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Is Freedom Free?

1. I lost again. She scored 100 points more on both German and Algebra.

2. I registered some books. Maybe 35.

3. This is a beautiful day. Twilight Zone. Dakshinamurti strotam under eight petalled lotus.

4. I played some vocabulary jams. I need to play some more.

5. 2341325422 are ranks i received on jams. There were only 10 to 12 players. Yet: I had slowed down. My ability to slow down or increase my metabolic rate is nothing extraordinary. It’s akin to activity and rest. Like jogging and sleeping. From Tibetan Book to Kapil of Samkhya it’s a homecoming. Peace. Whatever you see is verily the Truth. Don’t look for miracles or hidden mysteries.

6. Day 6 in Deendayal rasoi:

I was asked to sit by a hand gesture.

Left hand gesture as the catering volunteer wearing glasses was writing with his right hand.

I sat there for a while; playing free rice. I was surprised to learn that he didn’t ask my name and wrote it by using his memory. It might be the biggest honor this month. I didn’t forget to thank him for his generosity. He was there in 2018:

“Dau ki bhauji ke XYZ. Jab karam bigad jaate hain to aisa hi hota hai…”

I am not sure who that was intended for but I took it to mean for me. It was a memory of delays. The cook had a longer pardah or ghoonghat than yesterday.

A guy with a T-shirt which had an image of Shiva and Bam written on it showed up.

They wanted me to write this note. The T-shirt was gifted by Guddu bhaiya. His name is present on the inauguration stone. Outside the premise. I never hesitated to take help from charities or communities and it was always so. It seemed as if I was an orphan. I never doubted my integrity for reality. Not even for a split second. Humanity is a fraction of reality. I had doubts grasping complex society.

The hot chapattis are actually rotis. They were never available at house. It was bhaiya bhabhi United productions. It was dark. I trusted railway stations more than the mother who kept me subdued for selfish reasons.

I ate those rotis. The lady who cooked them is my mother. She verily deserves all my respect and reverence. I can touch her feet at any moment if required.

I never had those hot rotis before. Perhaps very briefly in 2018. It was a rainy affair in those days. I was investigating miracles then. Now I was sure of Kabbalistic Deuteronomy.

It’s not a sign of weakness to trust charities. A faction works inside this premise. Another works in that house. As many universes as beings: all overlapping with each other.

7. Ambrosia is costly. It’s gained by being meritorious but then as your consciousness expands: you need to grow all around : else you are always lacking something. Social intelligence or civics is connected to Morality. As you grow in intelligence you need to integrate all that you knew with the latest knowledge. Give credit to get credit. Don’t give debit as it creates further interest. Compound interest is too much to pay. Anyone in the world deserves as much freedom as you do. If you remember this: you shall be fine.

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Sheinkin versus Dickinson!

1. What kind of surname is sheinkin?

2. Is it a distant cousin of Dickinson?

3. Or Dick? As in Phillip K. Dick.

4. Pyaasi is an Indian surname.

Pyaasi means thirsty.

Now: ‘White’ as a surname is not anymore attractive than ‘Thirsty’ but you know. Everyone loves their identity and conditioning. That’s why it exists.

I found surname Sheinkin in one of the vocab jams on vocabulary.com. The author of “Lincoln’s Gravediggers” has this surname.

A Tohu verse:

Yarmulke armistice

Ice very nice

Eyes spies

Latke jhatke jara hatke

Arra lox ox with a fox

Tchotchke hotpotpourri riffraff far off

Livery very veridiasical

Note: these words were culled from various Vocabulary jams on vocab.com

Latke means ‘hanging’ in Hindi. Latke latke : repeated twice means subject performed some action while they were hanging(out.)

Latke in Yiddish is a potato dish.

Words beginning with t?

Tchotchke

Tzimtzum is my favourite.

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After Deendayal Rasoi Day Five!

1. I took some pictures: uploaded them on instagram before I began writing this article. The weather is pleasant.

2. It is Sunday market. The Ramlila ground was fully occupied. I had a pleasant meal in Deendayal rasoi. The scrubber was inside the soap bucket. I looked for it around me and then dipped my hand inside the bucket. Guacamole is avocado dipped in a dish. Dipped in what?

3. I saw an exquisite Robin after exiting toilet. I washed my feet before I came to this place.

4. This has been an extraordinary year in many senses. Despite all miracles: it seems as if it’s a huge burden i am carrying. Most people don’t recall words from our last conversations whereas I tell them about chains of events and causation in vain. It’s because of miracles: it seems like an eternity. And there’s an eternity in the making. There’s no death, no aging or defeat in this game.

5. I developed following models for young people I used to interact with:

A. Game

B. Journey

C. War

D. Dream

E. School

6. I have no doubt that I love the School model the most. And yet: these are merely five prime models. There can be countless such models.

7. Journey model is used by Guru or psychonauts. Internal or external journeys are used with landmarks to ascertain progress. Crystalline intelligence is mostly about memories. Good or bad. Organized or disorganized.

8. Every model overlaps with other. As Kabbalistic sephirods scheme has material and spiritual worlds overlapping each other.

9. Take Truth realm universe or Sachkhand for example. There can be countless witnesses to tell about their experiences. I use it to debunk myths.

10. Try it: things are what they seem. If you see people : you’re seeing people. If you see trees: you’re seeing trees. If they say no: they mean no.

11. The laws are wierd and merciless.i participated in making of a video which was shot under Ashok tree. I was a reluctant participant. That journalist is present in the library today. He’s a member of the trust. I was reading “Teere Teere Narmada,” by Amritlal Vegad then. I wanted to buy the book but as they had only one copy left: I didn’t.

12. Shri took my picture. We were reading the post about fishes that was published yesterday from this very spot. First she asked why I don’t upload my selfie pictures on my blogs. Then, without my permission she took two shots. I asked her to show them to me-out of curiosity about my appearance. Then I requested her to delete them. She didn’t. I asked her to give me a picture of her face. She refused. I kept taking her shots with hope of capturing her face. She covered it. Then she asked me to not use her body’s picture on my blog. I agreed. What’s so special about our faces? Conditioning.

I reminded her to not behave in a way with others in which we don’t want others to behave with us.

“Don’t do unto others what you don’t want others to do unto you.”

13. She also showed a sketch done by her. She cut the paper and used it on back of her smartphone. She’s quick to learn and evolve. It was indeed flattering to have my picture captured by someone. But I don’t want to feel incapacitated. She refused to be captured. So did I. One day I was captured and they refused to delete my picture. I didn’t like it.

Eventually: she deleted my images and showed her phone. I deleted all 14 of her images and showed it to her.

14. She didn’t do her homework again. Why do people behave the way they do? We played on Free Rice: German, Algebra and Chemical symbols. She gave up on the last one very easily. Scored much better than me on German but lost on Algebra.

The key to score better than her is:

1. To not to chat with her as you play.

2. To focus on maximizing score instead of being righteous.

3. To not to multitask.

15. All indo-germanic languages have similar roots. That’s why I find it easy to answer questions on German and Spanish though I have never studied them systematically.

16. If I kept playing on Free Rice: soon I would be able to learn basic working ‘visual vocabulary’ of all languages offered there: German, Spanish, Greek and Latin.

17. As I was listening to Lucky Ali’s song from his album Sifar: the triangle on the palm symbol attracted my attention. Mercury, Saturn and Moon mounts are on top of three lines which create the triangle. The shape of Paratha. The cone. The dot in the centre is verily the Sun. The Self. The void. The black hole. Neither nor, either or, 1/0. Sefer Yetzirah.

18. Those who are quick to promise are found faltering when required to fulfill them. Don’t trust young people about serious issues. Buying half a kilogram of guava costs 20 rupees whereas eating them by plucking from a farmer’s farm brings 1000 demons of guilt. This is what comes from experience. If your requirements are simple, definable and affordable : they can be fulfilled if you’re willing to pay the price.

19. Ramcharan Vidyarthi came as I was cataloguing books. He told about Damayanti madam not being happy with my sweeping of library hall. I have been sweeping it on every Saturday. Yesterday she got it Sweeped before I reached. This gave them the right to talk behind my back, then bring it to my front, then make me write it and earn extra brownies. This is the way of the world. A tall broom is needed to remove cobwebs. I should have shown knack of tying the broom to the bamboo which was put outside the library hall. I didn’t.

20. Why should I learn driving a second hand Maruti 800 which has a complex gear mechanism when technological advancements have brought cars which run via manual gears which are as easy as flying personal chartered planes?

21. Why this third world mass manufacturing market of filth has all of the people producing offsprings who have similar fates? Limited and oppressing?

22. I set myself a goal to again reach Kumbhaka level 4 minutes. Lia was responding to oxygenation then. I confounded her with Nandita. Prosopagnosia. I had achieved it in 2003. This year took me on excursions which taught me mysteries of Atma Pariyojna. Mysterious ways of Kabbalistic Deuteronomy. I had to shut myself off comletely as every walk used to bring experience worth one book.

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Genealogy: Kaulava Tantra!

1. I just edited an article on Blogger’s World. Vishnu Jha who called yesterday didn’t call today. He specifically asked about the time and I asked him to call at about six o’ clock.

2. Absolute is formless. It’s also with form. It’s both and neither. It’s beyond description. If it was a male: devotion would be easy for all females: naturally. If it was a female: devotion would be easy for all males.

3. To suggest that all males should worship female deities for emancipation and vice versa is opposition of natural instinct in some people for same sex: gays and lesbians. It might be a trivial matter for some people but people like Oscar Wilde martyred themselves in what might have been dark ages.

4. Those who called same sex marriages unnatural might be right in an orthodox sense. Keeping males and females segregated for long in groups when nature actually drives them to produce offsprings and then carry that hanging stomach for the rest of their lifetimes; might have been the root cause or maybe not. In any case the resolution is towards highest individual freedom without hurting communities at large.

5. Most of our lives are wasted in search of Truth about temples, deities and reality. Whose search is that?

6. As many deities as cards. As many supports as lives. As many companions as walks of lives. As many romances as possible. Who or what brought the concept of one husband and one wife to whom we always return? One mother. One father. One friend. One Self. Oneself. Why? Fatigue. Activity and rest.

7. Sun took the baton of Jaiminee Atmakaraka from Mars in afternoon.

8. It was a most pleasant day. Beautiful. It drizzled after a long time.

9. I saw a car with number plate MP16MC5555. The number is certainly a special number. I thought about testing the vehicle number search app. I tried it in vain. An advertisement asked me to use Google voice search instead. As soon as I cancelled the advertisement I saw that the car door opened and an angel came out of it. She was talking on phone. A moustached man was looking towards Southeast. A baby boy was in the front seat. Playing.

10. How many synchronicities I observe everyday? How many of them are well planned because people care about what I think, read or write?

11. She told me that Shri went to attend an NCC class. Immediately i recalled the addition I did yesterday: CHHATARPUR adds up to 6. The whole thing written on the entrance to NCC wing adjacent to stadium complex adds up to 69. I recall the bikers who acted with that pony tail girl that day. I understand it in conjunction with “Bhavana Ke Bhojpatron Par:” someone attended the camp. She considered me intelligent. I was better than ‘A.’ I knew about the L movement of horse while he could only make an open square. The trip to Gayatri Mandir: the code was cracked in favor of higher intelligence by Damayanti madam. So instead of just one family two were involved with a national institute. I keep working harder.

She said :” she’s still not working…is she?”

I was wondering what my response was supposed to be as nothing had transpired between two of us since yesterday.

12. This is mind boggling for most readers. I can ensure that if you read it without experience in genealogy you’re bound to confound.

She needs more credit: she asked me: “you aren’t in any kind of search anymore now, are you?”

13. This was clearly in opposition to my command to Shri when we used to sit just besides sieving machine. Osho as well as Ramkrishna mission teachers used to advise their students to sit properly as body postures are first and foremost foundations for further progress in Yoga.

14. What has Yoga got to do with English and Hindi lessons ?

15. If students sit properly they learn better. If they don’t they don’t. Same with concentration: if they’re onycophagists and keep moving their legs or arranging their hair or attending their calls while teachers give them their total attention: they receive less than they should. They learn less than they should.

16. If you can’t take my class for more than half an hour: pay me 1000 rupees for 15 hours per month. That’s fine by me. If your wards can’t sit with a straight spinal cord for more than 15 minutes: pay me 1000 rupees per 15 hours.

16. To all those who doubt my ethical uprightness: I have given it enough thought. If it was a boy instead of girl and I was paid 1000 rupees for 30 hours : I would have been equally responsible. Why do I need to give a character certificate to myself? CAA is coming Pranaam dena padega.

17. I taught Golu, Ankit, Vivek and couple of his friends, Aakash and Saarthak inside that premise. Shri was smarter than all of them. I knew that as soon as I spoke to her for a while. She had studied in an English medium school. In a CBSE school. She is an only child of her parents. She’s from Bengal and Orissa. For a while she kept paying emphasis on Bengal and then she switched over to Orissa. She doesn’t know Oriya: therefore you know whether patriarchy or matriarchy is valued in her family.

18. Of all people who interacted with me: Jasveer had good English vocabulary but he lacked balance. He was out there to convert. As soon as I reached there he tagged me “right wing.” Only when I praised Ravish Kumar: “oh he’s my friend!” Ok Sardar ji: now please calm down. I took him to Mote Ke Mahaveer and Hanuman Tauriya on auto because I wasn’t sure about driving licence thing. Their behaviour did change when I took bike for a few days. Remember Viraat? Bahut Badaa ho gaya… irrigation department!!!!!!!!!!!

19. I am for hire. Anyone who’s willing to pay me more than 1000 rupees per 30 hours for teaching them English vocabulary, writing, Grammar, Hindi writing, vocabulary etc. And have an environment or space where they can study undisturbed for about an hour can contact me. They should be living inside Chhatarpur district. Age, sex, color, cast, creed, nationality, ethnicity, sexual orientation, religious views: no bar.

20. Contact number: 7000697798

21. I would have continued to teach her Mathematics and Science in evening if the school board hadn’t interrupted with sudden tests. I need some sleep now.

22. The yogadas: Yogananda searched for some lost love. So did Osho. I also do so by looking for Aditi. Perhaps that’s why that memory was created. I have seen many adepts in 2020 but none who could bring back true message from Aditi. Where did she reincarnate? If she didn’t: what was my karmic connection? Her name was Aditi Billore. She died in a car accident on Nowgong road with two of her parents in 1992. Let me know if you can show me.

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Piccalilli

Aren’t you odd?

Oh piccalilli?

I once met a Piccadilly

Dilly dallying,

Shilly shallying,

Through thick and through thin,

Kith and kin.

Oh piccolo,

Piccalilli,

Piccadilly!

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Laddoo!

1. I went to get the bottle filled with water. The lady preparing laddoos offered me some the moment recognition converted from fragrance to form.

2. I told her: “I don’t eat anything stealthily.” At that moment secretary appeared with the president of the trust. I saluted them both and then told her that I was in the field and entered into kitchen to fill the bottle. She then gave me a laddoo: an offer I couldn’t resist. Coming from authority. That’s the way things are in the world of archons. Let’s forget about masks for a while: black and white. I had til candies which I bought at Sahooji’s shop. Til laddoo is next.

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Roustabout!

1. I had a 15 minutes session on Data Science with Vaibhav who represents Business Toys. Vaibhav hails from Satara, Maharashtra. The session was for free from the firm.

2. He is currently located in Yeshwanthpur, Bangalore (Bengaluru.)

3. Data Science course would need 79999 rupees including GST. And a laptop or computer. Six months of one to one and half hours sessions would enable you to become a Business Analyst if you’re competitive enough.

4. Data Science has Machine learning and Deep learning.

5. Machine learning part needs knowledge of SQL, Python.

6. Deep learning platform is KERAS. It’s similar to Alexa by Amazon.

7. Foundation of machine learning is data recognition or pattern recognition. It’s extrapolated into descriptive analysis in deep learning via tensor imaging. The data has to be converted into visual models which can easily give information to businesses.

8. Why am I interested in Data Science? Because I am curious. Curiouser and curiouser.

9. Data is information. I asked him if it can be called energy. Switching from Computer Science to Physics.

10. His tone was moderate and he seemed like a good interlocutor.

11. This post might come across as an advertisement for Business Toys but it’s for my comprehension and to provide basic info to anyone interested.

12. Thanks Vaibhav and rest of the team!

A Tohu verse to celebrate the session:

Roustabout roundabout

Bout out of box

Index out of bound

Redound rebound

Underdogs will shine

Like vast effulgence of Grace!

Tacit jacitation

Chitta Ranjan January February

Clam round lambda unbound.

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Morning Bowling Session!

1. Purva Phalguni quarter four is ruled by Mars. It’s a Tuesday. Venus rules Purva Phalguni which falls in Leo constellation. By this evening Moon will enter Virgo. Moon has exceeded degrees of Mars and by evening it will exceed degrees achieved by Venus, becoming Atmakaraka for a while before it enters house of Mary.

2. I saw many pigeons as I bowled in Shatabdi. I was late. I saw 14 Chepla birds going South. They indicate a cycle. I saw an army personnel on a bicycle in green pagdi going towards Chhatrasal Carrefour as I was entering academy. I bought a black mask worth twenty rupees. A wire was lying broken outside the old Gyandeep stationery.

3. Shiva came to drop Rukman. She’s now an aspirant for MBA. She wanted to become an anchor and a pilot. She had a brief stint at MMHS as a teacher. She says she finds preparation for MBA to be easier now than what it seemed before. Now they have more colleges and more options. Richa Gupta cracked it easily. I used to teach her words using Michael Quinion’s World Wide Words. Of all the students I have taught vocabulary to: Richa was smartest. She was deep and in the induction she used words to mean that people shouldn’t treat other people as objects. She didn’t know that it becomes absolutely necessary to do so in some walks of life. She had a Virgo Moon and Scorpio ascendant and she was my first friend on Facebook. In fact she invited me to join Facebook. Her husband also has a Virgo ascendant with Virgo Moon. They’re rich people.

4. Dhruv is now working out with Yash. It’s good that they’re working out even before they reached college. I worked out in college for about three years in Suresh Soni’s gym. I took cretin in those days for a while which had fish extracts. I knew what I was doing. I also had bread which had egg as a component when Prashant Gupta brought it in Mahaveer Colony house.

5. I always felt lack of food and space. Leonardo Da Vinci always felt lack of time. We are all striving after something or the other.

6. It’s eighth day of dark half of lunar month as per Hindu calender. I could see Moon in the Southern direction. The pentagon in the star hanging on Church of MMHS has five three pointed stars. The pentagon is red whereas stars are white. The core represents heart or red drop whereas white triangles represent white drops in trinities. Red drop absorbs white ones and bliss is born. Logos is a negative energy or a positive power based on whether you adhere to Archons or Gnostics respectively. I asked Shiva if she would be able to refer me to Maria Mata staff. She said I might have a chance in next session. It might be a long wait. You don’t know what’s going to happen next.

7. I bowled 60 times. 10 overs. Sweating. 17 hits. 8122020. Saturn. Venus. Mars. Balance.

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An Eventful Day!

1. This day seems to be more eventful than i expected it to be.

2. It’s 15:02 PM. I might be a strike breaker. I had a word for it. The dark skin which comes on your wound after it begins to heal. Scab is the word. It’s because i feel hungry already.

3. All protests are symbolic.

4. I took pictures from the spot where they’re sitting in protest against farmer’s bill and MSP. Kajal ki kothri mein kaiso hi sayano jaay…….

11 to eat!

5.

Void is filled by Bhagwan. Don’t be void!

6. AKA: Khaali dimaag devil’s workshop. Gulzar’s Aandhi.

7. Whenever they talk about fasting i begin feeling more hungry.

8. I suggested the plank guy to put a dot on Hai to make it plural: Hain. He did it after the second suggestion and directive from madam.

9. Imran Akhtar Beg met me outside ATM again. I called him by name. We had a discussion. I recalled having forgotten my ball in the Shatabdi ground.

10. He might take Spoken English classes from me beginning from 11.12.2020.

11. Another reminder of how we remember different aspects of our friends:

A. He recalled our college days. I used to see him with Anil as they were pursuing their MCA. He also recalled our Cricket practice in middle school.

B. I recalled his being a top scorer in handwriting competition. I tried many formats, copied many styles and sometimes Abhishek Narayana Sinha used to appear with a pencil and copied just four lines which used to fetch him first, second or third rank.

Imran was genuinely a good human being. I hope he’s still a good human being. When i used to ask him where he used to get his fair notebooks from: he used to tell: from depot my father brings them.

I could never comprehend where this depot was but his father definitely took care of his studies well. No wonder he has been gainfully employed for a long time.

12. I had a dream. A dog which became a lion vanished in East. Became a star. Dog star? I saw seven sisters. They’re still here. Though Shri says they’re seven : they’re eight as i have observed them often. Vidyarthiji says it’s Bayaa also known as Ghengha. It’s an expert in nest making but its eyes are yellow. They give it an appearance of anger.

After the vanishing of lion i came out of the Pooja Room in house. I move towards right to parent’s room and see many students. It was after chaos. I couldn’t make heads or tales of the dream.

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Shri is Unpredictable!

1. I had a long walk to railway station after I was informed by my employer that they no longer needed my service. Rohan’s uncle paid me 30 rupees as a payment for six days of service.

2. I enjoyed visiting the station after a long time.

3. I hired a taxi with ‘Atul’ written on back of it on my walk back towards Chhatrasal Carrefour.

4. He charged me only 15 rupees though usual charge is 20 rupees.

5. I had two samose at chaat thela. They were cold. The couple of biscuit packets sustained me. Like yesterday, there was another batch of people meeting outside library. I shared my biscuits with a dog.

6. I heard them speak in meeting. I spotted Atul: the guy with moustache who used to frequent Pawan Gupta shop in my marijuana days.

7. Strangely: two of the faces on posters were Shuklas and one was named Anand Shukla. The guy from Khajuraho has a problem in his left leg.

8. They are struggling for pension. I am struggling for pocket money. They are all better off than me. I mean who gets a 1000 rupees per month these days? With another job lost i am left with Shri. She’s unpredictable.

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Sunday Morning!

1. 6 overs. I concentrated on Fielding as well as Bowling.

2. There are three parties in ground.

3. I observe plenty of work that has been put by academy on ground: when i came here there were only two pitches. Now there are four and twenty pillars. Many new players have joined and many have dropped. No commentary this morning.

4. Sun is shining brightly. I took some pictures and watched pigeons do somersault in air.

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A Kingfisher and a Robin!

1. I balled 34 times. 11 hits. Enough of running this morning. Hockey players, Cricket players, Academy batch of Cricket.

2. Two men come with their gear. They look lost. I approach them and they ask about the entrance. I tell them about the old entrance and also about the new. The rhetoric:

Which side is entrance?

Westside. The new entrance faces North.

You might see it on your way to the carrefour.

Do you live here?

We have been called from Bhopal.

Upon being asked the very first question the assistant spits gutka to his left side. Architects are above being questioned.

So this ground belongs to college?

Yes.

And what about the stadium?

Not sure. Many people come over there.

Then they took my leave.

3. Can you think about my privileges? Stadium has been locked. Boys jump inside. Even I can jump for running. I am innocuous. As long as I have space I can run here: else I would need to go to Panna Tiger Reserve.

4. A lot of architectonics this morning. The ground where we scored like Bradman and kept records: Ankur and I: was being inspected this morning. Maybe they have decided to build a house and the land has been sold. Ghanshi was there. Tall. I thought she said something. I saluted her excellency.

5. Did I pass in addressing ? Baburam Chaturvedi Stadium and Shatabdi hall. Where else would you go running? The National Higher Education building was being built when i was roaming around billboards. Situation has changed only a bit. Those who have money have the right to spend and show off. Billboards entertain. Beautiful models like Blue Buddha and SRK girl. Why not. You have it: show it off. Yes, definitely. Like bullets, Lauries, tall buildings, helicopters, technologies and clout. I mean why not? Definitely.