I woke up with wonderful dark clouds all around. Birds are chirping around me. Some of them are heading to their offices. All plants and trees look green and fresh. Air is cool with water sprinkler as I walk on roof clicking pictures. I kept thinking about you. I feel your absence from the back of my heart. I was wondering if there was any compulsion which made you respond to every single call. I guess I’ll have to reach out and touch you. You move my heart. Too profound to describe it. It’s like this most comfortable presence: all doubts and seeking is lost in it. I find myself at home. Beyond worries. Beyond holding.
1. Malkin was archaic for an old woman or mop. I came across it as I was looking up grimalkin: cat or greymalkin.
Greymalkin Malkin
Grimalkin kin
Mall besides desi design
Signature alkaline
Wild card
Wild cat
Auto cad
Maleficent grim reaper
Cent percent cenotaphs.
2. I had tears for a kid. A kid dreaming to make it big in the world of Cricket. Skid id . The childhood was eaten up by alcoholic beverages and domestic violence. He absconded multiple times to fulfill his dream of becoming a cricketer.
1. Nightingale and peacock. Honey bees and cicadas. Mosquito and Spider nets. In my class yesterday I had a brief discussion about the hornet’s nest. I had read an article in the newspaper about the deadly power hornets wield in USA and elsewhere to destroy honey bees systematically. Some days ago I was Surfing the web on my smartphone comfortably tucked inside the mosquito net on my roof. It might have been about 15 minutes or so when I decided to relax by laying down on a pillow. As I tried that I felt strange numbing irritating sensation on the left side of the top of my Skull. I wondered how could that be so painful as it was only some friction against the wall of the mosquito net. Once I realised it was the hornet inside the net the fear to move out of the net took over my being. As I was only wearing my underwear it could have given me multiple stings. But I have read that they put their entire power in one sting and sometimes death happens. To my surprise there was another and I hardly gathered the courage to move out of the nest.
2. No matter how resourceful o r creative you think you are you need to learn basic skills in order to be independent. Life saving skills come in handy all times. Shoaib had taught me to fold the net when he sold it to me but I had forgotten the method because it seemed complicated. I asked for help from my students and we looked at couple of videos on the same. Prior to that another pair of hornets had made their home inside the net which I used to leave open on roof under The Tin shade for the want of more space inside my room.
3. If I compare between the two approaches of blogging. Actually it should be called two approaches to writing: first is conventional typing using the keypad. I was many years behind other bloggers because I was using a laptop to type. Therefore it seemed burdensome when I started with a smartphone. On top of that the kitten made this phone fall and the keypad was destroyed beyond being recovered. Then by trial and error and a happy coincidence in my learning curve I came to recognise the potential to use OK Google Transcription service as a tool to record my ideas. Originally stream of ideas was supposed to be recorded live. it amounted in the maximum neural connections which are supposed to improve your intelligence because feedback is immediate. But the process has limitations. Since it is only the beginning of writing by speaking for me I am getting better at it day by day. Therefore you observe some of the articles with a better grammar and punctuation marks. The long articles are those which were transcribed using this service.
4. I have to edit and re-edit what I write most of the times with the transcription service. Whereas I am comfortable with whatever I publish by typing because that is the level of my communication skills and mastery over English grammar. I often wonder about the people who have mastered multiple languages because I have been stuck with basics of Hindi, English and Sanskrit. I do not regard superficial learning of languages highly. Having lived in the southern India for some years I can understand basics in some languages and due to their fraternity with Hindi and Bollywood I can understand Urdu and Punjabi quite well. But since I cannot use the script of those languages it is impossible for me to say that I have learnt those languages. I want to expand my vocabulary of English to a satisfactory level. In order to teach English I have to look up some words and I am constantly arriving bat new meanings and their associations with the ideas I already had about them. Unless I was concerned about editing the words I write I would have been much faster in recording them and that would have resulted in better articles. I think I would arrive at that point in sometime. It took me about 27 minutes to transcribe this post. Thanks for reading.
Thanks for reading. It ends there. Tagline. Catching fire. Catchword. Stock phrases.
1. Mosquitoes are eager to draw their life force out from this body and some batlings were acting like horsefly when I came upstairs.
2. I had my early dinner and a cup of tea for a change (instead of coffee which is instant pleasure these days.)
3. I learnt about the word bildungsroman and phrase coming of age. I had heard that phrase and I thought I knew the meaning. Bambi is the book being read by a student. I enquired what she was reading and also enquired about the author and genre. In my search for answers which she couldn’t provide: I gleaned that novel has been adapted into a popular Hollywood flick. It was written in 1923 and it was gifted to my student by someone. I might have a go at it if she lets me. I was working on the catalogue in the library. The preface of “Unique Pilgrimage” by Dada Dharmadhikari. It seemed like an engrossing entry for he differentiated between commonly accepted meaning of the word “aniket” from immanent, impersonal brahm which is without any abode because of its all pervasive nature. Actually it’s nature of the nature. The commonly accepted nature is that of a hobo. Bozo. Bezoar. Oar. Arra. Rastafaria. Aria. Rial. Lariat. Lanugo. Goanna. Nanny. Nyayalaya. Laya
4. I was asked this question–
” Amaron battery for the Massey Ferguson costs 5600₹ if you return the old worn out one. With a warranty period of 44 months. The same deal with Exide battery costs 5500₹. With a warranty period of 36 months. Which would be the deal worth doing ?”
The first one. Obviously. We had to grasp the formula for the warranty period after 24 months. It turned out to be about 40 percent being provided by the company. Meanwhile I looked up “Cranking Power.”
Silver Inside
Sidetracked sidereal zodiac.
I am country.
Try a rendezvous.
5. Pooja G belonged to the old circle of trolls. Melbuddhi is a new regular. Another technical blogger who seemed like a hacker is back with a new name. 5 years is a long time on wordpress. 10 years is long time online. I don’t have what it takes to earn money online. If apocalypse doesn’t happen by December: I might start thinking seriously about it. WordPress is an automatically self promoting firm. If you live in Canada or USA or work for them; you get to force feed all others and chances are you would be “freshly pressed and roasted like beans. He brew it so well that’s still fresh.”👍👍👍👍👍👍
1. Time is the only stamp. The pictures don’t tell if I was feeling comfortable or uncomfortable.
2. China, Corona and drizzling is the news. The latest. I had a short trip with some friends to a village. It wasn’t what I expected it to be. I kept puking. Akon is developing a new crypto currency and a new city. Here is a song which was a pleasure once from the vocal belting maestro: don’t matter.
3. We saw monkeys on our way and back but no tigers in the buffer zone. It was a small journey and it was after a long time. I wanted it to end as soon as possible. Towards the end I wondered if I wanted to squelch it off from my memory. The stone shall be reminder: going out of comfort zones and unplanned trips. What is a routine for someone might be an adventure for others and an addiction for another.
Cold Stone: 22.6.2020
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The Hut
What was the moot point?
Why did Modi use Gandhi selectively? Why was he being compared to him? Why did it matter?
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Mister Chamleone!
It all started here. The warehouse. Mr. Chamleone has his left hand holding the stem tightly. The right hand is free and he looks at me with a swaggering pride–almost panache. Panacea pansy pants panatela telamon monstrous monsoon sisyphean citadels.
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The Crooked Roads.
The crooked roads. Sidewinding sidewalks. Sideways and sudden breaks caused my multiple deaths.
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We concluded that there are no great humans. Just myth which is busted with a very little digging. But you need something to gossip about. You need someone to gossip about. Maybe you don’t. Maybe it’s just me.
1. Sun, Moon and its North node conjoined in the fourth quarter of Orion–Mrigshira to make this occultation possible. Six retrograde planets along with Naaga Karana, Ganda Yoga and international Yoga Day. Ganda means garland.
2. World Music Day. Father’s day. I don’t know how many times mother’s and father’s day is celebrated every year.
3. It’s quiet here. I had a conversation with a retired teacher in his seventies.
4. Birds are chirping around me. Vehicles passing nearby. Sun is playing hide and seek in the clouds.
5. I need to take a class after a while. The stadium was closed again. The local admins seem to be acting on whim. Extraordinary times. Prime Minister Modi didn’t even utter a single word criticizing the violence in the JNU campus earlier this year. How can he use ideals of Gandhi while talking about “cleanliness is godliness?”
6. The owner of the mobile company running this country from behind the screens openly tweeted against a celebrity. Was it genuine? I don’t know. But he could have told his employee silently about firing him. Why use rhetoric and create ado?
7. I am not popular. That’s the only reason I am able to write for now. I was beaten by the police on April 11 for seemingly nonsense reasons.
8. Stadium might be open or close. Nobody would talk about Euthanasia. Draconian rule was the “golden age promised in the twenty first century.”
1. DLOG is short for dialogue and the acronym for Dancing light of Grace.
2. Imagine as a verb was never used in my studies as it was found today in the IBM: ad version. In Spotify it gives poor people about thirty minutes of aid. Maid. Animadversion would do anima. Amina will treat amino acids.
3. Imagine means real or seen in a new light or way in that: just to clarify.
4. Rick Rosner said he couldn’t be enough obnoxious. No matter how hard he tried.
I have to get back to full swing panache panacea panatela telamon gnomon gnomic phillipic phillibeg hillbilly idyllic.
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It’s easier than it seems. I began doping this as an exercise when I was looking for lengthy words. I might have published some of the longest words ever but they are undeerevognized. My smartphone keypad doesn’t do C…it instead does V . So long…
1.I had a walk inside the stadium. It was after the yoga inside Gandhi Smarak Bhavan. It was open for walk after a long time. Some people were playing cricket inside. I think they were policewale.
2. I observed a bunch of bricks outside my house. They’re planning on construction upstairs. It clearly means noise. Then maybe tenants. Why not. They have money to pay for the bricks but if I ask-mummy would land in Egypt, Cairo. She would say – it’s borrowed. If I wait to recount the number of times they have gone back on their words in the last 8 years or even in the last 8 months- it will be an altercation. What can I do. If I really try to leave…They will use their contacts and police to ensure that much ado is created about nothing. Hence I choose to keep mum and vent here. If my siblings had not made false promises 6 months ago. If my father wasn’t an inveterate liar. If that cat hadn’t made this phone fall; resulting in cracking of an already cracked screen and spoiling of the keypad…. would I have been less wiser?
3. I had a walk to the lake. I observed clouds. Bats and chatted with you. I enjoyed listening to bats who were flying and banging upside down on Ashvath tree. I took some pictures.
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5. I got to port the SIM card to idea. I walked back listening to music and saving myself from traffic. I filled the bike tank with petrol worth fifty rupees. I need it every four days or maybe six. It’s costly for someone who earns as little as I do with no previous savings left in hand( my greedy parents and siblings.) I would have bought a bicycle if I could afford. That about sums my day today. Another Saturday. Tomorrow is another occultation. Syzgy. Equinox. Solstice.
1. In the end it all balances out. Or maybe not. Who am I to complain.
2. The leaders aren’t leaders because they can lead. I am not writing because I can. If boys can’t be fair in the play –how can they be fair in life? Especially when “everything is fair in the war. ..and survival of the fittest ;” has been fed into them ad nauseum.
3. They neither know how to bat nor know how to bowl and yet they want to lead because then those who deserve or those who have it by the way of rotation will learn the game and the myth of their greatness would crumble. Use false excuses and reasoning to control and keep perfecting this even if your game stays mediocre. Your celebs taught you this. And swag instead of sweating. The generation of Chuck is evolving into a cult of Chuck : a baby doll which murders all of the family members.
4. If you are confused, here’s what happened: I wanted to be the captain. I did the toss as the captain. The member in my team took reigns unrighteously after arguing with me about how well he knew the opposite side. He along with the other guy who was a pseudo captain just because he knew couple of guys on field: kept bowling by taking turns until match went out of our hands. The opponent’s team played well. Yes, why do you never rotate bowling spells? Even when you’re beaten like a donkey! And what is the one bounce catches for!
5. This is the system. I can’t change. I am thankful for the drops of drizzle on my shaved head. Thankful for the exercise I had with guys younger than me . Thankful for gutka spitting ragamuffins. I am thankful for a little of sky. A little of Sunset. Thankful for being alive! Not really. What else but infinite life exists forever.
1. In sidereal zodiac, transit of planets with respect to moon indicates current trends. Intriguing combination of 6 retro grid planets includes North and South nodes of moon which are considered to be always retrograde.
2. Not much is known about the behaviour of retrograde planets. It is actually the appearance of a planet which is passing through some unique point with respect to observers on Earth. I clearly remember that as I was beginning to delve into the vedic astrology in the year 2009 when I was about to join the firm in which I worked for the next 3 years; the planet Mars was retrograde in the eighth house of cancer. Usually it takes one month two to transit through any sign but due to the retrograde motion it took an exceptional 8 months full stop it was revelation and learning for me.
3. The website Vaidik scholar.com was in its Inception in those days. And I used to frequently visit it to check the transit charts. Now it charges and the process is also difficult. With the passage of time the same services get costlier. This seems to be the only direction our society heads.
4. Trees are dancing in the breeze right now. I practiced breathing to get rid of toxins. International yoga day will be celebrated with the summer solstice or is it Equinox ? I would have to check.
19.6.2020.8.30 am
5. Some experts say that the malefics start behaving like benefics and vice versa in case of retrograde planets.
6. Whatever happens might be an interesting study for all the astrology students. Do the planets show regressive thinking in the populace at large ? it remains to be seen.
7. I went to play cricket with my friends to a large ground yesterday in the evening. It seemed to be a luxury. It was very ordinary some 25 years ago. in the last 10 to 15 years urbanisation has happened at a rapid speed in my town. Stadium is still closed and reserved only for the police force. I do not understand. Maybe I would after awhile.
1. Out of a conversation with a student yesterday, the weakness of rupee became an issue of discussion. I know nothing of economics . But I have been reading the currency exchange values for a lifetime.
2. I didn’t know when Indian Rupee got so weak against dollars, euros and pounds.
3. I live a below poverty line life. My father and siblings along with mother ensured it.
4. 5 trillion dollars economy and “Acche Din” are evident: the last I read pound was 80 rupees. I think it was a long time ago. Now it’s 95 rupees. I hope we soon reach 100. We love centuries. Sefer yetzirah.
5..As above so below. As with dollars so with Euros. With pounds sterling. Indians were celebrating when UK went out of EU. Indians were talking as if Britain was on its knees and they had got even against the East India Company.
6. My house, my neighborhood, my town and country is full of Gutka spitting idiots. And I live below poverty line. Some people are jealous of even this. Euthanasia doesn’t look like a remote possibility.
I had a brief conversation with a dancer and actor who has been a practitioner of the art forms for about a decade and a half. The birds are chirping and insects are buzzing and the cows are mowing and some crows are also adding to the chorus. Analysis kills the art but I cannot give up. Yesterday it was humidity today it is fresh air because there was drizzling in night.
If you find typos here and there you can only consider that I don’t have requisite equipments. My learning curve has brought me here and you can see frequent posts on this blog. I am Brighter Than you think. I can edit better and I can write with better grammar and punctuation. But constraints at present make it very difficult to publish something which is up to the standard of publishing offline via some reputable publishing house. I do not hesitate even for a second to declare that all of this is for myself. It clearly means that if you never read me again it won’t affect me at all. I will never miss your presence aur aur comments or likes. I am absolutely certain about this
Dragonflies and mango trees are dancing in the breeze which is soothing. News channels and papers are busy with agitprop and my home space is filled with vicious talks about Bureaucracy and courtroom drama. The Grand house of householders has agenda of the so called house owners who are slaves to their dreams fancies and wants and desires. Put your fake problems before the comfort Of Those who work to maintain peace and harmony. This is what ego takes delight in. Being a third grade helping teacher in the government my father always took delight in trying to cancel his transfers which have been frequent in the last few years.
He would have loved to be a politician or at least an IAS officer but the stars were not very kind to him.. these days he is busy and often repeatedly rehashing the same bull shit everyday. It is about his contacts with politicians in high places who would help him cancel his transfer. He has been successful in cancelling his transfers in the past and by getting this challenge he gets something to achieve on in his otherwise empty existence.
If not this then the courtroom drama with the in laws of my sibling. The dowry was the issue since the beginning and the in-laws did not leave even me. They wanted to Drag Me To The court knowing well in full that I avoided company at every occasion. And when I say that I have avoided it literally means avoiding. In the five-year history I did not even talk to them for 5 minutes. And yet they wanted me to be subject to the courtroom drama.
This is the field I am talking about. After bringing me here from Brindavana with the excuse mother’s health being critical did not let me go. I tried at least six Times.
Other than my younger sibling and grandmother who are completely in disciplined and reckless. To keep spitting tobacco members of the family left no opportunity to harass me in subtle as well as obvious ways.
Neighbours and relatives left no no opportunity to insult me and ensure that I am put under pressure to marry and work for my living while I am not allowed to leave for the places where I would be best suited to work. They took away my money as well as documents leaving me stranded.
If all of my friends relatives family members and people of my country to disappear due to some Catastrophe aur miracle I would not even buzz. They wanted me to change in ways conducive for proliferating rotten ideas. You can see how well they have been doing.
I have often thought about avoiding such draining articles. In the best of weather we should focus on writing down ideas which look suitable and pleasant. but the best of human stories are those which are imbued with deepest of emotions.
It is what it is. As if written in the Stone I cannot change it. I had many wants and desire but now I have none.
A truck passed by the bypass road. Struck by the Nagin horn I kept scribbling. Trees and plants are dancing in the breeze which is very high speed. Breathing Deep in UK weather Leeds leads. It is not less than a miracle that I found an hour here to note down my ideas. I am grateful to my existence because first I created a direction to my life and then imagined obstructions in achieving the goals earning money is difficult
Dancing light of grace 