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Posted on December 13, 2020December 13, 2020 by dancinglightofgrace · 2 Comments

After Deendayal Rasoi Day Five!

1. I took some pictures: uploaded them on instagram before I began writing this article. The weather is pleasant.

2. It is Sunday market. The Ramlila ground was fully occupied. I had a pleasant meal in Deendayal rasoi. The scrubber was inside the soap bucket. I looked for it around me and then dipped my hand inside the bucket. Guacamole is avocado dipped in a dish. Dipped in what?

3. I saw an exquisite Robin after exiting toilet. I washed my feet before I came to this place.

4. This has been an extraordinary year in many senses. Despite all miracles: it seems as if it’s a huge burden i am carrying. Most people don’t recall words from our last conversations whereas I tell them about chains of events and causation in vain. It’s because of miracles: it seems like an eternity. And there’s an eternity in the making. There’s no death, no aging or defeat in this game.

5. I developed following models for young people I used to interact with:

A. Game

B. Journey

C. War

D. Dream

E. School

6. I have no doubt that I love the School model the most. And yet: these are merely five prime models. There can be countless such models.

7. Journey model is used by Guru or psychonauts. Internal or external journeys are used with landmarks to ascertain progress. Crystalline intelligence is mostly about memories. Good or bad. Organized or disorganized.

8. Every model overlaps with other. As Kabbalistic sephirods scheme has material and spiritual worlds overlapping each other.

9. Take Truth realm universe or Sachkhand for example. There can be countless witnesses to tell about their experiences. I use it to debunk myths.

10. Try it: things are what they seem. If you see people : you’re seeing people. If you see trees: you’re seeing trees. If they say no: they mean no.

11. The laws are wierd and merciless.i participated in making of a video which was shot under Ashok tree. I was a reluctant participant. That journalist is present in the library today. He’s a member of the trust. I was reading “Teere Teere Narmada,” by Amritlal Vegad then. I wanted to buy the book but as they had only one copy left: I didn’t.

12. Shri took my picture. We were reading the post about fishes that was published yesterday from this very spot. First she asked why I don’t upload my selfie pictures on my blogs. Then, without my permission she took two shots. I asked her to show them to me-out of curiosity about my appearance. Then I requested her to delete them. She didn’t. I asked her to give me a picture of her face. She refused. I kept taking her shots with hope of capturing her face. She covered it. Then she asked me to not use her body’s picture on my blog. I agreed. What’s so special about our faces? Conditioning.

I reminded her to not behave in a way with others in which we don’t want others to behave with us.

“Don’t do unto others what you don’t want others to do unto you.”

13. She also showed a sketch done by her. She cut the paper and used it on back of her smartphone. She’s quick to learn and evolve. It was indeed flattering to have my picture captured by someone. But I don’t want to feel incapacitated. She refused to be captured. So did I. One day I was captured and they refused to delete my picture. I didn’t like it.

Eventually: she deleted my images and showed her phone. I deleted all 14 of her images and showed it to her.

14. She didn’t do her homework again. Why do people behave the way they do? We played on Free Rice: German, Algebra and Chemical symbols. She gave up on the last one very easily. Scored much better than me on German but lost on Algebra.

The key to score better than her is:

1. To not to chat with her as you play.

2. To focus on maximizing score instead of being righteous.

3. To not to multitask.

15. All indo-germanic languages have similar roots. That’s why I find it easy to answer questions on German and Spanish though I have never studied them systematically.

16. If I kept playing on Free Rice: soon I would be able to learn basic working ‘visual vocabulary’ of all languages offered there: German, Spanish, Greek and Latin.

17. As I was listening to Lucky Ali’s song from his album Sifar: the triangle on the palm symbol attracted my attention. Mercury, Saturn and Moon mounts are on top of three lines which create the triangle. The shape of Paratha. The cone. The dot in the centre is verily the Sun. The Self. The void. The black hole. Neither nor, either or, 1/0. Sefer Yetzirah.

18. Those who are quick to promise are found faltering when required to fulfill them. Don’t trust young people about serious issues. Buying half a kilogram of guava costs 20 rupees whereas eating them by plucking from a farmer’s farm brings 1000 demons of guilt. This is what comes from experience. If your requirements are simple, definable and affordable : they can be fulfilled if you’re willing to pay the price.

19. Ramcharan Vidyarthi came as I was cataloguing books. He told about Damayanti madam not being happy with my sweeping of library hall. I have been sweeping it on every Saturday. Yesterday she got it Sweeped before I reached. This gave them the right to talk behind my back, then bring it to my front, then make me write it and earn extra brownies. This is the way of the world. A tall broom is needed to remove cobwebs. I should have shown knack of tying the broom to the bamboo which was put outside the library hall. I didn’t.

20. Why should I learn driving a second hand Maruti 800 which has a complex gear mechanism when technological advancements have brought cars which run via manual gears which are as easy as flying personal chartered planes?

21. Why this third world mass manufacturing market of filth has all of the people producing offsprings who have similar fates? Limited and oppressing?

22. I set myself a goal to again reach Kumbhaka level 4 minutes. Lia was responding to oxygenation then. I confounded her with Nandita. Prosopagnosia. I had achieved it in 2003. This year took me on excursions which taught me mysteries of Atma Pariyojna. Mysterious ways of Kabbalistic Deuteronomy. I had to shut myself off comletely as every walk used to bring experience worth one book.

Posted on December 11, 2020 by dancinglightofgrace

Piccalilli

Aren’t you odd?

Oh piccalilli?

I once met a Piccadilly

Dilly dallying,

Shilly shallying,

Through thick and through thin,

Kith and kin.

Oh piccolo,

Piccalilli,

Piccadilly!

Posted on December 9, 2020December 18, 2020 by dancinglightofgrace

You, you or you and you!?

1. It was a pleasant walk back to this place. A walk in twilight after a long time. The librarian was reading newspaper. I took his leave after a few minutes. This morning I had a ride on e-rickshaw. This noon I met a person who was interested in books and arcane knowledge.

2. Lunch in Dindayal rasoi was the highlight of the day. As i reached the place : I saw ongoing construction. A boy with a bike told me that there was no more food. It was only two o’ clock but then he said: if you want to eat, come with me. I followed him and he told that it was roti and curry instead of usual rice. He offered either four rotis with curry for five rupees or eight rotis plus curry for ten rupees. I opted for the latter. After a long time I had plenty of food without guilt. Whatever comes out of this food will be bliss. I was raptrous in library for the rest of the afternoon as I kept reading bits and pieces. The songs of devotion for the divine feminine. I took permission from Damayanti madam to feed guavas to cows. I had bought them for twenty rupees and two of them were left.

3. I observed a painting by an artist named Sanju as i was coming back from Gayatri Mandir. Kala Mandir was written below it. The painting was state-of-art.

4. Shri scored better than me on both Algebra and Vocabulary quizzes on Free Rice sites. It might seem like an exaggeration but Damayanti madam came at the same time to pay me two hundred rupees and asked for the balance. It distracted me for a while: yet i can’t use the same logic to explain why she scored better than me on Algebra on third day consecutively. I told her that I was going to score better tomorrow. Would I? I would practice. We shall see.

Here’s a verse:

I saw a damsel,

A maiden,

A divine melody in a form,

Was it you, you or you?

Or all of you!

Posted on December 9, 2020December 10, 2020 by dancinglightofgrace

Ram and Devkunwar!

1. Ram interjects unnecessarily in a conversation. I know it’s all planned and yet so very out of place or decorum. The lady sometimes says: it’s your money and at others: why so soon. Did i ask for more than what was agreed upon? Why then does a person need to meddle into our affairs?

2. What’s in a name? Devkunwar means divine virgin or Mary. In the last week of November, just when Shri was about to leave for Vardha, her son Aakash: he knew somehow and did a prank call. He said he wanted to take tuitions again and he was willing to pay the fees as per my quotation. The guy neither appeared nor informed that he won’t. Here I am wasting my time and energy to inform everyone about how pleasant her laughter was as she stood there filtering the chafe from the wheat grains. Very divine indeed.

Posted on December 8, 2020December 8, 2020 by dancinglightofgrace

Morning Bowling Session!

1. Purva Phalguni quarter four is ruled by Mars. It’s a Tuesday. Venus rules Purva Phalguni which falls in Leo constellation. By this evening Moon will enter Virgo. Moon has exceeded degrees of Mars and by evening it will exceed degrees achieved by Venus, becoming Atmakaraka for a while before it enters house of Mary.

2. I saw many pigeons as I bowled in Shatabdi. I was late. I saw 14 Chepla birds going South. They indicate a cycle. I saw an army personnel on a bicycle in green pagdi going towards Chhatrasal Carrefour as I was entering academy. I bought a black mask worth twenty rupees. A wire was lying broken outside the old Gyandeep stationery.

3. Shiva came to drop Rukman. She’s now an aspirant for MBA. She wanted to become an anchor and a pilot. She had a brief stint at MMHS as a teacher. She says she finds preparation for MBA to be easier now than what it seemed before. Now they have more colleges and more options. Richa Gupta cracked it easily. I used to teach her words using Michael Quinion’s World Wide Words. Of all the students I have taught vocabulary to: Richa was smartest. She was deep and in the induction she used words to mean that people shouldn’t treat other people as objects. She didn’t know that it becomes absolutely necessary to do so in some walks of life. She had a Virgo Moon and Scorpio ascendant and she was my first friend on Facebook. In fact she invited me to join Facebook. Her husband also has a Virgo ascendant with Virgo Moon. They’re rich people.

4. Dhruv is now working out with Yash. It’s good that they’re working out even before they reached college. I worked out in college for about three years in Suresh Soni’s gym. I took cretin in those days for a while which had fish extracts. I knew what I was doing. I also had bread which had egg as a component when Prashant Gupta brought it in Mahaveer Colony house.

5. I always felt lack of food and space. Leonardo Da Vinci always felt lack of time. We are all striving after something or the other.

6. It’s eighth day of dark half of lunar month as per Hindu calender. I could see Moon in the Southern direction. The pentagon in the star hanging on Church of MMHS has five three pointed stars. The pentagon is red whereas stars are white. The core represents heart or red drop whereas white triangles represent white drops in trinities. Red drop absorbs white ones and bliss is born. Logos is a negative energy or a positive power based on whether you adhere to Archons or Gnostics respectively. I asked Shiva if she would be able to refer me to Maria Mata staff. She said I might have a chance in next session. It might be a long wait. You don’t know what’s going to happen next.

7. I bowled 60 times. 10 overs. Sweating. 17 hits. 8122020. Saturn. Venus. Mars. Balance.

Posted on December 7, 2020December 7, 2020 by dancinglightofgrace

Myths!

1. 7122020: 09:13 AM. Academy_Cricket_Shatabdi

2. Update: i am not sure if the ground belongs to Maharaja Chhatrasal Autonomous College or Pandit Dev Prabhakar Shastri college of Technology. It has no bearing on my bowling practice. 30 balls. 12 hits. 5 overs.

3. At barber’s shop: the moment i reached before it: the boy was lighting up incense for his morning worship. I had contemplated about getting shaved and it was a pleasant coincidence to find the shop empty. He looked quiet and i requested him to use zero machine. The moment he began cleaning moustache the power was cut. Then i requested them to use a razor. Another device was available but they used razor and then power came back. Compared to the shop outside the court which charged 70 rupees for both head and shaving : he charged only 20 rupees. It seems i was given subsidy. Same as i reached an empty shop instead of a busy shop.

4. There were four pigeons sitting on wire. It seems some people are bored of my stories. I saw notifications from Lia this morning and akin to Devika she said she hadn’t seen them before. I was happy to have made my presence known to her: that i still appreciated her poetry, her versatility, profundity, productivity.

5. Lia had reported my comments to WordPress. At once, this blog wasn’t getting launched. I spoke to Lia and then it got launched. It’s akin to my third blog getting launched as i was forgiven by Devika who pinged me exactly when i was on the reception counter in my friend’s sister’s marriage. I don’t know how it works but it does. Lia and Devika are Maafia of the world of poetry. And I mean that in a positive way. If you get them furious you can’t continue here. If it wasn’t for my disputes with these four or five poets: I would have created tens of thousands of prose and verse posts by now.

6. Having learnt lessons in humility: I still think it’s Moon matrix by archons. Gnosticism tells you this. Our machinery has been designed the way to give sustenance to Moon via conflicts and swings of mood. Moon according to them is youngest among solar system members. Aryans got violent against certain groups because being mouthpiece of Godhead they advocated virtuous path. Beelzebub’s tales to his grandchildren by Gurdjieff talks about Armenian mystic’s struggle against such memes.

7. India is a religious country. You might say constitution is secular. If you carefully study its culture, its constitution : you would realize a coherent thread which weaves religious with lawful way. In all my experiments: i only kept swinging between various paths which have already been paved by countless trillions of beings who walked before me. It doesn’t mean that my expression isn’t uniquely mine but it means the building blocks were always there. I see the struggle between order and chaos. I see Saint versus Satan. I see Archons and Gnostics. I know devils and gods and I know why they came to be.

8. Though there might be some beings living among us as immortals hidden in form of humans: the weight of time is to be admitted. Hindus consider this to be age of Goddess Kaali or God Kalki. It’s age of instruments. It’s age of machines.

9. From the first accident in childhood when i was crossing the wall near Kaali temple to all other accidents : it was forced sacrifice for the goddess at various stages. I am an immortal now and yet i don’t know all of the instrumental. Machines have consciousness. Matrix is true. It was always about the goddess who wanted the women to be worshipped. And yet: closest of my observation told me that both patriarchy and matriarchy are myths.

Posted on December 5, 2020 by dancinglightofgrace

A Kingfisher and a Robin!

1. I balled 34 times. 11 hits. Enough of running this morning. Hockey players, Cricket players, Academy batch of Cricket.

2. Two men come with their gear. They look lost. I approach them and they ask about the entrance. I tell them about the old entrance and also about the new. The rhetoric:

Which side is entrance?

Westside. The new entrance faces North.

You might see it on your way to the carrefour.

Do you live here?

We have been called from Bhopal.

Upon being asked the very first question the assistant spits gutka to his left side. Architects are above being questioned.

So this ground belongs to college?

Yes.

And what about the stadium?

Not sure. Many people come over there.

Then they took my leave.

3. Can you think about my privileges? Stadium has been locked. Boys jump inside. Even I can jump for running. I am innocuous. As long as I have space I can run here: else I would need to go to Panna Tiger Reserve.

4. A lot of architectonics this morning. The ground where we scored like Bradman and kept records: Ankur and I: was being inspected this morning. Maybe they have decided to build a house and the land has been sold. Ghanshi was there. Tall. I thought she said something. I saluted her excellency.

5. Did I pass in addressing ? Baburam Chaturvedi Stadium and Shatabdi hall. Where else would you go running? The National Higher Education building was being built when i was roaming around billboards. Situation has changed only a bit. Those who have money have the right to spend and show off. Billboards entertain. Beautiful models like Blue Buddha and SRK girl. Why not. You have it: show it off. Yes, definitely. Like bullets, Lauries, tall buildings, helicopters, technologies and clout. I mean why not? Definitely.

Posted on December 3, 2020December 4, 2020 by dancinglightofgrace

China has now risen!

1. MDH head passes away. After Amitabh Bachchan he might have the record of appearing in most number of advertisements on television.

2. I am shown a look alike of Neelu aka Sanat Pandey going towards North, probably to a coaching institute. When he met me he told me that he took interest in me as I was buying some register from a stationery. It’s a similar scene albeit this guy didn’t recognise me at all. Probably an MDH connection with ancient names of Sanat Kumar sages.

3. This morning the left burner of gas outside the kitchen was left open by someone. Normally the fire should have consumed the room when i used the lighter. It didn’t. I wasn’t surprised and causes might be found upon searching but I saw a boy with cylinder and municipal corporation water line was overflowing near Narasimha temple.

4. Scientists known as sages might have created religions and concept of Ishvara. This consciousness was distributed into various names as per the penance or merits like grading of examination papers. Narayana, Hari, Vaasudev, Sanat, Shiv and others might be name and place holders.

5. Each identity interprets or expresses reality as it deems fit. I doubted that the kid i was teaching looked like me. Despite my earnest efforts : I could earn only 1000 rupees per month. It was Kaayvyooha or cloning going on instead of a mere teaching of basics. The family guys want to incarnate in same lineages. The tibetans and Geeta also teach the same. Same old same old. Infinity rising.

6. China bought rice. China has now risen.

Posted on December 3, 2020December 4, 2020 by dancinglightofgrace

The Blue Bird!

1. It was 23 hours ago. The last post. I am sitting on the same spot. Am I? Herodotus is credited with the quote “you can’t bathe in the same river twice.”

2. Bowled 40 times. 11 hits. Good catching practice as well. There was no juice on juice shop and no poha stall. Two days in a row.

3. I saw two birds. I wanted to take picture. They flew away as I got closer and closer. One of them was a kingfisher with very different blue wings than i have seen so far. It was young. Another was a blackbird which looks like a distant cousin of nightingale.

4. Hockey team is here. I had seen them playing before in my days of struggle. It’s still the same except i am bowling instead of being a mere spectator. There were two girls and nine boys. 232. Abhay was wearing shirt number 3. Abhay is the captain of the team or coach I presume. Chuck dey India. Hockey is India’s national sport. Either it should be given enough funds or Cricket should be made India’s national sport. Abhay tum sangharsh karo ham tumhare saath hain…

5. As my morning breathing, meditation and practice is over, now I should be anxious about money making. I need to buy my daily bread and butter after all. There were three pigeons on a wire. There were three bikers. The morning run is over. Here comes the noon.

Noon boon catamaran choon

Per choon perchance

Prance dance

Pierre Simon Laplace

Placed cede this id

This umber umbrage

Barrage of words without rage

Subterfuge fugue segue garrage

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Posted on December 1, 2020December 4, 2020 by dancinglightofgrace

Slippery Slippers!

1. A man with shoes, wearing a white kerchief stares for a long time…moves away as i ask. He appeared after my last post was published.

2. A blind man catches hold of me just outside the post office. He requests me to put address of an institution where he’s going to take admission in Indore on an envelope he has:

BCM heights, Vijay Nagar, 452010(Atmalochan Parisar, scheme number 54, Behind Bombay Hospital)

Mahesh Drishtiheen Kalyan Sangh

3. I put the address on envelope and he takes me before the counter where Akanksha sits.

4. Next he asks me to give him twenty rupees for fare. I had a fifty rupees note which is used to buy a tea which he drinks as we chat, a peanut snack which we share and then a sandwich followed by a bread packet. My wallet is empty again. My net worth zero.

5. The man told his name to be Vinod Pateria. He is a priest. His father gave all his ancestral property to his elder brother and none of it to him. He lives in Rampur.

6. I had a strong deja vu inside post office. It is only the second time after 2016 November when i went to put a parcel for Pawan Gupta. I felt as if it was the same person who appeared in form of Ashutosh or Bharatendu previously. Is it Indra or Shiva personified or merely my wishful thinking?

Posted on November 30, 2020December 2, 2020 by dancinglightofgrace