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Posted on January 2, 2021 by dancinglightofgrace

Preparing For Bundelkhand Marathon 2021 Part Three!

1. I walked and ran for about 90 minutes and kept playing vocabulary jams yesterday evening. Wind was furious and Moon looked pale red. There were four cows and a mule and later, to my surprise, five guys joined who left after spreading some garbage in the name of new year celebrations.

2. I enjoyed playing with PC and Vishnu Ram. It’s an honor to play with such wonderful players. Stephen and Paul were also there.

3. Took some pictures which create a series:

I own my images, words and ideas, both here and on Blogger’s World.

4. I can complete marathon even at my normal walking speed. I can walk even a 40 kilometres marathon, therefore winning by running faster is not an issue. It’s merely endurance training.

Posted on December 23, 2020December 23, 2020 by dancinglightofgrace · 1 Comment

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1. Registered 48 titles. It became fun in the later half as the chorus joined in.

2. Deendayal Rasoi Day 11. Five rupees plate was enough.

3. A boy came in the library asking if the cows are sold here. After making it sure that they’re not: I told him so.

4. I listened to a program in which an expert heard problems of farmers and told them the solutions for them.

5. A Tohu Verse to celebrate the occasion:

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Posted on December 22, 2020 by dancinglightofgrace · 2 Comments

Voltaire or Maxim Gorky?

1. Bowled 6 overs. Chatpati candy were needed to be bought because I needed to return 1 rupee change to Ashish. I had received 40 rupees from him towards the payment for the tally counter which I sold to his shop owner at the rate of 39 rupees. I had ordered for 234 rupees pack on Flipkart. I told him clearly that it’s “Made in China,” with no guarantee.

2. Chatpati candies cost 50 paise per piece. 8 candies I had. Five of them were consumed by me on the playground as I was practicing bowling and two of them were given to Rukman. One of them was given to Vandana who smiled looking at them and said:” shall I keep them, they’re twinkling like silver.”

Here you have a lady who was smiling because of a fifty paise candy. I should return the pen borrowed from her this morning.

3. I never knew Gupta ji had trouble walking until this evening. He made a generous contribution of one stand towards the “Gandhi Library.” We used to debate on some topics some times. He’s extremely right wing. A retired engineer. He remarked on the new tin shade for Goshala towards which I had given no attention so far.

4. That they never shared current periodicals of Gandhi Smarak Nidhi trust with me because I was wearing earphones or not will never be justified. Not in a million years. I explicitly asked for them. Many times. It’s akin to Miss Preeti Pandey only telling about the syllabus for exams to front benchers. She was the daughter of the ex-principal of Maharaja Chhatrasal Autonomous College. She wasn’t loud spoken like other teachers. I assumed she considered me a rowdy as i used to sit on back benches. It continued until sister Haycinth called us in office. Some of our seniors had picked on a habit of distorting name of father of church.

Like the forms of root Baalak:

Baalkah baalkau baalkah

Baalkam Baalkau Baalkaan

Baalken Baalkabhyaam Baalkebhyah

They modified the root ‘father’

Fadram fadrau fadraan

It instantaneously became a superhit.

I was the only one who cried in office. I had never uttered the words but because of the bad company. Sister Haycinth was in love with me. I loved her tests. She was absolutely sincere in tests. She used to make us sit outside of class and never allowed bags. I never cheated. I never needed to. The result is this:

India is my country all indians are my brothers and sisters. They all married their sisters and their progenies are products of incest.

5. In the scheme of the Father, the Son, and the holy ghost: the father is the ultimate God. Here you used to call father those who were ordained by Church.

6. The father Joseph Garvashish had a very long tenure here. Garvashish means “Gracious Pride.” I don’t know what Joseph means. I am open to suggestions.

7. He once made Santosh Kumar Shukla swear by keeping his hand on our heads about being vegetarian. He immediately cowered. That was enough to tell me about his being phony. They were both phonies.

8. Why? You may ask. Sisters of Nazareth versus Fathers of Satna.

He used to beat guys who were naughty. How else would he have been successful in managing guys who had harmonal imbalances?

He used to beat them with punches and kicks and we used to sing praises of our gracious father.

Even sisters used to beat us. All of them were violent. Including Rekha, Maya, Vandana and Dixit sir. Maybe Brijkishore Shukla was never violent as he was a romantic Mathmatics teacher who had passed out from college.

9. Once Joseph Garvashish beat a muslim kid who called his uncle. His uncle had a fight with father and the town inspector was called. The father became sober but never gave up violence.

10. It’s reality. I was interviewed by the principal of Shieling Public School . I took a demo class and told him that I didn’t fit in Sanskar Public School because I can’t beat kids. They’re violent people. Sanskar staff as well as principal. Management guys made kids kneel down when they were laughing on my games. It seemed as if they were laughing on me. On top of that they didn’t pay my salary because they needed a PNB account. I went back to ask for the salary which should have been paid as I had worked for more than 40 days. Spent money on bike’s fuel. The accountant said he would call me but didn’t.

11. Gandhi was inspired by Ruskin Bond. Leo Tolstoy. Joshua Ben Joseph. Harishchandra. Rama. Shravana Kumar.

12. If I am the way, the truth and the life. If I have tasted ambrosia. If I have the water of life: isn’t it popular that to turn the other cheek to your enemies was popularized as Christian impact on Gandhi whereas it might have been Mahaveera actually? Maybe. Maybe both. Jesus lived in India according to Holger Kerstein.

13. Do violent people in these schools mentioned above qualify to profess Christianity? No. Should they be given grants in the name of the only begotten son who let himself be sacrificed? No. What about one who ran with a whip towards the shopkeepers in synagogue? Yes. They’re the ones running the show. They’re the ones who hanged him. They’re the ones who let my articles be published or send them to trash. Within a night more than 60 of my articles reached to trash.

Voltaire is again turning up in his grave!

Posted on December 21, 2020December 21, 2020 by dancinglightofgrace

Narendra Kumar Shukla!

1. Motilal Vora passes away. He was an ex chief minister of Madhya Pradesh. I had heard his name for a long time. My condolences. Peace.

2. As I heard the news of his passing away I stopped to check his horoscope and played Dakshinamurti Strotam on Spotify. I was listening to Prasar Bharati on AIR app as I was bowling in the Shatabdi ground. He had celebrated his ninety third birthday yesterday.

3. He had Moon conjunct Venus in Libra forming a Malvaya Yoga along with many planets in the twelfth house of his horoscope. His Atmakaraka Mercury was in Aquarius indicates maker of tanks etc as per the classic text Brihat Parashara Hora Shastra.

4. It’s a very special exit as far I am concerned because it’s also the shortest day in the longest of years so far. In a few hours it will be the birthday of late Narendra Kumar Shukla. He was born on 22.12.1943. He died on 30.1.1995.

5. Observe the patterns:

His life path number: 6

His demise day path number: 1

Motilal Vora’s life path number: 6

( born on 20.12.1927)

Motilal Vora’s death day path number:

Moreover: Narendra Kumar Shukla had a Venus and Moon conjunction in the sign of Libra.

6. Rukmani Devi Shukla was convinced that her husband was reborn as the son of his eldest daughter. I had a nice chemistry with that baby. In fact I was fond of all babies taking good care of them when I was young. But my bond with that guy was very strong. I examined his horoscope and found an uncanny match of Moon sign, Ascendant and Constellations with that of Narendra Kumar Shukla. This to me was a confirmation of reincarnation of Narendra Kumar Shukla. Santosh Kumar Shukla was not convinced with my studies.

7. Narendra Kumar Shukla used to play with me when I was a baby. He was the first one to slap me hard because I didn’t follow his daughter’s suggestion. It was about keeping a tea cup somewhere. He slapped a five year old. He was fond of me otherwise. He was fond of movies and when I asked him after seeing an advertisement in the newspaper if he had watched Don- he told me that he went to a theatre with his friend. He was raised better than me. In richer circumstances. I used to borrow a bicycle for 3 rupees for two-three hours and used to go to Govardhan talkies to watch cheap movies like Waqt Hamara Hai. Mithun Chakraborty movies were getting released every five months in those days and i used to be the only young kid in theatre among all grown ups. Akshay Kumar later followed the same tradition. Being honest about working for money not only made him rich but also made him a much better actor than his Khiladi days when his model image was known only for new type of martial arts which resembled Jackie Chan movies.

8. Gudda had the privilege of watching Mughal-E-Azam with him one night. It was a long movie and when I woke up at about two am to pee: they were still in on it. I was disappointed to have missed that opportunity.

9. I told him that I wanted to become a hero. Not an actor: a hero. Junaid called me a hero once as I was strolling in the organic farm and he was there today. I don’t know how this will be interpreted as anything and everything is interpreted in any way that suits political parties, religious groups and individuals. It’s only a synchronicity hence I mention it without meaning any disrespect to anyone. I was impressed by movies he used to watch in my formative years. These days: especially since 2017: any movie I watch seems like a great burden and costly affair. Earlier I had freedom of watching anything and everything.

10. He told me that there was a switch on the back side of TV. He was going to open that for me and I was going to reach Bombay. Aha! It was one of my dreams in various stages: like my dream to be an army man. I had such a strong resolve that my parents seemed like an enemy when they made me convinced to become a superintendent of police. Then i wanted to become a scientist. Then an IAS officer. “B.E. karke IAS” was the formula given by those privileged uncles. Little did I know about the cults and sacrifices then.

11. Then I wanted to become a doctor for a while as I was interested in Biology more than in Mathematics. They made me change my opinion. I ended up becoming a Programmer Analyst for about three years. Only gainful employment in my life. Now I get a meagre sum of 1000 rupees per month which isn’t enough to buy me necessities of life.

12. This wasn’t about me. This was about a person who called himself Narendra Kumar Shukla. He used to buy lottery tickets. Once, after my examination he came to pick me from school. It was Maria Mata Convent High School. He asked for one “Vikas” and he returned. He didn’t know that I was registered as “Anand Prakash.” He was a Jholachchap doctor. He used to practice medicine without having earned a proper medical training. It was all I heard about him. He was popular and died a violent death in an accident.

13. If you want to summarise events which shaped my destiny in formative years until high school:

A. Accident near Kaali temple which resulted in stitches under knee.

B. Death of grandfather at an age of nine years.

C. Death of Aditi Billore.

D. Not being able to get first merit in either my class, or school or state board in tenth class examination despite getting it in the class 8th.

What did I do which was wrong in the class tenth? Nothing.

Those accidents which killed Aditi, two of her parents, my grandfather, and a part of me as I underwent knee surgery and stayed in a hospital where many people were crying for ten days: they were the main reasons of all negativity in my life. That was merely a beginning.

After coming out of hospital: I told Aditya Dwivedi: “I no longer want to live in this body.”

What do you mean by that?

Why are you talking so negatively?

I had read Geeta. I had read that we leave bodies like we discard garments. It had happened in that accident and I didn’t know that. Ah, i wanted to really discard it immediately.

14. A puppy was lying outside stitching shop as I walked back this evening. Ladies spat outside the house the boy yesterday wearing ‘gap’ tshirt was standing. How did it die? An accident. A group of monkeys came to the organic farm as I was sitting under the eight petalled Ku Klux Klan shade.

15. If I could move out of here: I would immediately move out. Grandfather died a painful death according to one account. He was a violent man. No violent man dies a natural death. Says Laotzu.

Posted on December 18, 2020December 19, 2020 by dancinglightofgrace

In the end was the end!

1. Don’t know how it ends. I am happy to have commented on her posts in a civil manner. It’s a success.

2. I received a coin which had 2017 as its release year as i bought the incense sticks. Crackers were bursting nearby.

3. I bowled 50 times. It was easy to focus on catching and bowling to target but slightly difficult to breathe. I still think it’s the smog they create here on a regular basis. I absorb plenty of that air.

4. I sat in the field for a while as Sun was setting. They were going towards a well. I felt relieved after reading her verse. If our communication was as civil some three years ago: i might have been happier. Old debts. How much of energy, time and effort was wasted in merely being lucid in communication. All people speak different languages. Different groups speak different languages. In the end you’re left with your own version/interpretation of reality. It might be stoic or solipsistic or both. The next step towards civility might be to not expect her to read my posts or to acknowledge them. Not everyone is equally attractive/appealing. People have their priorities.

5. There’s not much worth remembering from this day. A rocket was going South as twilight was getting darker. Just besides the Moon. Then a star popped, silently.

6. Did the tall ladies: two of them in a day mean something in particular? I really don’t know. There’s tonnes of irrelevant information i process on a regular basis.

7. The star on Church gate has a pentagon and five triangles. Though i already commented on that: the bulb is not in the middle of the red pentagon. It’s towards lower right end. The Moon on the top of the shaft is tilted : just like the heads of Jesus and Mary.

Posted on December 17, 2020December 17, 2020 by dancinglightofgrace

Syzygy!

1. Bowled 10 overs. 20 hits.

2. Had some difficulty breathing. The ladies at home burn too much tinder to fill the house with smog. It’s been decades old practice. Might suit you in open spaces.

3. Read and edited some posts.

4. The cement pitch has been cracked open like that patch of sidewalk outside electricity board office.

5. It’s after two days gap i arrive here. Some vitamin number 4. A cat crossed my road after a long time. It went towards West with a thirty degree angle just near the old ITI building.

6. The news is brimming with accidents and traffic jams. Khara maas begins. Khara or Khala means beastly or contaminated. Mala or dirty. It’s the alignment of galactic core with Sun and Earth. Till Makara Sankranti: you have Christmas to celebrate and sleep a lot if they don’t burn wood to create smog.

Posted on December 16, 2020December 17, 2020 by dancinglightofgrace · 4 Comments

For a few rupees more!

1. I asked her if she needed my services in the month of December-January. She asked her daughter who told her that she would continue to take classes.

2. Then she told me she needed my services until her exams are over: that’s until March.

3. This conversation took place yesterday afternoon inside library of Gandhi Smarak Bhavan at about two o’ clock. There were only three of us.

4. It was second such conversation after our conversation under banyan tree. Since then: i have taught her some 400 words, played at least 20 games on Free Rice site with her to help her augment her vocabulary. Also helped her learn creation of Vocabulary jams on vocabulary.com

I helped her learn doing diary entries but she refused to do them : like she refused to write verses or reports. An assignment to compare Meera/Arukka Mahadevi/Andal was given. It was from her book and she didn’t do it repeatedly for at least five days until i helped her with it in class. It was easy to do. She is smarter than other students i have taught so far but not anywhere near what my ‘ideal’ student would be like.

Her mother overlooks my reports about her not working enough on assignments. But when i am questioned for teaching her words in the most scientific way: she begins arguing and questions my integrity.

5. The last time around i was helping her with the vocabulary jams on vocabulary.com : a notification from her school comes on Whatsapp.

“You need to attend a test.”

6. Her school, her parents and others don’t have a sense of schedule or time when it comes to learning. I have to ask her three questions everyday:

A. Do you want to take class today?

B. Did you do your homework?

C. What do you mean by 5 minutes? Would you come for class at the appointed time which keeps changing at your convenience? It’s usually 20 to 30 minutes delay everyday.

7. They take the teacher for granted because there’s the teacher: punctual and always available. Selling himself short. Content.

8. All that for a mere 1000 rupees!

Image credit: Self, inside Gandhi Smarak Bhavan.

Posted on December 14, 2020December 14, 2020 by dancinglightofgrace

Is Freedom Free?

1. I lost again. She scored 100 points more on both German and Algebra.

2. I registered some books. Maybe 35.

3. This is a beautiful day. Twilight Zone. Dakshinamurti strotam under eight petalled lotus.

4. I played some vocabulary jams. I need to play some more.

5. 2341325422 are ranks i received on jams. There were only 10 to 12 players. Yet: I had slowed down. My ability to slow down or increase my metabolic rate is nothing extraordinary. It’s akin to activity and rest. Like jogging and sleeping. From Tibetan Book to Kapil of Samkhya it’s a homecoming. Peace. Whatever you see is verily the Truth. Don’t look for miracles or hidden mysteries.

6. Day 6 in Deendayal rasoi:

I was asked to sit by a hand gesture.

Left hand gesture as the catering volunteer wearing glasses was writing with his right hand.

I sat there for a while; playing free rice. I was surprised to learn that he didn’t ask my name and wrote it by using his memory. It might be the biggest honor this month. I didn’t forget to thank him for his generosity. He was there in 2018:

“Dau ki bhauji ke XYZ. Jab karam bigad jaate hain to aisa hi hota hai…”

I am not sure who that was intended for but I took it to mean for me. It was a memory of delays. The cook had a longer pardah or ghoonghat than yesterday.

A guy with a T-shirt which had an image of Shiva and Bam written on it showed up.

They wanted me to write this note. The T-shirt was gifted by Guddu bhaiya. His name is present on the inauguration stone. Outside the premise. I never hesitated to take help from charities or communities and it was always so. It seemed as if I was an orphan. I never doubted my integrity for reality. Not even for a split second. Humanity is a fraction of reality. I had doubts grasping complex society.

The hot chapattis are actually rotis. They were never available at house. It was bhaiya bhabhi United productions. It was dark. I trusted railway stations more than the mother who kept me subdued for selfish reasons.

I ate those rotis. The lady who cooked them is my mother. She verily deserves all my respect and reverence. I can touch her feet at any moment if required.

I never had those hot rotis before. Perhaps very briefly in 2018. It was a rainy affair in those days. I was investigating miracles then. Now I was sure of Kabbalistic Deuteronomy.

It’s not a sign of weakness to trust charities. A faction works inside this premise. Another works in that house. As many universes as beings: all overlapping with each other.

7. Ambrosia is costly. It’s gained by being meritorious but then as your consciousness expands: you need to grow all around : else you are always lacking something. Social intelligence or civics is connected to Morality. As you grow in intelligence you need to integrate all that you knew with the latest knowledge. Give credit to get credit. Don’t give debit as it creates further interest. Compound interest is too much to pay. Anyone in the world deserves as much freedom as you do. If you remember this: you shall be fine.

Posted on December 14, 2020December 14, 2020 by dancinglightofgrace

Sheinkin versus Dickinson!

1. What kind of surname is sheinkin?

2. Is it a distant cousin of Dickinson?

3. Or Dick? As in Phillip K. Dick.

4. Pyaasi is an Indian surname.

Pyaasi means thirsty.

Now: ‘White’ as a surname is not anymore attractive than ‘Thirsty’ but you know. Everyone loves their identity and conditioning. That’s why it exists.

I found surname Sheinkin in one of the vocab jams on vocabulary.com. The author of “Lincoln’s Gravediggers” has this surname.

A Tohu verse:

Yarmulke armistice

Ice very nice

Eyes spies

Latke jhatke jara hatke

Arra lox ox with a fox

Tchotchke hotpotpourri riffraff far off

Livery very veridiasical

Note: these words were culled from various Vocabulary jams on vocab.com

Latke means ‘hanging’ in Hindi. Latke latke : repeated twice means subject performed some action while they were hanging(out.)

Latke in Yiddish is a potato dish.

Words beginning with t?

Tchotchke

Tzimtzum is my favourite.

Posted on December 13, 2020December 13, 2020 by dancinglightofgrace · 2 Comments

After Deendayal Rasoi Day Five!

1. I took some pictures: uploaded them on instagram before I began writing this article. The weather is pleasant.

2. It is Sunday market. The Ramlila ground was fully occupied. I had a pleasant meal in Deendayal rasoi. The scrubber was inside the soap bucket. I looked for it around me and then dipped my hand inside the bucket. Guacamole is avocado dipped in a dish. Dipped in what?

3. I saw an exquisite Robin after exiting toilet. I washed my feet before I came to this place.

4. This has been an extraordinary year in many senses. Despite all miracles: it seems as if it’s a huge burden i am carrying. Most people don’t recall words from our last conversations whereas I tell them about chains of events and causation in vain. It’s because of miracles: it seems like an eternity. And there’s an eternity in the making. There’s no death, no aging or defeat in this game.

5. I developed following models for young people I used to interact with:

A. Game

B. Journey

C. War

D. Dream

E. School

6. I have no doubt that I love the School model the most. And yet: these are merely five prime models. There can be countless such models.

7. Journey model is used by Guru or psychonauts. Internal or external journeys are used with landmarks to ascertain progress. Crystalline intelligence is mostly about memories. Good or bad. Organized or disorganized.

8. Every model overlaps with other. As Kabbalistic sephirods scheme has material and spiritual worlds overlapping each other.

9. Take Truth realm universe or Sachkhand for example. There can be countless witnesses to tell about their experiences. I use it to debunk myths.

10. Try it: things are what they seem. If you see people : you’re seeing people. If you see trees: you’re seeing trees. If they say no: they mean no.

11. The laws are wierd and merciless.i participated in making of a video which was shot under Ashok tree. I was a reluctant participant. That journalist is present in the library today. He’s a member of the trust. I was reading “Teere Teere Narmada,” by Amritlal Vegad then. I wanted to buy the book but as they had only one copy left: I didn’t.

12. Shri took my picture. We were reading the post about fishes that was published yesterday from this very spot. First she asked why I don’t upload my selfie pictures on my blogs. Then, without my permission she took two shots. I asked her to show them to me-out of curiosity about my appearance. Then I requested her to delete them. She didn’t. I asked her to give me a picture of her face. She refused. I kept taking her shots with hope of capturing her face. She covered it. Then she asked me to not use her body’s picture on my blog. I agreed. What’s so special about our faces? Conditioning.

I reminded her to not behave in a way with others in which we don’t want others to behave with us.

“Don’t do unto others what you don’t want others to do unto you.”

13. She also showed a sketch done by her. She cut the paper and used it on back of her smartphone. She’s quick to learn and evolve. It was indeed flattering to have my picture captured by someone. But I don’t want to feel incapacitated. She refused to be captured. So did I. One day I was captured and they refused to delete my picture. I didn’t like it.

Eventually: she deleted my images and showed her phone. I deleted all 14 of her images and showed it to her.

14. She didn’t do her homework again. Why do people behave the way they do? We played on Free Rice: German, Algebra and Chemical symbols. She gave up on the last one very easily. Scored much better than me on German but lost on Algebra.

The key to score better than her is:

1. To not to chat with her as you play.

2. To focus on maximizing score instead of being righteous.

3. To not to multitask.

15. All indo-germanic languages have similar roots. That’s why I find it easy to answer questions on German and Spanish though I have never studied them systematically.

16. If I kept playing on Free Rice: soon I would be able to learn basic working ‘visual vocabulary’ of all languages offered there: German, Spanish, Greek and Latin.

17. As I was listening to Lucky Ali’s song from his album Sifar: the triangle on the palm symbol attracted my attention. Mercury, Saturn and Moon mounts are on top of three lines which create the triangle. The shape of Paratha. The cone. The dot in the centre is verily the Sun. The Self. The void. The black hole. Neither nor, either or, 1/0. Sefer Yetzirah.

18. Those who are quick to promise are found faltering when required to fulfill them. Don’t trust young people about serious issues. Buying half a kilogram of guava costs 20 rupees whereas eating them by plucking from a farmer’s farm brings 1000 demons of guilt. This is what comes from experience. If your requirements are simple, definable and affordable : they can be fulfilled if you’re willing to pay the price.

19. Ramcharan Vidyarthi came as I was cataloguing books. He told about Damayanti madam not being happy with my sweeping of library hall. I have been sweeping it on every Saturday. Yesterday she got it Sweeped before I reached. This gave them the right to talk behind my back, then bring it to my front, then make me write it and earn extra brownies. This is the way of the world. A tall broom is needed to remove cobwebs. I should have shown knack of tying the broom to the bamboo which was put outside the library hall. I didn’t.

20. Why should I learn driving a second hand Maruti 800 which has a complex gear mechanism when technological advancements have brought cars which run via manual gears which are as easy as flying personal chartered planes?

21. Why this third world mass manufacturing market of filth has all of the people producing offsprings who have similar fates? Limited and oppressing?

22. I set myself a goal to again reach Kumbhaka level 4 minutes. Lia was responding to oxygenation then. I confounded her with Nandita. Prosopagnosia. I had achieved it in 2003. This year took me on excursions which taught me mysteries of Atma Pariyojna. Mysterious ways of Kabbalistic Deuteronomy. I had to shut myself off comletely as every walk used to bring experience worth one book.

Posted on December 11, 2020December 12, 2020 by dancinglightofgrace

Genealogy: Kaulava Tantra!

1. I just edited an article on Blogger’s World. Vishnu Jha who called yesterday didn’t call today. He specifically asked about the time and I asked him to call at about six o’ clock.

2. Absolute is formless. It’s also with form. It’s both and neither. It’s beyond description. If it was a male: devotion would be easy for all females: naturally. If it was a female: devotion would be easy for all males.

3. To suggest that all males should worship female deities for emancipation and vice versa is opposition of natural instinct in some people for same sex: gays and lesbians. It might be a trivial matter for some people but people like Oscar Wilde martyred themselves in what might have been dark ages.

4. Those who called same sex marriages unnatural might be right in an orthodox sense. Keeping males and females segregated for long in groups when nature actually drives them to produce offsprings and then carry that hanging stomach for the rest of their lifetimes; might have been the root cause or maybe not. In any case the resolution is towards highest individual freedom without hurting communities at large.

5. Most of our lives are wasted in search of Truth about temples, deities and reality. Whose search is that?

6. As many deities as cards. As many supports as lives. As many companions as walks of lives. As many romances as possible. Who or what brought the concept of one husband and one wife to whom we always return? One mother. One father. One friend. One Self. Oneself. Why? Fatigue. Activity and rest.

7. Sun took the baton of Jaiminee Atmakaraka from Mars in afternoon.

8. It was a most pleasant day. Beautiful. It drizzled after a long time.

9. I saw a car with number plate MP16MC5555. The number is certainly a special number. I thought about testing the vehicle number search app. I tried it in vain. An advertisement asked me to use Google voice search instead. As soon as I cancelled the advertisement I saw that the car door opened and an angel came out of it. She was talking on phone. A moustached man was looking towards Southeast. A baby boy was in the front seat. Playing.

10. How many synchronicities I observe everyday? How many of them are well planned because people care about what I think, read or write?

11. She told me that Shri went to attend an NCC class. Immediately i recalled the addition I did yesterday: CHHATARPUR adds up to 6. The whole thing written on the entrance to NCC wing adjacent to stadium complex adds up to 69. I recall the bikers who acted with that pony tail girl that day. I understand it in conjunction with “Bhavana Ke Bhojpatron Par:” someone attended the camp. She considered me intelligent. I was better than ‘A.’ I knew about the L movement of horse while he could only make an open square. The trip to Gayatri Mandir: the code was cracked in favor of higher intelligence by Damayanti madam. So instead of just one family two were involved with a national institute. I keep working harder.

She said :” she’s still not working…is she?”

I was wondering what my response was supposed to be as nothing had transpired between two of us since yesterday.

12. This is mind boggling for most readers. I can ensure that if you read it without experience in genealogy you’re bound to confound.

She needs more credit: she asked me: “you aren’t in any kind of search anymore now, are you?”

13. This was clearly in opposition to my command to Shri when we used to sit just besides sieving machine. Osho as well as Ramkrishna mission teachers used to advise their students to sit properly as body postures are first and foremost foundations for further progress in Yoga.

14. What has Yoga got to do with English and Hindi lessons ?

15. If students sit properly they learn better. If they don’t they don’t. Same with concentration: if they’re onycophagists and keep moving their legs or arranging their hair or attending their calls while teachers give them their total attention: they receive less than they should. They learn less than they should.

16. If you can’t take my class for more than half an hour: pay me 1000 rupees for 15 hours per month. That’s fine by me. If your wards can’t sit with a straight spinal cord for more than 15 minutes: pay me 1000 rupees per 15 hours.

16. To all those who doubt my ethical uprightness: I have given it enough thought. If it was a boy instead of girl and I was paid 1000 rupees for 30 hours : I would have been equally responsible. Why do I need to give a character certificate to myself? CAA is coming Pranaam dena padega.

17. I taught Golu, Ankit, Vivek and couple of his friends, Aakash and Saarthak inside that premise. Shri was smarter than all of them. I knew that as soon as I spoke to her for a while. She had studied in an English medium school. In a CBSE school. She is an only child of her parents. She’s from Bengal and Orissa. For a while she kept paying emphasis on Bengal and then she switched over to Orissa. She doesn’t know Oriya: therefore you know whether patriarchy or matriarchy is valued in her family.

18. Of all people who interacted with me: Jasveer had good English vocabulary but he lacked balance. He was out there to convert. As soon as I reached there he tagged me “right wing.” Only when I praised Ravish Kumar: “oh he’s my friend!” Ok Sardar ji: now please calm down. I took him to Mote Ke Mahaveer and Hanuman Tauriya on auto because I wasn’t sure about driving licence thing. Their behaviour did change when I took bike for a few days. Remember Viraat? Bahut Badaa ho gaya… irrigation department!!!!!!!!!!!

19. I am for hire. Anyone who’s willing to pay me more than 1000 rupees per 30 hours for teaching them English vocabulary, writing, Grammar, Hindi writing, vocabulary etc. And have an environment or space where they can study undisturbed for about an hour can contact me. They should be living inside Chhatarpur district. Age, sex, color, cast, creed, nationality, ethnicity, sexual orientation, religious views: no bar.

20. Contact number: 7000697798

21. I would have continued to teach her Mathematics and Science in evening if the school board hadn’t interrupted with sudden tests. I need some sleep now.

22. The yogadas: Yogananda searched for some lost love. So did Osho. I also do so by looking for Aditi. Perhaps that’s why that memory was created. I have seen many adepts in 2020 but none who could bring back true message from Aditi. Where did she reincarnate? If she didn’t: what was my karmic connection? Her name was Aditi Billore. She died in a car accident on Nowgong road with two of her parents in 1992. Let me know if you can show me.

Posted on December 11, 2020 by dancinglightofgrace