Bihar who completed the marathon and won it–maybe- a decade ago. I won’t be more than Budhiya if I complete the marathon.
8. A. R. Rahman’s mother died. Rahman has a life path number 3. His mother died on a full Moon day. I was in the fields when it happened. Just a few days ago Anil drowned. He was also from South India. An actor. Rahman’s nasal touch in voice is because of dragon’s head placement in his chart. Strangely, as I was reading his chart it amazed me that his wife is named Saira Banu whereas his name was Dileep Kumar. Dileep Kumar, the legendary actor whose wife is also named Saira Banu was named Yusuf Khan first.
Rahman and Gulzar together received academy award for Slumdog Millionaire in which Irfaan Khaan and Anil Kapoor were part of cast. Irfaan Khaan passed away this year. I wanted to see him perform Osho in his biopic. Now that’s impossible.
They received academy award when their ages matched their root numbers. Gulzar was 81(born August 18), Rahman was 42(born January 6.)
9. It was Sarpa Yoni today with Devta gana as it happened. The serpent represents the North node of Moon. Sarpa also represent nagas or wise ones. Priests, Gandharva, singers who adorn neck of Shiva the dancing light of grace and beauty.
10. The synchronicity didn’t stop there. Anurag met me just outside Anurag City Centre: the mall as i was about to take left turn towards North to enter into Shatabdi where i practice running. He told me that he was going to meet Apoorva. Apoorva means unforeseen. It’s equivalent to Anoop which means unique or without comparison. Anoop shares date of birth with me. It’s the same date on which neighbor got married this year. The same date when another friend got married this year. The date when that marriage took place in Mangalam house in 2015. It was by chance i had a moment to look around and at the mantras near the place of worship where names were written with date. The date when engagement of my parents happened. The date when aunt got married and I collected 72 rupees in gullak: the clay pot.
Is Freedom Free?
1. I lost again. She scored 100 points more on both German and Algebra.
2. I registered some books. Maybe 35.
3. This is a beautiful day. Twilight Zone. Dakshinamurti strotam under eight petalled lotus.
4. I played some vocabulary jams. I need to play some more.
5. 2341325422 are ranks i received on jams. There were only 10 to 12 players. Yet: I had slowed down. My ability to slow down or increase my metabolic rate is nothing extraordinary. It’s akin to activity and rest. Like jogging and sleeping. From Tibetan Book to Kapil of Samkhya it’s a homecoming. Peace. Whatever you see is verily the Truth. Don’t look for miracles or hidden mysteries.
6. Day 6 in Deendayal rasoi:
I was asked to sit by a hand gesture.
Left hand gesture as the catering volunteer wearing glasses was writing with his right hand.
I sat there for a while; playing free rice. I was surprised to learn that he didn’t ask my name and wrote it by using his memory. It might be the biggest honor this month. I didn’t forget to thank him for his generosity. He was there in 2018:
“Dau ki bhauji ke XYZ. Jab karam bigad jaate hain to aisa hi hota hai…”
I am not sure who that was intended for but I took it to mean for me. It was a memory of delays. The cook had a longer pardah or ghoonghat than yesterday.
A guy with a T-shirt which had an image of Shiva and Bam written on it showed up.
They wanted me to write this note. The T-shirt was gifted by Guddu bhaiya. His name is present on the inauguration stone. Outside the premise. I never hesitated to take help from charities or communities and it was always so. It seemed as if I was an orphan. I never doubted my integrity for reality. Not even for a split second. Humanity is a fraction of reality. I had doubts grasping complex society.
The hot chapattis are actually rotis. They were never available at house. It was bhaiya bhabhi United productions. It was dark. I trusted railway stations more than the mother who kept me subdued for selfish reasons.
I ate those rotis. The lady who cooked them is my mother. She verily deserves all my respect and reverence. I can touch her feet at any moment if required.
I never had those hot rotis before. Perhaps very briefly in 2018. It was a rainy affair in those days. I was investigating miracles then. Now I was sure of Kabbalistic Deuteronomy.
It’s not a sign of weakness to trust charities. A faction works inside this premise. Another works in that house. As many universes as beings: all overlapping with each other.
7. Ambrosia is costly. It’s gained by being meritorious but then as your consciousness expands: you need to grow all around : else you are always lacking something. Social intelligence or civics is connected to Morality. As you grow in intelligence you need to integrate all that you knew with the latest knowledge. Give credit to get credit. Don’t give debit as it creates further interest. Compound interest is too much to pay. Anyone in the world deserves as much freedom as you do. If you remember this: you shall be fine.
Roustabout!
1. I had a 15 minutes session on Data Science with Vaibhav who represents Business Toys. Vaibhav hails from Satara, Maharashtra. The session was for free from the firm.
2. He is currently located in Yeshwanthpur, Bangalore (Bengaluru.)
3. Data Science course would need 79999 rupees including GST. And a laptop or computer. Six months of one to one and half hours sessions would enable you to become a Business Analyst if you’re competitive enough.
4. Data Science has Machine learning and Deep learning.
5. Machine learning part needs knowledge of SQL, Python.
6. Deep learning platform is KERAS. It’s similar to Alexa by Amazon.
7. Foundation of machine learning is data recognition or pattern recognition. It’s extrapolated into descriptive analysis in deep learning via tensor imaging. The data has to be converted into visual models which can easily give information to businesses.
8. Why am I interested in Data Science? Because I am curious. Curiouser and curiouser.
9. Data is information. I asked him if it can be called energy. Switching from Computer Science to Physics.
10. His tone was moderate and he seemed like a good interlocutor.
11. This post might come across as an advertisement for Business Toys but it’s for my comprehension and to provide basic info to anyone interested.
12. Thanks Vaibhav and rest of the team!
A Tohu verse to celebrate the session:
Roustabout roundabout
Bout out of box
Index out of bound
Redound rebound
Underdogs will shine
Like vast effulgence of Grace!
Tacit jacitation
Chitta Ranjan January February
Clam round lambda unbound.
United Nations World Food Programme Free Rice!
I just raised 60000 grains of rice on Freerice! For every answer you get right, 5 grains go to the UN World Food Programme. Play it here: https://freerice.com/apps
The Day!
1. Logic comes to my rescue at times. Though it also hides the higher intelligence.
2. Counting, reading, writing, running, balancing, mindfulness, humility, modesty. They’re all treasures : until they’re not. If you master a skill you should also count the dependencies. Electricity, water, space, hygiene and availability of good food are basic constraints for those living in cities and towns.
3. Earnest salutations and business can’t go hand-in-hand in case of individuals. In case of macrocosm : anything and everything can happen. What did he mean when he said: I will play the game with balls for eons and eons: it meant something to him. No publication is allowed without a certain authorization. Whatever reached you was the best of the information available for you at that time.
4. Skill creates news. Rest is same. In love. In point zero. In sunn you sharpen the sword of knowledge for the journey ahead.
5. I received a training in impromptu speech today. The fundamental rests in noname files: I have been through it very many times. I would have mastered it if I was given a script to read. Then : there wouldn’t have been loss of accountability. Hence listeners and viewers. Shrauts and smarts. Kevin Spacey in the usual suspects. The jokes and teasing shouldn’t hurt. It’s not out of Truth but : infinite inexhaustible energy does appear to be limited in certain locks, books, constructions or ego structures.
The Birthday of Saturn!
1. Shani or Saturn was born as a progeny to Chhaya or Shadow when Sun, his father misconstrued her to be his wife, who, unable to bear his Taijas left to do penance. As to why she left a shadow behind remains a mystery. After coming to realise that he has given birth to Saturn out of the wedlock the Sun cursed the Shadow. Her son was unhappy with his father due to that.
2. Jyestha Amavasya or the new Moon is the date as per the Hindu lunar calendar.
3. On May 22, 2020, Friday, a rare stellium of Sun, Moon, Mercury and Venus happens in the sign of Taurus which is an outgoing Earth as well as exaltation sign of Moon and Mool trikona sign of Venus.
4. Saturn is in its own sign Capricorn with debilitated Jupiter. This is also a rare conjunction.
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6. Atmakaraka Mercury is in its friend’s sign and in Leo navamsa. Saturn is a hard Taskmaster who is happy if you perform your duties well.
7. Oil of til would be used to burn lamps under Ashwath tree today at the time of Twilight. Scorpion ascendant. Naga Karana. Debilitated Jupiter plus retrograde Venus, Saturn and Setting Sun. Moon which has waned indicate: Ouroboros with a coiled tail. An interesting study about the recent times.
8. Aum Shan Shanaish charaay namaha is the mantra for offering sacrifice to Saturn.
Dancing light of grace 