Vandana Fails Again!

1. My net worth is 230 rupees.

2. I have 230 rupees in a small wallet I have.

3. I borrowed another 200 rupees from Vandana. This makes the borrowed amount this season to be 1000 rupees.

4. As I asked her to fetch me money: she said she would give it in a while after igniting lamps.

5. Then she came inquiring about where I spend my money. She doesn’t have any right to do that. Despite earning 70000 rupees per month she has not given me my pocket money without sucking my blood in the last 8 years. She ensured that I don’t get any lucrative employment. Snatched my 66000 rupees from my account without my permission. Kept me barely comfortably. Used shamans and black magic to control me. She not only trapped me into living here but also didn’t let me leave again by creating unnecessary emotionally draining dramas.

6. She asked about the amount of pocket money I needed. I told her: 5000 rupees per month. To which she said: it’s too much. What a strange world! People living below poverty line earn 300 rupees per day and I am asked to work for 5 or 10 rupees per hour. I am supposed to supply some strange support: hemoglobin etcetera to Vandana as she had no blood in her body when she called me.

7. Blood sucking Vandana and company asked me: where do you spend money. I keep telling her but she immediately forgets. For all practical purposes she’s a slave to another slave. All of them borrowed money from some unknown source.

8. Blood sucking Vandana gave me money after 15 minutes of blood sucking.

9. She was willing to fetch only 100 rupees. Then she gave a moral discourse and then she again came with 200 rupees. It’s right: a 35 year old independent individual shouldn’t borrow money from a slave of a slave of a slave who inquires about expenses. Since she doesn’t trust: I don’t trust her either. ( There’s no interest free money. These are petty slaves and there are bigger slaves.)

10. Vandana lost all her merits: like her teeth: merely because of her agitated conversation with me.

11. Let Vandana attain pure body of gnosis and bliss by grace of Shiva or Narayana: whoever she has her faith in. All her money is spent by Shilaajeet. It’s spent the way Shilaajeet wants to spend it.

12. Vandana was trying to earn trust with laptop. Dant Kanti. Poor kids. Vandana is still poor. It’s sad! It’s true. Vandana kept stressing on merits but herself lost all her common sense. Vandana eventually gave me money but it will merely be for two days. Or three.

Am I drunk? No.

Do I drink tea? No.

Do I take marijuana? No.

Do I eat tobacco like rest of her family? No.

Do I take Shilaajeet or Musli? No.

Do I take cigarette or beedi or alcohol? No.

Do I read? Yes.

Do I exercise? Yes.

Do I wish everyone well? Yes.

Why then, am I a subject to inquiry by those who don’t have any merits whatsoever except eating like pigs and gaining weight which makes it difficult for them to stay healthy is a mystery worth being investigated.

Those who were bored reading previous gentle and mild mannered posts should enjoy this one. I had my daily bread, butter and exercise and I saw plenty of poor people who were pretending to be rich. I am not one of them.

A walk in the meadows!

1. I walked some rounds. Japanese guava strikes back!

Dhanateras setting!

2. No man is an island. Isle means island. But it’s not just land. It’s surrounded by the body of water whereas aisle is surrounded by rows of things or seats or people. The first has a value of nine and the second has a value of one. No man’s an island. Neither any woman.

Stalls where crackers are sold 2020!

3. A Tohu Verse to celebrate the occasion:

Dragonfly flyover overture

True color of love…

Towers Louvre

Revue oeuvre

Butterfly flyover flutterby

Bye and bye

Battling BATTUE lingashtakam

Lingastronomical calculus sulcus circus custard apple Appleseed.

A walk in the meadows. A talk to recall later.

Dragonball z: three giant snakes with tongues!

Are you!

Am I dreaming or are you?

Screaming in my ears…are you?

“stop”

Half of a song…

Was it really too long…

As long as throngs were wrongs…

Pangs and bangs hang on doors in form of canopies.

Am I dreaming or are you…

The Thirteenth Hour!

1. Where do I begin?

2. Here: listening to music and working on this article. You need details.

3. I observed a kingfisher as I was walking inside the stadium this morning.

4. This view is new as it didn’t exist couple of days ago! Height is the aspect.

5. I counted the cellphone towers: 27 of them.

6. I met three kids: two girls and boy. None of them had footwears in their feet. They were going to meet their father. The eldest daughter spoke to me as I stopped them near a tree. Let it be noted that Japanese Sun and Japanese guava were observed at the same place. The barber was coming just behind them. I had taught them in their school.

The girl asked: “Our mom was asking if you would come to teach us at home? “

How much will I be paid? I didn’t hesitate because I knew that the eldest girl was intelligent enough to answer that.

300 rupees was the answer.

No ringed in my mind immediately.

I know it for sure that I was not going to get any further work in that region. Slaving in that school only brought “My name is Vyas Chappal number Seven.”

And competition from people who knew that I wasn’t looking for a government job.

And jabs from neighbors. Bharat Hotel: 20 rupees.

One day: Inayat sir is supreme. Second day: A CAC comes.

I know how best to develop creativity and vocabulary: by telling stories. By reading them aloud. But the midday meal. Records. Handpump. None of it isolated. The filthy smell of piss I kept consuming is still a bad memory. The sister-in-law plus brother were dark. As dark as it gets. Though they looked fair. Younger sibling doubted if they were planning to kill the father.

None of them were killed. I was. Repeatedly.

I was one. Total and whole. I still am. I was dangerous to fake groups and fake people.

7. Those girls studying in seventh and sixth classes might or might not come to attend coaching classes. They didn’t pay my fees in last such instance and disappeared without notice.

8. I regularly eat poha as a breakfast at little girl’s father’s shop. A roadside stall. He’s barely managing his family with what he gets. His wife sells vegetables. Whether they’re happier or I am: can’t be quantified. I asked them recently about the fees because I needed to know how much was the norm these days. It’s 150 rupees for small children. While 150 per hour isn’t bad if you have 5 or 6 students : working only to teach one student means : not getting even your pocket money.

9. I kept selling myself short until I had freedom. Now I am too popular and I counted: this is a normal day: at least 7 people tried to show me something or the other.

10. I asked the Gandhi Smarak Nidhi trustee about its previous trust members as I got a book in my hands yesterday. Dr. Rajendra Prasad was the first president of this institution. The current head has been elected for two terms consecutively.

11. I found a book by Deborah Frieze. It’s about walking. I intend to read it. I also intend to read a book on Khajuraho. So far I haven’t read any.

12. We played the game of verbal responsiveness. Shri and I. She lost by a margin of 160 points today. The last time she had lost by 100. She asked me to grow hair and I asked her to trim her nails down a bit.

13. I asked her to learn at least 10 words from the list of words we noted as we played the free rice game. She was drowsy and cough made it difficult for her to talk. I did most of the work. I had spotted her in the farm after saluting her father and asking her where she was to be found. She was picking potato leaves for.

14. A bespectacled boy came in auto. He looked inside the library as he was talking over the phone.

15. The librarian was spotted near post office. Siddheshwara side stand. A doll in a basket. A pattern long forgotten: newspapers, animals, goons and masons not hurting me inside the premise. I can tell you this for sure: I will do as I need and please and can and consider worthy of being done. All of those protections were removed within a moment’s notice. They’re fake like their weavers. You jerk off once and they’re gone. Opportune. I don’t believe in them anymore.

16. I bowled 42 times. It was after I walked three rounds. Why was Tiwariji honking a friendly horn was a mystery. The stadium is full of crackers shops.

17. Burn…but like a lamp…was the message written behind a yellow vehicle. All forced messages tend to suggest that posts attained by government officials are absolutely adorable. Ramses. Arcturus. The Archer. The warrior. Gandhi kept chanting ram. It’s like advocating non-violence but praying for invisible weapons. Passive agression. All self protection is violent. A child or damsel might not be able to protect itself like a beast does: but its innocence is designed to hypnotize the assailants. Rest of the justice is ensured by some mysterious indistinguishable karmic web. Followers of Ram are all warriors. They’re not non-violent people. Absolutely non-violent paradigm as in case of Buddha or Mahaveera or Laotzu or Vallalar: transforms the hearts of those coming in touch via touch and not necessarily because of admonishing. That’s Satyagraha. The planet of Satya. Sat. Seth. The record keeper. Yama. The wheel of Dhamma.

18. Like the planet Cricket. Planet dance. Ambrosial planet. There are countless dimensions.

Thiruvachakam!

1. Venus. 13.11.2020: 4.2.2020. Uranus Conjunct Sun. Take care of your heart. Your art sweetheart. Sweet art. Tweet.

2. Arcturus. Rustic. Tic-tac-toe.

3. Vyagh. Vyaghrapada. Natarajan.

4. Ariel. A real estate state. A gem.

5. As a bowler rests between two balls; the heart rests between two beats.

6. Oh mount of Grace! When will I get to see the Tenet in its best print!

7. Oh mount of Grace! When will I get to watch the Vyapam scam made into one of the best mystery thrillers ever made: in which, all fake certificates will verily become sweet fragrance of camphor divine?

8. Oh mountain of Grace! When will I do my doctorate from Massachusetts institute of technology without any loans hanging over my head! Oh divine dancer formless and with form! When will I be employed in thy true service?

9. My divine victorious dancer: I pray and prey to thy dancing feet: when will thou grace me in race!

10. Oh all-in-all: supreme grace! Oh sublime beauty, oh perfect enlightenment!

11. Oh reviver of deads! Verily beautiful, blissful fulgent gentry tryst with tiny and miny.

12. Oh dancinglightofgrace! Oh DLOG!

13. I humbly request you to permanently release me from cycles of birth, death, limitations and aging. Injury and fear. I want it and need it: complete and infinite freedom and all that comes with it.

Reference: Ratna Navaratanam: Thiruvachakam.

Now I have three tennis balls!!!And four plastic balls!!!!

1. I need to be short and precise here as I need to join a Vocabulary jam soon.

2. I bought a Mark tennis ball to celebrate Dhanateras festival.

3. We walked and talked about things for more than three hours. We had water balls. In a thread of conversation: the stall owner told about the tax he has to submit to the municipal corporation as well as multiple chains of command. The same thing was spoken of by a tea stall owner who is a veteran. Advanced marble. Why did we all end up landing in a world which is so poor? The first and foremost: we fucked too much. We are overpopulated. Next things next. European countries have all people living luxuriously. No poverty.

4. I am still wondering about who deleted my entire post today afternoon. It wasn’t me and it didn’t evaporate on its own. The pure white cotton sent me into deep Samadhi. Profound love!

5. I lost one of the lenses of one of the pairs of glasses due to inadvertence.

6. A father was talking to his ward:”don’t you fall asleep on the bike.”

7. The question was: what would you have done differently if you were taken to an age where you were 20 years old.

8. As I began recalling: the question was changed to: what would you have done to improve your financial situation?

9. I clearly answered: I would have preferred getting admitted to a hospital in Bangalore over being brought here to a place where I was going to lose freedom. When I fell ill in 2012: I wouldn’t have come here when Vandana called me. The firm I worked for would have paid for the treatment and I would have emerged victorious without having to worry about local goons, mafia or people(mostly family) who snatched my documents, freedom and means of livelihood away.

10. It has been a long day. Despite the walk and discussion.

My assistants!

1. I had a dream. I wrote a story. A long thread. Books. Kabir. Chetandas. Ramananda. Bhaas. Moon. Sun. Baanbhatta.

2. Tells you nothing you know!

3. There are so many people working for me!

4. Baadraayana. Bhasa. Bana. Nalini. Lily. Sun. Moon. Logos. Yahweh. IAMTHATIAM. Dark girl on her birthday. Dreams and their fulfilment.

11112020

1. I walked 24 rounds. Anti-clockwise. Inside stadium. I had a sprain in the right shoulder and I wanted to give it some rest. I didn’t run. There were not as many people today. I broke my previous record of 23 rounds. It seemed easier this time. (Based on Vrijpura experience: I can walk 50 rounds everyday! It means about three hours of walking everyday) I need to reduce flab on my tummy which is gradually increasing. I should continue to walk in evening as it’s the foundation for running. Morning bowling and evening walk should do the trick! All that you build up has to be maintained. Ah the rut!

2. Milind’s call kept me engaged. Couldn’t teach the kids. I enjoyed speaking to him. It was after a long time. He’s similar to Piyush in a way. Both of them seem to be intellectuals who connected with me because of my ideas and outlook on life.

Dazzling! 7 baloons

3. The earplugs were acting up. Now I need to buy another.(15 days for 50 rupees. Earplugs. Tennis balls. Internet recharges. Most minimalistic of lifestyles can’t be maintained. Regular getting of head shaved needs 50 rupees per week. Plus regular diet) The picture above was taken just outside the stadium where two gentlemen on bike were distributing sweets to kids who were standing near the lights. They asked me to take picture with kids but I didn’t because I am not sure of anything anymore. Piyush told me yesterday that it is illegal to take pictures of people without their consent. I click pictures of Sun and birds without their consent and if groups of people come in my way : I don’t bother to ask each one of them to give me space to take pictures but I need to be careful before I start making a million dollars per hour. Then I might be worth being sued. As of now : what I click or write is worth toilet paper or even lesser.

4. I played vocabulary jams. On three of them I scored 221 ranks. I want to play more if time allows.

5. Shri was happy today. She laughed a lot and scored well on test on clause. (45 out of 50) Her score in Hindi half-yearly exams is 56 marks out of 80. It’s less than 75 percent. Her friend scored 38 marks out of 80 which makes me a suitable candidate to teach her and I asked her to recommend me to her friend. But it’s not how it works here. I am anxious about her tomorrow’s test. After tomorrow we might be able to study new chapters and play some games of verbal intelligence. I need to buy another tennis ball.

Art!

6. The picture above was taken just in front of the Narasimha temple with the permission of the shop owner. I enjoyed teaching Rohan. Shops were all decorated with colors.

Couple of harmonies!

1. I bowled only twenty times this morning. I ran more than I bowled.

2. I listened music and played vocabulary jam.

3. I need to play more and write more.

4. It’s a day with harmony: 11112020. There are two pairs. It’s also the eleventh lunar day as per Hindu calender. I spotted Leo Moon and Venus from roof this morning.

5. Yesterday a miracle happened. I bought a laptop in 2010. I spent a lot of money on getting it repaired. Final repairing rendered it useless. Two thousand rupees wasted! After couple of years: yesterday evening as I was playing ball with the students of my class in my room: Vandana came asking for password. I was surprised. Rahul was successful in booting it up. He wants to work. I deleted some old files. It’s working but it’s not for me. I renounced it once in 2013, then again in 2018. Now it’s the final renunciation. This smartphone needed many sacrifices to reach to my hands.

6. Now that election results are out: I need to figure out how my employment as a freelancer might become more lucrative. If they come up with greater Corona hullabaloo: it might take exercise and playing away from people again. Unemployed people are counting on new regimes.

7. A Tohu Verse to celebrate the occasion:

Election ion lectern in turn intern

Wednesday angels light festivity

Darkness increases

Raise the purple lantern

Watch the play

Dance the dance

Drink the ambrosia!

8. Soon another election. Business as usual.

The Tennis Racket!

1. Outside the badminton court: an old bespectacled calm looking guy was playing tennis. I went to the hand pump to wash my feet and then I took a piss nearby. That’s the usual place most people piss in stadium.

2. I felt like asking that man: how much did you pay for that racket ? I asked him that.

Then he said: 3.

I asked again: 3 what?

He said it was 3000. I asked if it was available nearby. As if: I would have made that my next goal.

The thing is: he himself told me:” no one plays tennis here.” I brought it from Bhopal. His demeanor was disarming. I thanked him and parted. It was the first time I saw someone playing tennis inside this stadium.

Ashvatha Three!

1. The blind man with stick. I helped him cross the road. I didn’t tell Shri about it. But as i was asking her questions: she told about “Andhadhun,” the latest movie she has watched. The protagonist is shown as a blind man. Now it’s a strange synchronicity.

2. The paths were clear near the schools where counting was being done. I counted the steps between the two dustbins as I walked towards Gandhi Smarak Bhavan and back: they came out to be: 127 or 128. It tells about my height and vitality: as usually it’s just 150.

3. A bus was going to Hrishikesh. Sun is going to South: the current is stronger than the eternal: hence Satyamev Jayate. Seth always wins!

4. I was shown this strange dream. It has become true: the greed which was in my sibling’s room came to mine. I saw its yellow colour: the habit of accumulation. Wisdom is golden wisdom. Compassionate distribution. I was shown a passage where my house was in a condition of two decades ago. All of the neighborhood was gone. A son of Seth was driving a bicycle and I reached to the Gandhi Smarak Bhavan after the firing incident. I was shown a higher path by the secretary. It’s what was shown in the dream.

5. What happens now: I went to see the third storey. They sacrificed me repeatedly. As soon as we sat to study or meditation their hammers came in. The vision was good but I was unsure if the roof or the foundation will stay for long! So much for dreams. Ganesha dream: and others: imagination can play Havoc on you but the real event is nothing.