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The Forest of Sonder!

You find yourself in a field where you neither know nor not know. You know what I am talking about? It's not easy to understand. Because we think we either know or we don't. We always think in black and white terms. It's not black and white. Knowing is to remove all discomfort. You feel you are at ease. Then you feel some discomfort without being able to put a finger onto a thing in particular. There's no way to express it. Then you feel you must be not aware, else, how could you be feeling uncomfortable? But then this in itself is a sign of cognition, of awareness.
It was raining. You had a coffee. A mirror appeared. It was a hazy mirror. You looked into it and it transported you into another dimension. It was the forest of life where trees, flowers and animals could all talk with eachother. It was raining even in this forest. You were peaceful.
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Onion roots!

Three of them were sowing onion roots in the field. Eastern side near cowshed. I needed cudgel. I asked them if it was the season. They confirmed.

How do we keep getting onions whole year then?

Those are Kaanpuri.

They answered.

Obviously, they come from stores.

One of the ladies tied a heavy bunch of woods-she wanted my help to put them on her head.

She has two daughters and no husband or brother to take care of her.

It was difficult to pass the exit.

She was carrying more than she should.

Or so i thought.

She would walk to her house with that load on head. Many miles.

After a long day of hardwork at fields.

Then she would need to cook food for her daughters.

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Cosmic central Sun…alignment to Shishumara begins!

1. Julian day: 2459176. 7. Venus. Seth.

2. 22.11.2020: symmetry. Beauty of numbers.

3. Uranus rules the day. Quirk. South node of Moon which is placed in Aquarius is placed in the sign of Scorpion. The root comes out to be 2053 or 28 or 10: Sefer Yetzirah. Binary. The first order triggers a time travel event in the year 2053 to reach me in this day. It means I am likely to meet a future version of mine today. It’s a bit far fetched fiction: yet, I am sure about already having done time travel experiments in 2018 and then again. Today: people try to thwart that effect of time travel by the emperor in 2053. Sadly: all technology is in hands of the first order only.

4. Look at the series of build-up on helicopter event. It also means dragonfly. This point is merely an acknowledgement. I took dimensions. Police guarded the stadium. No politician came. The PWD department did the job during elections. Today: I see home minister visiting Tamilnadu. Yesterday evening: the guy on momos shop was ultra glad talking about someone buying a helicopter. Now: it might be a helicopter I saw yesterday morning on roof. I can’t be sure. It’s second such route after Prime Minister’s visit. Who else connects the dots but the most high.

5. Simha. Sunday. Cosmic central Sun.

PS: for all practical purposes: this post is a masterpiece of fiction.

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Japanese Guava Are Long!

1. Not long after the last article: medical Bhagwan made plenty of money outside the Bajrangi Bhaijaan temple. A policeman was scolding a young man. I changed the lane. The man on the tea stall before that was paid twenty rupees by Bajrang Sena for pitching this dialogue:

Sit on the dabba(box) and then they fuck you over!

2. Open to interpretation it’s evident that beating anyone by proxy: like grandmother was beating her grandson does this: creates a fear, which is merely passing down the mantle of Dharmata. The clear pattern is: there will be a policeman or an employee from PNC who will first salute you for no reason whatsoever. Then the other guy will beat you by proxy for no reason.

3. Noise pollution doesn’t exist. Bullets and trophy wives are never questioned. I had merely moved out of the Padmanabha Puram when I saw a Car parked. I remembered that I had taken a picture there earlier. I didn’t see who was inside the car when another car came from behind shaking on purpose to stop me on my way. The lady inside was exceedingly pleased by her husband’s heroism.

4. It’s not that the point third didn’t happen. It did. But I had no reactions whatsoever. For their effort I needed to acknowledge their presence but what made it later look like rich dad versus poor dad: the way police treats poor people.

5. The old man had a plaster on left hand. Upon being questioned: he said that a bramhin had beaten him a week ago in Bameetha where he was working.

6. No Bramhin beats people. I don’t know the details. The way he narrated the event was the highlight. Bramhin versus this or that. Why? Because Manu, Krishna or someone else had laid down some laws which are not understood by the most. No Bramhin beats people especially old people.

7. Pavitra’s father addressed me with “Daau.” He knew beforehand that something was going to happen. Why would you use an address for me which is reserved for local maafia? I call you bhaiya or brother and you also call me that or sir. I was not even elder in age. How is Dau justified ? It was not just the first time. Earlier the ocragenarian puritan took part in a conversation where he said: early risers…animals…wander in search of food here and there. Why hurt some one with those words if they don’t hurt you? You have certainly wasted your life old man.

8. Khanabadosh does following jobs:

A. Acts as a pimp.

B. Acts as a snitch.

C. Uses black magic.

D. Works on iron.

9. Wanderers had many traditions. The librarian had done a research on them but the fact that’s certain is: they were not the types who stay at a place for long. They can do as they please with me because I pass by them and they are richer than me. They are escorted by the police whereas I have not only been deserted by the community of birth but also by every other community for the simple reason of being utterly honest and not producing babies who grow up to pollute air, earth, water and make it difficult to live for everyone else.

10. Natarajan is my only witness and companion. The damsel who is never in distress has graced me.

11. Japanese Guava Are Long. Medical looters. Shamans who loot and pollute. There were too many autowallah playing romantic songs.

12. Grandmother’s sister was operated upon. At once I had found love in their care. For a month in my childhood. The last I saw of the man he was staring at me with an angry look as I was taking my mom to withdraw money from the bank. It was planned. Like Daau looking at me with angry look and other things. I want to get out of this place.

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Spotters Wheel Heel Reel

1. Some mist from the air settles on my eyeglasses before I settle on the piece of chair under the neem tree. I cleanse it. I hear the birds and the vehicles of milkmen going towards the town talk something about the “halaal” and “haraam”: trefa and kosher of Jews. I see ultraviolet clouds on the eastern horizon with a pink hue as a kingfisher flies towards the wire bound to the poll. I see pieces of nets woven by spiders hanging in the air. Flying. Sparrows sing. Moon is visible in the Southern direction and I can see Moonflower too and a baby owl was opening its wings as I was passing through the railway station where I didn’t sit for tea as it was crowded. I have my children carry me to the town.

Five Marks for spotting the Moon

2. I have no children.

. 3. There are dogs smelling each other’s asses. Ashes to ashes dust to dust. You must assess the passerby. There was a girl whose face seemed to be frozen.

4. Since it rained last evening and some in night the weather is pleasant. I read back my ideas and find that I do like the sound of my own voice. I downloaded snake app after it was recommended by mister Sardana. Mister Sarda never catches cold and other girls try to mimick his reading style. I can watch videos again.

5. I can’t see the stick I had thrown in the bushes. The chubby guy said “jack” before he let me pass through his street. His lane was different and I could have passed in silence but he needed to weave a story which would be completed later in the day when Ironmen are hard at work with police. The kid in the big wheel did not speak.

6. The city is turning into the Gotham city of DC comics. I just threw a leech off of my feet. I got another job offer but it might be a trap. I clearly know the pain of demonstrating my skills before they hire me. I am not sure if this job will be a good one or a bad one.

7. I need monies for teas and croanies. I am no taxpayer because I live below poverty line. I need a job as I am hungry for some food.

8. And they say I consider myself above my station in life. Whatever works for you. I have had enough of my current job and would like to get a change. A guy released 9 mules opening a shutter where they were resting during the night.

9. I belong to the cabal of gutka spotters. They make their marks wherever they go. You should be ashamed of yourself.

10. I had ease of operation ration had finished Finnish dish met metempsychotic hotspot photoshoot tooth sabertooth Bluetooth headset go goanna. Remember to say thank you to your beautiful host.

11. The Sun is visible now. I salute it.

… 12. It was not very crowded today. The guy with swastika painted on the wall of his house owns a black dog and he wanted to make his presence known like the white loud girl wearing the sleeveless. Being youngsters they’re impressionable. As for myself: I didn’t want to leave any even in my school days. If I ever enquired them about something that had happened it was merely to test and learn about their cache and read only memory. To check if they were as mindful as I was when the memory was created. Now I’m saying this in my mind but it’s only a memory.

13. Venus entered the sign Cancer yesterday. It’s a Friday. People leave no opportunity to show that as a member of some cult or faction they have done something graceful and they remain oblivious to the dancing light which is the ground of reality . In a group of three people I was the only one to have escaped it.

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The Noon

1. A crow is cawing. A squirrel is running. There is a layer of clouds in the sky. A dragonfly flies.

2. I took some waterballs and a tea. A woman joined in saying that onion is cheap these days. The waterballs guy was busy playing ludo online albeit his companion kept making noise until the woman joined.

3. Seeing an autowallah(the term was used frequently by Shobha De) I recalled how in morning hours I saw an autodriver going on backgear for more than 100 metres. It did seem strange because there was no apparent reason for the same.

4. Seismology gyrating tingling longastronomy tectonic architectonickelodian tonic supersonic Icarus rustic lanugo langouste ousted instead ted stalks

5. I enjoyed talking about the volcanoes but my student who has recently changed his routine to early morning hours practice of playing Cricket has been sleepy since last two days. I told him the difference between the pravrutti and nivratti.

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Tohu Minus Shit Hit Wickets Fan An Anschluss!

1. Enter Pandit { background music plays. Acharya Rajnish : pandit, purohit aur raajneta ; manushya ki aatma ke shoshak ( pundit, priests and politicians exploit free human spirit.) But sire: thou art also one politician. Remains to be seen on another planet. Shut up Zorba zorbing orb Bing . Dah! Khokar khokho kholi holi oli gastric tricks.} Now we know what it means when a politician puts a ban on something.

2. Has red kumkum on forehead: you singing bhajans, you kurmi. You are a bagula bhagat. You don’t take baths regularly. Not for the faint of the heart sire! The bird is alert only to hunt. The couple, together with the children, never left the woods.

3. How many rupees were you two paid? You’ll find the answer to this in the story of the two skeletons.

4. I mean for what? That’s what I have been saying.

5. For God’s sake forgot goat goatee? Here you can see the third pair of footprints, still wet, although it was a clear day.

6. It is about the drugs carte. The drug peddlers are the nine men in white.

7. You mean cartel… Eh? Cartel is a cartel, and a drug cartel is a drug cartel, and the two are not the same

. 8. Not just ganja junkies. No. No. Big monies. Hang on… I have to ask my dad…

9. You are neither a snitch nor a womanizer. You art not even a journalist. How may we buy you by mixing drugs in the tea. If you do not make that a question, you are not a journalist

. 10. Enter grandpa: the psyche was read by multiple junkies. It had more words than their vocabulary permitted them to absorb so absorbed they anyway wayward warden dense mesne natarajan. He was in no mood to answer questions.

11. The guys who were shaking pouches on panna naka, then before they entered the building, then on the stall belong to cheap nuts. What do they do, do they blackmail in the name of religion because they had no sex education or do they kill in the name of purity? The man did not answer her question.

12. Enter the rubbish guy one: the robbery was planned. The robbers were looking for valuables.

13. let’s play Kevin spacey everyone. I have also seen the usual suspects.

14. I think I should have answered the question.

15. Enter junkie number one: it was a white shirt. It was thirty lakhs not just twenty lakhs. Whole brigade iss, ips and ssss were searching through the forest.

15. Biyarna khali hu, shey (You have to pay, right?

15. Enter tutor: that’s why I saw my ranger uncle with grangers. Six of them early morning surly curlicues. My mom didn’t forget the keys without purpose now did she? The ring was on the table, on the right, on the side of the bed.

16. Bank money or garbage shop. Matters not. Fake news. I last saw my uncle on the August fifteen. Today I was late because I was watching on news things that don’t matter. Elections approaching. Let’s win another. If hone minister can say “ass” everyone in every nook and corner can say it. Why not. Politicians are entertaining better than entertainment industry hence the bellies. Be lies belies ie sly lyrically call calculable tables. We must be lazy enough to be amused at it.

17. Negative growth rate means : economy is healthy. Vedas say: money has 15 evils associated. We must control wealth from dangerous eyes.

18. Corona negative means healthy immune system. Similarly negative growth rates means economy is immune from black magic spells done by China, Pakistan and anyone else who doesn’t consider us equal to mongol dynasty’s amazing zing. The mongols though ‘nice’ they were negative and ‘bad’.

19. Way too many monks on the streets for some reason. Why? And new madmen and women. And why not? Let all hell

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August Company Welcomes September!

1. Baby owls are still present on this tree. They changed the branch after seeing me approach. Three cyclists were doing tricks on road. Young kids. I saw a swift car parked about a hundred meters before the railway station with the debris nearby which indicated an accident. Just in front of the station gate, near the barricades, police has placed the drums, painted dark green, with “drive slow” sign. It sure did seem artistic. Our police is prompt like our parents but we expect more from them. That’s also a guiding force for them: our expectations.

2. The morning walk was quiet. The inland empire can’t be revealed in words. Like ever dazzling brilliant graceful dance of my beloved which fills me with ecstasy the obfuscating potency rules all beings and keeps them guessing about the next. It also creates subroutines for monotony.

3. Moon was out early yesterday, as one of my students remarked when it was seen peeping through the back of the tree. It’s approaching Bhadrapad Poornima. Recently, all my students scored low on tests. Is it a reflection of my lack of efficiency in teaching? I have limited tools and freedom and I don’t find them aware and willing to listen properly the basics which would enable them to learn easily.

4. A guy who comes from an under privileged caste background is making a documentary on the way a special pilgrimage has a political angle in this region. He seemed anxious about controversy. I agree that his safety might be at risk. Freedom of speech is an ideal far from having been materialized in so called progressive countries like America. India is certainly 300 years lagging behind. I don’t expect or long to see religious, political or socioeconomic justice materialized here anytime soon.

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Owls

1. Today there were two of them. One was sitting on earth and the other on a branch. Seeing me, they flew to a branch, looking curiously at me as I drew out the phone to capture their image. I think you can spot them easily in this picture though I had to zoom out fully in order to take it. The two were not a pair of young birds but an eagle and a hawk.

2. Goddess Laxmi who confers prosperity has owl as vehicle as per the myth. Mollock worship is well documented in western rituals. My net worth right now is 55 rupees and it was 5:55 AM when I took the shot. I see, there is a vehicle in the temple, but it is the temple god’s own vehicle, not an ordinary one like the temple carriage.

3. A crow, a sparrow and a flock of birds flying towards East. They all sing. My net worth could have been more if it was not for the sudden lucky draw in which the father of one of my students invested 2500 rupees. He said their power supply was cut because they couldn’t pay the bill. He was also waiting to get admission in his school for lack of funds. The other student is waiting to get enough money to buy a mobile phone without which his online classes can’t continue. The one who lost the bet is waiting to get back his money and he is a very honest boy.

4. The Sun is rising gradually. Taxi passes with a song. A bull is laying lazily whereas a red dragonfly was dead. A crane has begun to sing a song. Kingfishers are having their heydays as ample amount of food is available. Yesterday, I spotted at least six to seven of them. A family of seven red-breasted robins are chirping a song.

5. Here you’ve date trees, eucalyptus trees, shrubs and mango trees and many many electric polls. I started earlier today and the quiet dark walk until the second tea stall which was yet not opened was mostly me and my thoughts. I was glad that I did this because I was not hungry and I did not intend to buy anything.

6. The wrappers of the peppermint mixtures lay here. Reminding me of past few weeks. My life at present was somehow more mature.

7. I would continue to write until it is time for the news. Then I would stop. I would sit down on a bench nearby.

8. And enjoy morning tea with snacks. It would be the second tea. You might say I am addicted to tea but actually it’s the sugar which gives me energy to continue through the day. The habit is so ingrained in my body that whenever I am on a long journey I carry a flask of tea with me.

9. No, I don’t. I prefer tea stalls. It’s quiet here and I can sit and enjoy tea without a lot of bother.

10. You see many types of characters on tea stalls and they inspire you to write better stories. I would love to know about their stories and if they have any interesting settings.

11. One of them talks nonsense but it’s a funny kind of nonsense better than sensical talk of so called mature people. Most so called wise people talk about money or nationalism. Younger ones talk about women. You won’t find people talking about time travel on tea stalls and somehow if they do, they would most certainly be cigarette smokers who have watched couple of dozens of pirated hollywood flicks. So, what kind of stories do you write?

12. I have traveled in time. I have yet to meet another who says so. Leave alone meeting one who can travel at will. I have not met such a one anywhere else in the world.

13. Today is Monday, ruled by the Moon. Synchronicity has it: the north and south nodes of moon rule the day. The last day of the month. August ends. The south node of the Moon rules August.

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Don’t Take Sides!

1. It’s a strange notion. But I have expressed it more than once. What if, the biggest illusion woven by the mother matrix was patriarchy?

2. Gurdjieff told about hierarchies in his strange tales. But you need to grasp the icons.

3. Queen of the british kingdom or Moon which represents feminine care giving or hot Venus which is made up to be an exquisite beauty queen: bees do have queen and not king.

4. What if all women were born with clairvoyant powers and women empowerment was a fake movement like all fake news about the crime against women being on rise?

5. What if matrix used all women, all along with all leaders to merely draw out all the life force for the maintenance of the solar system?

6. If: any of it’s true : you might have been systematically poisoned. You are neither male nor female. Move out of the matrix. Don’t take sides.

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Tilt

1. The weather is pleasant this morning. A truck horns. A horny cow chases a bull, a crane sings, and I observe the patchwork which was done yesterday, after the traffic was stuck for a few hours here. It was the second time in a month and half. I had postponed the visit to the railway tracks until winter but yesterday I was compelled because of the overflowing rains. It was a most astoundingly beautiful mystique. One which can neither be captured by a camera nor be expressed in words. A goat is singing a song. I have heard thousands of songs from warbling birds, insects, frogs and peacocks since yesterday.

2. The man who offered me the lift yesterday was the man who met me on the second tea stall. He told he is a sand distributor. Not a coincidence and he wanted to know my whereabouts. I heard two milk men saying something related which meant they were in on it too.

3. Thanks to rains yesterday I could finish watching the movie. Strangers are indeed acting up strange lately which is not new to me. A couple passes by and some vehicles. The poll sign for national highway was more tilted towards right this morning. Something which you couldn’t have failed to notice.

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Eyes Wide Open

1. The parrots were feeding on the same ground where I had uprooted carrot grass as my first field exercise two years ago. It drizzled as I was walking and then as I was taking the class. I had a tea and water balls.

2. The black moth is flying. I sometimes think: when I am most experienced, I am poorest. The first one was by birth, second by choice and the third one was because of being prey to optimism. You can’t keep both–the lifestyle of your choice as well as the capacity to buy unless you are an accomplished alchemist.

3. Radha Ashtami. Anuradha constellation transit of Moon. Seven years ago when prasadam was given to me in the temple where I had reached after running away from house(‘house is not the home’ is the name of the chapter which was read today)–i was told that it was birthday of the divine potency which is the governer of bliss. It is considered that nobody enters the divine abode Vrindavan without her permission. I considered it a synchronization as I had no idea about it before I made my mind up for escaping duties, job and marriage. I had to exit from Vrindavan because of the same divine will which had taken me there.

4. The difference between words. I was thinking about the possibility of watching a movie but it seems I have no time. The drilling machine overhead did seem boring and musical at times but I have to manage with the night hounds which come unannounced. Is this what sanity feels like? Crickets are chirping and vehicles are passing by. I hear the flute orchestra. The author who wrote Jaina Darshana–Ratanlal Jain -didn’t impress me least bit. The forgetfulness is a flurry of ideas for sure and each identity takes some energy but the sense of it all being dependent on ‘existence’ never goes away. Between an adept who has gained mastery over death and one who is seeking: countless number of hours of work is put from the seeker’s viewpoint, who is in the temporal realm shaping a world of his own, one among infinite number of possibilities whereas the adept is beyond time, only immersed in itself timelessly and formlessly. Formulae might be useful but knowledge as a whole is synonymous with reality, with perfection and can’t be contained. I recall her eyes in the last class when I let her go and I knew it right from the first moment I saw her, but the eyes that constantly watch me never let me go.