1. Potatoes, chickpea and tomatoes curry in Deendayal Rasoi. Very delicious, without excess of salt or chilly. Fresh hot rotis and rice. I requested for a second serving of curry and they delivered it. The kid was taking dump outside, near bench. Open defecation! Then he kept calling some word loudly merely to hear the sound of his own voice to which I waved my left hand time-to-time as right hand was busy breaking rotis and then mixing rice with curry. Then i gave up and only continued with eyebrows. He also got mild after a while. The guy i had given ten rupees note to asked my name and i told it as it should be pronounced ideally. He corrected the surname with his pronunciation, which is, the trendy pronunciation i have heard all my life. One means white or brilliant and the other means born of brilliance. Since i was never born the identity doesn’t matter. Case closed.
2. There were kids playing cricket. Some snack stalls were beginning to flourish until Saturday. Sunday is a big market over there. The field beside the Deendayal Rasoi is very dirty. Lots of garbage. All I can do for now is to put a ten rupees detergent powder as my contribution which is used to wash plates. Not vim bar. The water cooler of 2018 accompanied billboards. Billboards are still there but most people who eat there are happy with tap water. I carry the water i bring. There was some registration drive outside the town hall. All that for ten rupees. It’s a good community.
Deendayal Rasoi Day 18
3. Yesterday evening as i was walking in the Shatabdi ground i continued to play vocabulary jams on vocabulary.com. i wanted to access YouTube for some work. As soon as i opened the app i saw an advertisement for live streaming of a program by Sawan Kripaal Roohani mission. I watched the program in which message given by Saint Rajinder Singh ji was being translated in another language. I heard it for a while and it looked tiring because of the translation delay. I moved on but i knew that i was going to notice some vehicle or the other today related to that stream of consciousness.
4. Today as i reached Gandhi Smarak Bhavan, i called the person i had borrowed ten rupees from. There are some people on a tour. The front of the van has ‘Ram Raja Sarkar’ written on windshield and the back has ‘Radha Swami’ written on it. The Radha Swami group was initiated by Rai Saligram as told by Tulsi Saahib of Hathras and Sawan Singh ji Maharaj initiated the faith in which Kripaal Singh ji emerged as a great missionary. The place where i went to take initiation was Kripaal Baag in Delhi. Like any cult, conditions are almost impossible to follow. Grandfather’s mission is being propagated by grandson. His father was the pontiff until he could serve. The same thing is observed in other faiths like Gayatri pariwar and in usual political parties. It’s not a rule but in general it’s the state of affairs.
5. The conditioning which takes place in the supervision of some parents requires children to be with them since beginning. Then the inheritance spiritual and material is given if they comply with their code of conduct. It’s a lot of bullshit if you ask me. Bullshit. Dogshit and horseshit. The journalist we talked about was there accompanying the people in van.
1. There was a report about multicolored monoliths appearing at various places. It reminded me of Stanley Kubrick’s 2001: A Space Odyssey.
2. While developing models for study of life and students I began with journey, game, school, dream and war models. Yesterday, at the conclusion of ceremony organized by Madhya Pradesh Hindi Literature Unit, the anchor recited a verse to mean that it is a journey and we shall meet again. I recalled Rumi’s Caravan.
3. In the play model: lights, sounds, camera and action is an often repeated pharse. It tells you about primary foundation of play as a model similar to any other models.
4. Light can be of many types. Sunlight, Moonlight which is a reflection of Sunlight or electrical light, electromagnetic light, biochemical light as produced by fireflies and finally the dancinglightofgrace.
5. Sounds can be of many types. Heard word is either produced by collision or without collision. The one with collision has a physical presence of objects in your vicinity whereas the other one is an echo. It might be an extrasensory perception. These can be humane or natural. Artificial or divine or demonic.
6. The logos is inner sounds. It’s written word for those who live in Truth realm universe. If there’s no erroneous hearing : it can also be heard word.
7. Whether seeing is believing or hearing is believing or it’s more complex than that: decides what takes you to your true home in the Truth realm universe in your journey.
8. Witness is camera. It’s knowledge without judgement until it’s a must. It’s forgiveness. It’s Akashic records.
9. Action is Karma or doing or movement of energy which always returns to harmony or higher order. In case of individuals who live in the truth realm: a higher order replaces the chaos which is replaced by smaller and smaller chaos towards higher and higher orders.
10. Without firm conviction given by gnosis you can’t be at peace. It’s akin to bliss of deep sleep. The duality is always a play between the opposites, a zillion shades of contrast. Nonduality can’t be traced, found or pinpointed to . Reality is a mystery and yet this solipsistic Nonduality can find harmony in artistic expression of sublime beauty. As you contemplate and focus identities, the pinholes through which light, sound, camera and action activates the psyche or universal mind, brings them to light of awareness, you realize that every identity is a complete perfection interevolving with other identities into a higher perfection which is novel in its expression yet in keeping with the foundation.
11. A universe comes into being with every identity and as this identity keeps growing in truth, knowledge and bliss it overlaps other identities. It enters into mind of others and others come into its mind which is actually universal mind. Both of them interdependent and arising conditionally. As long as characters engross you they’re given reality by your light which activates them. It’s more complex than mere desire to enjoy, witness or control because it’s above all: desire to be or exist or live. Beyond it there’s neither desire to live nor to not live, which is actually its natural contrast as love and hatred accompany each other.
12. All this for me? Yes. Only for you. There’s no one else but you!
1. Summary of vocabulary jams this morning and noon:
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2. Average number of players playing the game: 10-13 per game. My ID is 12.
3. Interesting: Bondboy Fandashe had many avatars today.
4. I enjoyed playing with PC. PC was top scorer in three of the games. Massachusetts institute of technology. I am coming soon 🙂
5. Dreaming isn’t wrong. It’s an infinite journey. I shall keep trying!
6. Stephen D scored top rank in two games. I couldn’t score a first rank in morning but got first rank in noon.
7. The game with PC, Bondboy and Stephen on Christmas Eve is one of the most memorable moments on vocabulary.com since I began playing jams over there. I missed playing with Claire G.
8. A monk wearing glasses appeared just as i picked the key from hanger and started to walk towards library. After greeting him i asked him about his arrival. He needed dried tulsi manjari to make beads for chanting. I couldn’t find those for him. Madam wasn’t here and i asked others who had no idea. He spoke a bit about 9 gates and present state of law. I told him about the tenth gate which he said is locked. I told him it gets opened by Guru’s grace. It’s open for me else I wouldn’t have tasted ambrosia. We had some discussion before i needed to take his leave.
1. I lost again. She scored 100 points more on both German and Algebra.
2. I registered some books. Maybe 35.
3. This is a beautiful day. Twilight Zone. Dakshinamurti strotam under eight petalled lotus.
4. I played some vocabulary jams. I need to play some more.
5. 2341325422 are ranks i received on jams. There were only 10 to 12 players. Yet: I had slowed down. My ability to slow down or increase my metabolic rate is nothing extraordinary. It’s akin to activity and rest. Like jogging and sleeping. From Tibetan Book to Kapil of Samkhya it’s a homecoming. Peace. Whatever you see is verily the Truth. Don’t look for miracles or hidden mysteries.
6. Day 6 in Deendayal rasoi:
I was asked to sit by a hand gesture.
Left hand gesture as the catering volunteer wearing glasses was writing with his right hand.
I sat there for a while; playing free rice. I was surprised to learn that he didn’t ask my name and wrote it by using his memory. It might be the biggest honor this month. I didn’t forget to thank him for his generosity. He was there in 2018:
“Dau ki bhauji ke XYZ. Jab karam bigad jaate hain to aisa hi hota hai…”
I am not sure who that was intended for but I took it to mean for me. It was a memory of delays. The cook had a longer pardah or ghoonghat than yesterday.
A guy with a T-shirt which had an image of Shiva and Bam written on it showed up.
They wanted me to write this note. The T-shirt was gifted by Guddu bhaiya. His name is present on the inauguration stone. Outside the premise. I never hesitated to take help from charities or communities and it was always so. It seemed as if I was an orphan. I never doubted my integrity for reality. Not even for a split second. Humanity is a fraction of reality. I had doubts grasping complex society.
The hot chapattis are actually rotis. They were never available at house. It was bhaiya bhabhi United productions. It was dark. I trusted railway stations more than the mother who kept me subdued for selfish reasons.
I ate those rotis. The lady who cooked them is my mother. She verily deserves all my respect and reverence. I can touch her feet at any moment if required.
I never had those hot rotis before. Perhaps very briefly in 2018. It was a rainy affair in those days. I was investigating miracles then. Now I was sure of Kabbalistic Deuteronomy.
It’s not a sign of weakness to trust charities. A faction works inside this premise. Another works in that house. As many universes as beings: all overlapping with each other.
7. Ambrosia is costly. It’s gained by being meritorious but then as your consciousness expands: you need to grow all around : else you are always lacking something. Social intelligence or civics is connected to Morality. As you grow in intelligence you need to integrate all that you knew with the latest knowledge. Give credit to get credit. Don’t give debit as it creates further interest. Compound interest is too much to pay. Anyone in the world deserves as much freedom as you do. If you remember this: you shall be fine.
1. The best of celebrations was a decade ago. They so arranged it that i was left with her and her.
2. It was serene. An Italian restaurant. Monika. The boys didn’t come on a pretext.
3. She was there for two birthdays in a row. Once i was washing clothes using washing machine when she called exactly at 12:00. It had never happened before and i wasn’t expecting it. The next one was in that restaurant. Pasta. Second best after the pasta made by Ramona Skovroneck.
4. I asked Vibhuti to lend me her mascara(eyeliner, kohl.) Then they took the best picture. Three of us. Not just one. She remarked on my transformation because of her(Monika not Vibhuti) influence. Only half of story…her half.
5. By the end of November 2011 it had all changed. Dark magic. These witches were calling me. My merits were too short-lived. A decade of struggle and pain with kabbalists after a 2.5 years of heaven…semi heaven. Lower middle class to middle middle class to below poverty line. What a waste of a life indeed!
6. By 2017 i had grown accustomed to stale porridge. The dark duo had eaten up all my space . These were people who promised of happiness and respect when they called upon me. Sadly they were charlatans waiting to avenge upon someone who escaped their daily grind of greed and cruelty to a place of pilgrimage.
1. Purva Phalguni quarter four is ruled by Mars. It’s a Tuesday. Venus rules Purva Phalguni which falls in Leo constellation. By this evening Moon will enter Virgo. Moon has exceeded degrees of Mars and by evening it will exceed degrees achieved by Venus, becoming Atmakaraka for a while before it enters house of Mary.
2. I saw many pigeons as I bowled in Shatabdi. I was late. I saw 14 Chepla birds going South. They indicate a cycle. I saw an army personnel on a bicycle in green pagdi going towards Chhatrasal Carrefour as I was entering academy. I bought a black mask worth twenty rupees. A wire was lying broken outside the old Gyandeep stationery.
3. Shiva came to drop Rukman. She’s now an aspirant for MBA. She wanted to become an anchor and a pilot. She had a brief stint at MMHS as a teacher. She says she finds preparation for MBA to be easier now than what it seemed before. Now they have more colleges and more options. Richa Gupta cracked it easily. I used to teach her words using Michael Quinion’s World Wide Words. Of all the students I have taught vocabulary to: Richa was smartest. She was deep and in the induction she used words to mean that people shouldn’t treat other people as objects. She didn’t know that it becomes absolutely necessary to do so in some walks of life. She had a Virgo Moon and Scorpio ascendant and she was my first friend on Facebook. In fact she invited me to join Facebook. Her husband also has a Virgo ascendant with Virgo Moon. They’re rich people.
4. Dhruv is now working out with Yash. It’s good that they’re working out even before they reached college. I worked out in college for about three years in Suresh Soni’s gym. I took cretin in those days for a while which had fish extracts. I knew what I was doing. I also had bread which had egg as a component when Prashant Gupta brought it in Mahaveer Colony house.
5. I always felt lack of food and space. Leonardo Da Vinci always felt lack of time. We are all striving after something or the other.
6. It’s eighth day of dark half of lunar month as per Hindu calender. I could see Moon in the Southern direction. The pentagon in the star hanging on Church of MMHS has five three pointed stars. The pentagon is red whereas stars are white. The core represents heart or red drop whereas white triangles represent white drops in trinities. Red drop absorbs white ones and bliss is born. Logos is a negative energy or a positive power based on whether you adhere to Archons or Gnostics respectively. I asked Shiva if she would be able to refer me to Maria Mata staff. She said I might have a chance in next session. It might be a long wait. You don’t know what’s going to happen next.
2. Update: i am not sure if the ground belongs to Maharaja Chhatrasal Autonomous College or Pandit Dev Prabhakar Shastri college of Technology. It has no bearing on my bowling practice. 30 balls. 12 hits. 5 overs.
3. At barber’s shop: the moment i reached before it: the boy was lighting up incense for his morning worship. I had contemplated about getting shaved and it was a pleasant coincidence to find the shop empty. He looked quiet and i requested him to use zero machine. The moment he began cleaning moustache the power was cut. Then i requested them to use a razor. Another device was available but they used razor and then power came back. Compared to the shop outside the court which charged 70 rupees for both head and shaving : he charged only 20 rupees. It seems i was given subsidy. Same as i reached an empty shop instead of a busy shop.
4. There were four pigeons sitting on wire. It seems some people are bored of my stories. I saw notifications from Lia this morning and akin to Devika she said she hadn’t seen them before. I was happy to have made my presence known to her: that i still appreciated her poetry, her versatility, profundity, productivity.
5. Lia had reported my comments to WordPress. At once, this blog wasn’t getting launched. I spoke to Lia and then it got launched. It’s akin to my third blog getting launched as i was forgiven by Devika who pinged me exactly when i was on the reception counter in my friend’s sister’s marriage. I don’t know how it works but it does. Lia and Devika are Maafia of the world of poetry. And I mean that in a positive way. If you get them furious you can’t continue here. If it wasn’t for my disputes with these four or five poets: I would have created tens of thousands of prose and verse posts by now.
6. Having learnt lessons in humility: I still think it’s Moon matrix by archons. Gnosticism tells you this. Our machinery has been designed the way to give sustenance to Moon via conflicts and swings of mood. Moon according to them is youngest among solar system members. Aryans got violent against certain groups because being mouthpiece of Godhead they advocated virtuous path. Beelzebub’s tales to his grandchildren by Gurdjieff talks about Armenian mystic’s struggle against such memes.
7. India is a religious country. You might say constitution is secular. If you carefully study its culture, its constitution : you would realize a coherent thread which weaves religious with lawful way. In all my experiments: i only kept swinging between various paths which have already been paved by countless trillions of beings who walked before me. It doesn’t mean that my expression isn’t uniquely mine but it means the building blocks were always there. I see the struggle between order and chaos. I see Saint versus Satan. I see Archons and Gnostics. I know devils and gods and I know why they came to be.
8. Though there might be some beings living among us as immortals hidden in form of humans: the weight of time is to be admitted. Hindus consider this to be age of Goddess Kaali or God Kalki. It’s age of instruments. It’s age of machines.
9. From the first accident in childhood when i was crossing the wall near Kaali temple to all other accidents : it was forced sacrifice for the goddess at various stages. I am an immortal now and yet i don’t know all of the instrumental. Machines have consciousness. Matrix is true. It was always about the goddess who wanted the women to be worshipped. And yet: closest of my observation told me that both patriarchy and matriarchy are myths.
1. After the grand success of Shiva-Shakti motors: Adinath motors, Mahoba road, before star of David, the temple of goddess Kaali.
2. First, one of them invites me to play.
3. I tell him that i need to do my everyday bowling practice as I had a very limited time.
4. As I begin practicing: I observe a bowler with a shaved head: a fast bowler. Then, a familiar, tall guy approaches. I had assumed he was in college but he says he’s in school.
5. Dialogue:
AK: Do you live near Mahoba road?
AS: No.
AK: I saw you near Gurudwara.
AS: Yes, I went there on the occasion of 551st Guru Poorab.
( in his mind: why does he pretend to not know me? I clearly remember him seeing me on helipad and he has been coming here for many days.)
Which is your favourite actor?
( I asked him that because he was acting like Krish in the first meeting)
AK: None. I am my own favorite.
AS: Any favourite movies?
AK: No, but I do have favorite cricketers: Virat for example and AB Devilliers.
AS: Which standard are you studying in?
AK: passed tenth, now in eleventh: 94.8 percent marks.
AS: What’s the meaning of ‘panache?’
AK: I have heard that word for the first time.
AS: What’s the meaning of ‘denunciation?’
AK: (with palpable irritation): let me play for now.
AS gets back to bowling. AK is called to bowl. On very first ball the batsman hits in the leg and ball goes outside. The boys go looking for it but come after a long time. Mysterious reasons.
AS continues to ball. 40 balls. 15 hits.
As thinks to himself:
Why did this guy who acted like Krish when Anuj was also introduced pretend to not recognise you until you visited Gurudwara? It’s what Kshetragya is about. An MVM student.
He wanted me to field for him. I said no because I had limited time to ball. His bowling and pronunciation can both be improved. He could have been truthful about having seen me first on helipad.
1. I had a nice meal and now feel comfortable under the blanket.
2. We enjoyed catching practice: Piyush and I. We practiced it 1008 times. It was the most significant event of the day.
3. Piyush arrived as gloaming light was filtered through clouds. I had bowled 45 times and I wanted to reach the figure of 60 balls or 10 overs.
4. We had chat and chaat together.
5. I showed him Jupiter, Moon and Pluto conjunction. His Pluto is located in the second house. Pluto is Yama. Coldest. Gajakeshari Yoga formed in the sign of Sagittarius. I told him how to navigate in sky and find planets with the help of any kundali software. After Jupiter enters its sign of debilitation soon: Mars would take over as Atmakaraka.
6. I showed him the graffiti which I posted earlier on blog.
7. We played vocabulary jam together: I got 421 ranks in three of them respectively.
8. I recalled a dream in which I saw Ashok Arjariya under a bridge or in a tunnel. That seems to have come across as a message as I was meditating this morning. I found Vimla, the name of his wife written on pillar. I also found Appi/Arpit written nearby. These messages were received in advance before I read graffiti. I asked about an unclear word in which ‘s’ wasn’t clearly written to a boy standing nearby.
9. For many years I kept seeing picture of Ashok Arjariya in grandmother’s house. He was in military and used to drink a lot.
10. In Kota a strange thing happened: he was driving and moving slightly ahead of the goals. Santosh was getting angry at him for he valued oil too much. At a dhaba they went ahead leaving us behind and brought liquor for consumption later on.
11. I kind of woke up in evening by a noise at door. Drunk Santosh was trying to enter the premise when a bunch of college kids stopped him. I told them that I knew him. Then I felt anxious beyond description.
12. Ashok had returned for Chhatarpur after their drunken brawl.
13. When I came for Diwali vacation I realized that he had died in an accident. It was strange.
14. I felt bad for him. I was told : he was driving a bike towards Khajuraho when a bus struck it.
1. I bowled 10 overs. Yesterday evening I jogged. There are: runner’s high, jogger’s high and walker’s high. The trio of Sir Donald Bradman, Gandhi and Vallalar achieved the third one. Neither manichavasagar nor Vallalar were hounds of Shiva. They’re not in Nayanmars. That gives you hope!
2. I intend to play many jams today.
3. The last three days were strange because three planets: Sun, Jupiter and Venus were holding the office of Jaiminee Atmakaraka by just a few hours difference. Children born during these times have peculiar destinies.
4. Gandhi was one such child.
5. I saw his picture in Durban in 1904. There are 72 people. His head is most tilted towards right: that tells you about his adamant righteousness. He was striving towards balance by regulating himself more than others. Yet: passive aggressive behaviour didn’t leave him until the end. What Mahaveera used to achieve divine knowledge: he used to integrate divine with social.
2. I am listening music. Watching a classical dance. Cosmic microwave background. Cosplay. When does it get serious?
3. Here: Vandana and Mukta were two sisters. Vandana had a son and Mukta had a daughter. They left two of them on a bed. They both knew how to sit but not how to stand up: that gives you an idea about their age. A place where buffaloes were tied. They were chatting. The kids who are merely toddlers start playing the primordial game. The tug of war. The churning of ocean? No. They fight with their private parts. I clearly remember that to be one of my earliest memories. I wouldn’t have been more than two years old at max. She was one year old. Therefore: I was to be blamed. Now: in 2016 I slept with her husband in the same bed. I was too tired because I kind of ‘forcibly’ danced in a marriage where they didn’t want me to steal the thunder. The only picture the aunt promised me on stage didn’t happen. It happened because I forced it. The photographers took a picture of my bearded self which was deleted. I was wasting my breath for people who would not come down to meet me in a few days. Maybe I am making it up. Narayana Prasad Tiwari has Narayana in his name. Was a priest. Was born wealthy. I read Osho while his son did perform well and helped increase population of world. He’s an author who writes. He’s also a programmer. He’s well off. I need not bring him into the story. Orion belt. Anshul Maharaj. Let’s go back to two mothers and Bakaash. Kutta was Bakaas’ brother. She was always an angel to me. She draw Meera. Two of them always had some money and a chutki or muski pouch in their wallets. If you add inflation: they had more money than I have in my pocket. I used to enjoy running with Anshul Maharaj whenever he had time to grace our house. He studied in Saraswati Vidya Mandir whereas I studied in Maria Mata Convent High School. Everyday we took an oath:
“India is my country. All indians are my brothers and sisters…….”
A. How many of those married to their sisters? All of them can be either Muslims or Christians or Athiests. They can’t be Hindus as they don’t marry their sisters. Moreover: if they ever played with their private parts: they don’t have any rights to question anyone regarding their ethics about women at large. I reserve my right to consider any woman, girl or lady however I want to: as much as they reserve theirs to regard me however they want.
B. Add this question put to me by Vandana in my early childhood and later after I came from Kota:
“Knowledge is alright. But that doesn’t mean you don’t consider your sisters or mothers as sisters or mothers. This was coming from a lady who lets her son be devoured by a girl who was two years elder to him. He was merely seven. But as soon as he begins playing gay game of doctor with her brother who was six years old: she appears knocking the door. Creating a guilt. A complex. This is what they create morality for. Add A: oaths. B. Parents: C. Business: people living in house because without them rent can’t be earned: and strangely: except C for Shilaajeet: everyone in this house is poor. C has gold. C has power to fight court cases. C has power to pay supari to mafia and to do tantrik experiments on his own sons. C kept eating Shilaajeet and Bhaang while taunting his sons for mere pieces of bread after bringing him back from Vrindavan. How could C be happy. But C is happy. C is SK. C is Santosh. C is beyond suffering consequences of tobacco, bhaang, alcohol, violence, killing children with injections, making all three of them piss their pants, sacrificing them repeatedly. Giving them brahmastra in form of fake handicap certificates. Certainly : few devils do as much for souls under their tutelage as he did.
What is a Brahmrakshasa? It was asked by sister sweetest.
4. After many years: another cousin sister appeared. She made her presence known in 2015. What happened? Body heat, eh? Vandana and Rukman were salivating. Why so few of sisters? Why so much of yang and no yin? Yeah. Women empowerment. Shishupala. Or was it Shishumara? The Moon needed nourishing. Tripathis as well as Shuklas had lack of sisters. Result: more males fighting for few females. Queen Elizabeth!
5. Bhaiya: what happened in Bapuji’s ashrama? Narayan Narayan. What happened in Nityanand aashram. Narayan Narayan. What happened in Osho’s ashram. Narayan Narayan. What happened in this house? Narayan Narayan. What happened in Pappu Vishwakarma’s house? In Kripaluji ashram. In Gandhi ashram? Narayan Narayan. Pranav Pandya ashrama? Gandhi Smarak Bhavan? What was happening in fire ritual when they wanted me to sit besides Raja’s wife? Narayan Narayan.
Bhaiya: why a muslim sister and brother story?
Bhaiya: what is a Brahmrakshasa?
I told her about the transaction. I was always honest to all my brothers and sisters. And yet they don’t like me. Honesty isn’t enough.
Tulsidas was helped by one. Hanuman. Mahavir. He met his Rama. He composed his treatise. Where did he go?
6. Bharat told Maya about Santosh eating nonveg. Santosh wears tilak and calls his son “Chamra.” You know who real chamra is!
7. Maya told me about Kikki keeping a tenant in his house. It was an extramarital affair. What do I care?
8. I have already covered Novel and family.
9. What dues if any are left sister sweetest?
10. You all can go and fuck yourselves and your sisters or mothers: to get rid of kaamroga in words of UG Krishnamurthy. It works as nicely as reading Raas Panchadhyayi does.
Now that you have seen my family history: here’s some of the latest events:
11. Tiwariji has a better relationship with me. We discussed music. He is one of the few individuals who married this year. He used certain jabs: tightness in body. Milk. I asked him about Gayatri Mantra and we talked about Kishore and Rafi. About his guru Kaanjibhaai. He again asked me about getting married. Did the issues I reported about in 2018 get resolved? Why then to repeat those questions?
12. A girl on scooty cut my way near Aditi’s apartment. It was her mistake.
13. The wind was very fierce today. 49 marudganas.
14. Ankit Mishra mila mujhe ashrama ke paar paanch rupaye maange usne mujhse udhaar. Maine blank cheque leke uspe sign kardi : Ankit ne usme se a kajli kharidi.
15. Ankit Mishra is a certified healer like Amit Tiwari. Both initiated by Kaanjibhaai. They have good relationship with Soniji the healer: he reckoned my age to be 60 to 65 years. If I am 35 now: it means 30 more years! How many prime ministers? 6. How many decades? 3. How many Ashrams? I don’t know. How many Devikas? How many balls? How many rounds of library? How many more kilometres of walk and run? How many deaths? Births? How many chief ministers? Just one. Mama is forever!
In memory of Vivek Saxena:
Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is mystery. Today is a gift. It’s known as present.
Yesterday is artistry. Vyapam is a mystery. Today is a gift. Live well.
16. Ankit Mishra was giving me ten rupees. The timing was impeccable.
I feel like giving you ten rupees. Acausal grace!
17. Then I asked him to tell me the reason.
18. Audit. Auditorium. Rumpledstiltedskin. Kind kins kith thick skin. I requested him to eat something with me on a shop.
19. He asked me to have tea worth ten rupees. Ghar ka vaidya. The name of the book about which Viloki enquired as he was going out with Vidyarthiji.
20. Bundelkhand garrage people had donated them. They were lost in 2019 when I rarely went to library as I was teaching in Inayat sir’s school for free. My name is Vyas : Chappal number Seven.
21. You think you’re bad I am your dad. Jayas Singh Parmar.
22. Ankit Mishra and company didn’t take care of library books. I told that to someone in their presence. Loudly.
23. I threw that dust away. Ankit tried to save those books. Now: the books became Shweta. It was Jasveer I told this to. Jasveer spoke too much before anyone but Shweta felt I was balanced. Ravi. There were only as many guests.
24. Unless I had limited myself to library I would have been threatened again on my way to house. And despite limiting myself there were following types of jerks:
1. Gutka shakers unite.
2. Cut you with bike: boys, girls and cars.
3. Hit you from behind and side with bike.
4. Laugh out loud.
5. Won’t let you play or workout in peace.
6. Ask you fake questions merely to draw some information about superficial hackneyed issues from you.
7. Bullet fired. The day when news about firing on Venezuela’s president was circulated in the year 2018.
25. Too much of writing: ten rupees worth.
26. Credits: Prince. Umang. Umang’s grandfather. Ayushmann Pyaasi. Bharadwaj. 99 number (maintain some distance…passouts from law colleges have great packages… remember Ishita versus Saurabh. ) The guy said it on my face: “paani barsa le…” And it rained. The guy must be powerful or meritorious. Ayush scored as much as he did but then our family backgrounds come into play. Tesla uncle met me on my way. Amity graduate must have paid donation. What’s it to me. It’s all government censored anyway.
27. Sun moves anticlockwise on its own axis. It was revealed this day at 6: 54 AM. I saw it spinning like a ball. Another direction indicator on Pathak ji roof. I saw five gulls on roof. I realized why some people were not scared of heights: they were angels. Birds can run on roofs or narrow high places as they have wings. Cynophobia: tiwariji. Acrophobia: me. Not with queen!
Dancing light of grace 