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No degrees will be awarded this time!

Made in Bangladesh

1. Event:  I bowled 100 times.

I intended to bowl 140 times, like yesterday.

There were too many people inside Shatabdi today.

I met Yash on my way to Shatabdi ground.

It seemed strange that he recognised me after having not recognised before . Twice. Just outside Satguru stationary and in Shatabdi. I made a boxing gesture that day.

After a brief discussion we parted ways. A flower dropped from a tree in MMHS. Almost where Abhishek Rajput and company had broken a glass window and burnt some fire.

I bowled for a while. Then a boy asked me to bowl elsewhere as it was disturbing him. I chose the place he recommended.

2. Miracle

And lo and behold! There was the cap I thought I would buy. No. It’s a used cap. Nike. Made in Bangladesh. Darbar print. I wanted to buy a cap to don in marriage ceremony of my friend Abhishek. I received an invitation after many years to attend a marriage ceremony and it comes from an oath keeper. A Ph. D. This guy met me after two decades and we shared some memories. Then he talked about another sudden fire and fever in his family.

3. Declaration:

This cap doesn’t belong to me. I just picked it up from ground. Anyone who claims it can have it immediately. No need to buy another. I would drop it as soon as I get a new one.

4. Memories

There was that guy I played Cricket with. I also recalled Vivek who accussed me of chucking as I was too good and bowled him over continuously in stadium. I recalled many other things: how I went to MMHS after getting a two rupee note from a man who was sitting before a woman who was someone’s 27 year old wife. I was only seven. That girl took me to school. It was second hour already. The brother had disappeared. Rekha mam was teaching Mathematics. I got scared of big guys like Amit Shukla and Brijesh Chakraborty: reason? They had been there since kindergarten. And their skin’s color was fair…like English people.

What the **** is going on here?

I had completed the third class in Taparian and I was supposed to get admitted into fourth but they took me into second class based on my vocabulary.

I was building bridges then: unbeknownst to myself. Villages and towns. Then came Cricket. Jumping and frolicking.

I recalled another ragging phase in college. This might be called doctoral ragging. No degrees will be awarded this time around. Well played!

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Notes from the distractions!

1. He was one of the genuine trolls belonging to the league who somehow became inimical to me for no reason: as much as to write verses which described hellfire. It was a long ago. Hackers. Blackmailing kabbalistic league.

2. I hardly have energy left for any recording. Hero has his nameplate and company pasted on his bike.

3. Ashutosh Thakur was back with same story. No variation. I was obliged to take him to the librarian.

4. For this guy interpreted Quaran to mean to ‘read,’ : eyes are placed above ears in head: only one book: But what about the grace on top of the skull: then all organs are blissful gateways to eternity. Void upon void.

5. I was assembling books in Vrindavan where I tried to create a library for everyone’s advantage. It clearly meant that I was reading even before trolls and company started complaining about reading.

6. And among other things: he wrote a post about disputed lands. Every peace of land here is disputed: which whore bought which one is immaterial to me beyond a means of everyday behaviour.

7. Gandhi Smarak Bhavan has at least four chains of commands: they all finally merge into Congress party.

8. One chain is that of Harijana Sevak Sangh. They looked down upon me more than bramhins looked down upon Harijana in the history of mankind. Ambedkar would have cried looking at them and Gandhi as well. All of them are opportunists.

9. Other chain is that of municipal corporation: Harijana Sevak Sangh plus Satyashodhan is associated with it as they all come under it. For a long time: the librarian kept feeding me with worries about them using the complex as parking space for their vehicles. Now: there’s no conflict between those two.

10. The naturopathy group is small and at odds with the trust it seems but internally they are all one. My only objective was to read books and then I was given the task of bookkeeping by the librarian. It was a volunteer activity without any payment. Whatever tuitions I have been allowed to take created mostly enough energy to keep me on the ventilator : never enough.

11. Thus: with four or five chains of command: plus there being a hidden, unspoken sphere of socio-political activities in which clairvoyants, shamans, tantrikis as well as farmers and aboriginal people work together: the centre is constant flux.

12. I scored well on jams. Why are these people agitated? I played three in morning.

13. I had a nice sleeping session in the afternoon before I woke up. I was late to stadium. I bowled only ten times with a new Mark ball bought from Chetan Sports and Science gallery.

14. Imitating must be the best of compliment. I found a couple mocking me by imitating my subroutine.

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Six Jams!

1. 351531: six jams on vocab.com.

2. The first couple of jams were hacked. As soon as total number of participants reaches near hundred servers tend to crash. Might be lack of data and premature conclusion.

3. Reasoning type question: only one.

4. Fill in the blanks are most difficult because they need reading of entire questions, then choosing options and clicking, all within the ten seconds time.

5. Easiest are synonymous and definition type questions especially in the quizzes where word roots based questions are asked as they depend only on long term memory and solving them doesn’t even need reading entire questions.

6. I played enough of WFP Free Rice to compensate for yesterday.

Samaya: The Great Time

7. I washed enough number of utensils to compensate for yesterday.

8. I bowled only ninety two balls because it took time to enter inside stadium. Some biker shouted: “stadium has been closed.” I jumped over the door with a group of kids who said it was akin to an army drill for them. I have jumped over three doors so far: three more remaining.

9. Three hundred rupees by Shailendra: they were received after talking to about eight people : after making at least seven phone calls: after going to a stranger’s house thrice. After convincing them that I was in the dire need.

10 An objection remains: Shailendra didn’t talk. After receiving the money: Aakash said: since he quit your coaching five days before the monthly session was completed: he deserves to pay only for twenty five days. The way events happened from my viewpoint make it clear: they were not upto English Vocabulary and Grammar alone. They were supposed to learn all subjects. The manner in which Shailendra disappeared was not honorable or compensation for my services. In case of most of them I was being sacrificed and if I didn’t appear on a day or two: they didn’t actually fulfill their part by keeping notebook on vocabulary. They didn’t learn words. If you want to learn English or other subjects for a month: you need to attend classes for a month. Better pay in advance so that your teacher has enough life force to teach you : instead of mocking him or her not being upto your ethical or any other standards. If Shailendra still feels I did him wrong: I am willing to teach him for five days without charging anything. I will give him water of life to drink and I will give him words to memorize and their association. Only Shailendra not other smartypants.

11. Now that I have money to support myself for next nine days at max: I need to get another hundred rupees from Suyash : which he might be able to pay by the eighteenth as promised. Rest of the payments will be made by the first of November by the students of new batch. It will be clear by twentieth if the new batch is going to start or not. In any case: I still am living below poverty line for some strange reason. The barber has got a ration card. I have no subsidy. No quota. No protection. I have poisonous people around me who want to suck life force out of me because they can’t control me for long.

12. I went to academy. Somehow Jai called me after a while to help him practice. He doesn’t know that I narrated an event about him. If you remove the possibility of some kind of conspiracy: only two possible reasons exist: first: I was familiar and free: he felt comfortable with me. That removes my understanding of his being in a league which is beyond my access: off course I cannot afford a kit for next two years at the rate I am earning money. The second: his gift or being Indigo: that remains the only possible explanation : his tanned face and the manner he played were enough to tell me that he had been working hard like his coach and if they had perfection like mine: they would have first removed the Sun and then started to practice. Which ensures either an award in method acting for the whole group or my delusions being removed. In any case: I couldn’t have done anything else. The treatment in the dressing room. The Swati versus Saafi: then some young boys asking why I chose stadium over academy. The only pattern has been : my resolutions being broken by some parties or other. For balance or imbalance: however you might like to interpret it: To Vallalar.

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United Nations World Food Programme Free Rice Help Alleviate The Hunger!

I just raised 53000 grains of rice on Freerice! For every answer you get right, 5 grains go to the UN World Food Programme. Play it here: https://freerice.com/apps

1. Police van was absent from the stadium. I walked a few rounds and asked a man whether he practiced holding breath. He said he could hold it for a minute. He was practicing alternate nostril breathing on the Western side of pavilion near police quarters. It’s for the first time in a long time that police van was absent. It has been about a month since stadium reopened. Footballers, cricketers, runners and Walker’s along with badminton players and yoga practitioners gather for a while and eat samose or pohe before dispersing again. Sun has been harsh in the last few days.

2. I practiced catching with the plastic ball and walked in the academy ground. Here many students of Cricket were practicing to catch the ball. I see plenty of garbage but no drive in people to cleanse it. If I spend my time and energy in doing this: I gain nothing because I am deprived of the energy to teach the classes efficiently. I haven’t seen municipal corporation work in this ground even once in the last one month. It’s not up to me to take initiative and struggle at every place making sacrifices. No change whatsoever was observed in my neighborhood after having worked painstakingly for cleansing the grounds. Rather I was met with resistance and once I started playing Cricket some people got too jealous. I only have as much of energy in the timespace as is needed for my everyday jobs. I need to prioritize and save energy in all forms for longevity. I don’t need to watch miracles which leave me on mercy of hounds.

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United Nations World Food Programme: Free Rice: Help Alleviate Hunger!

I just raised 44000 grains of rice on Freerice! For every answer you get right, 5 grains go to the UN World Food Programme. Play it here: https://freerice.com/apps

1. I was paid my fees today after I requested my student. It was delayed by about one and half day. To feed myself I have to work hard these days.

2. I got the new job. I taught these new students at a new location. The guy who owns the room came flashing a tea cup as soon as it was five minutes more than the allotted hour. I was giving homework to the senior student. He directed a jab at me: “leave now or do you need tea or coffee?” These are poor people. Poor in spirit as well as knowledge.

3. As I was thinking about the guy who let me play Cricket with him in the academy: another group of four people came. They were polite but they had one leather ball. I knew from the onset that the bat was soon going to succumb to the ball.

4. The utility of cinema and movies: they do away with lust for mundane. Art is indeed the culmination of philosophy. The most refined expression. It’s made costlier, like sky, water, space, air and fresh ether day by day. You are crushed by taboos like death, sex, military and police so that life becomes more difficult than it already is. There are countless memes fighting with each other and vying for your attention. The end: two of them: light and darkness: freedom and slavery defining each other. I face the acute problem of being underpaid despite giving my best in teaching. The students and their surrounding area consume life force. In return: they wait for the moments when you are the weakest to attack you. Though you are supposed to honor all the contracts: nobody asks them about why they pay so little and that too with delay.

5. I visited the library knowing well it will be an exhibition on occasion of Gandhi’s birthday. I saw some thirty people over there. Most of them are unfamiliar. They’re all well fed people. Khaadi is so costly that I haven’t been able to buy even a single kurta in the last two three years.

6. I am free. A sovereign. I serve only myself. I see only myself. I am seeing sights never before seen. I am seeing magic tricks. The last few excruciating deaths only confirm that you can’t rely on family or friends. They are myths. It’s a non stop war as far as market is concerned. Lal Bahadur Shastri was also born on this day. The handpump given by the government scheme in the movie Peepli Live redirects you towards humorous side of poor people sacrificing themselves. I asked a guy about “Aatma Pariyojna” and he affirmed about having heard it.

7. I asked myself : if I was slave to money or environment. The gnosis revealed: money was a dense form of energy or food which was need to sustain life force. Minimalism was supposed to work for all of us combined. In a scheme where some people have hoarded for aeons : while you followed the precept of letting go: you are left with a bowl. The teachings of classic texts become the cause of your constant poverty. I shape environment and the environment shapes me. The academy ground was not as clean as the road where I used to go for walk. Come to think of it: in the last twenty five days there have been no municipality people to cleanse the ground. There are many who litter, drink and through stray paper as well as water pouches. Everyone likes cleanliness but it seems to be only up to me to maintain it at my house, in the academy ground as well as other places. It’s strange that these people feel no need to clean up their mess.

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Oh my God-head Radix!

1. Oh my God-head radix.

2. I had 250 grams of fresh milk which I bought from the Neelesh milk dairy. It’s an unforeseen unprecedented event in my life: as symbolic as it must be.

3. I put some sugar into milk. I don’t know how I am going to pay for it: perhaps by buying half a kilogram of sugar once I can afford it: which might be tomorrow provided I can take it easy with budget.

4. It was fun running in the playground. Then solving Grammar questions inside Cricket academy ground where I realized that I needed to complete my reading of the Constitution of India. I have downloaded the PDF. The constituent assembly had 284 members with B. R. Ambedkar, Narsingh Rau and Mukherjee being chief architects.

5. The Magic of thinking big. Who moved my cheese. Bundeli festivals. I got to see a book which had the list of books Gandhi had read: there were 248 titles. It was compiled by Dharma Vir. The list mostly had books by Arnold Toynabee, Leo Tolstoy and Dada Bhai Naoroji. I didn’t see anything written by Oriental Philosophers : by Vedvyasa or Shankaracharya or Baadraayana. It might be because Gandhi had imbibed the elements of eastern philosophy quite early in his life and later on he went to study Western philosophy. He did try to take elementary lessons in Tamil and Arabic and he also studied Quran.

6. I have only five rupees coin left in my wallet. This does depreciate my market value but this smartphone is worth last one years of multiple sacrifices and untold miseries in pursuit of knowledge, happiness and peace. The madman seemed to be jerky today: his name is Dhaneeraam and he likes to dress. I called my student to ask him if he could check with his mother about the payment of my fees. He called me a few minutes later saying “you will get your rupees tomorrow.” This looks promising: along with the prospect of a new patch of road to recovery of my business.

7. I would like to teach Grammar and Vocabulary to that seventh standard student if I can. And if they are available and willing to receive the teaching. It might begin day after tomorrow. Fortunes change within minutes : who can tell what is going to happen in a few days.

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Morning : Running and walking!

I just raised 36000 grains of rice on Freerice! For every answer you get right, 5 grains go to the UN World Food Programme. Play it here: https://freerice.com/apps

1. I am playing Free Rice quiz on English Grammar. It’s similar to the syntax I used to work on as a programmer analyst. I met V just outside the academy.

2. I had a plate of poha to eat. I need to buy a packet of detergent powder. I ran four rounds in stadium and walked 4-5 rounds.

3. The Science Fiction movie that I watched yesterday didn’t reach to the conclusion. It had many elements from what is happening in my life. The ancient bird from the Twilight Zone: the episode where the protagonist repeatedly goes to a pool where some bones or alive birds are present: I observed them at first when I crossed Brijpura hill and reached to a new patch of road. I observed it here but I was wondering if it was no longer available for me. I saw it again. Twice. It had a dark black hue and streamlined body which makes it capable to fly long distances.

4. I already feel sleepy. Though I need to go to library and work on books. I have been immune to noises with the music but it all has a limit. If anything is not allowed: I usually let it go.

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Hypothesis and Proof For Doctorate in Architectectonics!

1. I am sitting on a bench numbered 31. It is under a Margossa tree. I am sitting on the right side. Vehicles are passing. I sat here just six minutes ago. Three of them came on a passion bike. Now they’re chatting. I made entries into the list of books in the library catalogue. It was 46 books today. I read some passages. One of them was from Vikram Vetaal : the narrative is about the fountain of youth and immortality. Vikram and Vetaal are protagonists. The variation: here instead of Bhrithari who was supposed to be the elder brother of Vikram in the city of Ujjayini, Vikram is the elder brother and he’s the potentate of Chandrabhaan city. The Vikram Samvat or epoch was named after Vikramaditya and I remember having read ‘Simhasan Batteesee’ a long time ago. A young boy used to sit on a raised platform made of sand. Under it: a treasure was hidden but nobody was aware of it. The treasure belonged to that boy. The number of teeth : 32. The control mechanism: bones, teeth, tendons, muscles, sounds, electricity, words, letters and symbols. Archetypes are gross karmic layers in the collective consciousness. An alternate version of Bhagwad Geeta’s : kaamaat jaayte Krodha: in the context of four fold meanings of life for all beings in Bhagwad Geeta: activity follows rest. Ceaselessly activity or ceaseless rests are to be claimed only by those who keep playing all the times and never know any fatigue, unease or anxiety. Do such beings exists? I have to still meet one. Vestige is a company. I interpreted its meaning for a flower seller couple of years ago. In those days he had a chemical which dissolved warts. I didn’t have money to buy that. I don’t know the meaning of warts on body albeit they don’t look so good. The guy in the ashrama was using black Earth to massage his body so that it gets rid of excessive heat and gets healthy shining skin. Naturopathy.

2. Today the music didn’t get manipulated here. I wanted to test it. In the Cricket Academy it started happening before I expected it. The guy who was wearing crayon color yesterday was wearing black today.

3. Now I need to eat something. It has to be spicy. Like vadaa paav. I need to buy another plastic ball to continue practice.

4. Tricyclist. Theater people and such meet me everyday. I pay them no heed. Though I respect their art and skill: I need to focus on my own food and game.

5. It has been many days since I took tea. Though I have been consuming milk a lot lately. Not a lot, actually: just enough.

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United Nations World Food Programme: Help Alleviate Hunger!

I just raised 35000 grains of rice on Freerice! For every answer you get right, 5 grains go to the UN World Food Programme. Play it here: https://freerice.com/apps

1. The scooty of the academy coach had difficulty in starting.

2. I had a conversation with a guy who owns a white dog. He threatened a rickshaw guy while another guy was beating him. It was all an act. He kept saying ‘swati’ while he meant saafi which is a word for towel.

3. The cricket match had 34 players.

4. The kid texted the student. The Fielding coach was old: all of a sudden.

5. I played vocabulary quiz for Spanish language on Free Rice. I had samose, poha and water to drink. If I hadn’t turned towards the traffic jam: the need to beat the rickshaw guy wouldn’t have been there. The water and the advanced marble. A guy came with a milk pouch and bananas: I handed it over to the shop owner and the pouch worth five rupees changed into pouches worth two rupees each.

6. Timeline seemed to change. Demonetization because of memories.

7. I had a nice time walking with music. The external control of music continued today. Though I despise it I don’t know a way around yet.

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United Nations World Food Programme and routine!

I just raised 31000 grains of rice on Freerice! For every answer you get right, 5 grains go to the UN World Food Programme. Play it here: https://freerice.com/apps

1. I played vocabulary quiz on aforementioned site.

2. I washed my clothes.

3. I had a nice meal. I only have a five rupees coin left in the purse. Incense sticks, soaps and other everyday needs require money. The student who was supposed to pay my fees yesterday might pay today. His mother was not present in the library. Instead I got another job offer to teach a young girl who needs elementary education.

4. When I reached library I was sleepy because I had done three rounds of jogging and about eight rounds of walking in the stadium. It was fun to watch them play football, cricket and other games. I might continue to jog everyday as it gives a better stamina than mere walking.

5. I reached academy late. They were packing up. V was deciding whether he wants to groom himself as a bowler or as a batsman. He again talked about the old phone. The F. K. kid is a chatterbox. He talks nonstop and doesn’t let anyone else talk. His tone indicates he is from UP.

6. The guy who helps the coach with nets and always reaches first to the field walks 12 kilometers everyday. The boy with him is also a dedicated guy.

7. I had a nice time watching movies after a long time. I don’t get time to watch movies because of my busy schedule. I saw an old friend yesterday. I saw couple of quantum entanglement events today. I need to work harder on my writing and game. I need a steady source of income. I opened an account on PayPal and Paytm but I have no bank account to link them with.

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United Nations World Food Program: Free Rice!

I just raised 24000 grains of rice on Freerice! For every answer you get right, 5 grains go to the UN World Food Programme. Play it here: https://freerice.com/apps

1. I went to stadium without an umbrella. It started to rain after I watched three boys play basketball.

2. At the pavilion: I observed some guys getting trained at various athletic exercises. I also observed a calm guy practicing meditation. I kept listening to divine melodies. My friends were playing cricket in the academy. They have cancelled the trip to Lavakushanagar. Vaibhav seems to have developed good bonding with the coach and the new entry from the Chetgiri Colony is an enthusiastic learner. The MVM boys who practiced catching the ball with me were disciplined in their approach.

3. I saw a student who took couple of English lessons from me when I used to go for long walks to Brijpura. I asked him why they stopped attending my classes and he replied: “girls in our batch had some problem.” The contract with the owner of the coaching didn’t mention any such problems. I tried my best to deliver and teach but he kind of disappeared from the scene : keeping the kids on the forefront. As on all previous occasions : whatever came through my mother, brothers or father or grandmother: always had duplicity or underhand tactics. Never stating clearly what was going on there. I was not there to take lessons but to teach and to earn a living. They made a joke of the contract and a joke of themselves as I had already written well in advance on this very blog. Good riddance.

4. I had a nice time in library reading some Vaishnava bhakti literature as I catalogued the books. Ankit: the oldest acquaintance in the Gandhi Bhavan greeted me from the “peeping tom” hole. I hastened to catalogue books and took no more than thirty minutes to get out. Two minutes extra.

5. It was rare to meet Dhaniraam outside the Poha shop near stadium. Prashant Khare and Vaibhav were present. They told that he never eats what is given to him and puts it on trees for birds. I didn’t know that about him. I gave him the samosa I was going to have and he also asked for a bit of Poha from the shop owner.

6. It was slightly difficult to walk as it was drizzling and slippers were slipping. I was also concerned about the safety of the smartphone.

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Twilight zone bird!

1. The tower of light where I used to roam around in my early childhood is visible.

2. A puzzle was solved after 15 years. A Cisco Certified Network Associates teacher whose mother was a psychiatrist beated a classmate because they hid a duster. Now maybe I understand .

3. Azaan is heard from a nearby mosque and a few kids are frolicking.

4. The Moon is sleeping.

5. Kids in academy were enjoying the good weather.

6. I gave my phone number to another acquaintance.

7. Batlings horsefly flyover flutterby overture undertone noted ones instead of outstead battue Tuesday daylight light years earmarked marksmanship hip-hop gossamer mercurial shipwrecked rialta altazimuth .